Heart has a thousand knots

If you are an old customer, I will no longer accompany you.

When I am alone, I prefer to go to Die Lian Hua to pass the time.Xiaobai has learned how to mix wine and often invites me to taste her new creations.Before twelve o'clock, I took a taxi home. Jiang Qiuyue's room was often dark.My head was heavy, and I fell into a deep sleep after a while.

When I woke up in the morning, I was alone in bed.On the quilt, her breath has become weaker and weaker.

I watched indifferently as the reality tore up my beautiful imagination and the real happiness bit by bit.Yes, I am also starting to be amazed by this attitude myself.Those who want to go can't be kept; those who should come can't be stopped.

When I was young, I used to like the words "take you away" very much, and felt that as long as I was high-spirited, I could wander the world.Now, as I am approaching my thirties, I often feel the hardness of reality in my heart.Love is not Qiong Yao's innocence and enthusiasm that does not eat the fireworks in the world, nor is it just the deep affection that makes thousands of vows beside the pillow.

What can I bring to Jiang Qiuyue?We have no basis for suffering together.Can this feeling not stand the mediocrity, or will it not stand the test?

The economic crisis in the first month was revealed from the financial office.Undoubtedly, Jiang Qiuyue's stock was locked up.Several times, I vaguely heard her talking on the phone in the office, roughly talking about the company's operations, and when she saw me coming in, she hung up the phone.

On May Day, go to Die Lian Hua to find Han Shu.

"She's back, isn't she?" When I saw Han Shu, this was the first thing I said.Han Shu looked at me and said: You know everything.

"If Yueyue still loves her, I will quit automatically." I said, enduring the little pain in my heart.Han Shu put his hand on my shoulder and frowned: "Yueyue and her, I can't tell. But, I can feel that she loves you. Don't give up easily. Otherwise, you may regret it for the rest of your life."

I smiled, noncommittal.I learned from Han Shu that her classmate, Jiang Qiuyue's beloved, has his own business abroad and is developing well.

If one day, Jiang Qiuyue is unable to control Buyue's fate, then the person who can turn the tide for her will not be me.That country is suitable for settlement, and it is not bad for her to become her second hometown and give her feelings a place to live.

Jiang Qiuyue never told me where she went or what she experienced that whole night.I don't mention it any more.The truth often hurts, and we may choose to lie because of it.Jiang Qiuyue, she is a faithful woman.So, I believe, between lies and silence, she will choose the latter.

However, for me, long silence is also a kind of injury.

(41) House Leakage Meets Evening Rain

On May 5, at 12:2 p.m., the manuscript was sorted out and sent to Jiang Qiuyue's office.Jiang Qiuyue faced the computer, propped her forehead with her hands, and frowned.Stocks, there is still no solution, I think.

Putting down the folder, I turn around.Jiang Qiuyue called me to stop.

"Don't go drinking again at night, okay?" She turned the chair, got up, and walked to me, "Look at you, you don't look good either."

I didn't answer, just looked down at the floor, and the toes of my right foot touched the ground lightly.The air is a little dull.Perhaps, the early rainy weather in this city will come early again.

Suddenly, the whole building seemed to be hit by a heavy object, which made me stagger.Jiang Qiuyue reached out to support me: "What's the matter, dizziness?" Then she blamed me: "Isn't it anemia? Stop drinking." I was stunned, and what I felt was clearly the shaking of the buildings.

I saw the water in the water glass on Jiang Qiuyue's table shaking, shaking, and the chandelier on the ceiling, including the bookcase behind her chair, and the books were falling down one by one... The shaking became more and more violent, and there were exclamations from outside, Someone was running, panicked.

earthquake!Jiang Qiuyue called, her voice trembling, and she grabbed my arm tightly.Holding Jiang Qiuyue in my arms, protecting her head, squatting under the desk, my throat was extremely dry.At that moment, I thought about death.Jiang Qiuyue and I, is this the end of our lives?

My hands have been holding Jiang Qiuyue tightly.It seems that after a long century, the surroundings finally calmed down.Jiang Qiuyue exhaled and said, "Go downstairs to the open space."

Organize everyone to go downstairs, never found that there are so many people in this building, everyone is panicked.Manager Wang said: 32 years later, another earthquake happened.Manager Wang is from Hebei and has experienced the Tangshan Earthquake.

There are people everywhere, with panic and doubts on their faces.No one knows where the earthquake happened.

When I returned to the company and turned on the Internet, I was stunned. The words "Sichuan Wenchuan" were shocking.Reports about the epicenter of Wenchuan can be seen everywhere.The first time I experienced an earthquake, what I understood as "level 7.6" was a pile of collapsed buildings. The Sichuan compatriots who were more frightened than me were crying and crying for their relatives who were buried under the ruins of the ruins...

Afterwards, the word "Dujiangyan" appeared in news reports like a curse.Sitting in the seat blankly, my head went blank, and my ears were buzzing.The phone numbers in my hometown are all dead.

Everyone in Buyue has their eyes on me.In the company, I am the only one from Sichuan and Dujiangyan.

Xiucai and Xiaoman stood beside me, one on the left and the other on the right, with their arms around my shoulders.

Jiang Qiuyue asked the company's people to leave work early.I took the phone and called over and over again, but it still didn't work.

"Let's play short poems, let's see if I can get through." Jiang Qiuyue leaned forward, leaned against me, and said.

There is still some distance between Chengdu and Dujiangyan. Xiaoshi should be safe and sound.Press the numbers one by one, and the tireless voice from the receiver is still there: The number you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later.

When I got home, I was not in the mood to eat, and walked around the room anxiously.Jiang Qiuyue opened the closet and packed my clothes one by one.The plane ticket is the next morning.When she was in the company, she asked someone to book it for me.

At night, Jiang Qiuyue stayed in my room.What was different from before was that this time, she was holding me.

On the way to the airport, I was stuck in traffic.In the long river of cars, I have a kind of despair of drowning.Lean back on the seat and close your eyes.A night of nightmares made me tired after a long journey.

"I believe it will be fine." Jiang Qiuyue held my hand.I didn't move, the nightmare of last night had corrupted my mood.On the ruins, An'an was crying... When the flood came, Xiaoshi called me from the other side: Momo, help me!In the dream, I don't know where I am, and I can't distinguish between reality and illusion.

In the long dream, what is accomplished is the parting and parting that is unwilling to be staged in the reality of life.Such a dream is too cold and cruel.In this world, there are always dangers and difficulties that we cannot predict.

Arrive at the airport, change your boarding pass, and just start the security check.Jiang Qiuyue hugged me: "Momo, take care." I nodded and said, "Yueyue, goodbye!" When I let her go, I gently kissed her on the lips.

Just for a moment, my eyes filled with tears.These tears, moist and hot, flowed only for her.

After passing the security check, I didn't look back, I didn't want her to see my tears that had burst. "Momo!" Jiang Qiuyue shouted.I stopped, looked up, turned my back to her, and then continued walking.My steps are a bit difficult, one step, another step, all in a sad rhythm: Goodbye, Yueyue!Farewell, my love!

The plane roared into the sky, and I couldn't hold back anymore, letting my tears flow freely.Don't be sad, let's leave.

Arrived in Shuangliu, stopped a taxi.The driver was a man in his thirties. Seeing my anxious face, he said in a clear Chengdu accent, "Don't worry, I'll take you directly to Dujiangyan. No money is required."

I'm surprised, no money?How dare you?The driver looked at me in the rearview mirror and said, "You don't know, after the earthquake, our brothers who went to Dujiangyan didn't charge any money. There were also people who brought food and drink from Chengdu, all spontaneously. There are still people buried in the ruins, and we can't go there to save people, so we use this method for earthquake relief."

Seeing that I didn't respond, he said again: "Wen Jiabao arrived in Dujiangyan yesterday, and he gave instructions that saving lives is the first priority. Don't worry, your family may be living in tents at this time."

On the way to Dujiangyan, rescue vehicles such as armed police and firefighters, taxis, etc., lined up for several miles.While parking, the driver saw a few students who looked like students in front of him, and shouted: Are you going to Dujiangyan?The other party nodded, and the driver shook his head;: Get in the car!Listening to their conversations, I realized that they are volunteers of the Red Cross.

My Sichuan compatriots, in the face of catastrophe, used their meager strength to "rise up" for the common people in the land of abundance.

The closer I got to Dujiangyan, the more nervous I became, my palms were sweaty and my body felt cold.After getting out of the car, the scene in front of me made me dizzy—on the street, torn roads, slanted and collapsed houses, scattered bricks, broken wooden door panels, and clearly visible blood stains covered the The body of Baibu... the citizens who lost their loved ones and wept uncontrollably, and the busy rescuers running.

I would rather believe that this is a dream!Just a dream!When I wake up from the dream, this place is still a beautiful scenic spot in the west of Chengdu Plain, which has been like this for thousands of years.

Almost dragging his legs, he arrived at the alley of the elder brother's house, and bumped into the elder brother coming out with his bag. "Momo!" Big brother called me, I stayed where I was like a child, only crying.My elder brother hugged me like he did when he was a child, and said in a low voice, "Don't cry, don't cry, we're fine."

Father's head was slightly scratched and bandaged.The school An An attended has become a waste