that boy said he loves me

When the nurse gently covered Xiaobin's face with a white cloth, I couldn't help but rushed towards him, and many people came to pull me.

But I desperately crawled forward to grab his bed. I lay down on the ground and shouted loudly: "He is not dead, he is still alive, you... let me go, let me go"...

I hate myself for being a coward, I hate everything I have done to disguise my feelings in front of him, I hate the injustice of this world, I hate the cruelty of the world.Why take my love away...

The funeral that day was very simple. Both Xiaobu and I put on black clothes to see Xiaobin off. The funeral was all over in the morning.

Xiaobu and I looked at the photo of "brother" in a daze, without crying, making noise, or making noise.

Just quietly watching the person in charge go out to greet the guests who came to pay homage. Xiaobin's mother has fainted many times from crying, and I don't know how many times she fainted just now.

Xiao Bu was crying "loudly" at first, but now he is sneezing "quietly".

When I brought him the food, I saw that his face was pale, his voice was hoarse from crying, his eyes were red and swollen like rotten peaches, and he was completely speechless.

I say eat less!The body is important.

He opened his mouth, but he didn't make a sound. I saw his mouth shape and he said, "I don't want to eat."

Then another tear flowed from the corner of his eye.

I used to hug him in the past, and now Xiaobu is so helpless and pitiful.

If Xiaobin was here, I would definitely give him the best comfort and the most considerate care, but as an outsider, I can only do my best to comfort him, because Xiaobu is really pitiful now.

I am very lucky to meet "Xiaobin" in this life, and I am also very lucky to be his "brother".

During the period when he was critically ill, I was not able to be by his side, which was the greatest regret in my life.

Why didn't he even give me the last chance to take care of him.

I didn't know this heart-wrenching and heart-wrenching news until the day he "gone"!

Letter to Heaven - Actually I want to say...

In fact, I want to say: "Brother, you don't know! I love you too, but I dare not say it.

When I want to say, you already have Xiaobu by your side, that girl is my classmate, not my "girlfriend".

Everything you see is fake, if you, me, really love each other, my love is no less than anyone who loves you, including Xiaobu.

I went to your school that day and went to your dormitory, and the people in your dormitory said that you were in the playground behind the school.

When I arrived, I saw you kissing Xiaobu.

That's when my heart broke and I knew you had what you loved.

And I can only be your "brother" forever, but I believe that what he can do, I can do the same.

But why didn't you give me a chance!

I just want to annoy you on purpose, I'm afraid you don't care about me, I'm afraid you ignore me, I'm afraid you give all your love to Xiaobu and ignore me.

I used to think that my feelings for you were just a kind of "worship" or "dependence" from "brother" to "brother".

When I am with you, I can cry wantonly, even if I have played with fire, you will not have a word of blame.

There is a saying that people often say, "You only know how to cherish when you lose it."

Brother...can you tell me if this sentence refers to us.

Until now, I can't accept the fact that you died. You loved me deeply, but I didn't know it.

When I also fell in love with you deeply, you flicked your sleeves and left. Didn't you say that lovers get married eventually?It must not be about us.

Why do we have to live in such pain, why can't we be together, why..." I finished writing this letter with tears in my eyes, hoping to show it to my brother Xiaobin.

I folded it in a blue envelope, the address was "Letter to Heaven", and the recipient was "Xiao Bin"—my elder brother.

Looking at the flying paper dust, tears welled up in the corners of his eyes.

The corners of his mouth raised, I knew that Xiaobin would see the letter I sent him in the sky, and he would live a happy life there.

One day you and I will lose our faces, we promise to grow old together in another world, and say "I love you" in the next life....