Jean Love

A total of more than four months, less than five months, the restaurant closed.

"Aren't you going to do it?" Brother said bitterly.

"Is it necessary to continue?" I was very helpless, and there was sympathy in my helplessness.

I went to the fruit farm to inquire about it. Some people said that the location of the restaurant is not good. Some people said that there is no signature dish, which is too ordinary. Some people said that the taste of the food is not satisfactory. Jinji said: "If you recruit a few more girls, the business will definitely be booming. .”

I left the refrigerator and TV at the gas station, and nothing else was left. I moved them to the wall of the gas station first, as if I had temporarily set up a kitchen utensils booth.Later, my brother treated them as second-hand goods, kicked them, and sold them.In those few days, watching my brother beating his chest, shaking his head, and looking sullen, I felt so powerless.

"Oh, if I hadn't been in a hurry, I would have chosen Hetian Market as the location of the store." My brother sighed.

"The location is my choice."

"I don't blame you. If I want to blame, I can only blame my bad luck." The elder brother lit a cigarette and looked out of the window with a kind of lax eyes.

"What are your plans next?" I was a little worried.

"What else can I plan, let's take a step and see." My brother lit another cigarette.

"Just find a job around here. It doesn't matter if it's more than 1000 or more than 2000. You don't have to use your own brains and do it in a down-to-earth manner. It's better than you. Going to work in a big hotel and saying that you are a minister. It sounds very beautiful, changing several jobs a year, traveling here and there, it’s really useless.” The younger brother made a loud noise, and the elder brother gave him a look and took a deep puff on his cigarette.

In the end, my brother decided to go back to Guangzhou because it was his old base, where he had many acquaintances and it was easier to find a job, and his sister-in-law was still in Guangzhou.When he left, he scratched his scalp and said to me, "Your money... I will return it to you when the time comes."

"You deal with the most important thing you are facing right now, money is not the most important thing." I said seriously, and I didn't look at him seriously, but just watched his words and deeds secretly.

"I'm going this time, your sister-in-law may not be able to do business." He still twisted Nini, as if there was something in his words.

"The money for selling second-hand goods will be kept with you. For ordinary expenses, it should be enough for a period of time, right?"

"Enough is enough..." There was a weak light in the elder brother's eyes.

"About your life and affairs, I have been paying attention since grandpa passed away. As the eldest brother, I am really not qualified to say anything in front of you, but..." I hesitated for a moment, paused for a moment: "Forget it, let's not say anything Well, maybe everyone has their own difficulties, I just want to say, a marriage, a marriage of free love and marriage, a marriage that already has children, if you insist on using a job and an income as the settlement of separation and reconciliation Hammer, or it is, this woman doesn’t matter. Of course, as a man, more often than not, he must know how to find reasons from himself, such as life water, believers have it, and non-believers don’t.”

"I'm sorry, things like feelings are still under control by yourself, go back and take care of yourself, okay?" I added.

My brother didn't say anything more. After lunch, he simply cleaned up and left. When we left, my brother and I were still standing by the gas station door, watching him go away. His thin body and neat attire were missing. confidence.

In the end, they left.

Half a year later, they separated peacefully. My mother took my sister-in-law to the village to issue a certificate and seal, and my brother and sister-in-law went to the town to go through the formalities. It's not easy to deal with each other, but in the few days when we left, we were harmonious and treated each other as guests.

The little niece was awarded to her brother to be raised, and she stayed. There was no agreement on how much child support the woman would pay each month. It was just a verbal agreement between the husband and wife. The woman had to buy clothes, pants, shoes and socks for the child every year, and the sister-in-law basically fulfilled it.

I learned about them later, mostly from my mother’s phone calls or conversations with family members when I got home. I would seem to be happy when I was on a blind date, but at other times I was immersed in sad thoughts because of illness and the failed marriage of my eldest son and daughter-in-law.

You know, she has been saving her grandfather since he passed away, but in the end she still can't save it. The blow is conceivable. Moreover, she and her sister-in-law have a very good relationship. When they are at home, they are like two mothers. In the few days when she decided to leave, her sister-in-law and mother shed tears and were inseparable.

"For the sake of the child, can't you bear it? Like me, I twist 24 hairs to be a man. When the child grows up, everything will be fine. If you are like this, you will suffer in the future. !" They sat on the edge of the bed, and the mother asked in mourning, slapping her sister-in-law's back with her arm.

"I'm sorry, I'm not as great as you, I'm sorry, I really can't be as great as you, I guess there are not many people like you in this world." The sister-in-law cried repeatedly, tears streaming down her face.

The little niece seemed to understand, and ran into the room after a while, hugged her mother's leg, patted her sister-in-law's hand, and her sister-in-law picked her up and held her tightly in her arms. After a while, she struggled to get down again and came out. Living room, playing alone.

Regarding my sister-in-law, my impression is neither deep nor shallow, neither good nor bad, but I just feel that there is a faint calmness in her temperament, which is very inconsistent with the frequent quarrels and fights in our family, but her attitude at home After a few years, she gets along well with the young and old at home, which requires some wisdom and tolerance, after all, she is a newcomer.

The other memories I heard were quickly forgotten, and there was another time that I couldn’t forget. One evening before their divorce, I received a message from my sister-in-law for the first time. The content of the message was: "If I divorce your elder brother, you What will you think? I know that my mother will be very sad when the time comes,"

At that time, I was at the gas station, just like when I received the call of my grandfather's death, I kept pacing back and forth.The difference is that I am less sad and more irritable, which is a kind of pressure.On the one hand, we can get a glimpse of my sister-in-law's inner struggle and suffering. On the other hand, it shows my sister-in-law's trust in me, but this trust is too heavy for me to bear.

I flipped through my phone repeatedly, looking at that message, what do you think?how can i seeThat's my elder brother, this is an emotional issue between the two of you, it's a personal issue, and I have no right to decide anything.

won't you come back?What should I do?Repeatedly opened, repeatedly covered, hesitant.I paced back and forth again, and sat down on the bench for more than ten minutes.

I wrote a few words, thought it was inappropriate, deleted it, looked up at the sound tiles on the roof, took a deep breath, wrote a few more words, recited it several times, it still didn’t work, and deleted it again, and so on. .

"Although we all call her mother and mother, they are different in essence. She gave birth to me and raised me as my own mother. I have an obligation to support her, no matter when and where. But for you, She is just your mother-in-law, your husband's mother-in-law. You and your husband can't live anymore. If you really want to leave, just be free and easy, and live happily ever after. Looking back, you can still remember that there was once It would be good if such a mother treats you as her own."

When I sorted out this long paragraph of text, it was more than an hour later, and I was hesitant to post it or not. Is it a bit of a loss to write like this?Isn't it a bit cruel for my brother?

Later, I blinked and pressed the red button on the phone, forget it, leave everything to time, and I just pretended not to care.

It's just that I was really worried about my mother's health, so I went home several times that year.

"I've never heard of it, it seems that divorce is something glorious, and I accompanied her to get a certificate. If it were me, I would ignore it. I would also detain their documents to see how they divorced... .”

"A daughter, but not a son. She will marry someone sooner or later when she grows up. She has no merit at all. If there is anything to fight for, let her take it away if she has the ability. We don't want it, we don't want it."

"Your mother raised her (sister-in-law) so well, and left her (sister-in-law) anything delicious. In the end, she still left."

For a long time after the elder brother and sister-in-law divorced, every time they quarreled, grandma would say this about mother, very loudly, without any scruples, and sometimes in front of elder brother, it made mother really embarrassing.The mother didn't argue, and the pain and grievances were hidden in her heart. She was originally thin and weak, but now it is easy to fall when the wind blows.

But she is very strong, perhaps because of a responsibility, she feels that she still has a lot of unfinished tasks, the children's affairs are her responsibility, such as my marriage, she has been thinking about it.

When making blind dates for me, my mother didn't emphasize other conditions. There was one thing, don't talk about girls who are too far away, don't talk about girls from other places, just talk about nearby ones, know the roots, and the two families have some contacts.

There are elements of sympathy and pity. I have met many girls that my mother told me to meet, and I went to Guangzhou to meet them, and went home to go on a blind date.That year, it was a major event for my mother with great fanfare, but it was an annoying matter after I was busy, and I had nowhere to talk.It's just that every blind date, Lian Yu basically knows it, and after he knows it, he looks silly, hehe, and that expression makes me even more depressed.