Sadness on the Left Bank

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I think there is no love in this world.The so-called love is just a stage play of self-deception.After the game ends, each returns to strangers.

Xiao Zhe and I are the best witnesses.On the stage of youth, we have performed the emotional drama together for six years. We have been affectionate, moved, and prosperous with each other, and finally separated.Xiao Zhe, he owes me too much.Four years of college, two years of graduation, and we have been together for six years.Six years of relationship can't resist the temptation to go abroad once.In order to make me give up completely, he took the girl to our bed and rolled naked.That afternoon, I used the four words "beasts are inferior" to him.I didn't cry, I ran to the beach alone, and threw all my tears and grievances into the sea.On the day Xiao Zhe got on the plane, I sold all the things at home to the scrap yard, and the house was also sold.Too many memories make it impossible for me to get close to that world.I'm completely unfeeling.Maybe, a man is nothing more than that, even if there is a sharp sword stuck in his chest, he may not be able to feel the pain, let alone throw away a small love.However, women are different, they always think that love is everything.Therefore, as deep as love is, so is pain.In the past three years, I have cried and been sad alone.I have had all kinds of emotions.However, I was still alone until the end.Sometimes, I feel that I am very tragic. When I see men and women on the street, I feel that they are all pretending to be happy, and they will definitely be separated in the end.Sometimes, I feel that it would be nice if there were only women left in this world, and there must not be so many injuries and departures.So, for the past three years, there have been no men in my life.Occasionally a few squeezed in, but I issued an order to evict the guests early.I became a veritable leftover woman.Anke, 30 years old, single.I don't feel ashamed.

I chose a sunny weekend and invited all the staff from the planning department to my home.Xiaoyue came to me uncertainly and asked, is it really okay?I smiled and nodded vigorously.So, on the weekend, no one was absent.I cook by myself, and other people help me. That kind of happiness and warmth has never been there before.The party continued into the evening, everyone was drunk, and everyone said blessings to each other and some little secrets about themselves.Xiaoyue purposely leaned into my ear and whispered: Today's Encore, what a woman, how generous.come on.Xiao Lu also seemed to be very drunk, he swung forward and back three steps and kissed my forehead.Then, get up and leave.I pretended not to know anything.In the days that followed, although they were not in the same area, they were just next door.Meet every day, smile, say hello.It seems that there is still such a vague friendship.Everyone's life needs the support of others, and I need it too.We don't need to put ourselves in a desperate situation and die alone for a certain person or a certain memory.