Black Bear's Curse

The next day after the incident, due to severe cuts on his neck and severe blows to his body, he left this world; he left a text message to me. He was only 23 years old at the time. Climb the charge period of life.

"Yamin, although I know you don't love me, thank you for giving me the opportunity to meet you and dine with you. We won't say goodbye, and you don't need to be sad for my departure, just be an old friend. Far, far away. I wish you happiness and well-being, and find someone you like as soon as possible and who is willing to stay with you for life!"

At that time, I really understood that he loves me so deeply, not a kind of "swap game" partner or a cash cow as I thought.His accident also made me understand: it is easy to be a loved one, just take a little time to accompany the other person; however, loving someone is not easy, not only all the thoughts, energy, and time are tied up in the emotion , and even have to act like a fool at the expense of one's own life in exchange for a moment's favor of the other party.

At that time, my family, the police and other government agencies and departments spent almost all of my energy and time around the scene of the incident, looking for and searching for the traces of the robbers, hoping to solve the case as soon as possible and let the deceased rest in peace. . .However, a week passed, and a month slipped away. The police only arrested a few suspects, but due to lack of evidence, the Public Security Bureau could only restrict the other party's movement restrictions.Although we are very angry in our hearts, we can only continue if we take further actions. . .

Also because of that incident, my family knew my sexual orientation. They thought it was because of his seduction and misleading that I became gay. Although I had refuted and corrected this mistake, they were stubborn and could not understand and forgive me. deceased. . .

Rather than being shocked by his death, it would be better to say that after experiencing the parting of life and death, I have a new change and decision for the future; I felt that the group of murderous gangsters looked like construction workers on a certain construction site.My thinking at the time was that only by entering this field and making friends with some foreign workers, might I have a chance to find some clues. . .Although my decision was severely warned by my family, I insisted on continuing to make changes.

At the same time, whenever I have free time, I go around the public places that are often robbed; when I find any suspected criminals, whether they are murderers or not, I rush to them without fear, and fight them desperately . . .Because of this, I was targeted by the person in charge of the anti-pickup group, who persuaded and taught me how to be a real anti-pickup volunteer.So far, it has been four or five years. Although we have assisted the Public Security Bureau in arresting many pickpockets or robbers, they have not caught the murderers. It seems that they have evaporated in the world.

I couldn't catch and hurt those gangsters. I felt guilty and sad, but it didn't help. This thorn was always buried in my heart. . .

From the second year onwards, every year on the day of the accident, that is, the first day of the Lunar New Year, I went to his cemetery to talk with him and eat his favorite home chicken with him.Although I know that the other party may not be able to receive it, I feel that I cannot satisfy his wish one by one during my lifetime, and I hope he can appreciate my sincerity after death.

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Looking at Wu Yamin and listening to his story, I felt extremely heartache and entanglement in my heart; the heartache was his painful experience, and the entanglement was when he could really get out of this inextricable sadness complex?

"Big Bear, I don't want to be misunderstood. My change is an act to make up for my mistakes. Of course, I will not stop looking for another partner just because of him because of his death. After all, there is only one relationship between me and him." Call it a kind of joyful friendship. I believe that one day, I will meet the person I like, a person who is willing to accept my past and future, and of course, on the premise of the other person's willingness, he will become my lover!" Wu Yamin looked at me affectionately.

"Crow, don't you think we are two people with completely different worlds and lifestyles?" I hesitated.

"Big bear, I hope you don't judge whether we are suitable or not? Why don't we let us take the first step and give everyone a chance to adapt to each other first? Then continue to observe?"

"..." I looked at the other person, wondering if I should ask him, why did he get involved with the crow?

"Big bear, I hope you don't need to use my past as a tool to measure my feelings. I just want to let you know what happened to me before you."

"I understand that everyone will have a past, thank you for your trust in me." I took the initiative to hold his hand.

"I think it is necessary to confess to you frankly. At least in the days when we get along in the future, I will still continue my anti-pickup duty. I may face some dangerous situations, but as long as you can understand that this is a meaningful thing. thing, then I'll be at ease." He squeezed my hand tightly.

"I know, but you also have to defend yourself for your own safety, you can't just run around and touch it..." I dare not speak out many things that I think about in my mind, because I am afraid of my crow's mouth. . . . .