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Although what I heard was just pure sleep talk, it made me feel very uneasy in my heart. I only hope that I just heard everything wrong...

I watched the New Year's Eve party on TV, waiting for the time to approach, but Brother Cong Hao was still sleeping soundly...

If you really like me, but I can only say "thank you and sorry" to you, will it still break your heart in the end?

Seeing that there were less than 5 minutes left in the time, I stood on the balcony of his house, ready to count down with the TV host...

"Why didn't you wake me up? I almost slept until next year."

"Seeing that you are sleeping so deeply, I can't bear to wake you up."

We followed the host on the TV and counted down together until the dark sky was dotted with gorgeous fireworks, but he hugged me from behind...

"You know what? I used to fantasize about being able to watch fireworks with the people I like."

"What did you say?" Although I was frightened by him just now, I was still taken aback by his words.

"Actually, I'm a comrade. And it's a comrade who likes you. Does it scare you?"

Although I know that if I pretend that I am not gay and accept his identity, I may be able to avoid all this, but... I really can't just deceive a hardworking person like this...

A person who worked hard to muster up the courage to tell me who I am is the last person I want to deceive, so I...

"Brother Cong Hao, I would be lying if I said I wasn't surprised. But I have to tell you one thing, in fact, I am too."

"So you...are willing to accept me?" He said with surprise on his face

"What I really want to say is thank you for loving me, but I still have to say sorry to you."

"why?"

"Because my heart can no longer accommodate other people, and I am also waiting for that person."

"So that's the case, am I a step late?"

"sorry."

Although I don't hate Christianity, but every time this moment, I really have too much dissatisfaction with God.When we were born, He did not give us the right to choose our gender, but he asked us to make choices one after another when we face problems in this world.

No matter what the answer to the question is, as long as I choose one of them, I must hurt the person who is waiting for the other option.

When the two people facing you are silent, you can understand why the air is heavy?I don't want to keep hurting him by saying "you're a nice person" or "if I met you first, I'd probably fall in love with you first."

It's just that at this moment, in order to break the deadlock, I have to say something, but what should I do...

"Amo, I just want to ask you a question, are we still friends?"

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In the end, I didn't spend the night at his house, because after all, the New Year's Eve MRT runs until late. I told him that I treated him like my own brother from the beginning to the end, and I don't want others Causes destroy our relationship like this.

Although he said "he understands.", why don't I think so from the look in his eyes?

I sent a text message to Fat Boy’s mobile phone on the MRT, telling him Happy New Year, although I know he can’t reply the text message now, but I still sent it...

ps. Thanks to the readers who supported "Bear Shadow", Mo Xiong is here to thank you!Also, if there is something in the article that is too rude to God, please Christians calm down!