Hidden Summer

What does it feel like to change color?Cao Liyu now really felt the shock of the disintegration of his inner world.

He walked out of the bar in a trance, and wandered around the bar street full of dragons and snakes for a while before remembering to take a taxi home.He still remembered that he forgot to call Xiao Yu, he must have made more of his dinner, right?Will Xiao Yu be worried if he doesn't go back?Will Li Hang also feel uneasy?Cao Liyu thought about these questions almost instinctively, even though every question hit his vulnerable heart like a thorn.

what to do?Can I still face them normally?No, should I say that I can bear being under the same roof with them?What expression should I use when I see them?What should I say?By the way, I have to explain why I came back late, why I came back late...

Cao Liyu got out of the car in a daze, got into the elevator and got out of the elevator, but then slid on the ground with his head clutched against the wall.

He couldn't do it...he couldn't imagine the distorted expression on his face when he saw those two people...

Xiao Yu handed the spoon to her mouth, Li Hang kissed it seemingly without a trace, Xiao Yu always smiled at herself gently on the sidelines of the court, Li Hang carefully took care of every scene in the "world" on the terrace, Xiao Yu Often cooking his favorite seafood, Li Hang reached out to rub his hair top from time to time, Xiao Yu's lips were soft and fresh to the touch, Li Hang's cold but doting eyes, Xiao Yu pursed his lips for the only time he wanted to cry Li Hang's expression, the pure joy shown by Li Hang holding the bonsai he made for the first time...

The picture engraved with those two people played back in Cao Liyu's mind like a revolving lantern. The more beautiful the picture, the colder he felt all over.In fact, he didn't know that he was curled up and shivering.

Get up, open the door, walk in, take off your shoes, walk through the living room, go into your room, lock the door, lay down on the bed and sleep well, it's okay to skip work tomorrow, sleep well, wake up and talk to them Talk to them, tell them that homosexuality is nothing more than liking the same sex, tell them that they don't mind, it just takes time to get used to it, and the three of them will still be inseparable buddies...

Cao Liyu kept imitating the situation after he entered the door in his mind, and finally his mind became blank.After a long time, he staggered to his feet, hiding all the emotions on his face behind a wooden mask.

He dragged his heavy steps to the door, and after digging through his pockets for a long time, he found the key to open the door.

Just as the door was opened a crack to reveal the light in the room, Cao Liyu suddenly became frightened.He took a deep breath and walked into the hall——

Li Hang hugged Xiao Yu and was kissing.

Xiao Yu said "love" to Li Hang with a trembling voice.

The two of them were tightly entangled as if they were one.

Why did Cao Liyu appear here?

What is the significance of Cao Liyu's existence?

Is there still room for Cao Liyu to gain a foothold here?

He began to hear ringing in his ears, and those sharp voices turned into merciless ridicule, forcing him to turn around and rush to the elevator.

"You, Xiao Yu, and Li Hang are too close, right?"

Cao Liyu paused while holding the chopsticks, then grinned triumphantly and looked at the beautiful girlfriend opposite: "Of course, we have been good friends for many years! Is there any problem?"

Since Cao Liyu broke up with his cute little girlfriend during the summer vacation of his first year of high school, he didn't make a new girlfriend until half a year later.It's very rare, the person he dated this time was a beautiful and generous senior, and Cao Liyu fell for a short time after being chased by the other party.Later, according to the senior sister, she fell in love with Cao Liyu because she liked his sunny aura and cute boyish demeanor.To be honest, my girlfriend this time is in good condition in all aspects. I have a lot in common with Cao Liyu in my favorite movies and outdoor activities, and I will take care of Cao Liyu considerately. The only fly in the ointment is probably my obsession with gay literature.

The two have been dating steadily for a year and a half. Even though the senior sister went to the provincial capital to study in university, she still maintains a long-distance relationship with Cao Liyu. During holidays, the two will choose a place to travel. The relationship is not sticky, but it is also very Stable, almost no disputes.During the summer vacation, the senior went back to her hometown in Q City, and the two would go out on dates from time to time, sometimes playing with Xiao Yu and Li Hang, and sometimes enjoying the world of two.

The two of them had just come back from a movie date and were having dinner.The senior who was losing weight put down her chopsticks first, and watched Cao Liyu eating well, when a question popped up suddenly, and Cao Liyu answered without thinking.

The senior sister put her side-tied low ponytail behind her back, put her hands on her cheeks and showed a cute smile: "I'm jealous, you two are so good that you won't spark the spark of love?"

Cao Liyu sneered: "You've watched too much gay stuff, have you gone mad?"

The senior sister defended solemnly: "I only know YYTwo-dimensional men and men, and I won't open my mind in three dimensions! I'm serious, you like me, I know this, but you don't think so, Xiao Is Yu and Li Hang's interaction with you too ambiguous? Especially Xiao Yu."

Cao Liyu answered the question perfunctorily while chewing the food in his mouth: "What's wrong with Xiao Yu?"

"Xiao Yu, I always keep my eyes on you. Every time I go outing together or watch your game together, as long as I look at him, I will find him looking at you. And as long as you look at him, you will see him. Talk to him and smile, he looks very happy. This obviously likes you~"

"Is there? Why don't I think so?"

"Hey, you are as straight as a laser ray, and you are extremely slow in this regard. How did you find out? I am your girlfriend, and I am always looking at you. Is it natural to notice potential rivals?"

"Our relationship is very good, and Xiao Yu is a bit introverted, he would like to be next to me and Li Hang, is that okay?"

"Please, if you treat him as a good friend, then you can ask yourself, would you behave like this to a good friend? You still have to believe in a woman's intuition~"

"Okay, don't think about it, you are like a soldier, I didn't know you liked me so much hehe~"

"Don't you be so stinky! Didn't Xiao Yu never have a girlfriend in high school? I'm not afraid to tell you, I heard from an old high school classmate that she used to chase Xiao Yu, and Xiao Yu told her that he There is a person who has liked for a long time, but has never had the courage to confess, because once he confesses, he may not even be a friend. No matter how I think about it, I think that person is you..."

Cao Liyu stopped chewing, confused by the secret he had heard for the first time.He had never heard Xiao Yu mention this matter. The three of them have always been open and honest about their favorite object, which was agreed upon when they were in junior high school.If he and Li Hang had known who Xiao Yu liked, they would have spared no effort to fuel the flames without saying a word.

Cao Liyu confirmed to his girlfriend hesitantly: "You are not making up stories to amuse me, are you?"

The senior sister curled her lips: "How can I be so boring! Hey, tell me what you think, if Xiao Yu confesses to you, what will you do?"

"Please! This kind of thing won't happen at all, okay? You don't want to match me and him to satisfy your fantasy?"

"Nonono~" The senior sister leaned on the back of the chair with a serious face, and shook her right index finger, "You are so wrong~ I have already said that I will not mess with the three-dimensional person of YY, let alone you are still me boyfriend. To be honest, I tried to watch GV, and I still can’t accept the reality of men hugging men. What about you?”

"This... I couldn't accept it at all before, but after being influenced by you, I began to think that this is just a special phenomenon."

"Can you accept me and me with men? Do you know what to do when gay men are together? Do you know how to do this and that when gay men have sex? The last step is to put one party's OO into the other party's XX Don't you feel sick?"

"Uh... After listening to your description, I think it would be a bit disgusting if it happened to me..."

"In reality, it's disgusting for men to be together with men~ So," the senior sister sat up straight again, and even leaned her upper body forward. Yu really likes you, I can't stand it. And if you respond to him a little bit, I'm sorry, we will break up."

Uncomfortably looking away, Cao Liyu lowered his head and poked the rice in the bowl, and replied with a dry smile: "You think too much, it's impossible."

"Don't be so sure, Xiao Yu can't bear it anymore, can he?"

Cao Liyu stared blankly at his beautiful girlfriend, who was smiling proudly, feeling a little strange and stunned.

Since that awkward summer, summer after summer has flown by.

That summer, when Cao Liyu was alone with Xiao Yu, he casually mentioned his girlfriend's special hobbies, and then jokingly said: "I really don't understand why she likes to watch those strange things so much. Isn't it disgusting to kiss and touch together? Men should be with women!"

Xiao Yu, who was sitting at the side and listened to Cao Liyu's complaints with a gentle smile before, murmured, "Ordinary people seem to be a little incomprehensible...?"

"That's right! It's absolutely unacceptable!" Cao Liyu, who was echoed by Xiao Yu, suddenly regained his spirits, turned his head and said to his friend with a bright smile, "So, you must not fall in love with me, that's too disgusting."

At that moment, Cao Liyu saw that Xiao Yu's perfect and stiff smile seemed to have cracked a thin crack, and as the crack continued to extend, Xiao Yu's brows and eyes showed the emotion of crying.Cao Liyu was so shocked by this expression that he forgot to react.

Xiao Yu lowered her head before the corners of her mouth could no longer hold back, and said with a trembling smile, "I don't like you." But that laugh was more pitiful than crying.

It turned out that what my girlfriend said was not a joke.

Cao Liyu looked back silently, not knowing whether his true thoughts were consistent with what he said.

Before he could think about it deeply, Xiao Yu began to avoid Cao Liyu's invitation to play together; before he could figure it out, Xiao Yu came back into his line of sight, with the gentle smile he was familiar with.Everything seems to be like a dream, everything seems to be the same as before.

And another good friend of theirs, Li Hang, didn't ask what happened between the two of them, but just stayed by their side from the beginning to the end, only Cao Liyu was relieved and didn't want to explore the true thoughts of himself and Xiao Yu, After playing together as always, the three of them said to Cao Liyu: "There is no problem between the three of us that cannot be resolved, and everything else is secondary to our friendship."

Cao Liyu agreed with Li Hang's words.Since Xiao Yu has decided to turn the page and not mention that secret relationship, why should he be persistent?Just let time dilute everything.

The summer that passed the first year of college was particularly hot. Amidst the cicadas shaking the sky, Cao Liyu and his girlfriend broke up peacefully.

In the summer of the second year, the three single buddies packed their bags and hid in Fenghuang Ancient Town, Hunan Province for a month.

In the third year, Li Hang dropped out of school and rented an apartment in City B. During the summer vacation, Cao Liyu dragged Xiao Yu and couldn't wait to visit him.

At that time, Cao Liyu had long forgotten the shock in his heart that summer. He hardly remembered that Xiao Yu had any other thoughts about him, so he frankly accepted the arrangement of sharing a room with Xiao Yu, and enjoyed talking with Xiao Yu before going to bed. The quiet time when Xiao Yu talked and laughed softly.

One day, the three of them were tired from playing during the day, and at night Cao Liyu and Xiao Yu said that they were sleepy and going to sleep without talking a few words, but in fact he probably thought it was because he was too excited during the day, although his eyelids were heavy and his consciousness was chaotic. Have not been able to sleep soundly.

After a long time, he heard Xiao Yu sitting up from the bed and getting out of bed lightly.At first he thought Xiao Yu wanted to go to the bathroom, so he continued to hypnotize himself in his mind without hesitation, trying to make the slight sound of the wind blowing over the potted plant on the bay window a lullaby, but suddenly he felt the pain on his face. There is breath approaching.His lips felt a crisp, soft texture before he opened his eyes to recognize it.

Neither Cao Liyu nor Xiao Yu like to sleep with the air conditioner on, so they open the windows and the bedroom door to let the summer night breeze pass through the room, while Cao Liyu is only wearing a vest and shorts, lying on his back on the bamboo mat, with only a corner of towel covered over his belly button blanket.So at this moment, Cao Liyu turned his back to the sky, his lips were gently kissed by Xiao Yu.

Perhaps because his consciousness was still half asleep, it took Cao Liyu some time to realize the situation, and it took him some time to remember that he should protest, or at least let Xiao Yu know that he was awake.But before he could move, Xiao Yu's breath left.

The kiss was clean and pure, with the same refreshing soap fragrance as Cao Liyu, and it felt very good. Cao Liyu was a little impulsive to pull him back the moment Xiao Yu left.But his regressed awareness told him to do nothing.

The midnight smoky wind continued to blow over the broad-leaved plant, as well as Cao Liyu's slightly hot face.He didn't dare to open his eyes, he was afraid that when he opened them, he would find Xiao Yu still looking at him.He didn't dare to move, for fear that any movement would destroy the beautiful tranquility at this moment.He didn't even dare to make a sound, he was afraid that if he made a sound, he would reveal his heartbeat like a drum.He just pretended to be asleep quietly, silently savoring the remaining touch on his lips, and slowly felt a soft feeling in his chest.

In the end, Cao Liyu fell into a deep sleep when he knew it was dawn. Before losing consciousness, he sighed: So I also like Xiao Yu...

But so what?Nothing will change, everything else is secondary to our friendship.Just let time dilute everything...

The author has something to say: So Xiaoye Cao is dull, not stupid...