Jean Love

In the cold and gloom of the early morning, I watched Lianyu dragging his heavy luggage away in a rage, but I just stood there blankly, like Mrs. Xianglin, muttering: "I'm married, I I'm married, I'm married."

When I came back to my senses, I wiped my face with my palms and looked around. His bags and the three plastic buckets had all been dragged away and disappeared into this room. The image of the deluxe single room.I took two cans of Wanglaoji from the items on the bedside lamp cabinet and rushed out of the hotel.

Called a motorcycle at the entrance of the lobby, chased out of the [-] National Highway, and saw several people, including him, he was still standing there, with a lot of luggage at his feet, I gave him Wanglaoji, He didn't want it, I stuffed it into his snakeskin bag, he took it out, put it on the ground, I forced it in again, turned around and walked, all the way, all the way, except for sadness and guilt, it seemed that everything around It has nothing to do with me.

"Boss, would you like to continue the room?" The call woke me up, it was the hotel waiter.

"Stay for another day, go down to renew at night, okay?" After hanging up the phone, I fell back to the bed in a daze.

When I came out at noon the next day, the sun was stinging my eyes, and there were stars in my eyes. I didn’t go to the fruit farm. Like a traveler who has never traveled far, I was worried about jet lag. I was afraid that I would not be able to adjust my words, deeds and expressions.

After receiving the payment, I walked around Hetian, like a prisoner, like a prisoner who came back to visit the grave in secret.

The photos were developed, and one of them was taken out: an upright face with Chinese characters, a pair of small and focused eyes, two thin and round lips, and an expression of astonishment and panic after being attacked.

I picked up the ballpoint pen and wrote on the back of it: It is difficult to say goodbye when we meet, write the time and place.I asked the owner of the photo studio to have them all plastic-coated, plastic-coated, and released by category. I put this one aside and put it in my khaki-colored, canvas-knitted backpack with a total of six bags, which I have been carrying ever since.

I am most afraid of going to Zhao Xin's biological parents' home, but how can this rule be missed? Newlyweds, new son-in-law, put on new clothes, pretend to be happy, bring gifts, and be courteous, and hang firecrackers in front of the door.

"It's here, come, come, come in and sit." It's also a big family, the sons and daughters come back, dragging the children, I'm afraid of that kind of excitement, but sometimes that kind of excitement can make me better blend in.

"Mao Ya has been shy since she was a child." Zhao Xin's mother always laughed and gave me simple and practical explanations for my inexplicable blushing anytime and anywhere. This is reputation, like a brand, and has the power of a brand.Because they are very close to each other, no matter how difficult the meal was, it passed quickly, and they left as if fleeing after the meal, bringing Zhao Xin with them.

After the Lantern Festival, my mother asked me what I was going to do. I had no idea, so I said, stay at home for a year and a half, and be quiet. She said it was impractical, that I had no strength, and there was no way out for farming at home.Zhao Xin quit her job excitedly before getting married, and after a year she calmed down, thinking, the two of us can’t eat old food at home together, and then went to Zhongshan, and my family members persuaded me to go together to learn tailoring and garment making. Just don't follow.

In the middle of another year, I went to Foshan, entered a small factory, and worked as a workshop worker. At the store in front of the factory, I asked the boss: "Is there a Guangzhou Bay?"

The boss said: "No, I have bought it before, and very few people bought it."

I said: "Next time, enter two, I want it."

I came to a small service department of China Mobile not far from the factory. There was a sky blue billboard with two rows of glass cabinets, which contained mobile phones and mobile phone accessories. There was an instrument for repairing mobile phones in the corner. The waiter was very enthusiastic: "Hello, do you want to buy a mobile phone? Please look around and see which style you like."

"Is there any recharge card for sale?"

"Yes, how much do you want? Is it China Mobile or China Unicom?" The waiter was still very enthusiastic.

"Shenzhouxing, may I recharge the Dongguan number here?" I asked.

"Yes, any in the province is fine, how much do you want to charge?"

"Please recharge one hundred for me." I wrote the eleven Arabic numerals that were so familiar in my mind as if they had been imprinted on the paper. After recharging, I dialed the number and rang. Hang up, I know, he has received, I also know, he will not answer, that day is August [-], [-].

I called home to inquire about my mother's condition, and my mother said that it was much better. She went there once a month, and every time I went, my elder brother-in-law would pick me up and send me to the town. As I was talking, I heard grandma's voice, which was harsh: "I always say Mao Ya I don’t like my old sister, you people can’t see it, I know it, I can see it, otherwise, why have I never heard that he has been to Zhongshan, or how come now, Xiner’s There is no movement in the stomach, tell them not to be separated, tell them to come together, if he doesn't want to go to Zhongshan, he tells Xiner to go to Foshan, I want to take care of the children, I want to take care of the great-grandson."

I seem to be able to picture the picture on the other end of the phone. An old man, with his hands behind his back and hunchback, crowded beside his mother, waving his hands and yelling loudly, ignoring the curious onlookers of the neighbors.

Before closing the line, my mother said faintly: "You heard it too. Alas! It's all my fault. If I knew you didn't like it so much, I shouldn't have persuaded you so hard."

In June [-], my son was born at ten o'clock in the evening. I was not free at that time, and I took four days off when the full moon wine was placed.

When my son registered, my mother called and asked me whether I should register with my resident or with Zhao Xin’s rural one. She also said that it’s better to get a rural hukou than a resident one.

I said, go to Zhao Xin's rural household registration, and told him: "Change his name from Chen Yu to Chen Quan."

"Why, what's wrong? Didn't you name Chen Yu a long time ago?" Mother wondered.

"Is it impossible to change the inscription on the inscription?"

"That's not true. Before registering the account, you can change it casually."

"Then change it. Chen Quan is better." I didn't explain, and my mother didn't ask why.

My mother and Zhao Xin brought Chen Quan to Foshan to play together, and told many interesting stories about the little guy. Zhao Xin said: "You don't even know that when Quan was born, he was soft for many days and for a long time. Others looked at his pink face and wanted to hug him, but they didn't dare to hug him, and said that this kind of situation is rare."

"Did you? You didn't tell them I was drinking a lot?"

"Go, how do you say this, it's true." Zhao Xin smiled, her face flushed.

Later, the eldest brother-in-law who taught saw a house in our town, introduced it to my mother, and called me to ask if I wanted to buy it. I went home and saw that house, two and a half floors, in the town. In the center, the owner is relocating, and it is urgently needed to sell, [-], not expensive at all.I glanced at my mother and said, "Buy it, and then you and your father will live together, okay?"

"I don't want it." The mother reacted quickly and quickly refused, and listed a lot of reasons for not buying it for the time being: red brick houses are hotter than clay tile houses; if you buy a house, you will have no money to turn around if you want to do some business; If I don't do business and have nowhere to go in the town, I might as well guard a few acres of land at home.Then he said: "Oh, this is a matter for you young people. You can buy it. You and your parents-in-law discuss it. After discussing it, you can buy it."

I said, "Why don't you come to live here and buy them to raise mice? Hehe, we are still young. If we didn't have many connections to come back to do business, we wouldn't be able to stay at home."

Although very interested, but did not buy.In fact, two words were entangled in my mind at the time, nest and prison. If there is no love, home is not a harbor, but a cage.

Back home during the New Year, everyone was very happy. Aunt Lin’s daughter brought a camera from nowhere, and took pictures everywhere, saying that she was taking pictures of ancient villages and alleys, and people. Zhao Xin stood beside her, and I came out to wash my hands. She patted Zhao Xin on the shoulder: "Call your husband over and take a couple photo for you."

Zhao Xin didn't say a word, just looked at me, shyly, I said: "Forget it, old couple, still taking pictures?" I turned and went into the room.

I went to Zhao Xin’s biological father’s and biological mother’s house again during the New Year. When I entered the door, I called my sister and brother-in-law. After dinner, I drank tea. His father reminded me: “Mao Ya, it’s time to change your mouth. They’re all born. Should I call Zhao Xin Dad?” I was a little sullen. , with a look of anticipation.

I said: "Let's call him brother-in-law, by the way." Hehe.

My sister, Zhao Xin's mother, may see my shy mouth, nose, eyes, and face, and come to rescue again, open her mouth, haha, festive, while laughing, accusing: "It's not the same what you call it, this kind of person! "

In the two or three years after marriage, I don't know how I got here, it seems to be like this, bits and pieces, pieces of memory.