Bear Love◇Paradise Station◇

After the first kiss, our relationship got closer. Maybe we both know who we are, but no one has pierced that layer of paper.We would have dinner together, and occasionally he would take me home in a car. On my birthday, he even gave me a laptop, saying that I was too rustic, so I should learn how to use a computer.I have no choice but to give it to me. My mother said that I can’t ask for such an expensive gift from others. Let’s give him the money, but Zhao Xiaoyu said that you can keep the money yourself, so you just tell your mother to give it to me. Let me kiss one, I think it's not that I haven't kissed before, just kiss, so we will kiss when no one is around, it feels really sweet, but I have never linked myself to homosexuality, after all, only learning is what I do.

The college entrance examination is over, and I was admitted to the e-commerce department of a famous university in Beijing. Zhao Xiaoyu only scored more than 400 points in the test, but his English score was 142 points!According to the score, he obviously can only go to the second book, but it seems that he doesn't care.

A few days before I was going to report to the university, he asked me to go to his house, and said to me very disappointed, "Ye Zhen, I'm going to the United States. After the college entrance examination, I kept telling my mother to get me to your school. My mother refused and insisted on letting me go to the United States. I don't want to go, but I can't go against the arrangement at home, I'm very sad."

I am very touched that he can say that he wants to go to my school, and I know why, but I can't hinder his future, "It's a good thing for you to go to the United States, study hard, and come back to inherit the family business, that's great! Chinese universities can't follow Compared with the American ones, don't be sentimental!"

"What do you think between the two of us?" Zhao Xiaoyu said hesitantly, but this time he didn't dare to look at me.

I don't know how to answer him, I don't want to associate myself with homosexuality, because I am still young. "I like you very much. You are so kind to me, and you are still my benefactor. If I were a woman, I would marry you!" After I finished speaking, I secretly watched his reaction.

"Forget it, it's not my character to be twitchy, let me tell you the truth, I know that I like fat men, and the way you behaved in my house that time, I know you are the same person! You like me, and I like it too You! Ye Zhen, listen! I like you! I love you!" He grabbed my shoulder and said in a loud voice, his eyes that were not too big revealed a kind of firmness.

I looked at the fat man in front of me - round face, beard that had never been shaved, a little side cheeks, hair that was not too short, gently attached to the scalp, small eyes, small nose and small mouth.I knew that all I had to do now was to give him a kiss, so I raised my head and kissed him, "I know, although I am stupid, I can feel that you are kind to me, but we are not gay? I don't want to Be gay!" After I finished speaking, I felt a bit regretful, what is this if it's not homosexuality? ?Idealism is worthy of admiration in certain circumstances. If I say I am not gay, I am not!That is a kind of open-mindedness!

Afterwards I told him that I was in a bad position, you kissed me all over but I didn't kiss you, he laughed and said he would be responsible.A few days later, I set off for Beijing. At the train station, he hugged me and cried for a long time.I always thought he was a tough guy, but the tough guy also cried, which really moved me.I said I can surf the Internet!You can use QQ to contact, right?He said he'd beat me to death if I ignored him, and laughed through his tears.And just like that, my first love ended.

Two things happened that year. The first one was the popular broadcast of "Carry Love to the End", which made me full of fantasies about college life. The second one was 911, but none of this could affect my curiosity about college. When I came back to Beijing, I felt that everything was new.When I arrived in ***, I realized that the *** was not as big as I imagined, and I would go to *** Square to find the location of the *** incident that year, and see if the ground had turned black.When I saw Beijing in the news, I always felt that the sky was very dark. After arriving in Beijing, I realized that the sky in Beijing is still blue, but it is too hot. It is still very hot in mid-September. September in Beijing is like my hometown. In August, the heat was unbearable, and I am the type who is afraid of heat. What surprised me the most was that a few buddies in the same dormitory were still sleeping under quilts. Maybe they were very scared when they first came here.

In the first few nights, I couldn’t sleep at all. I always went to the vending machine downstairs to buy drinks. It was more comfortable to sit on the bench on the first floor. I missed Zhao Xiaoyu very much. I don’t know what he was doing at the moment. With the popularization of mobile phones, I used an IC phone to call him a few times, and every time I burst into tears, he would say that I was stupid and we would meet. At the end of September, he left for the United States and has not been heard from since.His QQ avatar has always been gray, and I didn't check to see if he was online anymore.

In November, autumn in Beijing is the most beautiful, with high air and no clouds.It is said that there is no need to study after university. I was completely misled by this kind of thinking. Now thinking about it, I regret why I didn't study hard!I often skipped classes to go to Internet cafes. At that time, CS was the most popular, and I, a simple boy, was not spared. Fighting in the world of CS all day long was not enough!One day, I was in the midst of a fierce battle in CS, and suddenly joined a policeman who used AWAP (I used a bandit). I boasted that my AK was superb, but every time I showed up, I was killed by the policeman. I quit the game depressed, but the policeman who used it aroused my curiosity.I started to look for it in Internet cafes, Zhao Xiaoyu!I hurried to Zhao Xiaoyu's side!

Oh no, he is not Zhao Xiaoyu, but he looks so much alike!The difference is that he is whiter than Zhao Xiaoyu, and his hairstyle is also different, shorter.

Picking up conversations is not my specialty, nor does it fit my personality, but I can only make an exception for him, "My friend, your AWAP is really good! I am convinced!" I really don't know what to say, I can only Talk about games.

He was still playing, looked at the screen calmly and said, "Hehe, it's normal".

Missing Zhao Xiaoyu makes me unable to leave this "substitute" in front of me. I want to talk to him, I want to know where he is, his name, everything about him!But I didn't say anything. Picking up conversations is really not my forte. I sat beside him and watched him play silently.

"Aren't you playing, why keep looking at me?" He said with a cigarette in his mouth, without looking at me.

"Hehe, let's learn from you, I can't AWAP", I said awkwardly.I know he's not Zhao Xiaoyu, but I just don't want to leave, even if I stay by his side for a second.Suddenly, I feel that this scene is very similar to some movies. When encountering a person who looks exactly like a deceased lover, all kinds of stories happen, but this kind of thing really exists!But I know that if I don't seize the opportunity, he will have to leave sooner or later, "Friend, I'll treat you to dinner later, let's get to know each other, I don't want to let a master go, haha!" I have done my best today, what a face No more.

"Oh? A treat? No need, it's okay to discuss and discuss. I also like CS."

"No, even if you don't eat, you can have a cup of tea and chat with me, okay?" I gave up.

He made a promise and continued to play his CS. We came out of the Internet cafe after dark. He said he should invite me. He is a sophomore. I felt embarrassed and went to a small restaurant with him.It turned out that he was also a student of our school, a sophomore in the Department of Computer Science, named Zhao Yun, from Shandong, and I couldn't help but respect him. Candidates from Shandong got into the Department of Computer Science of our school, what score did they get! ?

I haven't heard from Zhao Xiaoyu for a long time, and let me meet this man who looks exactly like him. I know it's wrong for me to use him to relieve my lovesickness.At that time, I often ran to their dormitory to chat with him. As for the content, I could chat with him whatever came to my mind. I think he just treats me as a normal friend, Zhao Xiaoyu will take advantage of me, touch me here and there, Zhao Yun never does this, but fortunately he is different, always reminding me that he is not Zhao Xiaoyu, they are not alone !