Hidden Summer

"Five, five years?" Cao Liyu repeated blankly. For the first time in his life, he felt that five years was an extremely long time, but he couldn't find a concept for how long it was.Five years, if calculated backwards, that is to say, the two dated soon after freshman year.Cao Liyu was stunned, clenched and loosened his hands unconsciously, feeling a little short of breath.

"Liyu, I'm sorry for keeping you in the dark for so long..." Xiao Yu apologized uneasily when he saw Cao Liyu's completely stiff expression.

Cao Liyu came back to his senses, and wanted to wave his hands freely to say it was okay, but in the eyes of Xiao Yu and Li Hang, his dodging eyes and body language pretending to be calm were not in harmony at all.

"It turns out that it's been so many years... It seems that I haven't been in love for such a long time. You two are also very good... You must like each other very much after being together for so many years. Then I have nothing to worry about." And he didn't feel that he had any position to comment on the relationship between the two of them. After all, they were lovers, and he was just a bystander and a friend.only friends.

After listening to Cao Liyu's words, Xiao Yu felt even more disturbed: "Liyu, you don't have to force yourself, you can vent whatever you want to scold and vent."

Cao Liyu looked up at Xiao Yu deeply, and said in a low voice, "I didn't force it, as long as you really like each other."

Xiao Yu was confused by Cao Liyu's glance, and confirmed suspiciously: "But didn't you not accept homosexuality before?"

Cao Liyu tried his best to recall, and then replied: "That was before, I still remember that I said some naive things to you, if you dare not confess to me because of my words, then it is still my fault."

Cao Liyu was talking about the summer vacation of the year he graduated from high school. Because of his girlfriend's speculation about Xiao Yu's mind, he tried and pushed Xiao Yu away.What he didn't know was that what he said not only caused Xiao Yu's fear of coming out to Cao Liyu, but also directly caused Xiao Yu to strangle his confession to him when he was an ignorant teenager. Do your best to dispel your attachment to him.

Therefore, when he heard Cao Liyu's words unexpectedly, Xiao Yu was overwhelmed with astonishment, as if his painful struggle had suddenly lost the heavy meaning he had given him, and his heart became light and erratic, but also empty and dazed.

At this time, Li Hang broke the brief silence between the two, wiped away the last trace of ease in his dark eyes, and stared at Cao Liyu very seriously: "If you really accept, Cao Liyu, promise me not to leave again, we still Living together, Xiao Yu and I promise that everything will be exactly the same as before."

"This..." Cao Liyu hesitated.Li Hang's request seemed simple, but it was what Cao Liyu felt most embarrassed about.There are some things that can't be synchronized with rational acceptance of emotions. Cao Liyu still has too many entanglements and concerns, which he failed to express.Before the eyes of the two burned four holes in his body, he still chose to delay the attack: "I'll think about it, I'll think about it again."

Looking at Cao Liyu's expression, Li Hang knew it. He knew that this one-sided creature might choose to be an ostrich again, but he was not in a hurry to force him.On the contrary, Xiao Yu immediately compromised, as if this was the best result he could expect: "Okay, you can think about it as long as you need, but until we come to a conclusion, let's keep it the same as before, okay?"

Cao Liyu nodded, and did not refuse this time. After all, since he decided to move back, he wanted to try to convince himself to accept the reality in order to maintain his most precious friendship in the past 25 years.

Li Hang looked at the hesitant Cao Liyu, then at the cautious Xiao Yu, and looked thoughtfully at the terrace, where the "world" of the three of them was bleak in late autumn.

In December, the weather turns colder and colder. Compared with Cao Liyu's hometown in the south, the temperature in city B is much lower.Fortunately, the cold in the north is dry and cold, unlike the south where the humidity is heavy, and the cold air penetrates into the clothes and pants over time, so it is not difficult to endure.Coupled with Cao Liyu's good physique, he can easily get through winter without wearing too thick clothes.

Cao Liyu came out of the farmer's market wearing a thick sports jacket, carrying several plastic bags of ingredients in his hand.Xiao Yu has been busy with new projects for the past two days. She arrived home late and has no time to go grocery shopping.Because Li Hang was busy with the new bar, he went home at an irregular time every day, and sometimes he didn't get home until almost midnight.So in order to avoid being hungry every day after returning home, Cao Liyu naturally took on the heavy responsibility of grocery shopping. Every day when he got off work from the subway station, he would take a detour to the farmer's market before returning home.

When I got home, the house was empty as usual. Cao Liyu first went into the kitchen to put down the ingredients in his hand, then went back to the living room to take off his satchel and coat, and then went back to the kitchen to start washing vegetables.Cao Liyu put the vegetables into the vegetable sink, turned on the faucet, was greatly stimulated by the cold water flow, and immediately turned the water to lukewarm.

At this time, there was a sound from the entrance, and Cao Liyu didn't need to probe to look, just listening to the footsteps and the rhythm of the movements, he knew that Xiao Yu had returned.

"Liyu, are you washing the vegetables already?" Xiao Yu went to the kitchen to look at Cao Liyu as soon as he changed his shoes.

"Well, you go to rest first, and I will ask you to cook the spoon after I finish washing." Cao Liyu turned his head and smiled.

"I'll come, you go to rest."

"You've been quite busy recently, and you have to cook to feed our two kitchen killers. Let me do the simple work of washing vegetables."

"It's okay, I'm used to it, and I'm more proficient at cooking it. Hey, green vegetables can't be washed in hot water, and the taste will not be crisp after washing in hot water."

"Eh? What's the matter! Okay, I'll wash it in cold water, and you can tell me how to do it, so don't dip it in cold water. You are more afraid of cold than I am, and in case the artist's hands become inflexible after soaking in cold water , Am I not a sinner?"

Cao Liyu insisted on occupying the sink and refused to give in. Xiao Yu had no choice but to continue to wash vegetables, but he did not walk away, just leaning against the kitchen door and quietly watching Cao Liyu's every move.It has been more than a week since Cao Liyu moved back to live. On the surface, everything seems to be slowly returning to the previous state. Cao Liyu still cares about Xiao Yu as before, and still stumbles with Li Hang occasionally. The three of us are still together. They were talking and laughing, as if the previous conflict was just a nightmare.However, Xiao Yu and Li Hang were different from any of Cao Liyu's other friends. They probably knew Cao Liyu more thoroughly than they knew themselves.So even though he didn't say anything, Xiao Yu could still clearly feel that Cao Liyu was different from the past: he no longer had frequent and natural physical contact with himself, and he no longer had open-mouthed and shameless conversations with Li Hang. Just kidding, I no longer proudly mention my love luck from time to time, no longer always want to take myself and Li Hang with me no matter where I go or what I do, but often separate from them without a trace, as if I want to be in this three-person world Create a two-person space for two people.

Xiao Yu didn't know whether he should be happy or helpless about this.He was happy for Cao Liyu's thoughtfulness and understanding, as well as his friendship that he chose to trust unconditionally even though he didn't know much about it; but Cao Liyu gritted his teeth and refused to show it. Cao Liyu drifted away unknowingly.

While thinking about it, Xiao Yu heard a muffled sound, Cao Liyu gasped, poured a large amount of tap water into the tiger's mouth of his left hand, and sucked it into his mouth again.Xiao Yu understood that Cao Liyu was injured, so he hurried forward to check.It turned out that Cao Liyu wanted to wash the fish that had been dissected in the vegetable market after washing the green vegetables. Seeing that there were still scales on the fish that had not been removed, he took the scissors and prepared to scrape it.But when the tail of the fish was scraped, the disembowelled fish flicked its tail violently, the scissors in Cao Liyu's hand suddenly tilted, and a long bloody gash was drawn on the tiger's mouth in his left hand.

Looking at the bloody wound, Xiao Yu felt his scalp numb and his heart ached. He grabbed Cao Liyu's wrist and carried him to the living room: "Don't do it, go sit on the sofa, and I'll give you medicine."

Cao Liyu wanted to withdraw his hand awkwardly: "It's okay, there is no need to make a fuss about a little skin injury, just wash it with water and lick it. Didn't I get a much more serious injury when I played basketball and climbed mountains? When I finish washing the dishes, you give me I'll just find a Band-Aid."

Xiao Yu, on the other hand, gave Cao Liyu a hard look, and reprimanded severely: "Do you know how easy it is to get infected with bacteria and tetanus if you treat the wound casually like you? You don't know how to take care of yourself every time, what do you want me to do?" Don't worry, you're going where I can't see you?"

I don't know if Cao Liyu was overwhelmed by Xiao Yu's sudden fierce aura, so he shut his mouth honestly and remained silent. Ren Xiaoyu pulled himself to sit on the sofa, and brought the medicine box to treat his wound.

The wound was not deep, but quite long. Xiao Yu first sterilized the wound with iodine, then carefully wiped Cao Liyu's left hand clean with alcohol cotton, then sprinkled some Yunnan Baiyao powder and wrapped it with gauze.It would be a lie to say that this process does not hurt. Those disinfecting and sterilizing drugs have stimulated Cao Liyu's muscles all over his body, but he has never known what peace is. It passed, only occasionally the hand twitched in response to stress.Every time Cao Liyu's hand trembled, Xiao Yu stopped his hand movements, blew on the wound, and then applied the medicine more gently, as if he treated Cao Liyu like a weak child.

From his angle, Cao Liyu looked at Xiao Yu's smooth and full forehead, delicate eyebrows, slender eyelashes, and his fairer skin under the background of the light blue sweater, and suddenly felt a soreness in his heart, which went straight to his nasal cavity .

After treating the wound, Xiao Yu was about to withdraw his hand to organize the medicine box, but Cao Liyu's gauze-wrapped hand gently grabbed his fingers.Cao Liyu didn't use much strength, but Xiao Yu couldn't bear to pull his hands away. He raised his head to look at Cao Liyu, only to see that he was looking at him with his mouth flattened and eyebrows drooping, his black eyes full of grievances.

Xiao Yu shook Cao Liyu's hand, paying special attention not to touch the wound, and the two of them did not speak for a while.

After a while, Cao Liyu calmed down his sudden flood of sour emotions, suddenly felt embarrassed, blushed slightly and wanted to withdraw his hand: "Well, I suddenly had a convulsion for some reason, but it's actually nothing wrong."

Withdrawing his hand but not pulling it back, Cao Liyu looked at Xiao Yu in embarrassment, but saw that the other party had a gentle expression that could melt an iceberg, and Cao Liyu's hard-to-ignore emotions flickered in his brown pupils.Cao Liyu lowered his head and pulled his hand harder. Xiao Yu was afraid that he would pull the wound, so he let go of his hand, but instead held his wrist.

Feeling the warm touch of his palm, Xiao Yu felt that his long-term uneasiness was slightly relieved, and finally he was able to calmly ask the question he had been worrying for a long time: "Li Yu, tell the truth, what do you think about the matter between me and Hang?" of?"

Cao Liyu didn't say a word, he just stared at Xiao Yu's slender and white hands and pointed his attention.Seeing his dazed and supple look, Xiao Yu couldn't help but leaned closer, and gently stroked the thin skin on the inside of Cao Liyu's wrist with his thumb.

"I..." Cao Liyu uttered a single tone, and then swallowed the words back.

"Liyu, tell me, don't worry about my feelings, I just want to know what you really think." Xiao Yu moved closer, sniffing the dry and refreshing sunshine on Cao Liyu's body.

When they got close, Cao Liyu could also feel Xiao Yu's body temperature. He leaned back slightly uncomfortably, and shifted his gaze to the tea table beside him.He tried to organize his words and muttered: "It's not that I don't say it, but I don't know how to say it, or I don't know whether I hate it or I have accepted it. Although I don't dislike you being together , but when I think that only if you get closer, I feel a little bit excluded and a little bit unwilling. So I am very conflicted, and I can’t figure out whether I accept your things calmly now, or I want you to separate.”

This should be the time when Cao Liyu expressed his thoughts clearly.Xiao Yu listened quietly, and could feel Cao Liyu's dilemma, but he felt faintly happy, because Cao Liyu really thought about his own affairs seriously, because he really valued himself.

Xiao Yu didn't speak for a long time, Cao Liyu raised his eyes to look at him, then turned his eyes away again, and answered by himself: "But I don't want to alienate you because of this. I don't want to leave."

The house is very quiet. The cool wind of early winter passes through the living room and gently brushes the skins of the two of them. The two people on the sofa also entered the same blurred world.

Cao Liyu turned his head and looked out the window, seeing that the rose-colored light covering the entire sky of the city was gradually fading, and he couldn't help sighing.

His cheek was lightly touched, and Cao Liyu turned his head in doubt, just in time to see Xiao Yu's gentle and bewildered smile blooming on his face, and his own lost face was reflected in his dreamy eyes that were reflected by the sunset.

Xiao Yu whispered softly: "I don't want you to leave either, I want to be with you forever." Then he kissed Cao Liyu's slightly parted lips in surprise.

Xiao Yu's kiss was like a superficial touch. He just sucked lightly and then quietly pressed against Cao Liyu's lips without any movement, enjoying the intimacy of being entangled with Cao Liyu's breath.Cao Liyu only struggled reflexively at the beginning, but after feeling his wrist was pinched by Xiao Yu, he no longer resisted.

After a few minutes, Xiao Yu backed away a little, put his forehead against Cao Liyu, lowered his eyes, not daring to look at the other person's expression.

"Why?" Cao Liyu just asked calmly.

"...Because I like you." Xiao Yu was surprised that he didn't hesitate to tell the secret that had been buried in his heart for many years.

This secret, this confession that was too late for many years, Xiao Yu once thought that he was going to take it into the coffin.He also thought that decades later, when the three of them are all gray-haired and old, he might jokingly tell Cao Liyu about his crush on him back then, about the heartaches he had suffered over the years, about those things that happened to Cao Liyu. Good sad memories of summer, maybe not.He didn't expect that today, this secret slipped out of his mouth so simply, and he didn't feel nervous or flustered at all.

Cao Liyu blushed, and the heat soon spread to Xiao Yu's skin, causing Xiao Yu to look up.Cao Liyu lowered his head even lower, and murmured: "As expected, you still..."

Xiao Yu blinked puzzledly: "What did you say?"

Cao Liyu leaned back and wanted to put a little distance between the two of them: "I know."

"what do you know?"

"I know you...you like me."

"You know? How do you know?"

"Because of you...in the summer vacation of my junior year, at Li Hang's former home, one night, you kissed me, but I was actually still awake..."

Xiao Yu approached Cao Liyu in astonishment, and continued to ask: "Then why didn't you push me away? Why didn't you say anything or do anything afterwards?"

Cao Liyu blushed when he was forced to ask, frowned and raised his hand to push Xiao Yu: "Don't ask me... I don't know..."

Seeing Cao Liyu's reaction, Xiao Yu found it unbelievable, and suddenly found it difficult to restrain the excitement in his heart, and even felt a little dizzy.He couldn't help blushing, and felt his heart beating fast and heavy, as if it was going to pop out of his throat in the next moment.

"Liyu, Liyu, do you... like me a little bit? Even if only a little bit, do you like me too?"

"I told you I don't know! Don't ask..."

The first time Cao Liyu yelled at Xiao Yu was under such circumstances, and Xiao Yu not only didn't care, but was happy with it.As soon as Cao Liyu looked up, seeing Xiao Yu looking at him smiling like a spring breeze, he suddenly became angry from embarrassment, pushed him away and wanted to stand up and run back to his room.

Naturally, Xiao Yu refused to let Cao Liyu slip away, grabbed his wrist tightly, pulled him back, and kissed him on the lips again.

The kiss was long and thin. Cao Liyu forgot to breathe at first because of his panic, and was almost suffocated. It wasn't until Xiao Yu's fingers touched the stretched veins on his neck and stroked them soothingly that he took a sudden breath.When Xiao Yu's tongue finally licked his teeth and broke in, Cao Liyu frowned, pushed Xiao Yu away with all his strength, and kissed the pair of bright red eyes glowing with water Without thinking about his thin lips, he pried open Xiao Yu's teeth and drove straight in.

Xiao Yu turned his head to cater to Cao Liyu cooperatively, and stretched out his arms to wrap his arms around Cao Liyu's neck.Limbs entangled, ears and temples rubbed together, and soon the bodies of both of them rose into unbearable heat.

"What should I do..." Cao Liyu muttered indistinctly between the kisses, his voice was hoarse and soft, and it was completely gone from the usual clarity.

Xiao Yu was bewitched by Cao Liyu's voice, while continuing to kiss passionately, he squeezed his hands between the two of them, one stretched in from the hem of Cao Liyu's sweater, stroked his waist carefully, and one untied Cao Liyu's hand. The buttons of the jeans were zipped down and cautiously reached in to hold the heat source.

The stimulation was so direct that Cao Liyu was so startled that he grabbed Xiao Yu's restless wrist and stopped with a trembling voice, "This... this is wrong... we should stop and calm down..."

However, Xiao Yu had already given up thinking, and murmured softly following Cao Liyu's words: "This is wrong...but I don't want to calm down..."

Cao Liyu's nose was dripping with sweat, Xiao Yu gently licked it away, and when the other's lips and tongue sucked his own wet eyelashes, he closed his eyes naturally.In the darkened world, streaks of snow-white light exploded, and with the movements of Xiao Yu's palm, they devoured all his thoughts one by one.

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