our psalms

After many fleeting moments, they form a mark that can never be erased.Forgetting is no longer the fundamental solution to the problem.When I was sitting in the classroom, retaking the courses that I missed during the one-year suspension because I couldn't graduate, I couldn't bear the curious but nonchalant eyes of other students, and I couldn't bear the pretending gestures of the teachers, trying not to pay attention However, I still have to bear the extremely unnatural attitude in many places.After Wang Zicheng returned to the world that originally belonged to him in an extremely ugly state, he found that everything had changed.

I dare not go to a public resting place alone, dare not go in and out of the cafeteria alone, dare not go to the library alone, dare not sit in a dark place alone, because that [-]% will scare others.Only Kuang Li, she has become the only spiritual support in my study and life, only her, I can't feel any abnormality from her body, from her body, I can still feel that I am a person, an ordinary person That's all.

We spend more and more time together, and she is almost the person who stays with me the most and longest except Lao Cao.When I was with her, I could feel his sweet smile coming from the heart, and I could feel that when she held my hand, she seemed happier than anyone else, even Lao Cao.

"The teachers who retake the course deliberately let me water." We sat on the roadside in the garden, looking at the calm lake, "I hardly did anything, but I was able to pass so easily."

"Because you can't blame you at all, everyone understands."

"I don't need this handout, it makes me sick."

"This is not charity, this is the care and support you deserve, because you can't change the fact that you are a victim, and for those who have suffered misfortune, accepting help from others should be taken for granted, you should not go to Instead of retorting, accept it with gratitude and smile!"

"You seem to be able to speak better than me."

"You are not the only one growing up, Zicheng, you should become stronger, no one looks down on you, at least you can't look down on yourself!"

"You look down on me when you talk to me like this!" I suddenly stood up angrily, "I don't need comfort, I'm not hurt, why can't you treat me like the former Prince Cheng, always give me What's the point of me saying these useless things!"

"Don't do this, okay?" Kuang Li sighed helplessly, "Zi Cheng..."

She stood up, and pushed the long vermilion curly hair that covered her left eye behind her ears, revealing a pair of big watery eyes, her rosy lips trembling slightly, "Even if the whole world abandons you You, I won't...I...I like you!"

When she said that, I should have been calm and safe.Because from the day I met her, I never doubted her affection for me.It is not too difficult to imagine that it will develop to this point.But at this moment, I stared blankly at her, standing motionless like a frightened child. I never thought that until now, she could still stick to that belief, that share of love...

To say I was not moved would be to lie to myself.I was so moved that I was about to cry. When I saw her tears flow out after he finished those few words, they were so deep and sincere.Her love is obviously not based on the desire for a beautiful man, or the insistence on other things, but really, like it.At this moment, my heart became complicated. Lao Cao was the first person that flashed through my mind. I could feel that when Kuang Li said this, he was no less determined than Lao Cao.But, I... If I were a normal person, I would be very happy to accept this love. There are really few girls in this era who can be as persistent and sincere as her.But after all, I am not. I am managing my future with Lao Cao with my heart. More importantly, I cannot hurt her with an ugly and gay attitude. She will not have any happiness when she is with me.

"We must be very happy!" She held up my trembling right hand, "OK?"

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"First of all, we need to distance the two people from external factors. Your uncle is a policeman. He has his job and career. He is a respected old policeman. And that Wang Zicheng, a young man, he must Fulfill the mission that every Chinese person shoulders, get married and have children, and carry on the family line!"

"Mom, what does this mean? Times have changed, haven't they?"

"It's impossible for your father to deny the fact that Wang Zicheng is still a child. You should start from this point."

"I don't know."

"Stupid girl, listen. It's impossible for Lao Cao to fully believe that the love promised by this child to him is eternal, and he must have reservations about this child deep in his heart. If he really will do it for that child Come to think of it, it's all going to be easier."

"I seem to understand, but what if your guess is wrong?"

"Impossible, you should trust your mother more than anyone else."

"Oh, yes. Then when are you going to come, mother?"

"I've already booked the plane ticket for the day after tomorrow. A tough battle to save your father is about to start. None of us should underestimate you, you know?"

"I understand! I'll be waiting for you, Mom!"

"Good girl, go to bed early, mom has hung up the phone."

"Okay... goodbye mom!"

Hang up the phone.Cao Wenxi approached the living room from the balcony, and Lao Cao stared at the news on TV carefully.But I still didn't forget to look at the clock on the wall. It was already past eight o'clock, and someone still didn't come back...

"He should call back, the whole family is waiting for him." The dishes on the table were no longer warm, and Lao Cao looked a little angry.

"After all, he is still a child, uncle." Cao Wenxi walked to the side of the table, "I'll go and warm up the dishes, maybe he will come back."

"Go, I'll give him a call, this kid, why is he always like this!"

Cao Wenxi walked into the kitchen, switched the dual SIM mode on the phone to another SIM card as quickly as possible, and then dialed my number...

"Hello?" When I answered the phone, there was no sound on the other end.At this moment, Kuang Li was lying in my arms soaked all over.

"Hey, why is no one talking!" I hung up the phone and continued to hold Kuang Li's hand.

"Why are you so stupid, why are you jumping into the lake!"

"If you have to die to prove that I'm real, I can do that for you!"

"You need me to say it to understand. I don't believe it, but do you understand me? Do you think we will be suitable and happy?"

"I don't care... I don't want you to leave me!" She lay weakly on my chest, shivering coldly, but her tears were so hot. "I can hear your heartbeat, Zicheng. So fast, you like me too, it must be like this, right?"

I couldn't say anything, and I suddenly felt cold all over.The phone rang again, I pressed answer again, it was still that strange number, no one spoke... only the sound of splashing water...

"Who have you been talking to for so long!!!!" Lao Cao had an angry look on his face, he couldn't sit still anymore, he threw the phone on the sofa and began to pace back and forth in the living room. "Could it be that something happened again, it's impossible, this damn..."

"Uncle, you shouldn't interfere with his freedom, right?" Cao Wenxi came out from the kitchen, "He's an adult!"

"He is my baby, just like you are my daughter, no matter how old you are, I have the right to discipline and correct your mistakes!"

"Don't be like this, sooner or later I will marry someone, right, and sooner or later he will too..." Cao Wenxi deliberately made an apologetic look when she said this, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that...but... ...Maybe..." She turned her head away, deliberately not looking at Lao Cao.

Lao Cao didn't react too much. He was very angry and suddenly calmed down unexpectedly.

"Forget it, don't wait for him, let's eat first..."