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The grass and trees in the courtyard are luxuriant and verdant, and the smoke from the houses in the village not far away is gradually rising. The evening wind is full of fireworks. Meng Huaize and A Fei are sitting on the porch, watching the last golden rays of the setting sun disappear on the edge of the green leaves.

Meng Huaize turned to look at A Fei, the little goblin was sitting upright, her two paws clenched together.

"A Fei," Meng Huaize said, "Is there something on your mind recently?"

A Fei shook his head.

"Is that what I did wrong?" Meng Huaize asked.

Ah Fei seemed not expecting Meng Huaize to say this, she suddenly raised her head and met Meng Huaize's gaze.

"Of course not!" He stood up a little anxiously, loosened his two paws that were originally clenched together, and dangled in the air a little helplessly, "Doctor Meng is the best person I have ever met."

Meng Huaize shook his head: "I'm not as good as you said. I often do wrong things, and I may even be unaware of them. If I did something wrong, it would make you unhappy. I hope you Can you tell me."

Ah Fei just shook her head desperately, both Doudou's eyes were a little red.

Meng Huaize frowned slightly, and said bluntly: "A Fei, I think you are a little strange these days, if it's not because of me, then why, can you tell me?"

Ah Fei's two paws were clawed together again, and with his head lowered, Meng Huaize could only see the top of his head, but couldn't see his expression clearly.

long silence.

Meng Huaize couldn't bear it, thinking that if he really didn't want to say it, let it go, he frowned, and said slowly: "It's okay, you can tell me when you want to talk."

Ah Fei still looked the same, she didn't move her place, she lowered her head deeply, looking inexplicably uncomfortable.

"A Fei..." Meng Huaize shouted worriedly.

"Doctor Meng has met a lot of goblins..." The little goblin said in a choked voice.

Meng Huaize was taken aback.

Ah Fei's head was buried in her chest, and her voice came out, trembling, as if she didn't know whether these words were beyond the bounds, and even her heart was cautiously uncertain.

"They are all better than me..." Ah Fei said softly.

Those goblins are smart, they can run and jump, they can make people happy, they can snuggle up beside Meng Huaize and let him touch his head, they can do everything, but he can't do anything.

Meng Huaize didn't expect this to be the reason. After a brief moment of astonishment, he explained in a low voice: "A Fei, I have never thought about it this way, and I have never thought that you are any worse than them..."

Ah Fei hummed: "I know."

Meng Huaize stopped talking.

It's not clear what he said about Ah Fei, but sometimes emotions are so strange, it has nothing to do with others, but only with oneself.Even though Ah Fei knew that Meng Huaize would not have the slightest dislike for him, when a new fairy appeared around Meng Huaize who seemed better to him, he still felt unavoidably inferior and could not help but back away , Hiding in the shadows that are not noticed by others, never wanting to show up again.

Meng Huaize looked at the little goblin in front of him, and reached out to touch the top of Ah Fei's head to comfort him, but when he was about to touch the little goblin, his movements stopped.

He still remembered the overwhelming discomfort and irresistible heat after meeting Ah Fei, which was not a consequence he could take at will.

Meng Huaize loosened and clenched his hand, but finally let it go.

He lowered his eyes, with a sad expression on his face, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

I don't know if it's because of the neglect of Ah Fei's mood in the past period of time, or because of the hand that was withdrawn just now.

Ah Fei shook her head, still with that obedient look: "It has nothing to do with Dr. Meng..."

The wind in early summer was warm, and the sound of insects could be faintly heard from the trees in the distance. Ah Fei rubbed her eyes and said softly, "Doctor Meng, please be busy, I will go back first."

His two pink wings hang down behind him, and he walks limping, looking a bit slow and childish.

Meng Huaize stood up behind him: "A Fei."

Ah Fei turned her head, her eyes were red, like an ugly bunny.

"A Fei," Meng Huaize said, "I'm very frank, I'm very happy to meet so many goblins on Chuanji Mountain, they are all very nice, and I really like them very much."

He came over and squatted down in front of Ah Fei, looking straight into his eyes with a sincere expression: "But you and Xuezhao are different to me."

A Fei stared at him blankly.

Meng Huaize lowered his eyes and smiled. He always felt that he was hypocritical when he said something, but sometimes he had to say it.

"I've never seen anything like spirits and monsters before. Wu Yue was the first monster I met, and then Xuezhao and you. At that time, I knew very little about monsters, and I had to worry about the monsters on Chuanji Mountain every day." An evil monster suddenly appeared." Meng Huaize's voice sounded low in the evening wind, as if comforting, but also as if nostalgic, "but that time was also the most lively and happiest period of time for me, unlike the past when I was alone. I’ve always been so lucky to have met you.”

"Fei, maybe these words are a bit redundant, but I still want to tell you that although you are somewhat different from other fairies, it is just because of your nature. You have nothing wrong with you, and you are no worse than other fairies. I like you very much and have always regarded you as my friend."

Meng Huaize spoke earnestly, and Ah Fei listened earnestly. After a long time, he suddenly lowered his head and hummed heavily.

Meng Huaize's heart is soft, if it is true about age, the little goblin in front of him may be a few rounds older than him, but maybe because of their young stature, coupled with the late maturity of the goblin, Meng Huaize looked at them It's always like looking at those young and pitiful children in the village, inexplicably feeling the kindness of the elders...

Meng Huaize coughed, and quickly swept away the terrifying image of himself hunched over and waving kindly with white hair and beard in his mind.

Finally, he said to Ah Fei: "Tomorrow morning I will go to Chuanji Mountain to collect herbs. If you want to try to meet other fairies, then we can go together and I will accompany you. If you don't want to It doesn't matter, you can come here to find me anytime."

The moonlight lightly shone on Meng Huaize's face, his expression was very gentle: "Don't worry about me or anything else, just follow your own mind, no matter what you think, I will respect you."

Ah Fei just nodded vigorously.

After Ah Fei left, Meng Huaize stood where he was for a long time without moving.

The smile on his face disappeared, and the moonlight was covered by the branches and leaves, casting mottled light and shadows on his face, making his expression a little dark and unclear.

During the day, the appearance of Mu Qing and the appearance of Ah Fei just now appeared in front of Meng Huaize. They both harbored liking, and because of liking, they both chose to give up approaching, either because of understanding, or because of low self-esteem, or because of incompetence. .

Meng Huaize didn't know what he was upset about, but he couldn't control the confusion in his heart.

Either because he suddenly discovered that there are so many helpless things in this world, or in the sympathy and sympathy for Mu Qing and A Fei, he saw a similar panic deep in his own heart.

Wu Yue's voice came from the room: "What are you doing standing there, if you don't come in, I won't leave you the last fruit."

Meng Huaize let go of the clenched hand at his side, he pursed his lips, exhaled lightly, stretched out his hand and rubbed his face vigorously, and replied, "Here we come."