dust and ash

quarrel

"Is he the other person you mentioned?" He asked me.

"Who, Su Chengcheng? No."

"No? Could it be that there is more than one? Jiang Yizhi, it seems that you are more promiscuous than I imagined."

When I heard this, I immediately exploded: "You are the only one who is pure and clean, and guards himself like a jade? I don't know who ran to the red light district at every turn."

"I was on an errand," he quibbled.

"Working? To put it nicely, you're going to do everything in bed, right?"

"What I said to you at the beginning was all false. I have never been a woman at all."

"What did you say?" I thought it was incredible, "Why would you lie like that?"

"I like you, and I want you to find me popular and attract your attention."

"..."

"You are like this, I don't like it very much."

I sneered and said: "If you don't like it, just leave. What are you still pestering me for? I just like other people. How can I hinder you? If you don't leave, I can leave. Let me tell you Duan Xiaojue. Apart from this skin, There's really nothing for you to look up to."

After that night, I went back to my hometown for a few days and didn't think about Duan Xiaojue anymore.

Goodbye Zhuo Minhao

"Have you got off work yet? Come out for a drink or two," I called Zhuo Minhao, and his number hadn't changed in 15 years.

He sighed deeply: "You are finally back."

When I saw him again, I felt that his whole person had changed.It is no longer, and it is impossible to be as vigorous and vigorous as before.The years have worn away his edges and corners, and all his remaining tenderness was given to me.

"Do you know how sad it is," he said, "Several brothers around me were ordered to marry women they didn't love."

"Everyone is busy with starting a family and starting a business, and there is almost no chance to sit down and have a good meal."

"I haven't relaxed like this in a long time, drinking and talking."

"My dad, I haven't seen him for several years. I heard that he remarried and gave birth to a daughter. He never took the initiative to contact us."

"My mother, on the surface, was happy, talking and laughing with her neighbors, but in private, I don't know how many times she secretly cried."

"Grandma, you also know that she has always been superstitious. When I was young, I went to your house to catch ghosts. Do you remember?"

"The house has been redecorated again, and my mother is dissatisfied. This is the third time in two years."

"I don't have anyone around me who understands me, so I can only chat with you about family affairs. Who would be interested in listening to me?"

The two of us went to the hotel that night, touching, kissing, lingering, aren't these all what I, Jiang Yizhi, dreamed of?But I backed down and didn't let him continue.

"Hao, I think we are drunk."

"What's wrong? Don't you want me to compensate you?"

"Compensation? What I want may not be compensation. I remember you said that we don't need to do this."

"Do you not love me anymore? Don't want me anymore?"

"No, Hao, there are many kinds of love. I don't like being like you now, do you understand?"

"I don't understand, you don't have to take things so seriously."

"Not serious? Why not serious? You are a family man, is it right for us to do this?"

"Why didn't you mention this before? Why do you talk about morality and rules with me now that I want to fuck you?"

"People change, and I may really have changed. My thoughts today are different from yesterday's, let alone before."

Sometimes I really feel that ambiguity is a hundred times more painful than no one loves.