Heart has a thousand knots

Greasy, sensitive, any slight change in me, she can also detect it.Maybe it has a lot to do with my inability to hide my emotions?

It's nothing, I said, drink less alcohol and drive safely.After speaking, she turned and left her office.

Walking out of the office building, I saw that cool sports car from a distance.Chen Zijian saw me and took off his sunglasses: Hi, Shen.

"My name is Shen Momo!" I was a little annoyed, and said almost word for word, "Mr. Chen, please call me by my name."

Chen Zijian smiled and didn't take it seriously: Where's Mr. Jiang?Yu Xiaoman, who was behind him, took two steps forward, and smiled at Chen Zijian: Mr. Chen, our Mr. Jiang is behind.

Before Jiang Qiuyue came out, I went straight back to my residence in Wujiaochang Town.

That night, when I went back, I cooked a pack of instant noodles for myself, washed up hastily, and stayed in the living room to watch TV.Changing channels indiscriminately, I don't know when Jiang Qiuyue will come back.

At five past nine, Jiang Qiuyue came back.He kicked off his high heels and went straight into the kitchen.

"Momo, did you eat instant noodles tonight?" Jiang Qiuyue yelled in the kitchen when she found the bag in the trash can.I hummed and continued watching TV.

"Why don't you make food?" Jiang Qiuyue sat on the sofa and began to scold me, "Look at your little arms and legs, instant noodles are not nutritious."

"A person doesn't need to bother so much every day," I said lazily, "it's fine if you're not hungry."

"You, you..." Jiang Qiuyue tapped my forehead, "I'll take you out to eat."

"No need," I tilted my head and said, "Why did you come back so early? Where is Mr. Chen?"

"Going back." Jiang Qiuyue said, with a flat tone, I couldn't hear any emotion.

Chinese International Channel, the Middle East is still in turmoil.Staring at the TV, I imagined that I was in the Middle East. If I unfortunately left due to sudden changes, who in this world would be sad for me?Maybe, in my subconscious mind, there is still a bit of destructive temperament. Once there is a little trouble in my peaceful life, I will become a sad and sick image.

I was thinking about some messy and imaginary future, Jiang Qiuyue crossed her arms and walked back and forth between the bedroom and the living room.No one spoke, except for the sound of the TV, the room was silent.

Suddenly, Jiang Qiuyue came over, grabbed my arm, and walked towards the door.

What are you doing?It hurts me... I'm a little unhappy.This Jiang Qiuyue is always so domineering, she won't say hello to you even if she does something.

"I'll take you to a place." She let go of her hand a little bit, still dragging me, as if she was afraid that I would run away with her hand, dragging her all the way downstairs and opening the car door.

About 10 minutes later, the car turned into a secluded alley and stopped.Follow me, Jiang Qiuyue whispered to me.

In such a strange place, besides being obedient and following her, what else can I do?

An antique wooden door, above the door there are three flashing blue characters - Butterfly Love Flower.Jiang Qiuyue pushed open the door, and I followed in.

Sister Yue, there is someone who looks like a waiter calling Jiang Qiuyue, a very neutral woman.It seems that Jiang Qiuyue is a regular visitor here.Picking a seat by the window, Jiang Qiuyue and I sat down.

I ordered a glass of water, Jiang Qiuyue ordered two bottles of beer, and also ordered a chicken feet with pickled peppers, a spicy shrimp, and a salt-baked almond.After looking at it, Chinese-style screens, partitions, or Meilun's landscapes, or Seiko's paintings of ladies.What surprised me even more was that it was full of women talking in low voices in twos and threes.Quiet and elegant environment, soothing classical music...

How do you feel?Jiang Qiuyue turned her head sideways and asked me.Very good, I said.That was my first time in a bar.In my impression, a bar should be a chaotic scene, deafening music, or mania, or decadence, or panic...

Monthly!A woman in a lavender shirt walked straight towards us.Before Jiang Qiuyue stood up, she was hugged by a woman in a lavender shirt.

Ah, shopkeeper, long time no see, I miss you.Jiang Qiuyue leaned her head tightly against the embrace of the lavender shirt like a child.

The two hugged affectionately for a while, and my eyes followed them all the time.Jiang Qiuyue's enthusiasm for her made me feel lonely after being neglected.

Momo, Jiang Qiuyue left the embrace of the lavender shirt and looked at me. This is Han Shu, the shopkeeper of this shop.Shen Momo, the designer of our company.

Han Shu stretched out his hand and smiled at me.Holding her hand, my point of attention, has been on her eyes.Over the years, I have always looked at the people around me in this way, but anyone I want to look at, I like to stare into the eyes of the other person, just like Jiang Qiuyue said to me, either stupidly or directly Yes, the line of sight never beats around the bush, which makes people feel flustered.As for the person I don't pay attention to, I don't want to raise my eyelids. Even if I have seen him three or five times, I still can't recognize him.

"Yueyue, how did you find this big-eyed sister?" Han Shu sat down, turned to Jiang Qiuyue, and looked at her with interest, "Is there a story?"

"I met you when I went to Yunnan," Jiang Qiuyue smiled. "What kind of story can there be? Even if there is a story, it will not be exciting in front of you."

"So, yes?" Han Shu filled Jiang Qiuyue with wine, raised his glass, and said, "For your travel story, and for the presence of sister Big Eyes, I will treat you tonight."

Don't bother, you guys talk.After Han Shu drank the wine in his glass, he turned and walked to the opposite corner, where there was a Guzheng.

Seeing the surprise on my face, Jiang Qiuyue said lightly: She used to study music, majoring in guzheng.

Ding dong's zither sound, from soothing to warm, slowly gave me a familiar feeling.

"There is a beautiful person, and I will never forget it when I see it. If I don't see you for a day, I will be crazy about it." He whispered the familiar "Phoenix Seeking the Phoenix", "The phoenix is ​​flying, and the world is seeking the phoenix. The helpless beauty , not on the east wall..." Jiang Qiuyue propped her forehead with her hands, and continued like a dream, "You know too... By the way, I almost forgot, you and him are still from the same hometown." After finishing speaking, Jiang Qiuyue haha Laughed.

I bowed my head and said nothing.Jiang Qiuyue didn't know that at that time, what I was familiar with in my heart was not only the sound of the piano, but also the pain like the waves.

That night, Jiang Qiuyue and I stayed in Han Shu's shop until nearly twelve o'clock before going back.

([-]) The heart of spring will not let the flowers compete with each other

Jiang Qiuyue drank four bottles of beer, and Han Shu was worried, so he sent us back to the residence and gave me some instructions before leaving.

Jiang Qiuyue, who drank alcohol, was in high spirits, and sang loudly while taking a bath in the bathroom: "In the whole world, who would care about my heartbreak. Don't you, don't you feel a little bit? A woman's choice is ruthless and regretless. I should, take it." What redeemed..." A deeply emotional and sad song became a cry in her mouth.

"Momo, sleep with me tonight." Jiang Qiuyue looked at me.

I don't like to share a bed with other people, it makes me feel that the place where I sleep every day becomes strange and uncomfortable.Even if I change the bed, I will not be able to sleep well all night, not to mention that there is a living person lying next to me.

"I don't sleep well, it will affect your rest." I said.

"Aren't you used to sleeping with others?" Jiang Qiuyue seemed to have read my mind.After a pause, he added, "Or do you think I'm not very attractive?"

"Uh, okay." I corrected.In my heart, I couldn't bear it, seeing that she drank a lot and needed someone to take care of her in the middle of the night.

Hugging the quilt I used, lying down on her back, Jiang Qiuyue faced me and whispered: Momo, today is my birthday.

What? !I was a little surprised, and a little guilty.I have been with her for two months, and I don't know anything about her past, let alone her birthday.For personal privacy, there is no need to know; but birthdays should not be ignored.Besides, when I came to Shanghai, she was the one who took care of me.

Sorry, I'm a bit embarrassed.Apart from saying these three words, I really don't know how to express my guilt.

Babe, why do you have to say sorry?Jiang Qiuyue lightly poked my forehead with her index finger, then slid her index finger towards my face, paused, spread her fingers, and patted my face lightly.This time, I didn't escape.

"I didn't know it was your birthday, and I didn't prepare a birthday present for you." I said seriously.

"No, I'm 31, I'm afraid it's my birthday." She chuckled, "You're seven years older."

I was not surprised when Jiang Qiuyue told me her age for the first time.The little boy in the photo should be her son.

"Who would believe you are 31? I thought you were only 21." I laughed.This is not flattery.Jiang Qiuyue's fair and delicate skin, with light makeup, is very attractive.After drinking, those eyes are blurred and charming; that face is delicate and blushing; and the sweet voice when speaking is fascinating.

"Fart boy, you can talk quite well." Jiang Qiuyue rested her head on her arm and looked at my wrist.

"Why don't you give me the bracelet on your wrist as a birthday present?" Jiang Qiuyue smiled, "Are you willing?"

What I wear on my wrist is a jasmine flower cut from Burmese jade, as white as snow, bright and clean.That was the 23rd birthday that Xiaoshi prepared for me after receiving her first salary.For this jasmine flower, she almost ran all over the streets and alleys of Chengdu, and finally begged the master to make it in a jade carving workshop in Jinjiang District.Then, I braided a chain with a purple ribbon and put on the jasmine flower.There is a dead knot at the joint, which cannot be untied.

From 2003 to 2004, more than a year, the purple ribbon has faded a bit.In the two months since I left Chengdu, I have not had any contact with her.That Chengdu phone card lay quietly