blue marshmallow

After several hours of rescue, Ah Hang was finally out of danger, but he was still in a coma. He had no relatives in N City, and his only friends were us, and Ah Zheng didn't want this to affect Da Hai and Xiao Rui, so We didn't tell them.

It was already dawn, "Xiao Xiang, you go home and have a rest, I'll just watch over at the hospital,"

"No, I want to stay with you," I know it's a bit willful to say this, if Ah Hang wakes up, the last thing he wants to see is me.

"Be obedient, it's no use spending both of us here," he patted my head, "Go home and get some things you need for the hospital, and buy some food before you come back, okay?"

"Hmm," he said so well that I could only agree.

I went home in a trance to prepare things, brought him and Ah Hang a few changes of clothes and toiletries, and went to the teahouse to buy some porridge and side dishes. I rushed back non-stop, not wanting to miss every minute and every second chance to be with him.

When I came to the door of the ward with a big bag and a small bag, I stopped suddenly. I still can't figure out why I stopped at that time.

"Ahang, tell me who hurt you,"

"..."

"You look at me, tell the truth, I will avenge you."

"No one," Ah Hang's voice was inaudible.

"Then how did you get your injuries?"

"I let them do it, no one hurt me," I was stunned, did he do those injuries voluntarily?I think Ah Zheng was as surprised as I was. For a long time, there was no sound from the room.

"Why?" Ah Zheng's voice was hoarse, maybe he already knew the answer.

"Why? Haha," Ah Hang let out a stern laugh, "Because the person I love doesn't care about me, doesn't want me, and doesn't even want to look at me again, so what's the point of me being alive?"

"Ahang, you..."

"I tried to meet people who looked similar to him. I thought about forgetting him and starting my life again. I tried my best, but I couldn't. His voice, smile, and every move were always shaking in front of my eyes. I couldn't do it at all. Erase him from my memory, what else can I do? The pain in my heart keeps me awake all night, I want to go to him and tell him how much I miss him, but he said he doesn't want me To disturb his life again, I love him so much, I want to listen to him, so I can only choose to bear it alone, I hate myself, I love so lowly, I am so incompetent, I can't let him fall in love with me , I want to punish myself, I want to make myself suffer, only when I feel the pain from body to soul, can I be happy, hehe, do you think I am crazy?"

"Ahang, calm down, you shouldn't hurt yourself anyway," Ah Zheng's voice seemed weak.

"Who would care about me? Who would? Even the person I love the most in this world doesn't want me, who else would care about me? Would you?"

"I care about you," Ah Zheng said eagerly, "We are friends, and you have saved my life, Ah Hang, I ask you not to hurt yourself like this again,"

"Friend? Hehe, I don't want to be your friend, and I have never saved your life. I know that I can avoid that knife if I don't block you. I did that just to let you know that I can help you." Go to hell, I thought you would fall in love with me if you did this, what a ridiculous and naive idea, hahaha, so stop saying that I saved you, so you have a reason to pity me!" The last sentence, Ah Hang The voice was almost hysterical.

"Then you shouldn't commit suicide!" Ah Zheng's voice trembled.

"Why do you think I committed suicide? Hahaha," Ah Hang's stern laughter pierced every nerve in me, "I'm not stupid enough to die for someone who doesn't love me, he will Sad? Will he regret it when I die? Hehe, he won’t be sad or feel guilty, so why should I die? I want to live a good life, and I want to do everything I can to get him!”

"Ahang..."

"Brother Lei, do you really want to pity me?" In an instant he became humble and weak again, "Then I beg you to have pity on me, love me, please?"

Hearing that he said it was not suicide, I breathed a sigh of relief, but his voice full of hatred and vowing to get Ah Zheng kept echoing in my ears.

I hate myself standing outside the door, I'm such a despicable eavesdropper, why do I play this role every time!

Turned around in a daze and walked back blankly. When I was about to walk out of the hospital gate, I realized that I was still carrying the things I brought to him. I turned back and found the nurse on the floor, and asked her to pass it on to me.

I can’t let Ah Hang see me. The conversation just touched me too deeply. At present, Ah Hang’s spirit is very fragile and cannot withstand the slightest stimulation, and all the information about me will make him lose control of his emotions and go crazy. Now I just I can wait silently and patiently, hoping that his body and mood will gradually get better.