bitter fireworks

Cherish life, stay away from drugs!

Although there are only eight words, it expresses the danger and horror of drugs. During the period of detoxification with Zhichun, I deeply realized the magic power of drugs. It can turn angels into devils and the world into hell , turning happiness into misery, hope into despair...

In order to detoxify him, I did not avoid suspicion. Anyway, now that he has a girlfriend, others will not be so sensitive. I have been with him for a few days and monitored his every move. It seems that there is nothing unusual in the middle , but I still murmured in my heart, can't I resist taking drugs?How could he not smoke for three days?On the third night, he said he wanted to have sex with his girlfriend, and told me to go home and sleep. Seeing his girlfriend's happy face, what else could I do?They are a normal married life, can I stop it?My heart was sour, and my mouth was salty all of a sudden. It turned out that I accidentally bit the skin of my mouth, but I still pretended to be nonchalant and smiled and said, "In such a hurry to create human beings? Haha".I don't know if my laughter is far-fetched, anyway, I feel quite embarrassed, and I escaped amidst the fake laughter and catering...

When I was still sleeping on the bed, someone suddenly called me loudly outside the window, and was still pounding on the door of my house.In the twilight, I reluctantly got up and opened the door. Seeing my uncle's flustered look, he kept telling me to follow him.

"Uncle, what's the matter? You panic..." I asked him while wiping my eyes

"Hurry up, Zhichun is crazy, he didn't listen to any of us, and now he said on the third floor that he was going to jump off the building, what do you think?" Uncle was a little at a loss, "I just left for one night and something happened..." i'm a little angry

But when I heard Zhichun said that I was going to jump off the building, I immediately woke up, put on a pair of pants, took my clothes and got into the car with my uncle.Heart pounding, unspeakable nervousness and worry, anxious like ants on a hot pot in the car, wishing to arrive soon.

I got off the car in a hurry and looked up. This guy was really dazed on the top of the third floor, his eyes were dull, his complexion was sallow, and his bloodless skin was like a serious illness. He was so haggard and lifeless. He ran to the third floor in a breath, and when he heard footsteps, he turned his head and looked at me. My uncle followed closely behind me. My aunt was sobbing softly on the roof, and his girlfriend stayed there in a daze. , I glared at him fiercely, and glanced at where he was standing, this silly boy was only two fingers wide, and there was just such a gap in the railing upstairs, really, why did you leave a gap? Woolen cloth?I cursed bitterly in my heart, this damn carpenter has become an innate condition for jumping off a building.

I tried to get close to him, and when he saw me coming, he moved his feet a little bit and at the same time yelled, "Don't come here, I'll jump off when I come..."

"What on earth do you want to do? Do you think you are so interesting? You are such an adult, and you have been a soldier. Where is your sense of responsibility? Are you worthy of your uncles and aunts? Are you worthy of your girlfriend? You said you were a big The gentlemen jump off the building every now and then, will everyone think highly of you? I despise you..." I said with my eyes fixed on him.

"I don't care, I want white powder, I can't bear it..." When he said this, he was a little staggering, his expression was in a daze, he squatted on the ground as if he was very scared, and he seemed to be looking for something search everywhere...

I was very nervous, I was afraid that he would be in trouble if he accidentally stepped on the ground, but I didn't dare to rush over, what should I do?what to do?I had to think of a way, but when I was thinking, something unexpected happened again.

He pulled his hair in great pain, his empty eyes suddenly focused, became sharp and terrifying, he said, "Brother, do you still love me? Do you still want me? You won't leave me in the future, regardless of me ?"

Even though I know people who use drugs can sometimes be insane, talk nonsense, and can't help themselves, the sudden startling words still made me stiffen all of a sudden.

I just petrified in the same place, here is his mother, his father, his girlfriend, how could he say such a thing?

My uncle and aunt stared at me dumbfounded, and my aunt's eyes were filled with horror and disbelief. Although my uncle knew about it, he never expected to confess his love in front of so many people. His girlfriend stared at me in disbelief. , as if I were an alien, making her puzzled and angry.Time seemed to be frozen all of a sudden, and all the scenery and space froze immediately. My mind was blank, and I didn't know what to do next...

Zhichun is really crazy, he should know what the consequences of such words will be, but he is really crazy, and I am also crazy, why do I still keep thinking about it if I am not crazy, and come back by some kind of ghost?

"Brother, I beg you not to leave me, don't want me, do you know how painful I am now? Do you know the feeling in my body? It's like there are thousands of ants biting me, like there are thousands of roots The needles are piercing me, like countless mouths are sucking my blood, like thousands of worms are biting my tendons, I am really in pain, life is worse than death, you don’t want me, I have no meaning to live there is none left……"

While saying these words, he was already weeping and crying, I was really at a loss, I just stood there stupidly, my head seemed to be emptied all of a sudden, and I didn't know anything.

After a while, I saw him vomiting, runny nose, trembling all over, curled up on the ground in pain.

Taking advantage of this opportunity, my uncle suddenly moved to hug him, and my aunt also came over to help hold him tightly, but his girlfriend had already left at some point, and I realized it, dragged Zhichun downstairs Room, closed the door, uncle found a rope and tied him to the sofa, Zhichun was still struggling and screaming in pain, this is the first time I have seen such a scene in my life, I don’t know how to comfort him, Just crying silently.

"Brother, my dad has morphine. It was searched by him before. May I ask you to bring it to me?" Zhichun was still begging me so eagerly.

Seeing his painful appearance, my heart softened. I really didn't want to see his desperate and painful appearance. I really wanted to give him one. I found my uncle and said that I couldn't stand it anymore. I gave him one first. , I waited until I was done and sent to the drug rehabilitation center. Now this is really uncomfortable, and I am a little bit broken... Uncles and aunts couldn’t read it anymore. They told me the hiding place of morphine with tears. When I found those things, I also found two bottles of them. Valium, I hesitated to get these things again, can I really do this?Isn't this pulling him to his death?I absolutely can’t do this, I’m hurting him like this, I forced myself to ask, “Where did you get these things? Why do you still have Valium?”

"These are the morphines prescribed by Lao Wang's liver cancer hospital. I bought them from him at a high price. We usually have hallucinations after taking them, so we need diazepam..."

"Brother is sorry for you, brother made you into what you are now, Chun, I'm really sorry, you promise to give up drug addiction and start a new life, okay?" I looked at him with tears and said my most guilty words .

It was so painful and hopeless to accompany Zhichun through the time of his drug addiction attack. It was more painful than death to witness the torture of the person I loved the most, and we couldn’t share the physical torture with him. , can only cry and pray on the sidelines.

After the drug addiction broke out, we sent Zhichun to the drug rehabilitation center. I held his hand and looked at him tenderly for the last time and said, "Chun, we have gone through ups and downs for so many years, and we have experienced both happiness and pain. But we are no longer what we used to be, we are all grown-ups, you are not me, you are the only son in your family, you still have to inherit your father’s tens of millions of wealth, the future is bright, you have to continue the incense for your Liu family , These are the circles we live in, we have no choice, really, I really love you, and I can even die for you, your home is too close to mine, see you up, see you down, I If I don’t get married, I can roam around the world. I have a brother who will take care of my parents and a nephew. I don’t have any worries. What about you? You have to think about your family. No matter what happens in the future, you have to take care of it Your family, do you know? You can’t do that again! Today is the last time I’m here to talk to you from the bottom of my heart. When I’m not here, don’t forget me, you know? I will always love you... ’ I said with tears and left him

He was still calling me there, but unfortunately I didn't want to hear anything anymore.

It's time for us to end. After more than ten years of marathon, I'm tired and tired. It's time for me to take a good rest. Zhichun's confession on the rooftop, the expressions of his uncles and aunts, and the shock and anger of his girlfriend all hit me now. Come on, how should I face it?

The elders and folks in the village, the embarrassment of my parents, and the helplessness of my brother, do I still have the face to live?

Zhichun, oh Zhichun, what you said after the onset of drug addiction, although it was true, made me feel unprecedented self-blame and guilt, and even more pain that couldn’t be added. I felt so tired, so tired, so tired that I didn’t want to open my eyes. Looking at the world with my eyes open, I hope that I will just sleep in the dark night and never wake up. The dark night can let me rest in peace, and the dark night can wrap me with endless emptiness, so that I don't want to look at anyone's face, so that I can not look at anyone's face. The morality of the world...

The beautiful sunset, the colorful clouds dyed half the sky red, without the company of white clouds, you are still so beautiful, so beautiful, so beautiful that there is a little blood, let me take a deep look at you, maybe we will have a beautiful life in the next life Dating!I just don't know if there is an afterlife?

I only ate a few mouthfuls of dinner, and my father's angry eyes and my mother's hesitant expression made me a little at a loss, and I even wanted to find a seam.My brother and sister-in-law didn't make any noise, I guess my aunt just told my parents, I think tomorrow is going to be a storm, will Zhichun's girlfriend be okay?Will it be indifferent?Will it not be advertised?

Lying quietly on the bed, I bravely ate two bottles of Valium tablets I found from Zhichun, and scraped a slit on my left wrist with a razor blade. It didn't hurt very much, really, it didn't hurt very much. Maybe it’s not as painful as mine, I just listen to the songs I like to listen to with Zhichun, thinking about the happy days with Zhichun, I fell asleep in a daze, maybe I went to heaven, I don’t know, but I think I am really relieved, that kind of heart-tired relief, I no longer have pain, I am with Zhichun again in the world I dreamed, but why are we still crying?Are you still not willing to part with this world or Zhichun?It's just that it's too late, I don't have to worry about any gossip and any joys and sorrows in this world anymore, I completely bid farewell to this world forever...

It was two days after I woke up. I didn’t die. I was rescued by them. It was Zhichun who found out that something was wrong when I said goodbye. He told his uncle to come over at night and called me outside the door to see that I was still. Later, uncle and father Just slamming the door open saved me.

My mother seems to have aged overnight, her eyes are sunken, her hair has turned gray a lot, she is still sobbing softly, and my father is also sighing beside me, I really don’t want to open my eyes, I don’t want to see the world again, I don’t want to be The news in the village has become a burden to the family. Zhichun has been holding my hand, his eyes are bloodshot, and gently told me that his girlfriend promised to keep it secret. Now our parents and his girlfriend know about it, but the condition is that Zhichun I must marry her, I know this woman is smart, she knows how to take advantage of others to raise her own value, another slave to money, sad, sad, will Zhichun be happy with her?I don't think about it, these are the unspoken rules of society, we can't recover!The uncle stood by the side without saying a word as if he felt a little guilty...

The scenery outside the window seems to be beautiful, the sun is bright and dazzling, the dark green camphor trees are still dancing with the wind, there are a few birds singing for joy, occasionally a few patients in wheelchairs are chatting and laughing, and some old people are sleeping Tai Chi, a beautiful picture scroll, a comfortable life, it turns out that it is good to be alive!

After this incident, Zhichun and I are really just good friends, good brothers, and we have never had any ambiguous actions, let alone deviant things.Spring and autumn come to a dream, why not talk and laugh about the mountains and rivers?I let go, relieved, and I also got relief, wouldn't it be better?The best and the best brother, isn't a confidant better, so it must be romantic and life-or-death?I should be content, life is alive, just a few springs, and I have a confidant, what more can I ask for? "

I can only say: Everything can't be done too much, fate is bound to come to an end soon

[End of Volume [-]]

Ladies and gentlemen, the gay friend I will talk about next is much more fun than Zhichun. We rented a room together, and many interesting things happened together. If you are interested, please continue to pay attention, and please interact and comment more!