Tianxiong and Zhibing

It was already dark, and Wang Tianxiong just came back from outside with a bottle of beer in his hand.Luo Zhibing thought that Wang Tianxiong wanted to scold him for being drunk, but looking at Wang Tianxiong's face, it seemed that he had never drunk.

After entering the door, Wang Tianxiong first poured a glass of beer for himself, and then poured another glass for Luo Zhibing. The two of them sat in the living room without talking, each drinking the beer in the glass, and the atmosphere seemed a bit depressed.Hunan Satellite TV's "Happy Camp" was playing on the TV, and He Jiong led a few crazy hosts to toss around there, not interesting at all, as pale as a group of demons dancing.Luo Zhibing knew that he was going to talk about an important topic, so he turned off the TV casually.However, after a few minutes, Wang Tianxiong still did not speak.During the day, Luo Zhibing thought about this matter alone at home, and he could readily accept all the consequences. After all, everyone is an adult and should be responsible for what he has done. Even if the final result is a breakup, he will not act like A puppy wagging its tail like that begging for forgiveness.Although, in the matter of having an affair, I was the one who was at fault first, but after all, there is a fate, if Wang Tianxiong firmly grasps this handle and refuses to let go, then it will only be the result of mutual losses.At least in this way, it can make his poor self-esteem feel better.

Now that he has made full psychological preparations, Luo Zhibing's heart has become calmer instead. The big deal is to move away from this house. For him, he can move to Lao Luo's house for the time being, and then slowly find a house. If it doesn't work, you can turn to Brother Shan for help. If you have to commit yourself to him, it's no big deal.

"Why haven't you spoken?" Luo Zhibing asked first.

"Yeah, I'm waiting for your reasonable explanation, you go ahead!" Wang Tianxiong was like a defeated rooster, and his words were not angry.

"I don't have any reasonable explanation for this matter. It is an unreasonable matter. No matter how you explain it, it seems superfluous. You are a judge, so you can judge as you want."

"Then you don't deny the fact that you slept with him?"

"There's nothing to deny, it's a fact."

Hearing these words, Wang Tianxiong's heart tightened up and down as if being pricked by a needle.In fact, from last night to now, Wang Tianxiong has been hoping that his judgment is wrong. If Yu Jie's text messages were deliberately teased, is it because he was too narrow-minded, misunderstood them, or some other unknown circumstances.But this kind of thinking and realistic guesses, fighting back and forth in his mind, rationality kept reminding him that facts are facts, no matter how much fantasy is, it is useless.

"So, you like Yu Jie?"

"I didn't like him."

"I don't like it, why do you want to sleep with him?"

"I can't explain this, anyway, under the circumstances at the time, I just couldn't hold back."

"Can you tell me the specific reason?"

"I don't know the reason, but I just feel that I should listen to my inner voice. At that time, I was very eager for passion and that kind of intense way, so I couldn't hold back."

"You mean, I can't satisfy you usually, so you go outside to steal people?"

"You know this best, so don't ask me. In fact, I'm not dissatisfied with you. It's just that this kind of dull life has passed for a long time, and I always want to try a different way. Before, when I was living in the United States, , influenced by some Westerners, I like to live a passionate life. It just so happens that I met Yu Jie this time, so I did this kind of thing.”

"Then if you're with me, won't you have passion? A few days ago, in bed, you said you were very satisfied. "

"Yeah, I did say that. However, people are contradictory. Sometimes they want to be like a virgin, and sometimes they want to be like a slut. I just followed the call of my heart, and I didn't mean to hurt You. Actually, now, even if Yu Jie took off his clothes and lay in front of me, he might not be interested in him. I can only say that I was obsessed with sex for a while, and I didn’t think about it so much, and I don’t want to explain too much now. It's all in vain."

"Then what shall we do in the future?"

"I don't know. You have the final say. It's you who are disappointed in me, not me. In my heart, I never really thought of abandoning you."

"I haven't thought about it, it's just that this kind of thing happened, I feel more uncomfortable, do you understand?"

"I understand, I was wrong, then let time heal slowly from now on!"

"What else can I say?" After finishing speaking, Wang Tianxiong drank all the remaining beer in one go, tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, Luo Zhibing saw it, and couldn't bear it.He didn't want to hurt Wang Tianxiong, but in fact, this kind of situation had already been created. Even if he knelt down and pleaded guilty at this moment, it would not help the matter, so he could only sit silently on the side without speaking.

That night, Luo Zhibing and Wang Tianxiong slept in separate rooms. Although they did not mention breaking up verbally, the distance between the two became larger and more obvious. It seemed that this invisible wall of heart blocked the relationship between the two. The enthusiasm in the room, not even the desire to hug.

The two of them were lying on their respective beds, thinking about their own thoughts. Usually, Wang Tianxiong dozed off a lot. As soon as he touched the pillow, he would fall asleep and snore. Luo Zhibing was different, his sleep was relatively light and he woke up easily.When I first slept with Wang Tianxiong, I was always woken up by Wang Tianxiong's voice, and I tried many ways to treat it, but with little effect, and finally had to give up the treatment.After a long time, he gradually got used to Wang Tianxiong's voice, sometimes he couldn't hear it, and he was not used to it.Nowadays, with such a short distance, they can only live in separate rooms, which is really uncomfortable.

That night, both of them couldn't sleep a little, and they didn't fall asleep until the middle of the night.

After dawn, when we met in the living room, the atmosphere between the two of them seemed to have become a little awkward overnight. Although they would greet each other, their words became very polite and lost the warmth of the past. It felt like a landmine was buried at home. It could explode at any moment.This feeling of respecting each other as a guest makes each other feel strange, but they don't know how to improve, so they have to barely maintain it.

For more than half a month after that, Wang Tianxiong and Luo Zhibing have been sleeping in separate rooms, neither of them offered to let the other come to sleep, and the time to go home became very late every day, and there was no fire at home for two weeks. Meal, the kitchen looks deserted, only the frozen instant food in the refrigerator is increasing.This kind of life without communication is dispensable. As time goes by, the spiritual rift between the two becomes deeper and deeper.

Finally one day, Luo Zhibing proposed to move to Lao Luo's house for a while to give everyone a space to think about whether it is necessary to maintain this relationship.If you think it's unnecessary, break up peacefully and don't need to hurt each other. After all, they had so many good memories before.Wang Tianxiong thought about it, and it was not bad, so he agreed.

On the day Luo Zhibing moved out, Wang Tianxiong bought a bottle of Erguotou and drank most of it at home. His body was a little drunk, but his mind was still clear. He knew that the cycle of this relationship might be over, but he was unwilling .Perhaps from now on, Wang Tianxiong will walk on the narrow path alone, while Luo Zhibing will walk on the golden road. This contrast between light and dark makes Wang Tianxiong's life extremely gloomy.In his 40 years of life, he married a woman, gave birth to a child, divorced again, and later lived with a man, and fell apart. Is this his destiny?It's so sad that even in this painful time, I can't find a suitable person to talk to.Wang Tianxiong sat on the ground alone, drinking and crying, his heart ached terribly.He didn't know what he did wrong, why the man he loved betrayed him, was it just because of premature ejaculation?This reason is too far-fetched, besides, he is not like that now, I really can't figure it out.

When Luo Zhibing left home, he finally turned around and took a look back at this warm little nest. This home had left countless good memories, but just because of his own momentary mistake, such serious consequences were caused.But he is an adult, and he must be brave and responsible for his actions. He was the one who wronged Wang Tianxiong first, so don't continue to hurt him.If two people live indifferently like this, it will form a kind of cold violence. Instead of this, it is better to break up quickly.It's just that Luo Zhibing felt as if a piece had been gouged out when he really wanted to move out. When the taxi drove, he couldn't help but shed hot tears, and couldn't stop it no matter what.The driver looked at it and was a little surprised. He asked Luo Zhibing what happened. He waved his hand and said, "It's nothing, it's just that a very close person left suddenly."After finishing speaking, Luo Zhibing bent down, held his head with both hands, and burst into tears, tears streaming down his fingers. This was truly sad and helpless, but at the same time he was a little unwilling.But things have come to this, and he can only accept the reality, Luo Zhibing is so heartbroken that he even has difficulty breathing.

Lao Luo warmly welcomed Luo Zhibing to join. He didn't know what happened between Luo Zhibing and BF. Anyway, he felt very happy when someone was willing to accompany him.Living with foreigners requires a lot of cultural and living habits to adapt to. Fortunately, Luo Zhibing has lived in the United States before, so there is no need to worry too much.In addition, he is very familiar with Lao Luo and understands each other's conduct.

On the first day after moving, Luo Zhibing went to the subway station when he got off work, and almost ran back to Wang Tianxiong's house. For more than a year, he has become accustomed to treating that place as his home.Later, I found out that I went wrong, and I was stunned for a long time in the subway station, realizing that I no longer live there.At this time, Luo Zhibing suddenly thought of Wang Tianxiong, wondering if he could get used to this kind of life alone, and wanted to call to greet him, but held back.Since I have moved away, why keep my heart there, it will only bring more troubles to Wang Tianxiong.For some reason, when thinking of Wang Tianxiong, Luo Zhibing would shed tears naturally, and no matter the day or night, they were clearly in love, but because of his own carelessness, they made things like this, and now it was too late to regret.Every time Luo Zhibing thought of this, he wanted to slap himself hard, but who could be blamed?

In fact, Wang Tianxiong is also the same.When he returned home, he suddenly felt that the room was very deserted. In the days without Luo Zhibing, the fun of bickering and bickering between two people in the kitchen was missing, and all the shows on the bed were cancelled, making life much more boring.Moreover, he was always thinking about Luo Zhibing, wondering if living with that dead foreigner would be taken advantage of by others, or he would turn around and fall into Yu Jie's arms, and live a happy life from then on.Anyway, in Wang Tianxiong's life dictionary, the acquaintance and association with Yu Jie was a complete mistake. The wrong thing happened at the wrong time, and he made the same mistakes again and again. You should take care of him, fortunately you still treat him as a friend, you never thought he would be so human.Thinking of this, Wang Tianxiong was so angry that he couldn't speak.At night, lying on the bed, not being able to touch a familiar body, Wang Tianxiong felt very lonely and couldn't stop crying.

In this way, at the same time, the two resumed their lonely lifestyle and became a single family in name only.No matter what, the sun will rise tomorrow as usual, and the days will go on.

If you have never really loved, you may never understand what kind of pain it is to lose love.Some people think that a man will be very chic when he is out of love. In fact, when a man is hurt, he will also be very painful, but this kind of pain cannot be expressed like a woman. It must be buried in the heart and gradually hurt internally.