Cannon fodder meets cannon fodder

029 Summer Night & Past Events

Yu Chengze continued to write songs in the piano room on the second floor. In the rooms on the second floor, only the piano room was lit. The bay window was half opened, and the white gauze curtains would occasionally be lifted by a gust of night wind.

Feeling a bit lonely, but Yu Chengze felt quiet, forgetting about the accidents with Ming Qifan, and immersing himself in composing.

In the living room on the first floor, Ming Qifan was watching TV, and Guigui was spinning around in front of him with a leash in his mouth. It seemed that he was looking for Yu Chengze and wanted to go for a walk.

"Guigui." Ming Qifan shouted, Guigui held the leash in his mouth and raised his head to look at Ming Qifan, Ming Qifan took out the leash from its mouth and put it on Guigui, "Come out with me .”

Guigui's dog eyes are watery, his tail wags and wags, Ming Qifan laughs, he gets up and pulls the rope to take Guigui out, Xiaoxue has already gone back to sleep in the cage.

When going out, Ming Qifan didn't forget to take the key that Yu Chengze put on the shoe rack in the entrance.

Yu Chengze didn't know what was going on downstairs, his mood blended with the silence of Xia Ye, he kept writing down the score on the paper and crossing it out again. The music slanted out, as quiet as this summer night.

Ming Qifan wandered outside with Guigui for an unknown amount of time, and when he returned to Yu Chengze's house, he felt a little tired, looked at the watch in the living room, it was 10:30, and was ready to wash and brush his teeth.

In the toilet, Ming Qifan only had one arm to use, so many things were unavoidably troublesome, but he still finished it alone. After washing, Ming Qifan looked at the shower and bathtub, wanted to take a bath, and went out for a walk in Xia Tian There was already a thin layer of sweat on Quan's body.

But he was reluctant to wash with one hand, and he had to call Yu Chengze to take a bath, but now he felt tired.

He didn't know what he said wrong. From Yu Chengze's attitude and words to Xiao Mo, he guessed that Yu Chengze and Xiao Mo probably had similar childhood experiences, but he was just joking with good intentions, but he was misunderstood. Not only was he filled with anger, but he was already tired.

He is obviously an adult who is about to turn [-], yet he is so narrow-minded.

Ming Qifan's expression turned pale, he cursed "Ci'ao" in a low voice, and went to the guest room to sleep all night and move out tomorrow.

Yu Chengze still didn't know that Ming Qifan, a roommate, would spend such a short time with him under the same roof. He stayed in the piano room for a long time, and after composing a piece of music, he tried to compose the piece "Lovers in Spring".

This is the song he made for Xia Ran. There is no doubt about how sincere his heart is, but he still does not know how the relationship will end. He can compose the throbbing and vigorous beginning of the heartbeat, but the love that has not begun, The unknown ending made him unable to draw a full stop to the end of the song.

Time passed slowly between the sound of the pen tip scribbling on the paper, and the jumping notes of the black and white piano keys... Yu Chengze stretched his waist, turned to look at the wall clock on the wall behind him, it was already one o'clock in the morning.

Yu Chengze was stunned for a moment, he had a relatively normal schedule, usually went to bed at eleven o'clock and woke up at seven o'clock, and rarely stayed up late, this time he did not expect to compose until the middle of the night.

Stunned like this, Yu Chengze got up and went to the room on the first floor to wash up and go to bed. As he walked, he suddenly remembered eight years ago when An Yan was still by his side.

That was a well-behaved and lovely boy, handsome, gentle and harmless, who would care about Yu Chengze, who would force him to sleep when he stayed up late... he was a perfectly qualified lover except for cheating.

It was a lover who he seriously wanted for the rest of his life, but was told that youth was just for fun... lover.

Yu Chengze went into the bathroom, washed his face, raised his head, and water dripped down his cheeks. The man in the mirror didn't look old, his brows and eyes were clear and handsome, but the expression in the man's eyes reflected in the mirror was really lonely. ugly.

"It's ugly."

Yu Chengze lowered his head and said in a sarcastic tone.

After saying that, Yu Chengze continued to wash, and after a few minutes, he left the bathroom to go back to his room to sleep. Next to his room was the guest room. Yu Chengze stopped when he passed by, and finally turned to face the door of the guest room.

Yu Chengze thought, why is there a "cold war"? Ming Qifan is actually right. He shouldn't be entangled in these things when he is old. It was a long time ago. He is now strong, mature, rich and Status, why bother with those things?

Yu Chengze lowered his brows and eyes, and pushed open the door. The air conditioner was on in the room, and there was a large ball covered with air-conditioning quilts on the bed. With the faint light reflected from the window, Yu Chengze saw the ball trembling slightly, and it looked bright. Qifan didn't fall asleep.

Yu Chengze walked over and sat quietly by the bed. After a while, he apologized in a low voice: "Young Master Ming, I'm sorry for what happened during the day. I took my anger out on you."

After Yu Chengze finished speaking, several seconds later, Ming Qifan did not respond, but he saw that the person under the quilt was almost trembling. Yu Chengze felt suspicious, so he reached out and lifted the quilt decisively.

Ming Qifan was lying on his right side, Yu Chengze couldn't see Ming Qifan's face clearly in the night, he could only hear Ming Qifan's trembling voice: "Medicine... Painkiller, in the suitcase... Hurry up..."

Yu Chengze was startled, and immediately got up and turned on the light, went to find Ming Qifan's luggage in the corner of the room, took out the medicine, went to the living room to pour water, then hurried back to the guest room, carefully helped Ming Qifan to lie down halfway, and fed him to eat Painkillers.

The painkillers won't take effect for a while, Ming Qifan lay half-lying, sweating on his forehead, his face was pale and his lips were as pale as his face, Yu Chengze ran to soak a towel in hot water, and gave Ming Qifan a warm towel. Fan wiped his forehead, and did not dare to leave after wiping, quietly guarding Ming Qifan.

Ming Qifan was trembling with pain before, but now it still hurts, but it's better, he wiped the sweat from his forehead, turned his head slightly and said weakly: "Forgive you."

Yu Chengze looked at him and nodded for a while: "Thank you for your forgiveness."

Ming Qifan responded with a weak smile, and Yu Chengze watched him take off the bandage, and the arm that was not hung on the neck but still fixed with the splint, finally felt deep guilt in his heart.

Before Ming Qifan was always full of vitality, he also ignored the fact that this person broke his bones because of himself, now he realized how much Ming Qifan was hurting, and he blamed himself very much.

"Don't be silent." Ming Qifan saw that Yu Chengze was silent, and said weakly, "Say something, divert my attention, and say something that can attract people's attention."

Yu Chengze was silent for a moment, and the corner of his mouth raised a somewhat inexplicable smile: "Have you read the article that revealed my life experience back then?"

Ming Qifan was puzzled and surprised, and shook his head.

Yu Chengze lowered his eyes: "Let me tell you about my childhood, it should attract your attention."

Ming Qifan is really interested, listening to other people's "*" things can always arouse people's interest, he is also an ordinary person, but it is strange to see Yu Chengze's expression, Ming Qifan is still ready to refuse, but Yu Chengze starts to narrate .

"My family is not bad." Yu Chengze said this at the beginning before talking about his childhood past.

"My mother, in her sophomore year, fell in love with her father, who was a part-time university lecturer. She took a very intense pursuit and ended up being dropped out of school.

My father must have been moved, they got married quickly, and I was born a year after marriage.

My mother graduated from college and did not find a job to become a housewife, but what she should be immersed in is 'passion', 'sensibility' and 'discomfort from ordinary'.

As far as I can remember, her quarrel with her father has never stopped. When I entered elementary school, it has developed to the point where she would yell hysterically over any trivial matter. The most common sentence is 'I gave up myself for you. dream'.

I don’t know how long this kind of day has been repeated. When I was a sophomore, my mother’s temper eased up, but at this time my father was no longer willing to go home. He would rather stay in the unit on night shift and lie on a cold table than sleep at home. soft bed.

My father couldn't notice the change in my mother. I was secretly anxious and begged my father to go home to see the changed mother. Finally, my father agreed to go home on Friday night and take me and my mother out for dinner. "

When Yu Chengze said this, Ming Qifan saw his confused expression, sighed and sarcastically said: "That was really... an impressive day."

After Yu Chengze finished feeling, he continued to speak in a calm voice: "The evening self-study was canceled on Friday night, and I returned home at four o'clock. The moment my mother saw me, she looked very strange. The next second, she carried me into the The door was locked in the room.

I don't know where I provoked my mother. My parents' bedroom is next to my room. I climbed over the balcony and entered my parents' bedroom. I was about to go out quietly. When I heard footsteps, I hid in the closet anxiously. Through the gap in the closet, I What I saw was my mother hugging a strange man. "

Speaking of this, Yu Chengze raised his eyes and saw Ming Qifan's startled face. He felt that it was difficult to talk about the following things. In fact, he already had some regrets when he talked about it. Ming Qifan's weak face and the silence of the night are too easy to bewitch People's hearts, what happened to Xiao Mo during the day made the memories buried in his heart emerge again...

So much so that he actually told Ming Qifan about the past that he never wanted to mention.

"The next thing..." Yu Chengze continued to talk, he wanted to say it, maybe this hurdle will be over.

He licked his lower lip, his voice rough——

"I hid in the closet and watched a whole episode of something that I would only see in a junior high school physiology class. Even worse, my sexual orientation should not be gay by nature, but because of this incident, I began to fear being intimate with girls , I don't like strong and warm people, I hope my lover is gentle and harmless.

Back to this matter, not long after Friday’s incident, my mother and father filed for divorce. She used to like to say that I was her favorite baby, but she didn’t even look back at me when she went abroad with that strange man glance.

At that time, I felt that people's hearts can be so hard. When she likes you, she can pamper you to the sky. When she doesn't like you, even if you cry and beg her, her heart can't be touched.

Seriously, she really loved me when I was a kid and made me feel like my mom was the best mom in the world, but what I found out in the end was that she was way too much.

I didn't take the initiative to ask for her love, she gave me selflessly, touched me, made me rely on her and like her more than anyone else, but before I had time to grow up and be independent enough, she took this love back... …

She is really, the cruelest person in the world. "

Ming Qifan's arm was still aching, but Yu Chengze said the last sentence softly, his spiritual "compassion" overwhelmed the pain, Ming Qifan looked at Yu Chengze's quiet face, his eyes were dark and gloomy, as if there was no What a sad.

Ming Qifan stared at it for a while, then stretched out his right hand to cover Yu Chengze's eyes: "Uncle Yu, you can cry if you want to, look, I'm covering your eyes, I can't see you crying, so Nothing to be ashamed of."

Yu Chengze didn't cry, he stretched out his hand to push Ming Qifan's hand away, the darkness in his eyes subsided, he replied a little helplessly: "This is really... childish."

In the end, Yu Chengze's voice was slightly gentle.