bedtime counseling

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The faint smell of disinfectant and ointment mixed together, the air seemed to be frozen, and time flowed extremely slowly every minute and every second.

Liang Ze wanted to hug Wu Ke, he just thought about it before, but today he actually hugged him.He buried his head on Wu Ke's shoulder. Although his movements were very brave and vigorous, his eyes were closed tightly, and his eyelashes trembled slightly with fear.

While holding his breath, he heard his heart beating so chaotically that it almost jumped out of his throat.

"Let me go." Wu Ke said this, but his body didn't move.

I never dared to think that there would be such a day, and Wu Ke didn't push himself away.Liang Ze's arms tightened, and his voice became nasal: "I'll play it right away, can you listen to me before I finish?"

Wu Ke frowned, trying to get out of the narrow space, but Liang Ze's body weight was like a mountain, and he made a forced move and sank even deeper into the sofa.

"you……"

Unable to push away, he simply let Liang Ze lay on top of him, "Speak quickly if you have something to say, and sit back after speaking."

"I just want to know, did you send me to the hospital that time?"

It was clearly a definite fact, but he still lacked confidence, and because he tried his best to suppress his excitement, he was panting lightly all the time.

Wu Ke frowned: "Who told you?"

"It's Chen Yang, but he didn't mean it! I forced him to tell it." After explaining for his friend, he put on a probing tone, "Why don't you let him tell me?"

"By the way, there is nothing to say."

"Are you afraid that I will misunderstand?"

Wu Ke remained silent coldly.

Liang Ze's heart was sore, but his tone was very firm: "I guessed so. In fact, you don't have to be so careful. I'm already very happy that you can visit me."

He wasn't so confused as to think it was out of liking.

"As for other things, I don't dare to expect extravagantly."

The originally tense atmosphere eased because of this sentence, Wu Ke paused, and said in a low voice: "Liang Ze, you don't have to take this matter to heart, I just—"

"I know!" Liang Ze hastily interrupted, "I know you have no other intentions, just helping your friends. But Ake, I still... still want to thank you very much, because before I thought..."

Having said that, the voice gradually faded away.Wu Ke's original indifferent words were also blocked back, and he couldn't help but tighten his jaw: "What do you think?"

"Thought you hated me."

The voice was soft, the trembling breath fell on the ear, and the tension was inexplicable.Wu Ke turned his gaze to the side, saw Liang Ze's delicate nose and red ears, and felt that the distance was too close.

"You get up first."

Liang Ze didn't move, but persistently asked: "Then do you hate me?"

Without another word, Wu Ke pushed him away and stood up. The tall shadow was spread flat on the carpet, and the ups and downs were like reliable mountains.

Liang Ze also stood up, looking at his back anxiously, "Ake—"

Wu Ke finally let go: "I don't hate it, and I don't like it either."

The tone is harsh.

Liang Ze's eyes darkened, and he was about to say that's not bad, but Wu Ke added: "What happens in the future is a matter for the future, and now I can only do this."

Liang Ze didn't fully understand this sentence, but he vaguely understood that he still had a little hope.Looking up at Wu Ke, Wu Ke had already turned and entered the bedroom.

In just one night, he was both uncomfortable and happy, and Liang Ze's forehead was hot from excitement.He stood there for a while, went to the bathroom to wash his hands, then walked over and knocked on the door of the master bedroom: "Ake, I'm going back first, I have to go to work tomorrow."

"and many more."

Through the door, the sound of buckling the belt was very slight, but because the surrounding was so quiet, it was hard not to hear it.Liang Ze lowered his head and guarded the door without saying a word.

Wu Ke came out 2 minutes later, his pajamas had been changed into a shirt and trousers, with a well-proportioned waist and a broad back.Liang Ze looked at him, pursing his lips slightly.

"Are you going out?"

Wu Ke glanced past his face, looked at the door: "I'll see you off."

"No need." Liang Ze hurriedly shook his chin, "It's not far, I can go back by bicycle."

Ignoring his rhetoric at all, Wu Ke picked up the car keys and went to change his shoes.Liang Ze collected himself and stepped up to follow.

Moon stars are rare.

In the middle of the night, the community was quiet, and even the night owls had already fallen asleep peacefully in the garden.Wu Ke walked in front, Liang Ze followed behind, a soft dampness mixed in the sultry air of the basement.

Because too many things happened tonight, his mood felt like he had been on several roller coasters, so Liang Ze kept his head down to sort out his thoughts.Unexpectedly, Wu Ke suddenly stamped his foot, and he ran straight into it——

"……sorry."

Wu Ke turned his head and looked at him expressionlessly: "You go ahead."

Liang Ze opened his mouth slightly.

Wu Ke frowned: "Didn't I teach you how to find a parking space last time?"

But that time he just listened to it casually, Liang Ze didn't take it seriously at all, besides, so many days have passed, how could he find the one that belongs to someone from all these identical parking spaces.

His eyes flickered nervously: "I remember that there is an elevator next to your parking space."

Wu Ke remained motionless: "Take me there."

There was no other way, Liang Ze had to bite the bullet and go into battle, every time he took a wrong intersection, he felt the eyes behind him became more severe.After going around for more than ten minutes, I finally saw the familiar car.He quickly took a photo with his mobile phone, including the parking space number and some surrounding signs.

After getting in the car, Liang Ze found that his back was wet with sweat, he was really hopeless.He turned around and fastened his seat belt, and asked a little puzzled, "Why do you have to find a parking space?"

Wu Ke started the car: "I said I would leave the car to you."

Liang Ze turned his head, his eyes opened wide: "It's really not necessary, I don't know how to open it."

"Study if you don't know how to start."

The rain-soaked leaves are spread on the ground, and the wheels roll on them silently, and there are only a few quiet street lights left on the road that flows continuously during the day.

Wu Ke's stubbornness made Liang Ze feel that the person in front of him really wanted to leave for a long time.Slowly, in the silent carriage, he thought of the black suitcase again, and felt palpitations for no reason.

He asked, "When are you leaving?"

"You said you were going on a business trip or going abroad."

He was stunned.

Wu Ke looked ahead calmly: "I'm going on a business trip at noon tomorrow. As for the time to go abroad, I haven't decided yet. Are you in a hurry?"

"How could it be?" Liang Ze's mind swayed slightly, he couldn't help clenching his knees tightly, and repeated softly, "How could it be."

Speechless for a while.

"Then when will you come back from your business trip?"

"next Saturday."

Liang Ze nodded.

"Is something wrong?"

"fine."

Another moment of silence.

Sometimes Liang Ze wondered, when the two of them were together, where did they talk so much?Although most of the time he spoke and Wu Ke listened, Wu Ke talked much more then than now.

Driven by a kind of sour sweetness, Liang Ze turned around: "Ake, why are you so quiet now?"

Wu Ke didn't look sideways: "If no one listens, tell someone."

With a rigid personality like his, it is not easy to make friends, and the few good friends are not by his side, and he usually spends most of his time alone.

The red light ahead, the car braked smoothly.While waiting, Wu Ke took out his mobile phone and booked himself a taxi to the airport during the day tomorrow.When he was about to change the lights, he heard an unsteady voice beside him: "If you have time, you can tell me."

Turning his head, Liang Ze stared down at his knees.

"Whether it's day or night, I'm willing to listen at any time. You can say whatever you want. Maybe we don't have any common topics now, but I can learn about your life, and I can watch and learn what you like. It takes a long time I can understand everything you say."

Liang Ze is not stupid, on the contrary, he is very smart, but when he faces Wu Ke, he always has a kind of helpless childishness.At the same time, he has an unreserved persistence of not hitting the south wall and not looking back.This is his stupidity, but also his touching place.

The moment the lights changed, the two looked at each other.Wu Ke turned his gaze back to the front, and his movements were a little stiff: "Why are you willing again?"

"what?"

Wu Ke showed that mocking look again: "Didn't I say before that we should stop being friends, we couldn't do it, why are we so positive now."

Liang Ze clenched his lips tightly, and then let go after a while, his lips were out of blood: "I didn't know before..."

Of course he wouldn't say that he only knew that Wu Ke had looked for him a long time ago because he saw the text message.He understood that Wu Ke wanted face.

Wu Ke misunderstood it, thinking that he didn't know there was hope before, and his expression immediately became unnatural: "No one will know what will happen after I say it, so don't have too high expectations."

Liang Ze nodded: "I understand that."

What the hell do you understand?Did you know that random expectations can hurt you?

It was clear that Liang Ze's answer was correct, but Wu Ke picked out many faults. Feeling depressed for a while, he had no choice but to lower the car window to breathe.

There are thin clouds in the sky. It should be sunny tomorrow.

After arriving at the intersection of the old alley, Liang Ze insisted not to let Wu Ke drive in, took his mobile phone and opened the door, "Be careful on the way back."

Unexpectedly, Wu Ke also got off the car from the other side and walked up to him, "The place I'm going this time is not far from my hometown. If you need anything to buy, you can tell me, and I'll bring it back."

"Need to buy?" Liang Ze didn't understand.

"It's the food and drink. Didn't you like it the most before?"

Many local products in his hometown are well-known throughout the country, and Wu Ke has lost a lot of precious New Year's money for this.

Liang Ze smiled slightly: "That was before."

"now what."

"I can do it myself."

Small snacks and the like are not difficult.

But Wu Ke glanced at him, mocking his ability, "I remember you don't even count as a chef. Anyway, if you want to buy something, let me know before next Wednesday. Don't wait until it's overdue."

After speaking, he got into the car without looking back.

Liang Ze was a little ashamed, but somehow relaxed.He turned around and walked towards the dark alley, but two beams of light came from behind him not long after.Looking back, it was the two high beams of the Mercedes-Benz.

It wasn't until he went upstairs that the lights went out.

Back in the dormitory, Liang Ze didn't care about doing anything, and went straight to the only kitchen where he could see the main road.It was not yet three o'clock in the morning, and his roommates were not there. He removed all the pots and pans by himself, climbed onto the countertop with hands and feet, and looked at the past through the ventilation window above.

The Mercedes-Benz was still there, and Wu Ke sat in the car, but drove away within 2 minutes.Liang Ze stood on tiptoe, looked at the taillights of the car through the rusty anti-theft net, and didn't regain his senses for a long time.

In fact, he didn't look at it, he was just thinking about what happened tonight and what he said to Wu Ke.He was carefully recalling when he was lying on Wu Ke's body, where Wu Ke's hands were placed, which way his face was facing, and how disgusted his eyes were.He was recalling that when he asked Wu Ke to chat with him just now, did Wu Ke give an affirmative answer, or prevaricate with words.

These details are vague, ambiguous, and all-in-one as they occur.But in retrospect, they became so clear, so real, so slow and with aftertaste.Even the bit of bitterness when it happened, after tasting it carefully, there is a long-lasting sweetness.

Looking at it, it seemed that there was a hallucination in front of my eyes, because the Mercedes-Benz drove back again.

Liang Ze's breathing was stagnant.

In sight, Wu Ke stopped the car steadily, and didn't get out of the car, but just turned off the light and sat quietly inside, unable to see clearly what he was doing.

Half a minute later, his cell phone rang.Seeing that it was Wu Ke, he quickly picked it up.

"Come down." Wu Ke said concisely.

Liang Ze didn't ask anything: "Okay."

After speaking, he ran away.

Panting, he ran to the side of the road, but he stopped far away.He saw Wu Ke leaning against the car door to smoke, a straight shadow on the ground, and a flickering spark between his fingers.

His heart was about to jump out of his cavity, he took several deep breaths before he calmed down, and walked over step by step panting.

"you……"

Before he could finish asking, Wu Ke pinched the cigarette with his left hand, and stuck his right hand through the car window behind him, took out the bottle of leather cleaner that he had forgotten, and threw it to him.

It was for this.

Liang Ze caught it, but couldn't speak for a while, so he could only thank him with difficulty.

Wu Ke glanced at him, then moved his eyes to the intersection to the north: "I met two people in front of you just now, they should also be from your store. I met them in your dormitory when I went to find you last time."

Liang Ze was absent-minded: "That should be it, they might just get off work now."

"What do they do when they're not at work?"

"Gambling, and—"

He swallowed the word whoring, but it was superfluous, because Wu Ke had just witnessed them entering a shampoo room with red dark lights.

"Go back and pack your things, and move to my place tomorrow." Wu Ke said.

Liang Ze opened his mouth slightly, for a moment he didn't know whether to be happy or what to do, "So fast? Don't use it for now, I'll wait until you leave..."

He was afraid that he would lose his composure every night like tonight.

"Besides, they are them, and I am me. It doesn't matter if I live here temporarily."

Wu Ke frowned, and his voice suddenly condensed: "Do you know the truth that those who are close to vermilion are red, and those who are close to ink are black?"

Liang Ze's mind became hot, and he retorted without thinking: "It's not that serious. You may not know that this kind of thing is actually quite common among migrant workers, but I—"

He wanted to say that he would never do this, but Wu Ke glanced at him, and his voice became cold: "It seems that you are used to it. That's right, I almost forgot that this happened to you in high school. It shouldn't be a surprise."

In any case, this is too much to say.When Liang Ze heard this, his face turned pale suddenly.

Wu Ke's face was also very ugly.Anyway, Liang Ze is Liang Ze, he shouldn't be compared with those obscene things, but once again he couldn't control his anger, or rather, he didn't mind.

He turned his face away, the words of apology stuck in his throat, unable to speak or swallow.It felt like I was in a dead end, wanting to know what was going on and not wanting to hear everything about it.

Liang Ze waited for a while, but he didn't say sorry.Seeing the roommates coming back in the distance, he lowered his head: "I'm going back first, be careful on the way."

"Liang Ze."

Rarely, Wu Ke called him, but he didn't look back.

After taking a shower in the dormitory, I lay on the bed only to find that there was a new message on my phone 10 minutes ago.It was written by Wu Ke, and it was difficult to guess what tone it was from between the lines, but it made Liang Ze lose sleep all night.

"If you have any concerns, just say it. If you are worried that moving here will make me uncomfortable, I don't have to come back before going abroad."