dedicated to memorial day

After kicking down the fire and everyone started to wash up, Xiaoxi suddenly leaned over: "Boss, you should sleep with Xiaodong tonight."

Zhou Yu spat out the toothpaste foam in his mouth and asked, "Why?"

Xiao Xi said, "Because Xiao Chen really wants to sleep with Dr. Cheng."

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Three faces are stunned.

The difference is that Zhou Yu and Cheng Jingshen looked at Xiao Chen with strange eyes, and Xiao Chen looked at Xiao Xi with even more strange eyes.

"Because Xiao Chen's gums often bleed, I want to discuss this issue with Dr. Cheng." Xiao Xi quickly patted Xiao Chen on the back, "Isn't it Xiao Chen?"

Although Xiao Chen didn't know the situation, he nodded obediently: "Yes."

"We can talk about this kind of thing tomorrow." Zhou Yu said.

"Xiaoxi puffed up her cheeks, and couldn't think of any reason, so she pretended: "Ah... Boss, you can leave it to Xiao Chen. "

Yes, of course, but don't you find the suggestion that your future boyfriend wants to sleep with another man a bit fishy?Zhou Yu thought about it, then nodded.

"If you sleep with me, you should always ask for my opinion." Cheng Jingshen said from the side.

"Doctor Cheng, you are so nice, you must be ok~" Xiaoxi raised eyebrows at Cheng Jingshen.Although Cheng Jingshen used Autse's tour ticket for the whole year next year as a bargaining chip to buy her off as an assist, and she also expressed deep sympathy for Cheng Jingshen's situation, but before these two things, Xiaoxi seemed to care more about "the boss is actually Straight men” is the premise.

Cheng Jingshen, who was issued a good person card for no reason, smiled coldly and said, "That may not be the case."

After talking, it didn't matter whether Xiaoxi heard it or not, she put the toiletries in her bag and walked straight into the tent.Zhou Yu looked at Cheng Jingshen's back silently, and felt some aura that was different from usual, very light, almost none. Zhou Yu guessed that the aura should be qualified as: "anger", not to such a serious extent, it is more appropriate Should it be "Awkward"?But the match between this word and Cheng Jingshen was too low, and it was immediately rejected by Zhou Yu as soon as it came to mind.

When Zhou Yu had packed his things and stood between the two tents with his bag in his arms, Cheng Jingshen had returned to his usual routine, slowly and meticulously packing his sleeping bag.His hands were smoothing the folds on both sides of the sleeping bag, and when he looked up at Zhou Yu, he tilted his head slightly and smiled, as if he was saying to Zhou Yu: Come on.

Zhou Yu lowered his eyes and bit his lip subconsciously.Then he threw the bag into Cheng Jingshen's tent.When Xiaoxi noticed something strange, Zhou Yu had already spread the sleeping bag next to Cheng Jingshen.

"Boss, what's the matter with you? Xiaodong is over there." Xiaoxi stood in front of Cheng Jingshen's tent with a wash cup in his hand.

Zhou Yu and Cheng Jingshen looked at her together, Zhou Yu said casually: "I made a mistake, just sleep like this."

Xiao Xi glared at Zhou Yu bitterly: "It doesn't matter, you can do whatever you want!"

Saying that, Xiaoxi turned her back and looked like she didn't want to care about it at all. She got into her tent and zipped it up with a swipe.

Zipper up the tent to keep the night out, leaving only a camping light by the bed, Cheng Jingshen put his hands under his head, and looked at Zhou Yu who was making the bed.

"Would you like to chat before going to bed?" The slightly upturned ending voice sounded very happy.

Zhou Yu turned his back to Cheng Jingshen and said, "We talked a lot just now."

"You don't seem to be talking."

"I said that my life is boring." Zhou Yu said.

To be bored is to have nothing to talk about.

"It's not so much that your life is boring, it's better to say that you seem to be deliberately pursuing a boring lifestyle."

"may be."

"Is this also the reason for leaving City A?"

The reason for leaving City A is very complicated. From everyone's point of view, he left his hometown because he couldn't bear the pain of his mother's death. From the point of view of a psychiatrist, he wanted to escape from himself and start a new life.

But in the final analysis, these reasons are because he doesn't want to live in the eyes of others.As long as he can remember, he has always been a person in the eyes of others. He has been evaluated as "talented" and "clever", and at the same time he has also gained expectations such as "will achieve something". Surrounded by love, he willingly played the role of "No.1".This kind of love also seems to make up for his real "lost self" due to acting.

He is just a mediocre.

"No." Zhou Yu said, "The reason for leaving City A is that I am not suitable to live there."

"Why do you say that?"

Zhou Yu turned over and lay down, facing the top of the tent and said: "Because the argument that people can only live once makes everyone hope that their life will be as exciting as possible, so everyone hates the boring life, and everyone hopes that their lives will be as good as possible. Life is worth living. And the survival of the fittest and competition derived from such a concept seem to make everyone live with gusto and energy, and even use stress and anxiety as boosters. But life itself is not a very boring thing Isn’t it a kind of putting the cart before the horse to strive for the splendor of life in this way? I just want to be a mediocre person.”

"I think you may have confused the boundaries between mediocrity and nihilism." Cheng Jingshen said.

Zhou Yu smoothed the wrinkles on the sleeping bag, lay down, and stopped talking.

Cheng Jingshen sighed softly, put down his hands, and said, "Go to sleep."

Turned off the camping lights.The two of them got into the sleeping bag and closed their eyes cautiously.

But can't sleep.Cheng Jingshen's storytelling voice stuck tightly to the eardrum, echoing from far to near.That indescribable, what can be called sad emotion became scorching in my heart.Zhou Yu opened his eyes and looked towards the top of the tent.From the corner of the corner of the eye, he caught a glimpse of the sleeping face in the depth of field and saw the unzipped tent zipper on that side, and the creek flowing under the moonlight could be seen through the gap.

If you want to zip up, you must pass through the body of the depth of field.Zhou Yu closed his eyes and opened them again, finally climbed up cautiously, the sleeping bag made a slight friction sound, Zhou Yu tried his best to hang his body in the air so as not to touch Cheng Jingshen.

At the moment when the zipper was closed, Zhou Yu was about to retract his body, but found that his body could not move. There was a resistance behind him that pressed him down, making his entire cheek stick to Cheng Jingshen's chest.

"Don't move." Cheng Jingshen's voice came from the top of his head, a little hoarse, as if he was trying to suppress something, even his body seemed a little stiff.

Zhou Yu was so caught off guard that he could only blink his eyes, lower his voice and ask, "What... what's wrong?"

His answer was a breathing sound heavier than the darkness.Zhou Yu struggled for a while without knowing the situation, but the hand on his back used more strength to hold him in place. Zhou Yu could only maintain the same posture, waiting for Cheng Jingshen's order.

Cheng Jingshen’s heartbeat was next to his ears, and it seemed to speed up when he listened carefully, while Cheng Jingshen’s breath was full of the smell of Cheng Jingshen, which was different from the one on the bus that day, it was more muddy, like an undercurrent hundreds of meters below, chaotic and Sluggish.The heat seeped into his body from behind along with the palm of his hand along the texture of his skin. Zhou Yu couldn't help but think of Cheng Jingshen's hand. Every time he poured tea, a small section of his wrist would be exposed, and the slightly raised blue veins on the back of his hand stretched along the phalanges. , until it does not enter the sleeve.

Zhou Yu swallowed unconsciously, his face became hot immediately.

I don't know how long it has passed like this, until Zhou Yu felt that he might have fallen asleep.A chuckle sounded above his head: "Asleep?"

This kind of laughter reached Zhou Yu's ears who were already guilty, and suddenly there was a taste of ridicule.

Zhou Yu suddenly opened his eyes, sat up abruptly, stared closely at Cheng Jingshen in the dark, and said with more anger in his tone to cover up the shame in his heart: "What happened just now?"

"There's a frog." Cheng Jingshen moved, slightly bent his body, and his voice was much softer than it sounded just now.

Zhou Yu wondered, "Why are there frogs in the tent?"

Cheng Jingshen also seemed to think that what Zhou Yu said was right, nodded in the dark, and said, "I don't know either."

"Just drive out the frogs." Why not move?

After Cheng Jingshen was silent for a few seconds, he said naturally, "Because I'm afraid."

"Ah?" Zhou Yu paused subconsciously, and asked after he realized, "Oh... what about the frog?"

Cheng Jingshen stretched out his finger to the zipper on Zhou Yu's side, and at some point there was a small opening there: "Jumped out from there."

Zhou Yu pursed his lips and stared at the small opening, a clear light came in from there.I was at a loss for words.Very good, everything is logical and a closed loop is formed, but I always feel that something is weird.

"good night."

Cheng Jingshen repeated this sentence again, and before Zhou Yu could say anything, he heard his gentle breathing, which sounded like he had fallen asleep peacefully, and Zhou Yu was the only one who was still in a daze, feeling inexplicable The land was played.

Sometimes I really feel that there is something wrong with Cheng Jingshen.The speech is very strange, the behavior is also very strange, very strange, it is simply puzzling!

Zhou Yu lay heavily back on his seat, and got into the sleeping bag with his head together, the movement was so loud that the whole tent was shaking.

Neuropathy!

With such annoyance, Zhou Yu quickly fell asleep, and it was Cheng Jingshen who really didn't fall asleep.

Cheng Jingshen opened his eyes, and Zhou Yu was lying beside him, curled up slightly, motionless.Probably looking for a heat source instinctively, the other party put his chin on his shoulder, as if testing his body temperature.

Cheng Jingshen smelled the scent belonging to Zhou Yu, and felt a surge of heat in his chest, just like it did just now.Those emotions that I never had in my youth, the dust and debris that I thought had turned into my body, are now tumbling violently.

His longing for Zhou Yu's body didn't come from this moment. It was solidified into a certain entity in the day-to-day longing of adolescence. He had already touched it countless times in his imagination, feeling the texture of his skin and the fragrance that emanated from it. odor.But when the entity came out of his imagination and lay beside him, he didn't dare to stretch out his hand.

Cheng Jingshen looked at Zhou Yu's exposed skin for a long time, sat up helplessly, put on his jacket and walked out of the tent.A few seconds later, there was the dry sound of the tip of the cigarette "cracking" from the stream, and the purple smoke outlined a curved shape in the night.