Count and see that I have loved you for five years

When I go out, Li Zi also rubs his hands there

not hot

"what happened?"

"nothing"

"She apologized?"

"Um"

"That's good, let's go and have supper"

"No, I want to go home, it's getting late"

"Yes, then I'll take you home"

"No, I'll take a taxi myself"

"It's okay if I send you off"

"I told you not to send it!"

I suddenly yelled at him for no reason.

Luo Ge stayed, and so did he

After I finished speaking, I turned around and left alone.

There were very few cars on the road that day

I walk home slowly alone

When passing by the river, I really want to just jump off like this

heart choking pain

I really want to shout out

(74)

I went down the steps

In front of you is the river

From time to time there is a cold river wind

I'm sitting on the embankment

"Li Ziyi, liking you is such a lucky thing."

"I feel like I can't hold on anymore, I'm really tired"

"No one understands me, I just like you"

"I'm really tired"

I was talking to the surface of the river, and tears fell as I spoke, hitting my hands, it was very hot

It was almost 12 o'clock when I got home

My mother kept scolding me as soon as I got home

Said that I have grown up, my wings are hard, I am disobedient, I will not return at night

I don't talk, listen to her nagging

Dad smokes in the study and refuses to come out to see me

i groped for bed

After seeing me like this, my mother just tucked the quilt up for me, and then gently closed the door

Just closing the door, I heard a heavy sigh

"I'm sorry to make you worry"

i said before i fell asleep

(76)

turn on the phone the next day

I found that it was full of phone calls from him and a few text messages from Luo Ge.

I cried when I watched

I want to quietly forget about him, can't I?

When I decided to give up this endless crush

don't be so nice to me

If I misunderstand him, he also cares about me

i want to let go

(77)

I packed my schoolbag and went to school

Went downstairs and found him waiting there

He watched me go downstairs and suddenly laughed

"It was so late, I was freezing to death"

"Um"

"What's the matter, are you still angry?"

"No"

"If not, come with me and go to school"

He took my hand after he finished speaking

He probably stood there for a long time

hands are cold

i put my hands in my pockets

"Hey, really like a little daughter-in-law"

I rubbed his hands and ignored him

He has grown taller again, estimated to be 184

Distinct knuckles

very thin and long

(78)

confess or give up

I told myself

End this endless crush

Christmas 2009

Many people were playing at his house that day

because he lives alone

No parents will come to disturb

a lot of people are playing crazy there

Yu Qin didn't come

They haven't been together since that time I got hit

Luo Ge is still that foolish look

where he kept drinking

Are you pulling me to drink?

I'm really sad

We are in the restaurant, you say something to me while drinking wine

i reckon i drank two beers

that's definitely my limit

Brother Luo is surrounded by beer bottles

(79)

In the end, a group of people fell down in his living room.

Lying on the ground in various strange positions

The air conditioner blows warm wind

my head is clear

I just feel sick from drinking too much

He was there helping others cover the quilt

Turn up the temperature of the air conditioner

i sit in the restaurant

quietly looking at him

He smiled at me when he saw me

"Help me, this group of people sleep too hard, you go to the study to get some more quilts"

"Um"

"Hey, I'm so exhausted, everyone is a pig"

After he finished speaking, he kicked a person next to him who was snoring.

That man's mouth is open and the saliva is about to come out.

"Go to bed, it's getting late"

"Where do I go to sleep?"

"Come with me, in my room"

"Oh"

I entered the room with him

I saw that doll I gave him last year

nicely placed on a decorative stand

I seem to have made up my mind

☆, 8

(eighty)

"Plum also"

"Well, what?"

"I like you, really, I like you very much. I have liked you since the first year of military training in high school. I pay attention to your every move. I am happy when you are happy, and I am also sad when you are sad. I know we can't, but I I have been preparing to confess to you for a long time, and I want to express my thoughts.”

He looked at me with a smile and said "you're drunk and talking nonsense"

"I don't, I really like you. When I was with Deng Han, I wanted to forget you, but I found that I have always loved you. I can see how good you and Yu Qin are. Every time I see you happy, I love you." My heart hurts, I'm jealous of Yu Qin, I'm jealous that she can have such a complete you"

He looked at me with disbelief in his eyes, followed by a long silence

"We can't, I like girls"

I heard him say, heart hurts

One word to end my crush

In exchange for humiliation

I got up and picked up the doll and ripped its hands away

Find that note from a year ago

I gave him the note

Now that I have confessed

Are you afraid of losing face or not?

"Peng Qiuqi loves Li Zi also, there is no end in sight"

(81)

I left his house

Hear the door slam shut

It seems like something is missing and never coming back

I went downstairs in a daze

When I went downstairs, the wind blew

My tears just fall

can't stop after that

phone vibrating in pocket

I picked up

"Hey, where have you been?"

"I go home"

"Oh, be careful"

"Um"

"Wait, I thought about what you said to me today, we are still friends, best brothers"

"Well bro"

I looked at the phone and kept crying

brother?brother.

we are brothers

(82)

Peng Qiuqi, he rejected you abruptly

then give up

time to give up

Why bother making yourself so worthless

The next day we have to go to school

I entered the classroom and saw him looking down at a book

He used to always look at me and say good morning

I really feel embarrassed

I walked past him with my head down

Sudden feeling of pain for no reason

It's the feeling of being together

violently clear

After the morning self-study, I stood up slowly by myself

I looked up and found him standing there looking at me too

but can't say a word

can't go back

I can't be with him in peace anymore.

(83)

I look at him, what can I say?

I mean I lied to you yesterday, let's continue to be friends, shall we?

Or I know you don't like me, shall we continue to be friends?

No matter what, it's me who bears the brunt, I can't do it, and I don't want to

I got up and walked past his seat to the door.

At that time, he looked at me, I looked ahead

If you can't go back, it's best to be a stranger.

after that pass by

At that time, I wanted to cry again. After I met him, I became more and more cowardly and not brave.

I seem to really hear the sound of my heart tearing

(84)

I was restless in class in the morning, and looked at him in front of me from time to time.

Uncharacteristically, he didn't go to sleep, but propped his head on his hands, as if he was thinking about something.

The earring on his right ear is still so shiny, that's how it looked when I first saw him

After a year, we have changed from being best friends to the current embarrassing appearance,

What has changed in one year?

change is heart

Until that semester passed, we didn't have a word

The winter of 2009 was the most difficult winter in my life.

Without his phone, without his company.

I often lie in bed alone and think about things.

don't say anything

My mother thought I was sick at first,

Urgently took me to see a doctor,

But then I'm still like this,

She didn't care, let me stay in bed all day

(85)

tomorrow is the new year

It's finally 2010,

I've been through so much this year,

I just hope next year I can start a new life.

There are more relatives visiting at home,

I could hear them talking and laughing loudly in the living room from my own room.

"How are you doing recently?"

"pretty good, how about you?"

"Haha, everything is fine, New Year's greetings to you all."

“Happy New Year and Happy New Year”

"..."

Nothing more than such a conversation,

i'm almost tired of hearing

How many people send me blessings in the new year

Brother Luo, Deng Han, and even Yu Qin

Only without him,

It seems that he wants to make such a fool,

What else can I do?

(86)

Brother Luo called me out on the night of Chinese New Year,

I think it's good to relax,

I was waiting for him on a street corner that day,

I thought he was the only one,

Finally, Li Zi also came.

I haven't seen him for more than a month, and he seems to have lost some weight.

"Tomorrow will be 2010, do you have any wishes to make?"

Brother Luo asked me, and suddenly took out a cake from behind.

He took the candle and asked me to light it.

I look at the candles and look at them.

close your eyes and blow out

My wish is to forget Li Ziyi and never love him again.

After blowing out, Luo Ge asked us to cut the cake,

Three men were eating cake on the corner.

I didn't talk much to Li Ziyi that day,

Luo Ge was very nervous, he didn't know what happened to us, and he was talking all kinds of nasty jokes by himself.

"Li Ziyi, I don't think you like men?"

"Ok?"

I was startled, the cake almost choked in my mouth

"I see you are so handsome, tsk tsk tsk, what a pity to be a man"

Brother Luo stroked his chin after he finished speaking, and squinted at me.

I didn't dare to go to see Li Ziyi, I was really nervous at the time,

Luo Ge said this for no reason,

i can't say anything

(87)

Then I picked up the countdown at hand,

three, two, one

Suddenly there was a loud gunshot,

Many people set off fireworks at this time,

We were on the street, there was a lot of smoke, and the air smelled of gunpowder.

There are few people on the street, but the lights are as bright as day,

Many people's home lights are on,

stay with the family,

I look back,

At this time, I was with Li Ziyi, celebrating the New Year together.

I will not foolishly hope that there will be intersections in our future lives,

This is enough to be able to sit together.

"Let's buy fireworks too, let's go!"

The three of us got up and dropped the cakes on the floor,

I set off a lot of fireworks that night, mostly fairy sticks,

The two of them set off firecrackers with lighters.

I watched as he nodded carefully, then ran away,

I can see the expression on his face clearly.

Just let me watch it again, maybe next time I won't have a chance

(88)

School starts at the end of February,

After that Chinese New Year, we did not see each other again throughout the winter vacation.

Just started to have SMS greetings,

It's nothing more than good morning and afternoon.

I changed classes,

don't want to stay there anymore,

When school started, I heard people say that Deng Han had transferred to another school.

It doesn't matter if you transfer to another school, just forget about me as soon as possible.

I'm in a new class with good acquaintances and few friends

My indifferent and quiet personality made me completely out of touch with those rowdy boys.

I mostly sit in the last seat and read by myself.

Many girls in this class are very courageous,

People who like me to an unprecedented degree,

I get four or five love letters almost every week,

Sometimes when you open the drawer, you will find a box full of chocolates.

It's just that I put those things in my schoolbag and never open them

Then go home after school and throw it all away.

My mother said that I changed in the second semester of my sophomore year,

It is a very flat personality to become unreasonable.

I never refute, just listen quietly.

(89)

I was stunned for a while when I heard the news that he broke up with Yu Qin.

I was completely unaware when Luo Ge told me on the phone,

"It's been almost a week since they broke up. Ever since Yu Qin called someone to beat you, he seldom contacted her. He also brought up the breakup this time. I heard that Yu Qin was hospitalized after taking sleeping pills. Know when he became so ruthless, like you..."

Brother Luo suddenly stopped talking halfway through, I know what he meant,

Just like when Deng Han and I separated, we were so decisive.

"I see"

"Why haven't I seen you with him recently?"

"Divided into classes, almost few people see"

"Oh, that's it, I thought what's wrong with you"

"It's fine, it's fine"

I smiled into the phone, full of bitterness in my heart.

He parted from one and left no escape,

No matter how close that person was to him before,

It used to be me, now it's Yu Qin

It's wrong that we all love him

☆, 9

(ninety)

Second day of school

i walk on the playground

But I saw him walking with a girl by chance

He hugged her, still smiling sweetly.

The girl bowed her head shyly,

short hair, thin, like water girl

Very beautiful, but that kind of beauty is different from Deng Han, Deng Han is an aggressive beauty, she is a very clean beauty,

Such a clean looking girl,

I think about myself,

Covered in mud, stained with worldliness

Not good enough for him.

(91)

Since then, I have fallen in love with Eason Chan's "Ten Years"

I listen to it almost every night in bed alone with my headphones on

Sometimes when I listen to it, tears come down

We are not even lovers, but I love you willingly

really stupid

Even this won't get you half a sympathy

(92)

After school that day, I took my schoolbag and prepared to leave

But I found Yu Qin blocking the door of my classroom

She has dark circles, is very heavy and has lost a lot of weight

"we broke up"

"I know"

"Hehe, are you happy?"

"no"

"You can't get his, I can't get it, and neither can you, let alone you are a man, give up"

"I love him is my thing"

"shameless!"

"Didn't you also make it like this for him?"

She suddenly knelt down and started crying

crying louder

I'm really tired

I had to squat down to comfort her and pat her on the shoulder with my hand

She raised her head suddenly,

hold me and kiss

I was startled and didn't react at all.

let her hold me

at the end she kissed me

I suddenly reacted

I push her hard, but she holds tight

(93)

In the end both fell to the ground

i struggle to get up

but she still holds me

Suddenly someone kicked my foot very hard

Feet numb instantly

she suddenly let go of me

i stood up

I raised my head, but it was Li Ziyi, standing there looking at me very angrily

It's really not a good time to come, I will see these as soon as I come

I smile bitterly in my heart

He suddenly slapped me hard and loud

i have a face almost unconscious

I watched him without saying a word

"Fucking bastard, it's a shame that I still treat you like a brother, you better not let me see you again, damn it, get out!"

He roared there, Deng Han squatted on the ground crying

I suddenly became a sinner

But I don't want to explain anything

I picked up my schoolbag and left. My feet hurt and I walked unsteadily.

My feet hurt every time I take a step down the stairs

I really can't cry this time

no matter how sad

I don't know what Yu Qin means

i don't want to know

Perhaps in this way, we will become enemies in the future, and we will never see each other again.

(94)

That day I was alone in bed thinking about the day

Just then, the phone rang

"Hey"

"I am Yu Qin"

"..."

"Why don't you explain today, maybe he still believes you"

"No need, just misunderstand"

"Hehe, today I called him to come to your class to look for you. I said you sprained your ankle, so he really came."

"You really don't have to"

"He doesn't love me anymore, and you will never get him!"

"I never thought I'd get him"

"What the hell do you know, I love him no less than you! He is with someone else now, give up!"

"I've given up already"

"Hehe, that's good, don't overestimate yourself"

then hang up

I really don't know what Yu Qin means

This is nothing more than making me and Li Ziyi enemies

He couldn't have loved me

Why bother

(95)

As soon as the phone was hung up, Brother Luo's call came.

"Hey"

"Are you crazy today?"

"..."

"What are you doing, do you really like Yu Qin?"

"I do not like her"

"Then what are you doing? Li Zi also drank a lot of wine and talked a lot of nonsense with me today. I also think that this is really your fault. Even if he broke up, you can't do this. It hurts the brother's feelings. Being together is not a matter of a day or two."

"I didn't, I didn't do anything"

"Hey, this is really difficult to solve. Let me talk about Li Ziyi. He is drinking here non-stop."

"kindness"

I didn't do anything

why do you have to suffer

Is it because I kissed Yu Qin?

Would you believe me if I told you that she was holding me by herself?

Ha ha

say what we are best friends

just such a friend

I touched my face in the toilet

The right side is swollen

The corner of the mouth is blue

I touched it, it hurts

This is what you pay me back, a slap, a punch

(96)

After thinking about it for a long time, I still called Li Ziyi

I want to hear his voice, but I don't know what to say

"Hey"

"I am Peng Qiuqi"

"Oh, I'm your Brother Luo, Li Ziyi just fell asleep."

"Oh how much did he drink tonight"

"About ten bottles. I can't hold it back. He's still in a hurry with me. I'm really... There's a lot of alcohol here. I guess he won't be able to go to school tomorrow. Please help him take a leave of absence."

"Oh, I see"

"Then I hung up, what else do you have?"

"No. Oh, by the way, boil some water and add some salt, let him drink it, it can relieve the hangover, otherwise he will have a headache tomorrow morning"

"Okay, got it, I'm hanging up"

"Well Goodnight"

I hung up the phone and stayed in bed looking at the ceiling

I'm so stupid to drink so much today, it's bad for my body

Yu Qin has really changed a lot, I didn't realize she was so complicated before

It's all because of him, Li Ziyi, who changed so many people

Ha ha.

(97)

in the days to come

he sees me as air

If you see it, you will pretend not to see it

(98)

The day after the final exam, summer vacation is here

The third year of high school is coming, almost all of them are lifeless, I really feel depressed

Brother Luo asked me to go out to play, he still had that relaxed tone

He said that Li Zi also came this time

He said to ease our relationship

I was going to say no, just that he always said I failed his kindness

finally can only pass

At the end of June, the weather is a bit hot

When I passed by, Brother Luo was waiting for me at the door of the KTV

Actually, sometimes, it's nice to have him

"Come in, on the fourth floor, Li Zi is waiting for you there"

"kindness"

I'm getting more and more nervous

In the end, my palms were sweating

I just rub it on my clothes

(99)

door open

He smokes there, a big smell of smoke

When did you have this habit?

"Ziyi, he's here, please talk about it, I'll go out and order some wine first"

Rogo will leave

He and I were in the box, and we were silent for a long time

"How are you?" He put out his cigarette and asked me

"kindness"

"That time, I was too impulsive"

"It's ok"

"Yu Qin told me, she said she hugged you by herself, it has nothing to do with you"

"..."

"Why didn't you explain to me at that time? If I explain, how can I pay back..."

"It's okay, I'm too lazy to explain"

"Really, even an explanation is too troublesome?"

He looked at me with a wry smile.

explain?did you give me time to explain

I thought I had known each other for so long, maybe you would understand me

It's only now that I'm so stupid

☆, 10

(one hundred)

"Can we still be friends?"

"Maybe...I don't know"

"Hehe, that's it."

I don't answer, just look at him

I don't know when I thought he would be so strange

The feeling of being with him before is gone

He got up and hugged me without warning.

I was stunned before I could react, but he hugged me even tighter.

I just feel tired and bored

I also put my hands on his back and put my head on his shoulders

I don't care what's going on now, just hold it like this

I've been through too much

All I'm waiting for is this hug

Crying while hugging, tears fell on his shoulders

He wiped me clean with his hands and called me stupid

How can I like you if I am not stupid.

I'm not stupid how can it be so painful

(One hundred and one)

It seems that after a long time, the air conditioner in the box doesn't seem to work. I feel that it is getting hotter and hotter, but it is. . .

I pushed him away because I couldn't open my eyes after crying. Fortunately, it was very dark in there. I really didn't want him to see me like this.

"Let's be friends from now on, I give up"

"No, listen to me..."

"No, Yu Qin looked for me, and I've figured it out. We're both boys. This kind of thing is impossible. Let this hug be a gift from you. Thank you. I'm really happy...to know you"

"..."

"Then I'm leaving, you smoke less"

"OK, fine"

I turned around and opened the door. I was shaking all over at that time, and the door seemed to be unable to be opened no matter what.

I really hate myself for not being up to date. If others don't like you, they don't like you. Why make yourself so sad?

really stupid can

I opened the door and didn't see Brother Luo, so I had to go downstairs by myself.

Seeing the sun outside, my eyes suddenly stabbed, and I couldn't open them.

Think about it, when I met him, there was such a big sun, and suddenly it was two years

Maybe in another year we graduate or maybe tomorrow we won't see each other again

(one hundred and two)

I was in a trance when I went home that day, and finally lost my phone

"Boss, I'll make up the card"

"Oh, what's the phone number?"

"Wait, I'd better change the card, just get one for me."

"Okay, this one has a discount..."

The boss talked there for a long time, but I didn't listen to anything. At that time, I just came to replace the card, and finally changed the card.

Maybe God erased the last bit of my connection with him, so why should I fight?

Simply forget about him and take this opportunity.

During the summer vacation, I discussed with my mother about transferring schools. At first she was surprised by my decision

In the end, they helped me connect with a school far away.

Which school is very strict, there is only one day off every month, and it is far away from my home, so I can only live in the school.

My mom asks if I've made up my mind, I just nod

(One hundred and three)

During the summer vacation, my parents went out to watch the World Expo, and I was at home alone.

Brother Luo came to me during the period and asked why my number couldn’t get through. I just said that I lost my mobile phone and didn’t want to buy another mobile phone.

He stayed at my house for a long time that day and told me many things.

Yi separated from that girl, and the girl's parents knew about it, so they went to find Yi, but it happened that the girl's parents knew the school leaders, so they were also demerited.

He said it was getting different from before.Now he is becoming more and more indifferent, unwilling to talk to others, and many of his former buddies have conflicts with him because of this.

I listened quietly and didn't say anything. Brother Luo sighed for a long time, and then left.

I don't know when, I could listen to the news about you quietly without any disturbance in my heart. I thought it was a sign of forgetting you.

The third year of high school started, and I went to that school.

The seemingly depressing school has become more lifeless because of the sense of urgency in the third year of high school

I looked at the teaching building and took a deep breath. My third year of high school was spent here.

(one hundred and four)

I entered a new school, I want to study hard

It's only been a year, I want to do well, and then get admitted to the university I like

At that time, I was looking for someone to fall in love quietly, and then get married and have children.

At that time, I was in class 28

I saw the head teacher on the first day, he told me to study hard, I lowered my head and agreed

He is the most influential teacher in my life. Without him, I might not be in this university at all.

I still chose to sit in the last row, the seat by the window was taken, and I was among them

The teacher in charge was surnamed Fang, and he seemed to value me very much, so he made me the monitor on the first day. At that time, my grades were mediocre, so I was really surprised.

(One hundred and five)

I met a new classmate

His name is Zhou Zhou

I thought it was funny at the time, porridge. . .

He smiles cleanly and honestly

He told me a lot, his family situation is not good, he lived in school since he was a child

I listened quietly, such a clean and simple boy made me feel very comfortable

He asked me how I was doing, but I didn't want to say anything, I said I was sleepy and wanted to sleep

He said good night to me and went to sleep

I am very touched by your care and help.

My tiredness in the first and second year of high school is also much lighter, thank you, thank you.

(one hundred and six)

go home in a month

The grades have improved a lot

Mom and Dad are very happy

I ate a lot that night, I couldn't sleep at night, I sat in the room alone, looking at the window

Without turning on the light, I just looked at the trees outside, and somehow, I thought of him.

How is he doing?Do you have any girls you like?

I haven't told him about my transfer, but he won't care.

Unknowingly laughing at himself, he stroked his hair.

Suddenly want to look at the old diary

I turned on the desk lamp and searched in the bookcase for a long time before I found that long, long diary, which my mother gave me.

two years ago.Just when I first fell in love with him, I started to write a diary until the day I confessed to him.

No more than five sentences are written every day, but they are all full of him.

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Li Ziyi went out to have a barbecue with me today, I am very happy

Li Ziyi choked while drinking soda today, her face turned red, so cute.

He doesn't seem very happy today, I don't know why, should I ask him?Will he think I'm an eighth-wife?

---------------------------------------------------------

And so on, I write every day minutiae, never tired of it.Because it's all about him.

I read them all bit by bit until I saw the last one.Then tear off all that little bit, crumple it up, and throw it in the trash.

(one hundred and seven)

Taking advantage of the holiday, I decided to visit my old school

Reminiscing about the little things with him

In the milk tea shop we often go to

I didn't expect to meet Rogo

But he seems to be in a hurry

Hastily wrote down his cell phone number

Let me call him tonight.

I called him after taking a shower at night, it was very noisy there, probably in KTV

"You really called, hahaha, I thought you didn't want to see me"

"no"

"I'm singing here, are you coming?"

"I'm going to bed"

"Okay...Li Zi is also here, why don't you just come and see? We are brothers, we haven't seen each other for a few months, it's rare to see each other"

"... no"

I took the phone and hesitated for a long time.I really want to see him, want to know how he is doing, everything about him.But I'm afraid to see him again, I don't know if our relationship is considered brothers

I don't know how long it took, the phone rang suddenly, and I was shocked.

"Hey"

"kindness"

"Roger, what else do you want?"

"I am Li Ziyi"

"..."

"Just now he said he saw you in the afternoon and gave you his phone number. He didn't expect to see you again. It's really lucky."

What is luck?I panicked when he said that, does it mean that he still catches up with me, at least he didn’t forget me?

"I changed schools"

"I know, I knew it during the summer vacation. I thought you would come to me, at least say goodbye. I didn't expect you to leave without saying a word, leaving nothing behind, not even a phone call"

"I'm in the third year of high school, I want to study hard"

"Yeah, good luck"

He hung up the phone, and there was a beeping sound from the phone.

Wish me luck?What's the meaning?

In fact, I still have a lot to say, and when he hung up the phone, I got stuck in my heart

He didn't even give me a time to say hello, which is really his usual style

just sleep

(One hundred and eight)

Just fell asleep, the phone rang again, I answered it in a daze

"Hey"

"I'm downstairs at your house"

"what?!"

I wake up, sleepless

"I mentioned supper, would you like to come down to eat?"

"It's late, you go back"

"That's fine, you sleep with yours, I'll eat mine downstairs"

"...Okay, wait a minute, I'll go down right away"

I quickly got dressed and went downstairs, my heart almost jumped into my throat, and I was suddenly very excited for no reason.

As soon as I got downstairs, I saw him sitting on a chair in the community, surrounded by steaming midnight snacks

Long time no see, when we saw each other again, I was suddenly very touched, I really wanted to cry, and felt that this was too useless.I shrugged my nose and walked towards him.

He looked at me, didn't say anything, just put the snack on the left, and made room for me to sit.I ate whatever he gave, and we didn't speak a word.The surrounding area is very quiet.I ate chicken legs with him, ordered burgers, and smoked Coke together.Nose is sour after eating.

I'm really disappointed, what's so sad?

It's just that the tears dripped on the plastic lid of the Coke cup in the end.He turned his head to look at me, and I turned my head to the other side, lest he see it and feel ashamed.

When you don't want something to happen, it happens.So when I was trying my best not to cry, I burst into tears == can't stop.It seemed to be venting the pressure, the gloom that had accumulated for too long, or the joy of seeing him again.

"do not Cry"

"..."

"You know what, I miss you so much"

"what?!"

"I don't know why, but after you transferred to another school, I missed you very much. I didn't feel it when I was with you before, but after you left, I felt that there was a piece of my heart missing, and I couldn't be happy at all."

I was surprised to hear this seemingly ambiguous words, but I didn't know what to say

"Peng Qiuqi, how are you doing?"

"Huh? Me, it's pretty good. I met someone who takes good care of me."

"Yes, that's good"

he got up to go

"Wait, I'll take you out of the neighborhood"

"Need not"

"Let's send it to you"

"My mother said no, you are sick"

He roared for no reason, loudly.At this time, many people were asleep, and the surroundings were quiet, but when he roared, it suddenly became uneasy.

"Sorry, I'm leaving, I don't need you to send me"

"Okay, good night"

"..."

Finally, he said a word when he left, but unfortunately I didn't hear it clearly. I watched him walk away, but finally couldn't see him.I walked upstairs slowly, recalling what happened just now.

He looks tired and unhappy, he is all in his mind

I went home carefully, afraid of waking my parents

Lie on the bed and quickly fell asleep, really tired.I clearly remember that I clearly remembered him in my dream that night.

We went back to the second year of high school and sat at the last table.I couldn't see what he was writing in the notebook, so I had to look out the window.He suddenly pushed me with his elbow, I turned my head, he smiled at me, and then gave me the book.

It clearly says: I love you.

In the end, to come fully awake is a deep loss.The reality is that we have all reached the third year of high school, and he has never said that he likes me.

(one hundred and nine)

Come together on Sunday morning.My head suddenly hurts, probably from the wind when I was eating supper last night.

I started to do the test papers after breakfast. We have eight papers for this monthly vacation, and I only made four, which is only one day.

Before I knew it, it was noon, and I started to pack my luggage and prepare to go to school, and I will do the rest at school.

When I got downstairs, I found a bus stop to go to the school. I basically passed half of the urban area to our school, and it took about two hours to transfer several times.

When I got to the opposite side, I suddenly saw a person standing on the overpass of the road, who I recognized at a glance.

I had to cross this overpass to get to the opposite side, but when I suddenly saw him, I hesitated.

I don't know whether to go there, I am in a dilemma.

"Hey, you're finally here." He ran over happily when he saw me.

"Why are you here?" I became very stiff and spoke carefully.

"Waiting for you, I've been waiting since noon until now, knowing that you will pass by here on your way to school, look, you are still here. But I haven't eaten yet, I'm hungry." After he finished speaking, he sighed for a long time, and I wanted to call Say hello and leave.

I'd rather forget what happened last night and never see him again than to have an unclear relationship like now.

He said so, so I had no choice but to invite him to dinner, and I went to a very ordinary beef noodle restaurant.

I used to eat here in the second year of high school. The noodles are not expensive, but they are delicious.

The boss is also very nice, so the business is very good.

When we got there, even though it was almost 3pm, there were still a lot of people.

"Why don't we go, there are so many people, we still have to wait, I'm almost starving to death" He looked at me sadly.

"Wait a little longer... Hey, people here have left, let's sit here." I pulled the stool and sat down, and he sat down too.

"Why do you have to come here to eat, it's so delicious?" He tapped the table with his chopsticks.

"It's delicious, I'll come when we meet, you'll know after eating"

"It's really delicious," he said vaguely with the noodles in his mouth.

"Well, I used to eat here in the second year of high school." I picked up the noodles with chopsticks but couldn't eat any more. After lunch, my stomach was full.

"If you don't want to eat, give me your bowl." He stared at my face.

"How about I order another one?" I looked at him.

"You haven't eaten, there's no need," he said, and started to eat with the noodles.

Suddenly, that moment gave me the illusion of being a sophomore in middle school, as if it was still in the past, we knew the best buddies, and chatted every day after school and after school.

Things have changed so much in a blink of an eye, it really feels like times have changed.

It was almost 4 o'clock after he finished eating. When I arrived at school, it was estimated that it would be almost 7 o'clock.

"You're going to school after eating, I'm going too, I'm going to be late" I settled the bill and went out, intending to turn around and leave.

"Wait, I'll see you off"

"No, I'll wait here for the bus." I looked at him and waited in place.

"Then I'll wait for the bus with you." He stubbornly refused to leave. What he has always believed in cannot be changed, and he will definitely get what he likes.

We didn't say a word while waiting for the bus. I had so many things I wanted to tell him, but I couldn't say them in my heart.

The car drove by, accompanied by the sound of the horn, we stood, separated by a distance of one meter.

In the eyes of others, we are standard strangers, only suitable for a quick meeting in the sea of ​​people and never communicate with each other again.

When the bus stopped, I got on the bus with my luggage and didn't look back at him.

The bus started to drive, and I watched him getting farther and farther under the bus through the window.

After a while, the phone vibrated and opened to a text message.

The number I didn't save, but I can tell who it is at a glance. I used to remember it in my heart in the second year of high school until now.

The text read "Can we continue to be friends? Back to the old days."

Li Ziyi, you yourself already knew that we would never go back to the past and be friends with each other, so why do you say that?

I have done a lot of things for you, and what I got in return was just an unfamiliar friendship.

☆, 11

(110)

I was really bored in the car, so I thought of sending a text message to Brother Luo, telling him that I will go