miss the rain

When people want to memorize, everything may be found for you. I am a typical example.

The old uncle and the family injured each other because of a contract dispute.It's just that there are people in the other party's family, so it's private.No way, I need to get some money for the family.The account just returned in hand was given to the family.There was another accident in my store, and I dare not tell my family that everything happened together.I can't breathe.There is no way, to raise so much money in a short period of time, I can only take out a loan.

Nian Nian looked at my listless appearance these days, and asked me why.I just told her... She told me without hesitation that she wanted to take out a loan for me, hehe... How could this fool do this?Even if she wants to do it, I won't use it...I'm a grandfather, how can I spend a woman's money!I also teased her and said: "If I run away, you will have to pay back your loan!" I didn't use her loan, but my heart is warm, at least she will believe me!

I took my business license and went to find a friend for a loan. Alas... there are people who are easy to handle these days!

Things are finally calming down...

During this period of time, there were a lot of things to do, and my body was failing.Because my illness is getting worse day by day, and my psychological burden is getting heavier day by day, and I dare not let Nian Nian know about these things, for fear that she will worry.So, I suddenly remembered that friend named Xueer. I remembered that she told me once that the old Chinese medicine her father found for her in Beijing prescribed Chinese medicine, which was more effective.So I found Xueer's QQ number, and asked some related things.Without thinking too much, her QQ account was never cleared...

One day, read my QQ number, and tell me without asking why:

"Have you been chatting with that Cher..."

I said a lot of sad things, and I wanted to explain to her that she wouldn't listen, but in the end, I said, "Let's break up!"

"why!"

"You said you, you knew that we had quarreled because of her, and you still contacted them..." You scolded me again, ha ha... I think no matter how much I explain, she won't listen, she always I think what she thinks is right, but I never listen to my explanation seriously...

I hung up the phone weakly. It was November 2012, 11, and she said the word "break up" to me...

I lit a cigarette and saw the yellow lighter next to it. It was brought to me by her from home when I was in Shijiazhuang... Now it seems so kind, holding it tightly in my hand, unwilling to put it down ...

I still wake up at four o'clock, and I still open my QQ account when I wake up, but no one chats with me anymore, no one calls me husband, no one kisses me anymore, no one... Many habits are gone, I even set my mobile phone to vibrate... because the familiar "Ocean Sea" ringtone will never ring again...

It's the end of the year, the flower shop is busy, and I also want to open a specialty store of Chinese herbal medicine and health products. I am so busy every day that I can't take time off. When the opening day is approaching, the sister in the store said let's go out for dinner. Anyway, it's almost done. So I went to a nearby noodle shop to eat noodles.I just sat there after ordering, but the stereo in the store played "You told me that lovers don't need promises, because you are afraid that the season will pass and you will lose your love. You may not know that I have fallen into your prison. Winter You don't need me any more..." Zheng Yuan's "Tolerance"... Tears flowed down... The eldest sister asked me what was wrong, and I said I was homesick... Hehe... Zheng Yuan's song, that is Niannian's favorite , when she played songs for me for the first time, she listened to these sad songs... So for a while, I would also listen to Zheng Yuan's songs, and I would be on the same frequency as her, and at this moment, we broke up, But I heard "Tolerance" here... Tears and noodles were swallowed together... The bowl that day was very clean, and I saw the bottom of the bowl...

I really can't let go of Niannian", and then sent a message to tell her about my lunch today... She smiled lightly, I know, maybe she really doesn't care about these things... After I hung up the phone, I knew her Everything is fine, so be it...

At the end of the year, she will also be busy, busy with some exams in school, busy with some things at home, we have fewer calls and less information.But there will still be contact...

It is said that two people who love each other cannot be friends when they break up, but two people who really loved each other can really be friends after breaking up, because this kind of friends are more intimate than close friends, and kinder than family members...just because of a certain There are various reasons why we can’t be together... To put it bluntly, I still love Niannian, I believe that one day she will come back to me when she gets tired from playing, and one day she will know that I love her... I I am willing to be her lifelong friend, as long as she needs, no matter where I am, I will immediately appear by her side... This is my love for her, a heart-felt love...

It's New Year's Day, New Year's Eve... going out for drinks with colleagues.No one sent me a congratulatory message all day.It's fine if you don't want to say it, who told her to break up with me, but why doesn't Shushu have any news?It seems that her married life is very happy... You two guys, when you have your own happiness, you forget me as a friend. It seems that in your eyes, you really can't be friends after breaking up... Because of special I missed him so much, so I drank high with my colleagues at night, and I didn't know how to get home.Before I woke up in the morning, I was woken up by the phone call from the elder sister in the dormitory.Tell me: "Shushu's family was killed by the enemy last night... Shushu left us forever..." My mind was numb, I thought I didn't hear clearly, so I asked the boss to say it again...just like that Lying upright... Shushu, is this the biggest New Year gift you gave me with your life... Didn't you say yes, everyone should be happy together... Didn't you say yes, you send me a message every year on festivals You gave me the information, but you can't do it, why do you still promise me?

My first love, our nine-year relationship, ended on the night of January 2013, 1, and what was left to me was the long nine-year memory... I thought I could use Nian Nian well Loved me once, but Niannian is also breaking up with me... I haven't come out of the sadness yet, Niannian's call came in and told me: "Brother, let's break up, I'll go after the boss, you Can you see it?"

"Can you stop making trouble? The boss has Hani, you can't do this! The boss is older than your mother, do you lack maternal love?!"

"Do you care about age?"...

The two of us spoke one sentence at a time, but in the end, we got angry again and hung up the phone... I sent her a message and told her: "My first love died..." After a long time, she called to comfort me, and I said: " I'm fine, I won't be sad..." After a few words, we hung up... I hung up the phone and burst into tears...

One is my lover for five years, and the other is my beloved who abandoned me at the same time, who can accept this reality? ? ?When my first love left, I didn't cut my hair anymore, I kept it all the time, and even made an ion once, it was actually straight, it used to be like a thing, pretending to be a lady, but I swore, when When I meet someone I love, I will cut off her hair and start over for her!As for Liu Nian, the woman who asked me to cut off my long hair and start over, the result... so what?Didn't you still leave me?

Am I heartless, or am I pretending to be too strong? !There is really no true love in this world, I was abandoned by this world...

I used to believe in love so much, but in the end I was abandoned by love... This is life, you can't believe it...