bear shadow

He poked my waist with his elbow and suddenly asked me "What do you think happiness is?"

"How can I eat without gaining weight?" I tilted my head and asked him

"Yes, that is also a kind of happiness." He shook his head helplessly, with a look of disdain for me

"Otherwise, tell me, what should happiness be like?" There was a little urgency in his tone, and he continued to ask him

But he didn't say anything, just smiled slightly, leaned his face slightly towards me, and slid gently on my lips...

I can vaguely hear two people talking beside me, but I can’t remember who these two people are in my mind, and my whole body seems to be bound by something. No matter how I try to move, my body just doesn’t move at all. move.

My heart is like being locked in a dark room, but I can't find a ray of light in the room. My heart is screaming desperately in my body, but I still don't get any response. I'm alone in the corner of the wall. This may make me warmer, but the wall only gives me a cold response, and my eyes are always confused, like a lonely boat floating in the sea drifting with the current.

The quarrel in my ears seemed to be more intense, but the loud and small voices never made me understand why they were arguing. The voices in my ears made people feel nostalgic, and I felt that my eyes were full of Tears were constantly suppressed because of the eyes that could not be opened.

When I opened my eyes, I saw these two worried expressions, seeing how they were worried about me, and the tears that had been stopped kept pouring out of my eyes, and my emotions were like a wild horse that had run wild, and I was no longer affected by it. My control, I cried, cried like a newborn baby, only crying can express my current mood.

"Cry, it will be much better if you cry all out."

The fat boy hugged me tightly and patted my back lightly, as if he was comforting a child, but my tears still couldn't stop, and the crying was only slightly softer because I buried my head in his chest.

"You take care of him here, I'll call the doctor."

We were all waiting outside the ward. It took a long time for the doctor and nurse to come out of the ward. We urgently asked the doctor about his current condition. The doctor said that it seemed that he had to observe for a few more days. A sedative was given to let him rest for a few more days, so as not to stimulate the patient's natural recovery.

My father and I tiptoed into the ward, seeing him sleeping peacefully, still made people a little worried. Sometimes I always wondered whether the misfortunes of the people around me were caused by me?Maybe this kind of misfortune will only bring the person I love deeply, hurting again and again, looking at the expression of Mo's father, I don't know if I still have the strength to continue to fight for the future we both think of. I just gave up, and I think I will be resented by Amo for the rest of my life.

"uncle…"

"you…"

The two of us spoke out almost at the same time, but we just stared at each other blankly, not knowing how to continue to finish the conversation. For the elder, I should respect him first and let him finish the sentence first...

"You should say it first." But the words came out of his mouth first.

"Uncle, I was just thinking, if I let go at this moment, I will definitely regret it for the rest of my life."

Ps. When you’re doing nothing, it’s easy to think about things, but you’re so busy with a bunch of exams, and the update frequency is too low, I’m really sorry.