star chaser poem

-From the perspective of poetry-

This week, Xiang Shi returned home after a long time, and was going to discuss with her parents about filling in the application form.

The school has a model test next week, and he plans to only stay on Saturday, so he can spare some time to go back and prepare.

He said he discussed it with his parents, but he was always good at making up his own mind when it comes to the choice of this key point in life.

He also filled in the medical school that Fu Jing said he wanted to take.

There was no particular reason, it was simply because Fu Jing wanted to go.

Although they had to separate in high school, Xiang Shi still secretly hoped that the two could continue to be classmates in college.

Most of the schools on the voluntary list are concentrated in Songshi. As for the colleges and universities in other cities, he only filled in two TOP2 symbolically.

In the evening, Fu Jing asked him to go to a nearby coffee shop, saying that "I have something important to talk about".

At this juncture, Xiang Shi took it for granted that the "important things" he was talking about must be related to filling out the application form, so before going out, he stuffed the form he had filled out with a pencil into his backpack.

The distance is neither far nor close. Cycling takes about the same time as walking. After struggling for a while, he finally decided to go by bicycle.

Xiang Shi is actually very puzzled, what must be said?Say no at home?

When he went downstairs to pick up the car, he found that Fu Jing's bicycle was not there, and he was even more puzzled: Since he was going out, why didn't he ask me to go with him.

The weather has started to heat up recently, and the humidity in the air is very high, damp and sticky.

Like a lonely pixel in the picture, Xiang Shi moves slowly along the coastline of Meizihai.

There is no wind.

Occasionally, a few low-flying dragonflies passed by, and the low air pressure made these fragile insects feel overwhelmed, and even their wings hung down feebly.

He remembered that a few years ago, when he and Fu Jing were cycling home at night, they had a quarrel on this road.

He seemed to be able to see two vague figures, speeding from the opposite lane, passing by himself at this moment.

What did Fu Jing say at that time.

"Why do I have to be like you?"

"No matter what you learn, you should take the initiative to learn because you want to learn, not because someone forces you or threatens you, saying that if you don't do this, you will be worthless in the future."

"I have a brain, I can think, and I don't need others to tell me what is right and what is wrong."

Three years later, Xiang Shi wants to tell her past self: Don't quarrel with him.

He'll figure it out later.

The sea level looks gloomy, silently facing the cloud-covered sky, presenting a light-swallowing blackness.

Just get out of the sun soon.

Xiang Shi speeded up unconsciously, as if speeding up the progress of time, leaving all those past events behind.

It will be over in a few months.he thinks.

Speaking of which, apart from those stupid performances in school, I don't think I've ever seen Fu Jing singing on stage.

If he has a performance after the exam, I'll go and see it secretly without telling him.

Hide in the audience and startle him.

Thinking of this, Xiang Shi was finally satisfied.

Perhaps what is quietly waiting for him at the destination is no longer an "important matter", but a seed that has been buried in his heart for a long time and is about to germinate.

The young man with red hair sat opposite Fu Jing side by side.

And Xiang Shi monopolizes the double seat.

He was a little unhappy, because such a position arrangement was very strange first of all.

"Let me introduce myself first. My name is Ji Yin. It's Fu Jing's... Well, the leader of the band."

When the other party spoke, Xiang Shi noticed the two nails next to his lips, and suddenly recalled the naive discussion about whether drinking water would leak.

Upon closer inspection, he found that this person had more aura than he had imagined.

Although always smiling, there is a sense of distance that is difficult to get close to.

Or rather, arrogance.

"Xiang Shi."

He replied politely and ordered a glass of Italian soda.

So it's not a matter of volunteering.

After realizing this, a cold weightlessness suddenly climbed up his back, as if stepping on a section of stairs.

Xiang Shi felt that she was in an infinitely slowing down.

He didn't know where he would fall in the end, and he didn't know how his body would shatter into pieces.

All he knew was that he couldn't control the irresistible gravity under his feet.

Fu Jing stretched out her hand and pushed over an envelope.

"Here's our ticket to our next show."

Xiang Shi looked at him inexplicably, but the man just explained calmly: "I'm going to Wu City the day after the performance. I hope I can say goodbye to you before leaving."

He took out the ticket and glanced at it. The date was May.

"What's the meaning."

A burst of electricity paralyzed the fingers, causing the ticket to escape from Xiang Shi's fingers.

"You don't want to go to college anymore?"

no answer.

He even suspected that the sentence he asked just now was held in his mouth by an invisible monster, crushed, swallowed, and eaten.

"No exam."

The voice announcing the verdict did not come from Fu Jing, but from Ji Yin.

Xiang Shi didn't bother to pay attention to him at all.At this moment, his eyes could not hold anything other than Fu Jing's calm face.

Can't fight with him anymore.

He will hate me.

Trying extremely hard to restrain the fluctuation of inner emotions, Xiang Shi asked slowly and clearly: "Do you know what you are doing?"

"I know."

Fu Jing raised her eyes and responded bluntly.

There was no fanaticism or impulsive background in his eyes, they were clean and bright.

That familiar face was so calm that Xiang Shi was terrified.

If he showed excessive expectations, or excitement in his blood, then Xiang Shi would believe that he was deceived by that redhead.

But he didn't.

Fu Jing, who was sitting in front of her, looked very sober.

I've made all my decisions, and I'm here to tell you today, whether you support it or not, I will not change my mind.

He could almost hear Fu Jing's tone of voice when she said these words.

"why."

There is no need for a high-sounding explanation, Xiang Shi just wants to use the behavior of questioning to try to obstruct it.

"Because the contract is signed, because there are very few companies at his age who can sign a company, because he wants to go."

After Ji Yinzhu finished talking like a cannonball, she put the ticket that had fallen on the table back into the envelope, and pushed it under Xiang Shi's nose.

He stared numbly at the solid-color envelope, motionless.

It was clearly about Fu Jing, but others explained it clearly.

Ji Yin knew everything, but he knew nothing.

I was the one who was left out.

It was as if a bottle had been knocked over in his body, and the cold liquid gradually spread to his limbs. Xiang Shi suddenly felt very cold, so cold that his hands were shaking slightly.

I thought, no matter what, he would tell me.

Maybe our choices are different, but at least he will try to make me understand his thoughts.

It was a feeling of being depended on, valued, and trusted.

Unfortunately, that feeling is gone now.

"sorry."

The words were addressed to Xiang Shi, but the speaker just stared at his twisted fingers.

"You didn't apologize to me."

As she spoke, Xiang Shi grabbed Fu Jing's right wrist firmly.

His five fingers were naturally bent, the index finger and middle finger were slanted outward in an ugly way, and an ugly and thick callus appeared on the tip of the middle finger, like a face that wanted to cry but had no tears.

"The person you are sorry for is yourself."

I'm afraid no one knows better than Xiang Shi how he has worked so hard in the past three years.

The clasped fingers tightened tighter and tighter, as if trying to grasp a handful of passing sand, those efforts that were about to go to waste.

And the owner of that wrist slowly revealed a painful expression.

He abruptly looked away, looked at the gray scenery outside the window, struggled slightly, and pulled his hand back.

The empty fingers moved sluggishly, grabbing nothing.

At this time, Ji Yin seemed to be unable to stand it any longer, and asked in a less polite tone: "Do you know what it means to make money?"

"Can you live independently without relying on your parents?"

Starting from the lips, Xiang Shi felt the muscles of her entire face gradually stiffen.

Ji Yin folded his arms, and spoke sadistic words in a seemingly patient tone.

The poisoned dagger pierced his eardrum one after another.

"Let me tell you what happens when he finishes college and graduates."

"In order not to be compared with my peers, I found a so-called good job. I looked glamorous, but in fact I did things I didn't like every day. I didn't know what to do, and I lived like a mass-produced robot."

"If someone asked him, what are your hobbies, he would answer singing karaoke. Then very occasionally, he recalled that when he was in high school, he had the opportunity to sign a record company."

"But that has nothing to do with him now. Because he doesn't know what time he can get off work today, who's face he will see tomorrow, and how much he should pay off his credit card next month."

"Maybe this opportunity is the only bright spot in his life."

"After all, at that time, his daily life is almost the same. It's just to complete the tasks pushed by others, just to get wages, make a living, and look decent, so he has to open his eyes and work."

Sensing that his opponent had lost the ability to counterattack, he aggressively continued to attack.

"The things you use to hold him back are all imaginary. The future I told him is concrete, planned, and can be realized immediately."

"I don't know which university he wants to go to. But if he goes to Wu City, he will definitely release a record within this year."

"When he comes back to perform here, you just have to come and see him."

"Maybe others will envy you, you can easily talk to him."

As soon as the call was over, Ji Yin leaned back on the back of the chair nonchalantly, turning the nail on his lips impatiently.

Xiangshi's mind was blank.

Since he was a child, no one has said these things to him.

He didn't even know how to refute it, because it was a world he had never faced before.

He thought that all his missions would be over when he was admitted to university.

Why bother with other things besides reading?Isn't reading enough?

Why is it different from what other adults say?

The red demon in front of him crushed the ivory tower where he lived.

Xiang Shi took a deep breath.

Those tumbling thousands of words seemed to have an unstoppable force, violently hitting the back of his eyeballs, and maybe in the next second, they would pour out uncontrollably.

Chasing after Fu Jing's stubborn side face, he chose to avoid the serious and ignore the trivial: "Do your parents know?"

Upon hearing this sentence, Ji Yin sneered presumptuously.

"You are so funny. If you can't stop yourself, you will move your parents out, and the elementary school students will sue?"

Although Xiang Shi's face was pale, she didn't lose her temper and responded coldly: "You have already graduated from college, so don't drag others into the water."

"Sorry, I didn't graduate and I took a leave of absence."

Ji Yin looked at him provocatively, his eyes seemed to be smiling but not smiling.

"I'm a medical student, and it takes me a long time to study for an undergraduate degree."

Medical students.

There is only one medical school in the entire Song City.

Xiang Shi turned his head mechanically, looked at Fu Jing in disbelief, and returned to Ji Yin in a daze.

The time of the past three years was like a paper flipping rapidly, and it all crackled and slapped on his cheeks, causing pain.

It turns out that this is what it means to pass the university entrance examination.

He recalled that in the first year of high school, Fu Jing was uncharacteristically studious and diligent, and suddenly felt that everything became understandable.

What he cares about is not which school he will be admitted to, but whether he can be with Ji Yin.

So that person goes to medical school, so he goes.

That person went to Wu City, and he also went.

"Then make an appointment. We will receive the admission letter together in two years."

"You are not allowed to go back on your word."

Xiang Shi remembered the volunteer form lying in the backpack, and couldn't help laughing.

Perhaps the scenery outside the window was so fascinating that Fu Jing was so fascinated by it that she didn't look back for a long time.

He stared at the glass window with rain stains, and tried to widen his eye sockets without blinking.

Even in this situation, Xiang Shi was still keenly aware that he was about to cry.

Since the "I'm sorry" just now, Fu Jing hasn't said a word.

Ji Yin seemed to become his mouth, suppressing his thoughts.

There is no need to continue.

Xiang Shi simply stood up and made up her mind not to look at Fu Jing again.

"I endured it when I was in high school. I won't turn to you this time."

Facing the air, he opened and closed his mouth hollowly, uttering cruel words that he hadn't even expected.

"If you go with him, don't talk to me again in the future."

He turned his head away, making a gesture to leave.

Immediately afterwards, the sound of glass knocking down and liquid gurgling out came from behind him.

And a pleading voice with a strong nasal voice.

"...don't go."

"It's the last time, I beg you, you must come in May, okay..."

"It's near the Plum Coast, not far away, yes, do you remember, I told you about it when I was in junior high..."

His distorted tone is very similar to the suddenly demented patient on TV, and his mouth is incoherent.

"After you're done, go around to the parking garage at the back door. There's a broken vending machine there. I'll wait..."

"I dont go."

Xiang Shi interrupted his rambling with a blank face, picked up the bill, without touching the envelope.

Someone grabbed his sleeve tightly, and he flung it away.

"Do not touch me."

When passing by that person, he exhausted the remaining strength and left a last sentence.

"You will regret this."

Going around outside the store, Xiang Shi went straight to the place where he parked his car.

He saw two bicycles parked side by side.

He froze in place motionless, as if he wanted to engrave the scene in front of him deeply into his mind.

I don't know how long it took, maybe ten minutes, maybe a few seconds, Xiang Shi finally woke up.

He unlocked the door neatly, picked up the car, and left without looking back as if nothing had happened.

On the day of the quarrel three years ago, Fu Jing left him alone; but today, three years later, the person who turned his back turned into Xiang Shi.

Since then, he has seen a fact clearly.

Things in the world, like Fu Jing, have many aspects.

And he was just wishful thinking, selectively believing in those sides that he wanted to see that were beneficial to him.

Mistakenly thinking that's all there is to it.

When he got home, he erased all the pencil words on the volunteer form.

Only the next two schools remain on paper.

Be sure to go to TOP2.

You have to pass the exam even if you die.

The author has something to say:

The novel is full of nonsense, please study hard.