bitter fireworks

???? They stayed in the intensive care unit for a while and called me in again. Xiaopeng kept calling me, he was about to die...

????The cries of his parents filled the whole room with the desolation and sorrow of a white-haired man sending a black-haired man.

????Chen Xiao also squatted beside the hospital bed, crying nonstop.The whole ward is filled with the sorrow and misery of parting from life and death!

???? I lay beside Xiaopeng, tears had already blurred my vision, Xiaopeng raised his hand with difficulty, and wiped away the tears that kept flowing for me.His mouth moved a few times, and he said with difficulty: "Brother, can you kiss me again?"

???? Looking at the people in the room, my heart skipped a beat. In front of everyone, I put my mouth close to Xiaopeng’s and kissed him affectionately. I wipe away my tears.

???? Once... twice... three times... Finally, Xiaopeng's hand hangs weakly on the quilt.The monitor also turned into a straight line, and there was a long "beep" sound. I really couldn't believe that Xiaopeng had left me like this. I cried out his name hoarsely, and grabbed his hand anyway. I was willing to let go, but I felt dizzy for a while, and when my eyes went dark, I didn't know anything!

???? After waking up, it was a few hours later. Liu Wang told me that due to exhaustion, I didn't eat anything, and I was so sad that I fell into a coma.

???? "Where is Xiaopeng? Where is my Xiaopeng?" I yelled hysterically, pulled out the needle in my hand, rushed out of the room, and ran into the intensive care unit where Xiaopeng lay.

???? "Brother Yong, Brother Xiaopeng is gone, he will never come back, don't do this..." Liu Wang said while pulling me, weeping.

???? "No, I don't believe...he will leave me like this, Xiaopeng!..." I yelled almost crazily, and my heart was bleeding.

???? Several people from the hospital and Liu Wang pulled me into the ward with all their strength, and I lay on the bed. I was silent and numb. The only thing I had was the tears that kept pouring out. My heart was already broken and my feelings were gone. up...

????The greatest sorrow in life is parting from life and death. That kind of pain really makes my life worse than death.How I wish I could replace Xiaopeng and keep him alive!It's a pity that everything has passed like a dream. My Xiaopeng really disappeared on the earth, and I will never see it again. God, it turns out that you are so bullying and fearful, and took away my Xiaopeng alive ,Why?Why?Is it because we are unblessed love?Isn't it saying that all living beings are equal?Same love is also love, and we are human beings, so why are we excluded and ravaged like this?Every creature in this world has its own value. Since we are born this way, why doesn't God take care of it?I hate the sky and the earth, you are really a creator in vain, you don't care about us so much...

???? Sending Xiaopeng away, my spirit basically collapsed, and I didn't even want to work.I took a long vacation and shut myself in my room.My heart hurts so much, I have to take a good rest and recall every detail of being with Xiaopeng!The unforgettable pain and the beautiful lingering image always make me toss and turn, and it is difficult to fall asleep. I really suffer from insomnia every day, almost becoming a depression!

????I used to think that we can watch the flowers bloom and fade in a calm and calm manner; I used to think that we can stay together for a lifetime;

???? But the reality completely broke me down, and I will never see Xiaopeng again!I have completely lost Xiaopeng who loves and pities me!

????From then on, Xiaopeng is just an eternal pain in my memory. He will never come back, let alone call me "brother" affectionately.Life is really unpredictable, and many things are beyond our control.

???? The dead are gone, and the living have to continue. I still have to take care of Xiaopeng’s parents. Although they don’t need my care for the time being, I still care about them emotionally. The pain is conceivable, I hope that uncles and aunts can come out of the grief of losing their children and enjoy their old age...

????Liu Wang specially sang a song for me at KTV that day—Love you is hard to say, I understand his heart and understand his meaning, but I can’t love anymore, at least for now , we can only be brothers, if you want to blame you can only blame fate, this is belated love, I have experienced two setbacks in love, I don’t want to do the thing of flying moths to the flame anymore, my heart is dead, comrade’s Love is really too difficult, too much uncertainty and too much sadness, Liu Wang, my good brother, maybe you are also reading this novel, please forgive my selfishness and rejection, I really hope you can marry a wife Have a child, inherit the family business, and live happily ever after!If there is another life, let me repay you for your kindness, I am really sorry in this life!It can only be like this...

???? Zhichun and I are still dating as before, he said that I am the ice that refuses to melt, no matter how enthusiastic he is, he can't bring back my love.In fact, he was wrong, people are not plants, how can they be ruthless?I just hope that we can be spiritual comforters, understand each other, support each other, and live together for the rest of our lives!On my birthday, Zhichun sang "Am I in Your Heart" to me?

???? wait silently

???? Waiting for you in the world of mortals

???? waiting for your heart

???? dream of you every day

????It's hard to let go of this love

???? I can't let go of my dream

????The more you wait, the colder it gets

???? more heartache

???? rain or shine

????No matter how cold the world is

???? I have planted you deeply in my heart

???? Let me ask the rain

???? I ask the wind

???? Am I also in your dream

???? Let me ask the rain

???? I ask the wind

???? am I also in your heart

???? Looking at his affectionate eyes, and the tears shed while singing, I couldn't control my feelings, and shed tears silently!

???? Yes, I really want to ask the sky and the earth, if Zhichun has been waiting silently for so many years, am I really so hard-hearted and indifferent?

???? I really don't know what to do?Accept him, let him be spurned by the world, let him betray his relatives, his wife and children?Don't accept him, let him continue to suffer emotional torture, and live with a person who shares the same bed with different dreams every day?

???? The world of mortals is rolling, love and hatred, will it become colder and colder as we wait?I don't know, Zhichun, what should I do?Can you tell me?Is it really necessary to have a true love desperately, and a life-and-death love again? I ask the rain, and I ask the wind. Let's wait for the fate in the future, let's do it and cherish it...

???? This year (2014) Ching Ming Festival, I went to see Xiaopeng again. He was lying quietly in the cemetery, and he was still smiling so happily and beautifully in the photo!Full of sunshine, ruffian, and handsome, but the old friend has left, but Peach Blossom is still smiling at the spring breeze!Ask what love is in the world, and teach life and death to agree, maybe we are destined to be the waiters of Annatto and Shenying.

???? In the blurred vision, through the tears, I seem to see Xiaopeng walking towards me bouncing from a distance. He is still the one I met in Shenzhen at the beginning, with a flat cut and a white T-shirt. Skinny jeans, a naughty smile, a sunny temperament, and sparkling earrings, he sang happily all the way, showing vitality and youth everywhere...

????Looking into the distance, I found that Xiaopeng was going farther and farther away. I chased after him desperately, but found that I could no longer catch up with him. He left, and at the same time took away my laughter, my true feelings, My dream took away my youth. It turns out that the most irreplaceable thing in the world is our youth, our love, and our time...

???? (End of the book)

???? Thank you for watching, and thanks for the friends of Shulian who have followed and supported along the way!

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I always thought that the world is only black and white, but I never thought that there is also gray. Auntie left our room, and now only Liu Wang and I are sent.

I crawled on the bed, leaning my head on my knees, and my knees had already been soaked with tears.What is this called?Suddenly feel so helpless, so lonely, so tired!

The muffled one was sobbing in a low voice, ignoring Liu Wang who was beside him.Such a dull summer, so dull that I can't breathe, why is my heart so cold?The cold made me shiver all over. I don't know whether it's sweat or tears that always weave into rivers on my face, which makes me suffocate.

What should I do now?Why does the ancient city of Xi'an suddenly make me feel at a loss?Aren't you a dream tourist destination?Don't you have Huaqing Pool, which is envied and admired by countless people?Isn't that the lingering love between Emperor Xuanzong of Tang Dynasty and Concubine Yang Guifei?Why is it so sad in my eyes and in my heart today?

I am chewing on the sudden bitterness alone, and I am enduring this loneliness that seems to be a world away, what should I do?I really really love you - Xiaopeng!But why love so humble and heartbroken?

"Brother Yong, are you alright?" Liu Wang finally couldn't bear it anymore, and looked at me blankly and said.

"It's okay! What can I do? Hehe... Isn't it just being cheated and broken in love? Isn't it better, he can finally love someone legitimately in the future, and he can even marry... What the hell am I? It's over! It's over.. bro! Let's go out for a few drinks! To celebrate his wife, to celebrate me clearing the fog... haha! No... it should be Defeated to Xi'an..." I grumbled while wryly smiling.

"Okay! Brother Yong, since you're so unhappy, let me have a few drinks with you!" Liu Wang pulled me away from Xiaopeng's house after speaking.We came to the supper stand outside the community and went straight to find a barbecue place to sit down.

In the night without the stars and the sky without the moon, Xi'an is like other cities, with camouflage lights and feasting, and a steady stream of passing vehicles.Suddenly I really miss the dusk in my hometown, when the smoke from the kitchen covers the tranquility of the twilight, and the sunset glow reflects the beauty of the red sky.It's just that this is a city, full of prosperity and weirdness everywhere, how can it be as simple as my hometown, only black and white.When the prosperity is over, it is also when the old friends are scattered...

Relying on the anesthesia of alcohol, I seemed to be much more comfortable.My heart didn't seem to hurt so much...Suddenly I yelled at Liu Wang to buy coffee, but he couldn't stand my tossing, so he bought it anyway.Hehe... Now it's good wine and coffee, one cup after another!I half-closed my eyes and half-drunk and said to Liu Wang: "Brother, do you think love is really like flowing water, once gone, it will never come back?"

"Brother Yong, you're too drunk! Brother Xiaopeng didn't do that, it was just his mother's idea, tell Brother Xiaopeng later! Don't be sad..." Liu Wang's comforting skills are still lacking, always go straight.

"Brother! Why are you drinking here? What's the matter? Is it my fault that I went with Chen Xiao? I'm sorry, brother... I have to deal with the situation!" The two Audi A6s I gave him.

"Why am I drinking too much wine? Isn't Liu Wang accompanying me? Is it because you are the only one who can stop drinking too much wine?" I looked at him with drunken eyes, and said with some disdain.

"Alright! Alright! It's late, brother... let's go back! You're too drunk!" Xiaopeng said patiently with a grievance on his face.

"Don't be shy in front of me! Don't...don't think that only...you Northwest men can... know how to drink, we Jiangnan Xiaosheng are cowards...don't know how to drink! Humph...huh...you have the kind of company Brother, drink a few more bottles!" I used the strength of alcohol to get drunk, deliberately tilted my body, rubbed against Xiaopeng's body, and blew into his face.

"Brother, it's my fault, be good, let's go home! I can't drink you, you are a wine master, a wine master..." Xiaopeng supported me, and deliberately said good things.

When I touched his body, my heart was sour, and tears flowed down unconsciously.I raised my head, looked at him seriously, and said shyly: "Xiaopeng, tonight is our last night in Xi'an, I miss you so much, can you show me another smile? Just smile for me ..."

Xiaopeng looked at me with his head down, and said with a wicked smile: "It's not easy to see? I'll take it off later and let you take a look at it!" At this time, Xiaopeng's two dimples are so Charming, handsome face with that distinctive ruffian smile.

"Xiaopeng, you are so pretty, I want to see you all my life, I want to cuddle in your arms all my life! I love you forever!" I looked into his eyes and said affectionately.

"Brother, let's go back. There are too many people here and it's too noisy. How about we go back and do adult sports?" Xiaopeng said in my ear.

"You are good or bad...that's all you know!" I said coquettishly, beating his chest.

"Look at you two... have you seen others pay attention to you?" Liu Wang said sourly from the side.

Xiaopeng hugged my shoulders, supported me, and walked back to his house step by step.

When we got back, his mom and dad were both asleep.

Xiaopeng ignored Liu Wang and asked me to take a bath with him.I really drank too much. As for how to wash it, I am still in the fog. This plot is fragmented.Think for yourself! (Omit a few hundred words...)

Lying on the bed hazily, feeling Xiaopeng's breath lingering around my mouth, I opened my mouth, soft, warm tongue entered my mouth, I haven't made out with Xiaopeng for a long time.I responded enthusiastically, holding his waist tightly with both hands. Xiaopeng is not fat, but his body is still very sensual, firm and elastic.

Embrace each other passionately and linger for a long time.His excitement is particularly strong tonight, following the rhythm of his body, although there is an air conditioner, there is still a thin layer of sweat on each other, mixed with the scent of shower gel from the shower just now, the whole room is filled with the special smell of male hormones The smell makes people extremely excited, constantly wanting to climb up...

With his soft drink, the room finally calmed down, and what was left was our panting and the scent of flowers...

(I originally wrote this chapter, but it was swallowed up by the book. I rewrote it once tonight. It was also added at the request of some friends. I hope it can be approved and published! Thank you again! Especially those who have been supporting and recommending Friends! Let me tell you by the way, although Xiaopeng is gone, there are still many things and many people waiting for me in this world, so I am working hard! I also hope everyone is happy and happy! Let's encourage each other!