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In the end, Wen Changling ate dinner in He Mansion.

As usual, Zhu Nanjiang called the International Restaurant to make some dishes and sent them over, and asked the cook to make soup and pastries.He was upset because of He Tingjuan's matter, but he didn't want to show it in front of Wen Changling, so he drank several glasses of wine absent-mindedly without knowing it.

Wen Changling knew that the man was He Tingxuan, remembering all the speculations in the past that he felt uncomfortable, so he drank a few drinks with him quietly.

"He beat me like that, abused me, and I didn't want to get it back at all... It's been so many years, and I haven't thought about it once."

"Forget what you don't want to remember."

"It's true that I forgot... I just feel disgusted when I see him now."

Zhu Nanjiang nervously flipped his fingers and tapped the table. He often did this when he was anxious or impatient, as if the tapping could calm him down.

Wen Changling gently pressed the back of his hand: "He has nothing to do with you."

"Is it?"

"What happened in the past will pass away."

Zhu Nanjiang stared blankly at the hand. There was only an ugly wound where the little finger used to be, "No... the past will never pass, it's just that sometimes it is forgotten."

Wen Changling sensed what he was looking at, and calmly withdrew his hand: "Forget it, it doesn't exist anymore."

—Scars are, so are people, everything is.

"Brother, do you want me to forget you?" Zhu Nanjiang drank the wine, his mind was warm, but his thoughts were extraordinarily clear, "But... I don't have many things to remember. What's left?"

"Nanjiang, what nonsense are you talking about?"

"We shouldn't have come out of the alley."

"..."

"It would be great if we could go back to that time."

"You don't want to go back to that time." Wen Changling pretended to smile easily, "You had a bad time at that time."

"I'm not doing well right now."

"Are you doing well now?"

Zhu Nanjiang froze for a moment.

Yes, he can't go back.Once he became a human, he would not want to be a dog again, and he would never want to live a life of being called around and abused at will.But if you want to ask if it's good now, he still thinks it's not good, or it's not good enough.

"I miss you, brother...I can't see you, I don't know what I'm doing every day."

"Really?" Wen Changling turned his head away, as if he didn't want to hear him say such words, "I think you're living in style."

"Have you seen me?"

"I often listen to Gu Lanting's plays."

Zhu Nanjiang's hand holding the wine glass trembled.He suddenly remembered the inexplicable heart palpitations in the theater that day. It really wasn't his own illusion, it was Wen Changling looking at him.

——Brother saw that I took Gu Lanting away, and for some reason there was a lot of commotion that day, it was really ugly.

Zhu Nanjiang was flustered at first, as if he was caught on the spot for doing something bad, and then suddenly became confused, wondering why the other party suddenly brought up this matter after such a long time.

——I snatch someone just because I want to sleep with him, if I have slept with him, that's all. I'm just an actor who is kept by others, so I won't make me spend a lot of money to win love.Besides, it was a long time ago, and I haven't slept with anyone for a long time!

Zhu Nanjiang suspected that Wen Changling was angry at him for being entangled with Gu Lanting, and after the panic, he secretly felt a little happy.However, after observing for a while, he did not find any expression similar to "jealous" on the other party's face.

"Brother, don't get me wrong!"

"I'm not mistaken."

"I'm just, just..."

"I know, it's just for fun."

Wen Changling was just talking casually at first—although he did have the meaning of complaining, but he didn't expect Zhu Nanjiang to be so serious.As soon as the other party got serious, he also became impatient: "It's not uncommon for a person like you to play a few plays."

Zhu Nanjiang's words had another meaning in Zhu Nanjiang's ears.

"Brother, you still hate me."

"I don't hate you, I'm powerless..." After a long silence, Wen Changling decided to tell the truth, "I've been watching you go further and further away."

"I didn't go far, I've always been here!"

"Since you put on this police uniform, you have been farther and farther away from me."

"I entered the patrol room to eat. I used to be an apprentice and run errands for people to eat. It's no different... I have always been me. Is this police uniform so important?"

"Nanjiang, there are some things you don't understand, I want to explain to you, but..." Wen Changling didn't want to say any more, this is a dead end, an insurmountable gap between the two of them, "Can't you hear me?" I understand, you don't want to hear it either."

Zhu Nanjiang bit his lip in disappointment.

He sullenly invited Wen Changling here, wanting to confide his heart to him, but the other party was unwilling to talk to him more, just because he felt that he "didn't understand".

He didn't want to go down in such a blatant way again, if Wen Changling hadn't come to him a month ago, then he could still bear it.But suddenly he appeared, spoke to himself again, and desire overwhelmed him like a flood with an opened floodgate.

He wanted to go back to him, thinking about it like crazy.

"I understand, you think I work for the board of directors, I'm a villain... But it's because I work for the board of directors that I can protect you, isn't it?"

"I don't need your protection, I just want you to be an ordinary person, an ordinary person with a conscience."

"It's you who don't understand, brother. This world is too dangerous. As long as you are not strong enough or fierce enough, someone will come to harm you, just like the old yellow four..."

"You mean you did all this for me?" Wen Changling's face darkened slightly.

"I did not mean that!"

"You said that you are here to eat and to survive, but even if you leave the patrol house, you can still find food to eat. You have hands and feet, and you have a good life. Could it be that you can't live without being a lackey of imperialism?"

"I'm not anyone's dog. I didn't do anything for anyone. I just did it for myself!" Zhu Nanjiang said anxiously, "If I wear this dress, people will respect me and fear me. If I take it off, who will treat me Seriously? Those who hate me and those I have offended are all waiting to make me look good. One day I lose power, I don’t know how many people will fall into trouble. Brother, do you think I shouldn’t be a director? I work in the bureau, but I can't live without this police uniform, I will die!"

Wen Changling listened to him calmly, and finally let out a miserable laugh, as if he had a thousand words to say: "That's why I said... I watched you go further and further away."

"It's you who walked away, brother...you always turn your back on me, and I can't find you soon."

"No one forced you to come to this point, Nanjiang, you were on the wrong path from the very beginning. Could it be that everyone who can't survive will kill his compatriots in order to survive?"

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Thanks for your support~ Xiao Zhu is going to do something bad in the next chapter! |???)?