Jean Love

Days are like a pendulum on the wall, ticking, ticking, not stopping for anything. In the blink of an eye for a week, during this week, I always feel that some parts of my body that had problems before seem to be wrong again. I want to check it out, but I don't have the normal rest time. I ask for leave, and I worry about deducting my salary. If I take a day off, I will deduct [-]% of the bonus.

So comfort yourself, and let it pass.

Later, when I went to the hospital, the doctor checked and said seriously: "The old disease has recurred!"

Then I said to myself, logically no, as long as I follow the doctor's advice...Then he asked me in disbelief, "Did you not stop?"

"I went home on Ching Ming Festival, didn't quit, and drank a beer." I said.

"Good boy, your beer is very expensive, at least it cost you several thousand yuan." The doctor shook his head.

I'm so upset, but it's over, let's face it, take time off, endure the pain, endure the pressure inside, the pressure from work, the pressure from my father's extremely emotional state, the pressure from my mother.

The pressure my mother brought to me came from two aspects. On the one hand, when I was sick, she was very heartbroken, as if it hurt her body, from her pity eyes, from her suddenly haggard description, from her meticulous care. The steamed dishes can be seen, and you can feel it without too many words. The deep family affection and the deep maternal love also make my heart ache even more.

On the other hand, the more I want to tell her the truth, the more I can't open my mouth, the more I want to continue to hide, but the more I can't hide it, what a shrewd person my mother is, Zhao Xin once said that Qingming brought the child home with her, Then he said to reschedule, change it to May [-]st, and this May [-]st is also over, no, this Zhao Xin, didn't know how to lie before, mother thought to herself.

The more she thought about it, the more she felt strange. In the past, in her words: "You are the children I brought up with my own hands. Just twist your buttocks, and I will know whether you want to shit or fart." Something is wrong, but what is it?I changed my description of happiness and anger, she saw it in her eyes, Zhao Xin called to greet and contact, it seemed that it was not as good as before, there must be something wrong, how big is the problem?She didn't know and didn't dare to think.

In the end, not long after, she found out, just as she had imagined, and she didn't know whether Zhao Xin recruited her, or through what channels, she knew that we were divorced, and in my mother's eyes, it was not a trivial matter, but a big one. To her, it was like a bolt from the blue.

During those few days, my mother was crying all the time, unable to hold back, ignored me, and said: "Such a big thing has sold me and kept it from me." Then she started sobbing again, and the tears were like a river breaking its embankment .

"I'm afraid you'll cry." I said timidly.

"I'm not crying now." Mother hummed.

"I'd rather watch you cry than cry alone in one place." I was serious and loud.

Mother didn't speak, she looked blankly.

Brother Wu who was playing on the ground stopped, looked at his mother blankly, and walked forward with a surprised face: "Grandma, what's the matter with you? Grandma, what's the matter with you?" With an immature voice, immature little hands stretched over to help mother Wiping the tears, the mother pulled him into her arms, and sobbed louder. The tears were like broken beads, streaming down, frightening the little guy to panic, and crying loudly, the mother stopped crying , to comfort Brother Wu.

In those days, I seemed to have forgotten that my mother was not in good health, and I guess she even forgot.I seemed so overwhelmed, soft persuasion always provoked more tears from her, I didn't know what to do.

For two or three days, I just watched her cry like this, her eyes were red from crying, bags under her eyes were swollen, and she was haggard from crying. I wanted to explain to her that she couldn't listen to her at all, nor ignore me.

I called Zhao Xin, Zhao Xin came over, and my mother's spirit was slightly better.I discussed with Zhao Xin and asked Hongchang to come over to meet my mother. The rice is already cooked, and I always have to face it.

Zhao Xin called Hongchang to report the situation here, and he said, "Let's go in two days."

"Why?" My heart skipped a beat.

"He said that my mother's emotions are at the saddest stage right now, so don't irritate her. After a few days, let her calm herself down, and then he will come to see her." Zhao Xin explained.

"Oh." I thought to myself, this guy is still a little cautious.

After another two or three days, Zhao Xin said that Hongchang would come over tomorrow, but my mother was still crying, weeping secretly, with a faint expression, and she still ignored me, and she didn't answer when I called her.

Early the next morning, my mother was going to go shopping, tidied up a little in front of the mirror, walked to Zhao Xin, and asked in a hoarse voice after a bad cold: "What does your family like to eat?" vegetable?"

"He likes to eat cabbage and pork belly." Zhao Xin replied.

My mother made no sound, turned around, and carried the small purse. I gave Zhao Xin a wink, and she followed knowingly. Seeing their mother and daughter walking side by side, farther and farther away, the stone in my heart fell slightly.

The factory and residence are only [-] meters away, very close to each other. I go to work, arrange things at work, and go back after a while. They bought a lot of vegetables, including pork loin, Chinese cabbage, and pork belly. Fushouyu also bought watermelon and wine. The two of them walked back side by side with their hands full. There was no happy smile on their brows, but they also softened the sadness in the corners of their faces.

Father goes to work, Xiao Jing goes to work, Chen Quan goes to school, Chen Wu is in Panyu, Xiao Wu is at home, mother and Zhao Xin are busy in the kitchen, I am playing with Xiao Wu in the living room, and I will go back to the factory to take a look and sit for a while , and folded back.

The smell of bone soup wafted from the kitchen. It was eleven o'clock at noon when Zhao Xin received a call: "Hey, hey, where have you been?"

"Oh, I forgot to tell you that we have moved. You can go ahead and walk about 150 meters. On the right hand side, there is a supermarket and a jujube tree. I will wait for you by the side of the road." Zhao Xin said hahaha. Fan, gave some pointers, took the mobile phone in his hand, stroked the long hair on his forehead, looked towards the road outside the door, and looked in the direction of the original rental.

My mother was still busy in the kitchen. I picked up Brother Xiao Wu, walked into the kitchen, stood beside my mother, and called her. She didn’t answer me. I called Brother Xiao Wu to call her. She gave him a piece of steamed corn , I asked: "Mom, how many dishes?"

"Six dishes, one soup." My mother said dryly without looking at me.

"Do you need help? Mother." I moved closer to my mother, winking and smiling.

After a few seconds of silence, there was no response. I was about to turn around when I heard my mother say calmly: "There is another fish. I don't know how you like to eat it. It's in the bucket under the faucet." Then I asked again: " Do not you have to work?"

"Go to work, there are not many things in the factory today, I'm here to kill the fish, steamed tilapia is more suitable." I put Brother Xiao Wu down.

"Go to work, I'll do it." A voice came from the hall, it was Hongchang's voice, grinning.

"Let him come, he has sold fish before, and he is the best at killing fish." It was Zhao Xin's voice, hehe.

I took Brother Xiaowu's little hand and walked towards the living room, my mother followed behind, wiping the palms of both hands on the apron on the chest repeatedly, with a haggard face and a forced smile on my face, I didn't speak, slightly, extremely Nod slightly.

"Mom." With a loud, smooth call that seemed to have been called a thousand times, Hong Chang opened his mouth with a happy smile on his face, with a little shyness and shyness.

"Sit." The mother was at a loss for a moment, and in a hurry, she only said one word, neither cold nor hot.

I captured my mother trembling a little, frowning a little when she heard Hongchang calling her, and then her face relaxed a little, and then she stood there in a daze, fiddling with the hem of the skirt with her coy and helpless fingers. "Come on, put these in mother's room." Zhao Xin stepped forward, trying to pick up the things in Hongchang's hand.

A bag of red grapes, a bag of big red Fuji, a bag of bananas, and a black-skinned watermelon in a net bag were put in a round pile next to the rice bucket in the corner of the mother's room.Hong Chang clapped his hands, looked down and saw Xiao Wu, spread his arms, and wanted to hug him, but the little guy hid behind me, afraid of strangers.

"Come on, kid, I'll give you something to eat. Look, what do you want to eat?" Hong Chang turned around and pointed at the things he put down just now, and looked at Brother Wu, who still ignored him. It was boring, but he didn't feel it at all. He rolled up his sleeves and turned to the kitchen: "Mom, where is the fish? I'll kill the fish." That personality is a bit like Chen Wu's, without so many restraints, and not so many Pay attention, compared to me, it is considered familiar, very good!

Everyone rushed to the kitchen and got busy again. Hongchang was grinning, Zhao Xin was grinning, Brother Xiaowu followed behind Zhao Xin, timidly, mother didn't speak, kept silent, I kept watching her expression change , I slowly found that the inconspicuous smile on her face and the corners of her eyes eased the frown, and I retreated to the living room and back to the factory.