Jean Love

Do I really dare to drag a man in indiscriminately, strip him naked, and knock him down on his territory, show him?It was crazy, it was crazy, it was so abnormal, I shook my head like a rattle, and the corners of my mouth split open, like a neurotic patient with high tension. After waking up, I was afraid of my behavior and thoughts just now.

Later, when Lian Yu came back, he yelled loudly outside the door: "Wen, I forgot to tell you that there is rice, which is stored in the white plastic bucket inside." With a look of being drowned: "What a terrible weather, it suddenly rained so heavily and thundered so loudly."

"Is there no shelter from the rain where you work?"

"I'm worried that you're afraid here alone." He said as he took off his coat and trousers, shook it a few times, hung it on a clean crossbar, combed his short wet hair with his palm back and forth, pinched his nose, and sneezed , asked: "Have you had lunch? What did you cook?"

"Mung bean soup, look at your face and the corners of your eyes. In this weather, you should pay attention to cooling down. I heard from my colleague's old mother that Baige mung bean soup can clear away heat and detoxify, nourish yin and nourish qi, so I bought it Come." "You can eat it soon, you can boil some hot water and take a bath, your whole body will be wet."

"Hehe, cooking so much, do you eat it as a meal?" Lian Yu lifted the lid of the pot, and a white steam rushed to the roof.

The rain has stopped, the sky has cleared up, the sun is shining everywhere again, the air is fresh, the trees and grass on the hillside in front of the door are green like jade, and the yellow sand and mudstone at the foot of the hill have been washed flat and clear, and behind the shower room A luxuriant pumpkin was swayed by the rain, vines were everywhere, the stems were splashed with mud and dead leaves, the leaves were stretched out, like huge palms, and the white spider web textures were like palm prints, clear and clear, There are crystal clear drops of water hanging on the leaf tips of foxtail.

"Are you still going to work this afternoon?"

"No, the excavator needs to be overhauled."

In the afternoon, he asked me if I would go shopping in Huicheng. I said I didn’t want to go. He asked me where I wanted to go. I said I didn’t want to go anywhere. As a result, he took out the horse newspaper and read it carefully. He called from time to time and consulted. After a while, I walked around the container. There was no village or shop behind. It was located at the foot of the mountain, like an isolated island, but it was very suitable for people, lonely people like me who are afraid of meeting people.

"Wen, let's go out with me for a while, it's near the dinner last night, not far away."

We walked along the river, slowly, like a couple, but they seemed to be close together, I was worried, he was the same as before, until night fell, Lian Yu asked me where to eat, I said go back and eat mung bean soup There are still so many, and I am not hungry. He asked why I didn’t eat at noon. I said I didn’t want to eat, and then changed my words and said that I ate breakfast too late.

So we bought two glasses of black ant wine, and went all the way back in the gray light before nightfall.

In the evening, he started to work, busy on the phone, called the boss, asked people what to buy, raised his voice, called home, asked his family to help him place bets, wrapped snakes, wrapped cattle, and 12 and 24 each Count each to buy 20 yuan, he is like a commander, give instructions through the walkie-talkie, stop, pick up the hookah, and quietly smoke.In fact, I know that he is also deliberately covering up some kind of contradiction, which comes from the heart, and it is probably because of the contradiction brought to him by my apparent depression and joylessness.

I took a shower, moved here and there, and the night got deeper and deeper, and the loneliness became more and more intense, like those two glasses of black ant wine that were so thick that they were black and red.

"Wen, you bought wine, why don't you drink it?" Lian Yu stood up, took out a bowl, and was about to pour tea.

"Let's have a drink together, one for each, this wine is good." I stopped him from reaching for the teapot.

"I don't want it, I can't stand it."

"I can't finish it if you don't drink it." I said.

"It's for you to drink tomorrow night," he said.

"Maybe not here tomorrow night."

"Didn't you rest for four days?" Lian Yu opened his mouth.

I didn't speak, pulled off the lid of the cup, handed him a cup, he took it, poured half of it into the bowl, picked up the bowl and touched me lightly, pretended to smile nonchalantly, tugged the corner of his mouth, awesome, I Muster up the courage: "Yu, you..., can you be hard on the bottom? Is it useless?"

"Hehe, hehe, it's useless? Call Jinji and ask if it's useful. In Jiaoyuan Village, there was a little girl who was afraid of me when she saw me, hum! hum!" He twitched his mouth again, Proud, unruly.

"Blag, let me check tonight to see if it's true." I was half joking, my face flushed.

He didn't speak, and when it was time to sleep, he was still sleeping on the bunk bed last night. I went over and lay down next to him. After a while, he got up and left, and returned to his bed. I followed him: "Let's sleep together tonight, okay?" I rubbed against his armpit.

"It's hot and sweaty." He got up again, smoked a hookah, sighed a few times, and went back to sleep on the bed last night.

I was completely out of tricks, the desire and anger in my heart were pressed down like a kiln, couldn't be suppressed, and blew out, smoked in strands, until the bricks and tiles were burned red, and they were about to become decayed, or to form eternity .

It was another sleepless night, I wiped my red and dry eyes, turned on my phone, five o'clock, five o'clock in the morning, I got out of bed sideways, wearing simple cotton panties, came to Lian Yu's side like a zombie, stared at him for a long time , he was lying on his back, the thin quilt could not cover his strong body, his arms were exposed, his belly was exposed, his thighs were exposed, his calves were exposed, only there, the place covered by his underwear, was faint , full of sin, yet mysterious and alluring.

The sound of frogs rises and falls, crickets chirp, the night is a misty gray, the sound of snoring rises and falls, breathing is even, and people have strong magic power.

I bent down and gently lifted a layer of thin cloth, and saw a palm passing through the quilt, through the elastic band, holding his egg sac, and the branches on the egg sac arched a curved line, a soft and beautiful arc. Wire.I stared at it for a long time again, my heart beat faster, my breathing was short, and I was nervous, not only because of surprise, but also mixed with a little hysteria.

I knelt in front of the bed, a chaotic god, kowtowed three dumb heads to Lian Yu without knowing why, and slowly, slowly hooked my two index fingers away from the restraint of the elastic band, and peeled off the close-fitting fabric, gently, gently Remove the heavy bear's paw.

Tears flowed down my cheeks, head bent down, like a snake, forward, forward, spitting, biting, licking, licking, devouring, devouring, a smell of fishy smell came in one after another, flowing into the nose, stomach There was a spasm in my stomach.

I lay on my body, face to face, chest to chest, hair and grass piled on top of each other, eggs tied together, arms wrapped around his waist.A sound, like chewing sugar, came out of Lian Yu's mouth, and then the snoring stopped, and a sudden palm pushed me to a side.

"What are you doing?" He woke up.

I quickly adjusted my posture, pressed it up again, and rubbed my whole body back and forth a few times like washing clothes. I stretched out my right hand, grabbed the searchlight next to his pillow, stood up, sat on the edge of the bed, and snapped...!There was a crisp sound of explosion and rupture.

"I lost your old mother, and I'll fuck your grandma." I went crazy.

"Sex is like a wolf, desire is like a tiger, fuck me, sometimes I really want to cut it off with a knife, so that I won't be so cheap, so embarrassing and conspicuous." I was crazy.

Time dried up and condensed at that moment, I sat on the edge of the bed like a scarecrow, sitting in the same place, trembling in my heart, my appearance was cold and severe, and I couldn't speak.

He sat up, turned on the light, put on his clothes, put on his slippers, looked at the searchlight on the iron sheet of the container whose plywood surface was broken into pieces, and was stunned and terrified. He stood there for a few seconds, helpless. Sitting on the wooden bench diagonally across from me, I picked up the hookah, groped for a long time, and found a lighter, but stopped, glanced at me, and dared not look directly. We have known each other for many years, and this is the first time he saw me like this angry.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and the gray and dark sky gradually brightened. Lian Yu lit the hookah, like the weather-beaten and inarticulate old man in the mountains of the Loess Plateau, sitting there, puffing away.

And I, calming down the trembling in my heart, still like a lion who wants to stand on a high place even if I am defeated, roaring vigorously, asking unwillingly: "Lian Yu, it has been eight years, and you still think I am Perverted?"

"Isn't it?" He took a puff on his cigarette, lowered his eyes, and evaded his words, like a naughty boy who knew he was ashamed but refused to admit his mistake.

"Time is like flowing water, and longing is like sinking sand. It has been eight years. How long have I been in eight years? I love you as deeply as I can. I don't want your soul, and I don't expect you to be grateful. I just want a hug "" Over the past three years, I have sent you so many messages, and through such a difficult process, I was able to reconcile with you. Life is too short, except for 15 years, how much can we have? Eight years? I stuck with it for eight years, thinking that even if you were a stone in a latrine, I would be able to soften and melt you. It turned out that I was still wrong, and I was just a pervert after all!" My words kept coming, like The torrent that opened the gate.