The burden of true and false idols

When he arrived on the set, Xiao Fu was in high spirits.There is no other reason, the sports car is so cool to drive.

After parking the car, Xiao Fu touched the steering wheel excitedly for a long time, Xu Wang let him play and stood at the front of the car to watch him quietly.

Xiao Fu was also afraid of missing work, so he looked at it reluctantly and got out of the car.As a result, I felt a little dizzy when I got out of the car, and when I stepped on it as if it was empty, I staggered, and Xu Wang helped me to stand still.

Xu Wang frowned, seeing that his eyes were red and bloodshot, he couldn't help asking: "What's wrong?"

Xiao Fu poked his temples, smiled at him, and stood up straight: "It's okay. I haven't had a good rest these two days."

Xu Wang didn't take it too seriously, put his hands on his shoulders and pushed him to the set: "Then I'll take a nap later when I don't have your part in the scene."

Xiao Fu obediently agreed.

In the past few days, both of them have played a lot of roles, but there are very few scenes with each other, and there are almost no additional opportunities for interaction.

Xu Wang didn't need to deliberately mention Xiao Fu, because he had already done a good job.

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Luo Jun has been lingering in front of the door for a long time, obviously he and Yu Mi live in the same building, but they haven't seen each other in this community for more than ten days.

His lips were pale, and his eyes fell on the small cat eyes from time to time.He raised his hand to knock on the door, but the next moment he hid in the dark corridor of the old residential building.

The sky light swayed back and forth, and occasionally reflected on his face, but only reflected the panic on the face of this slumped young man.

Sugar, sugar is something symbolic.

Luo Jun felt like a dingy mouse, with a mouse nature eager to run into the house to steal candy and eat to his heart's content, but with a human nature he hated his own greed.

I don't know how long it has been.Luo Jun stood in front of Yu Mi's door again, looking straight at the cat's eye.

If you can't see it, it gives you room for imagination.He felt that Yu Mi was also standing behind that door right now, looking at him through that small peephole, piercing him mercilessly.

So he moved his dry lips and said softly: "Don't be with me."

In the hallucination, he heard the door click open, and the young man behind the door was full of anger and said to him: "Then you get out!"

Luo Jun closed his eyes, as if quietly enjoying the painful and twisted emotions.He laughed, very softly, and obediently turned around and left.

But Yu Mi at this moment is not in that small house, not in the eyes of Luo Jun.It was Chen Ling who was looking at him.

Adolescent teenagers seem to like the school rooftop very much.The wind blows over, blows up the clothes, shakes the hair, and inadvertently makes the hidden nature flow.

Chen Ling's eyes were calm and gentle, just like what Yu Mi admired most, he supported the railing and said, "His parents divorced, and my father married my mother, and his mother died later."

Yu Mi knew it.He just didn't know that the half-sister that Luo Jun never wanted to mention was actually Chen Ling.

Chen Ling bit her lip, looked at him, and said innocently, "My father and mother came together because of love, and they did nothing wrong. Luo Jun's mother's misfortune was because she was too paranoid. I'm sorry. But I'm not wrong, am I?"

Yu Mi's eyelashes fluttered, he said "um", and said in a low voice: "Yes. It's none of your business."

Hearing what he said, Chen Ling seemed a little discouraged. He scratched the paint on the railing with his nails and said, "I feel sorry for Luo Jun. But, I don't want to get close to him anymore."

"He became like her mother little by little! I still remember that my father said that the woman was hysterical and went around doing evil like crazy. She turned herself into a crazy person for someone who didn't love her."

Chen Ling didn't understand: "It's not worth it at all. Why don't you accept the reality and age gracefully?"

When Yu Mi heard the word "elegance", she immediately felt very harsh.

He felt as if a big rock was pressing on his chest, which made him very depressed: "You said that Luo Jun became like her little by little?"

Chen Ling seemed to be thinking about it carefully, and couldn't help trembling, his face was extremely ugly: "Luo Jun is also a lunatic."

Her voice was slender and sweet, and Yu Mi always felt that it was only a nightingale's singing.

His little Nightingale frowned now, and said sadly and angrily: "Do you know? We have been in contact with each other for the past three years. He said that I am a younger sister, take care of me, accompany me, but Want to push me into the abyss of evil."

Chen Ling bit her lower lip angrily: "I don't want to be so bad. I don't want to play with other people's feelings. He taught me little by little!"

Moisture filled her eyes, and Chen Ling looked at Yu Mi apologetically: "I'm sorry. Whether I was encouraged by him or not, I did hurt you."

"It's okay." Yu Mi's voice was strangely gentle, as if he had suddenly grown up by several years, and he didn't look like a high school student anymore.

Chen Ling was stunned by the reassuring atmosphere. "You..." she said dully, "Are you also sad? You have always regarded him as your best friend before, right?"

Yu Mi shook his head.

Chen Ling suddenly realized, but there was a little secret disappointment in her heart. She couldn't explain why she was disappointed, but she forced a smile and said: "That's good. You don't have to feel sorry for him anymore. No wonder you are so calm .”

Yu Mi didn't continue this topic, but asked her politely: "Can I touch your hair?"

Chen Ling's cheeks were a little red. She had never felt that she liked Yu Mi, but now she felt an inexplicable heartbeat.At this moment, Yu Mi acted too maturely and possessed the power of taking it easy.

She is like a green loquat fruit on a branch, being blown by the cold wind, she nodded slightly tremblingly.

The boy's hand gently covered her long hair, the palm was warm, dry and refreshing, and exuded the scent of soap.The heart of the girl under the palm was pounding.

"Thank you, I've liked you for so long, thank you for never feeling disgusted by me." Yu Mi withdrew her hand and said softly.

Chen Ling looked up at him suddenly, his eyes were clean: "Why do I feel sick?"

She was eager to confess, eager to prove: "Being loved is happiness and makes people happy."

Yu Mi looked at her: "Oh?"

"Really." Chen Ling's eyes sparkled, like shiny candy wrappers, "Loving and being loved come from instinct, and they are pure and beautiful. I will never feel sick."

Yu Mi gently lowered her eyelashes, and said, "Luo Jun's mother's love also comes from instinct."

Chen Ling showed an expression of disbelief: "She has twisted true love!"

There was no fluctuation in the black pupils, Yu Mi said: "Perverted love is also love. It's even... more intoxicating."

He laughed a little bit, like a slow motion movie, turned around and shook his hand at Chen Ling chicly.

The last voice floated on this rooftop that revealed all its humanity: "Luo Jun and I are both perverts."

Chen Ling felt the blood all over her body being sucked out, she couldn't help shivering, her legs went limp, she fell to the ground, leaning on the white wall, she tremblingly looked at Yu Mi's back.

The Yu Mi just now was almost exactly the same as Luo Jun.

So strange, so scary.

Chen Ling and Yu Mi stayed here for almost two hours, Chen Ling told him everything, and completely showed the filthy Luo Jun in front of Yu Mi.

After listening to it, his heart was full of knives.Now, he runs all the way, running wildly.

He wanted to find Luo Jun and return the knife to him fiercely.come!Let's see who is scarier than whose dark side!

Who doesn't have a dark side?Who doesn't want to trample underfoot those who have bullied them?Who wouldn't want to feel proud and be an avenger in the mundane sense?

Yu Mi ran, her chest rose and fell violently, and her breathing became short of breath.

I want to do no less evil than Luo Jun!I wish I could tear Luo Jun to pieces, smash them to pieces, and kick him like a dead dog, only moaning and chirping!

damn it!Why do you treat me like this?

Do you think I've always thought of you as your best brother?not at all.I never hated you!

When I was five, I hated you.I got little red flowers every time, but I got nothing.I snatched it up and tricked my mother into a sweet kiss and a good meal.

At 12, I was jealous of you.All the girls in the class like you, you have the best grades and the most beautiful looks.I'm going to take you into a fight, trying to turn you into an uneducated little bastard like me.

You fucking got into No. [-] Middle School!Awesome provincial key point!I almost couldn't keep leading you down!I hammer sandbags all day in anger, just want to beat you to death.

At 15, I fought my way through your high school.But I still hate you, you write poems leaning on the window sill, making yourself like Takashi Kashiwahara.

I show you a movie, I want to pollute you.I want acid rain in the sky to corrode all your damn poetry until you can't write a single word.

I am more hypocritical than you.I am mud, but I pretend to be clean.

I also show off my cleanliness, I know that I have vigorous vitality, I know that I am the most suitable teenager to roar in the wilderness.

So I tried my best to show my "cleanness" in front of you.I'm swooning over love, I've got steamy teenage lust, I'm like a boy in a book, right?

Yu Mi stopped under a tree.Touching the rough bark, he took a deep breath.

idiot.He cursed in his heart, Luo Jun, you idiot.

"Don't I know you?" He exhausted his hostility and all kinds of dark thoughts while running, and he clenched his fists into the tree trunk unbearably.

"I fucking...I fucking care so much about you."

When I was five, 12, and 15 years old, when I turned around, all I saw were you lonely in the dark.

I can no longer be angry.

"Cut!"

This time, Director Zhang didn't hesitate to praise the words, and praised bluntly: "Xiao Fu's acting is good! The eyes are very precise!"

Xiao Fu waved his hands reservedly: "I will continue to work hard." He was very happy, and looked at Xu Wang happily.

Although his eyes were full of hints of "brother, brother, am I doing well? Compliment me", but he obviously didn't have much other feelings.

Xu Wang felt a little regretful in his heart, but he couldn't help being happy seeing him trusting him so much.Let's do it step by step, not to mention, isn't the role change from brother to lover more exciting?

So Xu Wang smiled at him naturally, and praised him in a good manner: "It can be said that this scene is Yu Mi's biggest reversal. You can't be sloppy at all. A little bit of mishandling will cause the characters to change suddenly, and it will lead to the characters changing." unreal."

"But," Xu Wang rubbed his hair, "You acted really well."

"This is Yu Mi's inner drama. The language deep in his heart will be presented in the movie through narration. Yu Mi is dissecting himself, bloodyly cutting out the dark side for others to see."

Xu Wang stopped and looked into Xiao Fu's eyes.

Xiao Fu also understands that this is his role, and he is responsible for interpreting it. Next, he will tell: "Everyone has a dark side. It can even be said that Yu Mi's dark side is insignificant. In the process of growing up, everyone has more or less To a lesser extent, there will be some malice towards others and the world."

"Yu Mi's malice comes from peer pressure. The child closest to her has a bleak life experience and an unbearable background, but she is surprisingly outstanding and charming. Yu Mi's jealousy makes sense."

"But they are best friends. Yu Mi has witnessed Luo Jun's pain over and over again, felt sorry for him over and over again, and repainted his dark side with bright colors over and over again."

"He can't bear to be jealous anymore, and he can't bear to hurt anymore. He longs to achieve himself, to be excellent, to be 'clean'. This run just shows his 'cleanness'. He knows himself very well, and he also Good at perceiving people's hearts."

Xu Wang took Xiao Fu's script, tapped the inner monologue, and said with a smile: "'I am mud, but I pretend to wash it clean', this sentence is very interesting. The young man forcibly belittled himself, As if he wanted to join forces with Luo Jun who 'thought he was dirty'. With anger and stubbornness, he appeared strangely clean."

Xiao Fu also smiled: "Yu Mi is really clean."

Xu Wang deliberately asked: "Where is Chen Ling? Is she dirty?"

Xiao Fu knew that he was guiding him to think about the role in multiple dimensions, and he answered seriously: "Chen Ling represents a kind of naive idealism. She thinks that relationships are smooth, a match made in heaven, and a gift from God. Yu Mi and her It is different, Yu Mi obeys the heart. Love and hate, sharp and tender, exist in emotions at the same time, this is normal."

"Besides, the phrase 'grow old gracefully', I really think it's too high-hanging, unearthly."

Xu Huan said softly: "But these things have never been settled, everyone has their own ideas. This movie is bound to have a lot of debate."

Xiao Fu raised his head, with a smile on the corner of his mouth: "After all, this movie is called 'Glaring'."

After finishing talking, Xiao Fu's eyes went dark again, he almost couldn't stand still, Xu Hua quickly hugged him: "What's wrong?"

Xiao Fu whispered embarrassingly: "I took cold showers for several nights, because of my physical condition, I would feel a little dizzy after taking the medicine."

Xu Wang was taken aback: "Why do you wash it in cold water in the cold weather?"

"Yu Mi should be haggard and tired. I'm full of energy, why don't I look like that? And the makeup is not so natural. Look at my redness and dark circles, isn't it awesome?" He also said He was faintly proud, and wished that the dedicated actor Xu Ying would praise him a few more words.

Xu Wang helplessly rubbed his palms to warm up, and covered his eyes: "Little fool, haggard, you can just stay up late."

Xiao Fu retorted awkwardly: "I don't have the habit of staying up late! A man's way, take a cold shower, simple and straightforward."

Xu Wang slapped him on the head: "Shut up. Go get my charging eye mask in my bag and take a nap for a while, I should go to filming."

Xiao Fu smiled sweetly on purpose: "Thank you brother Xu Huang."