brother in love with brother

Woke up at five o'clock in the morning. Although it was the end of July, it was still very cold in the middle of the night, so I climbed into bed in a daze and continued to sleep.

After that day, after the little boy, the little boy never looked for me again, but I often thought of him.When you make fried rice with eggs, you will think of his saying, "This is the best fried rice with eggs I have ever eaten in my life." 'Looking at the empty computer desk, I will think of the scene where we hugged and watched anime.The basketball court, the dining table... are all his shadows.The feeling now is a hundred times, a thousand times, ten thousand times more painful than breaking up with Wen...

During those days, the world felt like darkness, the phone was turned off, and the calls at home were not answered. My brothers thought something was wrong with me and disappeared for nearly a month.Mom also thought I had a sex change. I used to go out every two days for three days, but now I'm an otaku.

Later, the brothers finally came to the door. When they saw me lifeless, they were shocked, because in their impression, I was very energetic and sunny.They asked me what was wrong, I just said it was nothing, and they didn't ask again, showing concern with actions.

Pull me to play basketball today, go swimming tomorrow, swim in mountains and rivers the day after tomorrow, go to pick watermelon at this and that, pick longan at that and so...

I had a lot of fun every day, because I wanted to get emotional, so it was very positive.

But at night, in the dead of night, I still think of him and miss him very much...

Until August 8, they came to school and really entered the third year of high school.

He called my house that day, "Hi, hello, who are you looking for?"

"……"no sound

"Hey, talk?" I

"..." There was still no sound

I began to think of him, so I said slowly, "Brother Xiang...is...you?"

"Hmm." There was finally a word over there.

"Looking for me... for... what...?" I asked

"Brother, can we talk?" He

"Well, where do we meet?" I knew that what should come would always come.

"** Riverside Park, next to the Hulk. I'll wait for you." He

"um, I

Half an hour later, I got there, and the little kid was sitting on the flower bed looking at the river.He looked haggard and thinner.

I walked over and sat down beside him.

After sitting for a while, I spoke first, "Recently, how... how...?"

"I said very well, would you believe it?" He

Yeah, how could it be good.We were silent again for a while.

"Brother, I know how serious the consequences of homosexuality are, but I still like you." He turned his head and looked at me.

"I like you too, but...we can't be together." I

"Why? The days with you are the happiest I have been in 17 years." He

"We can't be selfish and not think about our family. Don't worry, I will always be your brother." I

"But I don't want you to just be my brother. I need your arms. I know it's not good, and my family will be sad, but I can't control myself." He

"Brother Xiang, you don't have to be gay. You just depend on me. Let's... let go." I said with a sob.

"I don't...don't..." He cried and hugged me.

"Brother, do we really have no chance?" He cried.

"Well, but I have always been your brother." I

"I don't want you to be my brother, we won't even be friends in the future." He suddenly pushed me away and said, "Because I can't do it, look at you, and don't love you." He stood up and ran away quickly up.

'We're not even friends...' I kept thinking about the words, watching him disappear before my eyes, and we were totally screwed.

With tears in his eyes shaking, he took out his cell phone and called Sister Xue.

"Hey, Yang, what's the matter?" She

"Sister Xue, I'm having a hard time right now."

"Where are you now?" She heard my tone.

"** Riverside Park." I

"Then you wait." She hung up the phone.

She appeared in front of me after a while, wiped the tears from my face and said, "Don't cry, don't cry..." Her voice was also choked.

I hugged her and cried out loud.She never asked anything, just kept reassuring me.Later she stayed with me for a long time, even though we didn't say a word.

Here I want to shout loudly, "Sister Xue, I love you. If I didn't like men, I would definitely pursue you!"

So I used to say that Sister Xue is very good, like a sister to me, there is a basis for it.She is also the only one in my memory who has seen me cry after I became sensible. That time in front of her, I cried like a child.

Later, I finally stabilized my emotions and said goodbye to her.

"It's okay, the sun will still rise tomorrow." She said

"Hmm." I nodded.

I don't know that after meeting a little kid, I always cry. Personally, I always feel that a man who sheds tears is a coward.

Let me tell you, sister Xue is now studying at Beijing Normal University, which was the best school in our class at that time.

I don't remember how I got home that day, I just remember that when my mother asked me to eat, I covered my head and fell asleep after I said so.