our psalms

"Son, get up first, and tell your uncle slowly, who is your mother?" Lao Cao sympathetically pulled Xiaodong up, and Xiaodong still couldn't stop crying, almost crying out his mother's name.Lao Cao frowned and thought for a moment, remembering that there was a woman who was arrested for murder, but he didn't know that this woman even had such a child.Seeing Xiaodong's terrified and pitiful eyes, although he has been working as a police officer for so many years, he has seen many such scenes, but this time, for some reason, he unexpectedly fell in love with this child. Moved.

He first took Xiaodong into his car, and then drove to a nearby noodle shop.The dusty Xiaodong pounced on the food like a very hungry lion. He didn't know how many bowls of ramen he had eaten before he came back to his senses and looked at Lao Cao sitting next to him, a little scared He looked like that, and asked softly: "Thank you, Uncle Policeman, can I go to my mother now?"

Lao Cao's smile was somewhat bitter, and he looked at the watery eyes full of helplessness and expectation in front of him, and he didn't know what it was like knocking over a tasteless bottle.It is only right and proper to kill someone, but this innocent child is pitiful.Lao Cao sighed, and asked Xiaodong, "Son, are there any other relatives in your family? What about grandparents, uncles and aunts?"

"Nothing, I'm just my parents, my uncle died, and my mother was also arrested by you, uncle, please let her go!" Xiaodong begged.

But this matter is not as simple as a child like him imagined.Lao Cao could only smile wryly, and then took him to the room where the prisoners were detained in the police station. Xiaodong’s mother had been staying here for a few days, her hair was disheveled, her eyes were dull and lifeless, and she was about to be sent to prison. She went to the court for trial, and now it seems that she herself understands that she cannot escape the punishment of the law. When she saw Xiaodong, she hugged Xiaodong into her arms, said nothing, and she burst into tears. At this moment, Xiaodong finally had the strength to cry loudly.

That was the last time Xiaodong saw his mother, and not long after, her mother was executed.Xiaodong, who was still living in Lao Cao's house at that time, yelled at Lao Cao like crazy, crying, "You lied to me, the police are all liars, they are all liars!" He didn't give him any impossible promises, but now, he didn't say much, and let Xiaodong vent his painful heart. Lao Cao kept patting Xiaodong on the shoulder, telling him to be strong and to learn to mature , Learn to grow up.After a long, long time, Xiaodong finally sobbed hoarsely. Lao Cao embraced him in his arms and slowly stroked his head.

"Cry, child, you'll be fine if you cry..."

In the end, Xiaodong was sent to the city orphanage by Lao Cao, where, compared with the previous days, it may be much better.But Xiaodong could no longer get out of that gloomy time.His temperament slowly changed amidst withdrawn and autistic, and finally he almost forgot who he was.

In the orphanage, he met several teenagers who were about the same age as him. They were a group of young people who seemed to have been swallowed up by evil after being forgotten by the world.Xiaodong started to be with them frequently, fighting, making troubles, and almost all bad things were their fault, which made the orphanage restless.As a result, they became a group of children who were paid attention to and disciplined more strictly.

After all, they are a group of children without parents. The greater the oppression, the higher their resistance.They tried to escape again and again, trying to escape the world that bound them, even though they didn't know that it was better for them.But children are still children after all. Here, they are not the first and second children with such twisted personalities. The staff here will not let them succeed easily.No matter whether it is over the wall or drilling a hole in the corner, etc., it all ends in failure.But what is surprising is that in their dictionary, the word "abandon" has never been mentioned.

At that time, Lao Cao would visit him occasionally, and he would bring a lot of Xiaodong's favorite food.And this brat didn't even know how to repay his kindness at all, but he even plotted against this kind uncle.He tricked Lao Cao into taking him out on the grounds that he wanted to go out for a walk.

It was that time, an absolute turning point in life, and the trace of fate was permanently engraved at that moment.

Lao Cao took him to the street, among the crowd, and in the park.He is like a runaway wild horse, his curious eyes never stop, but he never forgets the ultimate mission in his heart.

When the two of them finally got tired from walking and sat on a bench in the park to rest, Xiaodong asked him to go to the toilet alone. It was the first time that Ying Mingyi's old policeman was cheated by a kid.Xiaodong walked slowly to the public toilet, hid behind the fence and looked at the old policeman sitting in the chair, and then ran away in the opposite direction...

Speaking of this, Xiaodong was a little indifferent.He saw that I didn't understand and with some angry eyes, he said to me in a light and profound tone: "You are not me, you will not understand my feelings at that time, you are always surrounded by happiness You don't understand what kind of state a person is when he loses himself. Later, I really apologized, especially to Director Cao, but I got that kind of spiritual relief, completely and thoroughly Relief!" He said, "Director Cao went crazy looking for me, I knew he was very angry and almost mobilized all the policemen in that police station, I was really scared at that time, afraid of being arrested by them again, And they would never have thought that I was still hiding in that park all the time. I remember that on the third night after I ran out, I was almost starving again. I understood that I had to find a way to survive Go on. You never know what I will meet later, the person I will never forget!" He said through gritted teeth.

Hiding in a corner of the toilet that night, he accidentally picked up half a bag of biscuits thrown away by someone else from the trash can, and a security guard in the park found him.It was a man with a fleshy face. When he saw Xiaodong eating something out of the trash can, he smiled evilly and approached him.

"Little ghost, what are you doing here so late?" the security guard yelled.Xiaodong raised his head, his first reaction when he saw the uniform was to run, and within a few steps, the biscuit in his hand fell to the ground, but he still went to pick it up desperately. The tall security guard pressed to the ground.

"Let go of me, I'm not a bad person, I didn't do anything!"

"Little beggar, dare to run! I fell into the hands of the master today, you'd better be obedient, or you will suffer!" The evil security guard slapped him hard. A mouth full of the smell of cigarettes kissed his face firmly.

How could he have the strength to resist, he was so frightened that his whole body went limp, and he let this shameless man abuse his body, he was forced to open his mouth, and a stinking stick was inserted straight into his throat, getting more and more Bigger and thicker.Xiaodong's tears and regurgitated saliva intertwined and flowed down his chin.His clothes were stripped off, his trousers were pulled down, and he was pressed down on the lawn. In the dark night, he was deprived for the first time by this man who hadn't even seen his face clearly.Enduring the severe pain, he cried and begged the wicked man to forgive him, but the night was still so long, how could this greedy man spit out the delicious food that was delivered to his mouth so easily.

That was the night that Xiaodong felt the darkest, the most frightening and the most painful in his entire life!