it's dark, coax me

After Gu Xiu said this, he was waiting for Zhou Xing's reaction. He thought Zhou Xing would push him away, but no, Zhou Xing heard what he said, and just asked, "Then have you got a boyfriend?"

Gu Xiu did not expect such a reaction from Zhou Xinghui, and he said after a while: "No."

Zhou Xing chuckled, "Then you can try dating, maybe you'll be in a better mood then."

Although he doesn't have much experience in this area, but looking at Qian Jing's appearance, it should be true that love makes people feel happy.

Gu Xiu rested his head on Zhou Xing's abdomen and stopped talking.

Zhou Xing smiled and patted him on the back.

"It's okay, everything will pass, maybe you will find out that it's not a big deal later..."

"Have you ever been there? When you feel that you can't hold on."

Zhou Xing wanted to smoke again, but it was inconvenient to hold Gu Xiu now, he looked into the distance, "Yes, in this world, who can be without despair, just get over it."

Gu Xiu stopped talking again, Zhou Xing stood for a while, and when he lowered his head again, he found that Gu Xiu was leaning against him with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.

He called twice, and seeing that Gu Xiu didn't respond, he hugged Gu Xiu horizontally and put him into the carriage.

On the way back, Gu Xiu kept his eyes closed. When he got to the wooden house, Gu Xiu unbuckled his seat belt, and Zhou Xing realized that maybe he wasn't really asleep.

Gu Xiu got out of the car by himself without Zhou Xing's support.

When Zhou Xing went to settle Zhang Wanwan, Gu Xiu returned to his room.

Zhou Xing went to the kitchen to cook a cup of hangover soup, and knocked on Gu Xiu's door.

Gu Xiu didn't answer.

Zhou Xing tried it, but Gu Xiu didn't lock it, so he unlocked the door.

Gu Xiu sat by the window with his back turned to him, as if he hadn't noticed him coming in at all.

Zhou Xing frowned slightly, walked up to Gu Xiu, and found that Gu Xiu was crying.

Tears flowed down his eyes, but he was quiet and did not make a sound.

Zhou Xing squatted in front of him, "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay. I can't control my emotions. I just took the medicine. It will be fine after a while."

Zhou Xing handed him the paper drawer.

Gu Xiu took the paper and wiped it casually on his face.

"Drink some hangover soup."

Gu Xiu took the bowl, looked down at the clear soup in his hand, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry to trouble you again."

"No, you don't have to apologize to me all the time."

Zhou Xing's eyes fell on Gu Xiu's arm, he didn't notice it before, but now he found several red bumps on Gu Xiu's arms and legs.

His skin was already fair, and these red bumps were very conspicuous on his skin, making him feel miserable.

Zhou Xing put mosquito repellents in the wooden house, and Gu Xiu hasn't been bitten these days, these bags should have been bitten when he went out today.

Gu Xiu is quite attractive to mosquitoes, Zhou Xing didn't wipe anything on his body, and he didn't get stung that much in the past night, but Gu Xiu was bitten like this.

"Is it itchy?"

Gu Xiu's reaction was a little slow, and he scratched his bag after a while.

Originally, I felt fine when I was not prompted. In addition, his mood fluctuated and he didn’t pay attention to it, so he really didn’t feel itchy for a while. It's really itchy.

Zhou Xing went to get the toilet water and came back, stretched out his hand to Gu Xiu, motioning him to stretch out his arm.

Gu Xiu wanted to say, 'I can do it myself', but in the end he followed Zhou Xing's wishes and handed him his arm.

It's not unreasonable to say that Qiu Mosquito is ruthless, these bags on Gu Xiu's body look extra big.

Zhou Xing carefully sprayed the bags on his body with toilet water.

When the toilet water touched the skin, there was a cool touch, but Zhou Xing's hand was hot.

Gu Xiu watched Zhou Xing lower his head as he handled the bag on his body, and unconsciously thought of the hug between the two that smelled of cigarettes and alcohol just now.

He stared at Zhou Xing.

After Zhou Xing sprayed it for him, he took toilet water and sprayed some in Gu Xiu's room.

Gu Xiu looked away, finished drinking the hangover soup, and put the bowl on the table next to him.

Zhou Xing then put the toilet water back on the table, looked at Gu Xiu, thought of Gu Xiu's abnormality today, pondered for a moment and asked, "Can you promise me a few things?"

Gu Xiu looked at Zhou Xing.

"When I enter your room, I will knock on the door first, and I will not break in directly, but I am a little worried about your current appearance. I need to know about your situation, so can you promise me not to lock the door?"

Gu Xiu was silent for a moment, then said, "Okay."

"If you feel uncomfortable and want to talk to someone, you can come to me at any time, even at night. If there is anything you can't think of, just call me. Don't do things that hurt yourself."

"Ah."

Zhou Xing looked at Gu Xiu, "Are you going to sleep now? Or sleep later?"

"after a while."

The medication didn't work that fast, and he wasn't sleepy yet.

Zhou Xing responded, and asked again: "Shall I accompany you for a while? Or do you want to stay by yourself?"

Gu Xiu didn't speak.

Zhou Xing didn't leave either.

After a while, Gu Xiu said again: "I have caused you a lot of trouble here."

"No."

"I always get people in trouble, I should have gone back sooner."

Zhou Xing felt a little strange when he heard his words. He felt that he should say something, but for a moment he didn't know how to say it more appropriately.

Gu Xiu looked at Zhou Xing who didn't know how to explain it, and asked, "Is it tiring to get along with me?"

Zhou Xing was silent for a moment, as if he was thinking about how to answer his words, but after a while he suddenly smiled, and he relaxed.

"Did I tell you? I'm your reader."

Gu Xiu looked at Zhou Xing.

"Perhaps I should have told you this earlier. When you asked me if I was in despair, I did. I was depressed for a while, until I accidentally saw your book "Grey Mist."

"There is a passage in it, which I still remember: 'Each of us is in the fog, unable to tell the direction and the way forward."

"We can't pray to God to give us a light blade to split the fog for us and lead us to the future. What we can do is to keep groping forward."

"Until one day, after we have gone through countless detours and fallen down countless times, we walked out of this gray fog by ourselves and ushered in the glorious sun."

At that time, Zhou Xing had just returned from the army, and he was assigned a job after being in the army for more than 12 years. He was obviously not included in the list. After retiring from the army, he began to look for a job by himself.

Given his education background and various circumstances at the time, it was impossible to find a decent job with a high salary, but jobs such as security guards and courier deliveries were basically possible.

Ever since he decided not to go to college, he had already predicted that his future life would probably be like this, so he didn't feel much about it.

His aunt would not let him live at home, so he rented a house outside by himself.

Anyway, the money he earns every month is enough to support himself, man, why don't we all live?

However, what happened next was beyond his expectation.

He originally thought that after he became a soldier, he gave all the money to his family. The money should be enough for his uncle and aunt to support several younger siblings to go to school, and the conditions of the family should also improve. For several years, his uncle mixed with some dubious people and became addicted to gambling.

Gambling, when you don’t touch it, you are more or less rational in your brain. You know that there are people cheating in the casino, you know that winning or losing in this kind of thing depends on luck, and you know that you should not use money for it.

However, once on the gambling table, how many people can control themselves, not be greedy, and stop when they see the benefits?

Unable to control the greed in his heart, he fell into a trap.

What you have won will be lost, and with the unwillingness to get back what you have lost, as you put more and more money on the gambling table, your rationality will gradually lose control .

At that time, the gambler's mentality is stimulated to the extreme, and he can't care about anything.

Zhou Xing's uncle was lured into the trap step by step in this way, and lost the money he gave and the family savings one after another. What's more, in the end, he borrowed money to gamble and owed a huge sum of money. The loan was blocked at home with a stick.

The situation at that time was extremely chaotic, the police who came to deal with disputes, the gangsters who came to ask for debts and refused to get the money, the uncle who knelt down and regretted crying, the aunt who was at a loss, and several children who were scared and trembling... …

The distorted and chaotic picture became Zhou Xing's entire memory of the situation at that time.

According to the law, gambling debts are not legal debts, are not protected by law, and may not be repaid.

However, in real life, how can a large amount of debt be easily shirked.

Besides, the money borrowed by his uncle was signed when he borrowed the money. They have no evidence to prove that the lender knew or should have known that the borrower borrowed money for gambling activities. It is difficult to find that the loan contract is invalid. proof. 【Note 1】

Moreover, his uncle was not the opponent of those hooligans. The other party used all means when they could not return the money. He was once cornered.

In the end, he was forced to sign a real estate mortgage contract. In the end, he repaid the huge debt in installments over several years. The other party was afraid that he would run away or die suddenly. When re-signing the contract, he insisted on letting him The son also signed it.

Zhou Xing's aunt naturally couldn't agree, and in the name of him not being an adult, she begged Zhou Xing to sign on it instead of him, so that the matter could be stabilized first.

The detours and detours here are all clear, but when his uncle has come to this point, he can't really ignore it and completely put himself out of it. No matter how bastard his uncle does, it is his uncle who raised him up. people.

After the contract was completed, the situation finally managed to stabilize.

However, his uncle can't make much money throughout the year, and the family still has children to support, so how can they get the money to pay back?Their old and dilapidated house can't really pay off much debt. If they don't even have the house, how will they live in the future?

The money Zhou Xing earned at that time was only enough for food and clothing, and he didn't know how to plug this hole.

At that time, he stood at the crossroads of his life, dazed and in pain.

It was under such circumstances that he accidentally saw the book.

Was he really moved by that sentence after reading it?How can it be?

At that time, he only thought it was ridiculous. He only thought that those so-called authors lived a comfortable life with high royalties. How could they have really experienced the pain of the bottom people?

Those so-called 'pains' are so pretentious that people hate them.

He has always given the impression of being gentle and generous, but at that time, after he found the author on Weibo, he sent him a private message in a bad tone.

He didn't remember the specific content at that time, but it probably said that he was artificial, he hadn't experienced any pain, how could he know the pain of others, and why he tried to sell his superiority with cheap chicken soup, etc. It was not a good word.

He knew that the other party was likely to scold back, or he might simply ignore it.

At that time, he didn't even really expect any response. What he actually wanted was a way to vent his pain.

But surprisingly, the author replied to him soon.

His words were flat, without any emotion, and he only explained seriously: "I don't know what kind of pain you are going through, and maybe I am not qualified enough to say something based on my shallow experience. I just hope, If possible, my words can bring you some comfort in the dark. I hope that no matter what the situation is, you will never give up on yourself."

This is the first time that Zhou Xing has positively felt the true meaning of the so-called 'cultivation'.

Now, recalling these words, he has a different feeling.

But at that time, he had an inexplicable malice, feeling that the other party was hypocritical and artificial.

So he replied again.

The other party was surprised, and quickly replied to him.

During that time, Zhou Xing almost poured all the pressure and the painful emotions caused by the huge pressure on this strange writer, and the other party has been chatting with him like this for more than a month.

He finally realized that the other party was a person who truly embraced kindness, was good at listening, sympathized with the pain of others, and hoped to help others.

He felt guilty for his unreasonable malicious speculation about this stranger before, and he also felt grateful for his company during this period of time.

He sincerely apologized and thanked him, and then never logged into that account again. The two of them were not from the same world, and he shouldn't bother each other too much.

And more than a month was enough for him to suppress all the negative emotions and stand up again.

After all, he is not a person who will stand still and complain about himself for a long time.

After that, he kept thinking about ways to make money, and finally settled on organic vegetables, and pulled Zheng Yan and two people to work together. After that, several years passed, until now.

So later when Xie Jie mentioned Gu Xiu, he remembered the brief encounter between the two of them, and agreed to take care of Gu Xiu almost without hesitation.

He should do something to repay him.

Until now, thinking of what he did when he was young and immature, Zhou Xing couldn't help but secretly give a 'tsk' in his heart.

He really deserved to be scolded for his behavior back then, that is, Gu Xiu, for being so good-tempered to tolerate him, comfort him, and listen to him patiently.

It's just that Gu Xiu was so good at the beginning, why did he get sick, and how did he become like this now?