our psalms

In fact, no one can imagine how great and noble the love he interprets is.

But he is also a human being after all, behind the rationality, there is always such a torrent, which sometimes makes him appear a little unbelievably crazy.

One day in the middle of the night, he was suddenly woken up by his beard, and then he heard his heavy panting: "Baby...my baby!"

He was from top to bottom, he kissed frantically, and finally pressed on me like a lion, "Uncle wants you!"

My first time was given to him like this, of course it cannot be anyone else except him.

However, it seemed to him a kind of drug addiction. When the drug addiction was temporarily eliminated and he regained his sanity, he even seemed to be a different person.

The next morning after that time, I stayed in bed for a long time and refused to get up. I didn't go to the morning class and stayed in bed.He put on his uniform and went to work early, and he seemed to have sighed in the mirror for a long time before leaving.I vaguely heard him yelling: "Bastard!" I don't know who he is scolding.

When he came back at noon, he was crazy to see me lying still.

"Get up, damn kid, you didn't go to class?" He yelled at me as soon as he entered the door, he didn't even change his shoes, as if he was going to eat me!

"How can you be like this, get up!" He came over and lifted my quilt, only to see that my face was blue and I was trembling all the time, with both hands behind my back grabbing my buttocks.

"What's the matter, you have a cold?" His voice finally became normal, "What's wrong, baby?"

"It hurts..." I said aggrievedly and weakly.

"Where does it hurt?" He hugged me distressedly.

No one could imagine what it would be like to be alive after being invaded by something that big for the first time.

"It's the place in the back!" I said, "It doesn't matter, it's much better. I'll go to class in the afternoon. Uncle, don't be angry, okay?"

"I'm sorry!" he said suddenly, and his voice became a little hoarse, "Uncle is not a good person!"

"No, I like uncle!" I forced a smile, "I want to come again!"

"Fuck you!" he said, suddenly something sparkled in his eye sockets, and his eyes were moist, "I'm still a fucking policeman, I violated my principles so quickly, I...I'm not a thing , You bastard!"

After he said that, I realized that he was scolding himself in the morning.I laughed again, thinking that the man in uniform in front of me was silly, silly and cute.I wiped away the teardrops from the corners of his eyes with my hands, and said softly: "You still want to avoid it? If you can avoid it, then you can't have me in your world, you know?"

"But you are still a child." He said, "You know, I don't know why, I can keep an absolute distance from Yang Xing (the child he liked before, that is Xing'er), for so long, a year, I have never crossed that line, and he has longed for it, but my reason still overcomes everything, but for you, even within a month, my defense line completely collapsed, I really It's good..." Perhaps in the impression of a rational adult, especially the mind of an upright person like him, it is all evil, there is no explanation for atonement, it is a devil who harms others and himself, That is the most terrifying human nature. Only in front of the "should" person can such sins be vented and redeemed, but in front of a man, no, a boy, in his understanding, this may be just It has become absolutely impossible, absolutely not allowed.

He talked about this problem on the Internet before: the so-called zero and one will make a person completely degenerate, like a drug addict, and will never be able to extricate himself from hell.A long time ago, he himself was drawn into the abyss of eternal doom because of this. As a cancer, he didn't hope that he would harm another person at all.

"It's not wrong, Uncle!" I shouted at him loudly, "Why can't you look at this more simply and more rationally, do you know that everything that exists is justified, no one hurts anyone, If you love me, if you don't do something that is unworthy of the conscience of heaven and earth, what is there to blame yourself for?"

"You don't understand, silly boy!" He said silently, "Uncle hurt you!"

"You caused me so much pain, but also so happy!" I said, "Do I have the right to choose such pain?"

"No!" He replied directly, "Uncle will make up for these ridiculous things to you."

"Make up for it!" I finally got angry, I jumped up from the bed regardless of the pain in my body, and started to put on my clothes.

"What are you doing, doesn't your ass hurt?" he asked me.

"None of your business!" I got dressed and rushed out of the bedroom.He chased after me and yelled at me, "Wang Zicheng, stop!"

"Sorry, Mr. Police, I'm not a criminal!" I opened the door and ran out.I don't even know why I suddenly became so angry, but the anger that I don't know where it came from, the anger that cannot be expressed in words has completely filled my heart, and I don't want to see him again.

He chased me out anyway, grabbed my arm while I was still descending the stairs, and dragged me roughly back.

I yelled at him: "Let go of me, it hurts so much, let go!" His strength was so strong that he pulled me back to the room, threw me on the sofa, and slammed the door Closed the past.

He didn't speak, just stared at me blankly.I don't know what expression to use to face him, the anger in my heart is still there, but his appearance is really scary right now.

"What are you doing?" I asked weakly, "I...I..."

"Can you be more obedient!" He suddenly made a 360-degree turn, and his tone became low and desperate, "Uncle is not easy, isn't it, you baby should think more about uncle!"

I couldn't understand what he meant at all, and I sat aside and looked at him with confused eyes.

"I'll cook first!" He turned around and was about to leave, "Wait a minute, what if you run away again!" He suddenly took out a handcuff from his uniform pocket, which of course was used by prisoners.

"What are you doing?" I asked him again.

"It's nothing, it doesn't hurt!"

"Ah, let me go! Don't be like this, okay, it's ugly, please, I won't run away, when have I lied to you!" I begged, this police dad who I couldn't figure out was almost Driving me crazy.No matter what I said, he still didn't listen. My hands and the coffee table were handcuffed together by the handcuffs.Then he went into the kitchen without saying a word.

I looked at my handcuffed hand in exasperation, and never dreamed that I, a legal citizen, would one day be like this