can you be my boyfriend

Shu Yunzhang couldn't bear it anymore, his palm seemed to have a cluster of flames, and he held his sinking calf.

"What are you doing?" His tone was harsh, but his breath was short.

Shen Zai didn't speak, raised his upper body, stuck out his index finger, his eyes were soft and begging, following his fingertips, from Shu Yunzhang's eyes to the tip of his nose, and then to his lips.

Like a butterfly with a floral fragrance that stays for a while.

"Sink in..."

Shu Yunzhang wants to educate him well and tell him that many things cannot be...

Fuck!

Taking advantage of Shu Yunzhang's slightly parted lips, Shen Zai's fingertips burrowed in a little.

The rest of the senses become especially sensitive when darkness falls.

Shu Yunzhang has held Shen Zai's hand countless times. If he thinks about it carefully, he can probably recall the appearance of every finger.

For example, the index finger is thin and long, the middle finger has a callus left by writing, there is a beautiful small arc between the first knuckle and the second knuckle of the fourth finger, and the little finger is below the second knuckle of the fourth finger .

For example, the lines on the palm are very shallow and the lifeline is short.

For example, the fingertips are always a healthy pink color and feel soft to the touch.

But Shu Yunzhang didn't know that Shen Zai's fingertips could have a light fragrance of red wine, which was his favorite Romanée-Conti. The wine flowed through the mouth into the throat, like a long, lingering and affectionate kiss.

They were separated by less than a punch, and the thin air was warmed by sight and breath.

Shen Zai blinked lightly and slowly, thinking of many, many moments related to Shu Yunzhang.

Seeing Shu Yunzhang in the photo for the first time, the hand that opened the door for him when he went to Shu Yunzhang's house for the first time, watching his favorite "Crazy Zootopia", and falling asleep in Shu Yunzhang's arms that night, Shu Yunzhang loved Every time he is good...

But these are probably marked with the price tag of being called a younger brother.

"In fact, I've always regretted it," Shen Zai choked up, and glistening drops of water dripped from his narrow eye sockets, and landed on the skin of Shu Yunzhang's chest, swimming out a small piece of coldness, "Calling your brother... I regretful."

He retracted his fingertips and turned his face to one side.

Shen cried a lot, several times because of Shu Yunzhang.

But he was clearly here to protect Shen Zai, to make him feel safe and happy every minute he was with him, but Shu Yunzhang failed to do so.

Shen Zai wanted to leave, probably there were still many unresolved feelings between them.Shu Yunzhang is 11 years older than him, age will bring him pressure, Shen Zai understands.

He sat up, and when his toes were about to reach the ground, he suddenly regretted it.

He thought: Actually, what I want is not much.

So he went back again and asked Shu Yunzhang: "Brother...I think..."

It seemed difficult to speak, Shu Yunzhang looked at him expressionlessly.

He made Shen Zai lose control of his emotions in this way, and tears poured out in large quantities, much like a sudden and rapid rainstorm.

"sorry."

Shen Zai apologized, "I'm really sorry."

Is it because he is still too young?So Shen Zaishang didn't understand love very well, but he overdrawn his dependence on Shu Yunzhang.

The moment he wanted to escape, Shu Yunzhang, who had been unresponsive all the time, grabbed his wrist, and Shen Zai turned around and asked him what was wrong, covering his mouth with his free hand, and crying helplessly while looking at the bed sheet.

Can't stand it.

If a person cries like this for himself, he will have some pity, right?

What's more, it's none other than Shen Zai.

He is Shu Yunzhang's baby in this life.

His eyes flickered, and Shu Yunzhang pushed Shen Zai to the ground towards him with force. Shen Zai was crying so hard that he couldn't speak clearly, but Shu Yunzhang probably knew what he wanted to say.

"What should I do? I can't help it."

A little noisy, Shu Yunzhang turned over and pressed him into the soft bed.

Shen Zai fell in heavily, and suddenly stopped, his eyes were wide open, looking at him, curled up into a small ball.

Probably this is Shen Zai's most frequent appearance, carrying his heavy shell on his back, shuttling among the crowd who will not accept him, and always being alone.

Only occasionally, Shen Zai would bravely throw himself into Shu Yunzhang's arms at the most unacceptable risk of being rejected.

His expression was a bit gloomy, and Shu Yunzhang suddenly put his hand on the side of his neck, and tilted his head from the itching, showing a nice arc.

The palm moved slowly, whether it was light or heavy, Shen Zai didn't hate it.

His loss and collapse gradually calmed down, replaced by the desire about Shu Yunzhang that he never dared to say in his heart.

Not long after, Shu Yunzhang wiped away his wet, broken hair, and called him in a hoarse voice: "Baby..."

Then issue a command-like request.

"Look up, okay? My brother wants to kiss you."

Before Shen Zai could react, Shu Yunzhang pinched his chin and covered him.

With his lips bitten, Shen Zai grabbed Shu Yunzhang's collar and trembled slightly under him.

Shen Zai had imagined the feeling of kissing Shu Yunzhang many times.

After meeting Shu Yunzhang, every time Shen watched a romantic movie, he would replace the main characters with them.

He knew it was wrong, it was something he couldn't say, but his thoughts were out of his control.

How can you not think about it?That's the one he loves.

A person with avoidant personality disorder, a person who should be pathologically difficult to love violently, is the first person who feels in love in a life that is neither long nor short.

Sometimes when Shu Yunzhang spoke, he stared at his lips. On the surface, he seemed to be listening seriously, but in fact he was imagining something that he couldn't touch.

On the day when it finally became true, Shen Zai was suddenly stunned again.

Why is it so different from what I thought?

Shu Yunzhang pressed Shen Zai under him, and then they kissed.

Many things floated past Shen's eyes.

For example, the polar bear who is the culprit, the surging waves under our feet when we went to the beach with Shen Fu, and the colorful fireworks that instantly rose into the sky and exploded.

Along the black night, a light belt falls with its own arc.

(Review you look here is just a kiss on the neck and nothing else happened!)

The night was terribly quiet, with only the overlapping and undulating breathing of the two of them in my ears.

Shu Yunzhang's kiss is very different from his attitude towards Shen Zai.

He moved fiercely, he didn't even stop the hand pinching his waist, Shen Zai was kissed dizzyingly, painful and confused, but he actually liked it so much.

In the end they parted with rapid panting, Shu Yunzhang stopped suddenly, jumped out of bed and went to the bathroom.

Shen Zai bent his arms and grabbed the pillow for a while, sticking out a pink tip of his tongue.

Soon the light was turned on in the bathroom, and Shen Zai dazedly touched his hot lips, which were so hot that they were about to bleed.

It's so strange that after the kiss, she was even more embarrassed than when Shen Zai just moved into Shu Yunzhang's house and didn't know him well.

Shen Zai was wondering why, but suddenly there was the sound of water in the bathroom.

He rubbed his face and felt that it was about to turn red again.

When Shu Yunzhang came back, Shen Zai was already in a daze. He was very cold, with a chill in his body, but Shen Zai, who was sweating from being wrapped in a thick quilt and heating, liked it very much.

He bowed towards Shu Yunzhang unconsciously, as if he had forgotten what happened not long ago.

Shen Zai was so dizzy and unconscious after being kissed.

But still begging for hugs like the one who made him like that.

A cold bath made Shu Yunzhang sober up a lot. He took Shen Zai, watched him sleep peacefully, and thought of the difference between him and him.

Shen Zai could accept it calmly, but Shu Yunzhang only wanted to explain and take responsibility.

He slowly touched Shen Zai's hair, and felt that his hair had grown a lot during this time.

The body also has toughness, probably because the military has trained a lot.

Shen Zai closed his eyes, so peaceful.

Shu Yunzhang didn't understand how he gained Shen Zai's trust.

Thinking back carefully, it doesn't seem like such a difficult process.

It was Shu Yunzhang who asked Shen Fu to take care of Shen Zai.

At that time, Shen Fu was very worried about this matter, but Shu Yunzhang was still abroad and would be able to return to China soon.

The company gave him two choices, here now, or a better city.

Originally, there was no need to think about it, everyone would choose another place, but Shu Yunzhang made the opposite choice. His boss even invited him to dinner and asked him why. Shu Yunzhang said frankly: "It's a personal matter."

When he was still abroad, he was ready to welcome Shen Jae.

He read a lot of books on psychology and asked his former classmates and teachers for help, but he still had no idea.

The company had a dinner the night before, and Shu Yunzhang thought that Shen Zai would come the next day, so he originally wanted to refuse, but then he thought, he is nervous, let's go and have fun.

When his colleagues made a fuss, Shu Yunzhang drank too much. Who would have thought that after so long of careful preparation, Shen Zai would be in a trance on the first day of his arrival.

Shu Yunzhang was a little scared, of course, he wanted Shen Zai to live better, not worse.

But the result was not that bad, it was just that there were some inevitable difficulties at the beginning, which Shu Yunzhang and Shen overcame together.

Shen Zai actually did better than Shu Yunzhang, so brave...

Shu Yunzhang touched his face with the back of his hand.

Shen Zai was even cuter when he was asleep than when he was awake, his thin eyelids were naturally covered, his lips that hadn't recovered from being kissed were red, just like his face that was hot from sleep.

Why are you so likable?

After thinking about it, Shu Yunzhang felt sleepy too.

In the morning Shu Yunzhang was woken up by the heat, and he was nestled in his arms. He felt that he was holding a ball of fire in his dream, his whole body was being scorched, and he woke up soon.

Shen was sweating on his forehead, and his brows were also furrowed. Shu Yunzhang smiled and smoothed his hair with his hands, still wondering if it's so hot?Immediately realized something was wrong.

The temperature is too high, but the lips are pale and look sick.

Shu Yunzhang woke up immediately, first tested the temperature of his forehead with his hand, and then replaced it with his own.

Very hot.

He turned over and got out of bed, and called the front desk again, telling them to bring up the medicine he needed last night quickly, and also asked for a thermometer and antipyretics.

People from the hotel came quickly, and when the doorbell rang, Shen Zai seemed to be awakened for a moment.

Shu Yunzhang came in with the medicine, asked the hotel to help find a doctor, boiled water, and went back to the bedside to see him.

Shen Zai opened his eyes in a daze, not sober, and said to him, "Brother...I feel so uncomfortable."

Shu Yunzhang stroked his hair and coaxed, "I know."

Shen Zai closed his eyes halfway, and made a diagnosis for himself.

"I'm not acclimatized, I used to be like this too."

He has no strength, speaks in a low voice, breathes heavily and is still hot.

Shu Yunzhang sat by the bed to accompany him, and Shen Zai played with his clothes with his fingers, so uncomfortable that he didn't speak much.

The electric kettle jumped, and the water boiled. Shu Yunzhang said that I would pour water for you, and Shen Zai let go of his hand gently.

Just as a glass of water was poured, the doctor arranged by the hotel came.

It was a male doctor. Shu Yunzhang brought him in, and briefly told him about Shen Zai's situation. When Shen sat down beside him, he held his hand and whispered in his ear, "The doctor is here."

Although Shen Zai was very uncomfortable, he still clenched Shu Yunzhang tightly.

The doctor came over, handed the thermometer to Shu Yunzhang, asked him to take the temperature, and then did a routine examination.

Shu Yunzhang opened the quilt, Shen Zai's pajamas were already messed up, and the neckline was slanted to reveal a large area of ​​reddened skin.He tried his best to undo two or three buttons without distraction, raised his sinking arm, and put the thermometer under his armpit.

Shen Zai clamped it by himself, and nestled up again.

Shu Yunzhang's heart aches for him not making any noise and wanting not to cause trouble.

Seeing that the time was almost up, Shu Yunzhang pushed aside the quilt, and without waking Shen Zai who had closed his eyes, took the thermometer from his arm, and when he saw it was 39 degrees, he became anxious.

When Shen Zai heard Shu Yunzhang talking about the temperature with the doctor, he said in a low voice, "I'm a little dizzy, but it's not stupid to have a fever."

"You just came to travel in other places? You are not acclimatized to the environment, take some medicine, and you will be fine after a few days of adaptation." After the doctor finished speaking, he looked for medicine from the medicine box he brought.Shu Yunzhang asked a few more questions, the doctor answered them one by one, said a few precautions, prescribed the medicine and left.

The poured water was almost cold, Shu Yunzhang picked up Shen Zai wrapped in the quilt, and tasted the temperature of the water himself before feeding him the medicine.

Shu Yunzhang was not very proficient in doing this. If he held it close, he might fall on Shen Zai's body, and if he held it far away, he was afraid that Shen Zai would not be able to drink.

Only then did Shu Yunzhang notice his earlobe, the tip of the ear was particularly bright, like a drop of red ink.

The medicine in his mouth tasted bitter, Shen Zai couldn't help holding the cup in Shu Yunzhang's hand, pulled it to him, pouted and swallowed the medicine.

"It's a bit bitter." Shen Zai said as he fell back into the bed.

"Are you hungry?" Shu Yunzhang asked.

"No..." Shen Zai rubbed the pillow, reached out his hand to reach him, and thought that Shu Yunzhang had probably been awake for a long time, and he hadn't eaten, so he must be hungry.

"Come up with something to eat." Shen Zai suddenly regretted, said a few things, and Shu Yunzhang went to call the front desk.

I only realized it when I reported the menu. Aren’t these all my favorites?

When the food was brought up, Shen Zai also ate some, but he didn't eat much.

Shu Yunzhang talked about Shen Fu's call last night, but he didn't expect to be right.

So they both thought of that very sudden kiss that happened late at night.

Shen Zai had just eaten a piece of toast, with bread crumbs on the corner of his mouth, Shu Yunzhang breathed heavily, and lowered his eyelashes to look at him.

Shen Zai didn't know what was wrong, why Shu Yunzhang had such a look.

It seems like I want to kiss him again.

Shu Yunzhang lowered his head, his eyes were fixed.

As soon as Shen Zai misunderstood, he wanted to cater to him, raised his arms around his neck, Shu Yunzhang bent down obediently, and put his arms on Shen Zai's sides.

With hot fingertips poking over, Shu Yunzhang wiped the corner of Shen Zai's mouth with his thumb, and glanced at him again.

Shu Yunzhang has a pair of eyes with upturned tails. When he is looked at by such eyes, it is easy to have the illusion of falling in love, even if that look is casual.

When Shu Yunzhang is regarded as the one he loves, any closeness to him is enough to be a switch for Shen Zai.

After taking the medicine, it seemed that the symptoms became more serious, and Shen Zai breathed out dizzily.

It's just that Shu Yunzhang rubbed his hair and showed him the crumb on his fingertips.

Shen Zai was stunned for a moment, and heard Shu Yunzhang chuckle in his ear: "You still have a fever, what are you thinking?"