Love Tao

Silence, silence, the hall was terribly quiet. Sitting at the table were two couples in their early sixties, their hands trembling slightly, obviously angry. Standing beside them was a middle-aged couple in their early forties, also full of The face is unbelievable.

In front of them, there was a man kneeling. This man was full of tears, but there was a determination in his expression.

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After lunch, I drove a flock of sheep and wandered slowly, with Ye Zihao walking beside me.

"Ye Qing???????????" I looked at the white clouds floating in the distance and opened my mouth.

"What?" Ye Zihao was obviously surprised.

"It's your BF, you were drunk and called his name last night, hehe, he and I are very good friends."

"Ye Zihao opened his mouth wide, and after a while, "No way!What a coincidence! "

I spread my hands to show that I didn't understand either.

"Has he lost weight? How is he doing?" Ye Zihao asked eagerly.

Let a little bit of pain flash in my heart. Once upon a time, you cared for me so much.

"He's doing well, he's fat! Hehe!"

"Halo! I can be fatter than you!"

"????????????" Am I that fat?Height 168cm and weight 85kg, what a normal figure, I think.

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"Ye Zihao."

"Ok!"

"At first you approached me, I thought you wanted to pick me up!" I said shamelessly.

In an instant, Ye Zihao despised me.

"Go! Rotten man, with such complicated thoughts, I like the little fat man."

"Hehe! Damage the flowers of the motherland!" I laughed.

Ye Zihao gave me a supercilious look.

"Who told you to talk to a stranger indiscriminately, and he still doesn't know if he is gay." I was a little embarrassed.

"Mingqing, do you know?" Ye Zihao said seriously, "The first time I saw you, you were half lying on the grassland, I saw your nostalgia, a kind of nostalgia after being injured, and then I saw you In my heart, how should I put it, it’s like a desolation, you know what I mean! I just don’t believe in love anymore, I know you are a person with a story, but I’m curious, what kind of love can make you Do you have such a sense of desolation in your heart?" Ye Zihao looked at me after he finished speaking, and there was more concern in his eyes.

"It's like the him at that time, it made me heartbroken." Ye Zihao looked towards the sky, thinking of the people in the distance.

"It's very simple, very ordinary, but it makes me give up everything for it."

"It's just that it's over." Scenes of the past were recalled, and he couldn't help laughing at himself.

Ye Zihao looked at me, as if deep in his eyes, his heart was touched.Hands on my shoulders, giving me comfort between men.

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In November 09, Ye Zihao retired from the army and returned to his city.

When a person’s soul is entrusted with something, he will live a fulfilling life, and time will pass quickly in the fulfillment. When my mind is entrusted to the grassland, shepherding the sheep and singing, the time will pass quietly, and a year will pass soon. It's gone, like the white clouds in the sky, everything is like the smoke and clouds of the past.

I think, it's time to go back, after all, it is my home. For a year, I should forget what should not be forgotten, and I have almost let go. There is no hatred, only memories.

It was already March 10 when I set off on my return trip, Inner Mongolia was very cold, I changed into the clothes I brought when I came here, and inadvertently took out the clothes I changed with Zhang Tao at that time, Zhang Tao’s figure flashed in front of my eyes in an instant, A deep feeling of longing filled my heart, and I suddenly missed him very much.

I don't understand why I am like this, I should hate him, I should hate him for abandoning me in the first place!

However, I just can’t hate it. A friend on QQ in the circle once said that he has been with his BF for five years, and finally his BF abandoned him cruelly. It has been three years. He was still full of strong hatred in his heart.

I can't say that he doesn't love deeply enough, it may be two extreme manifestations of love, one is hate, and the other is endless nostalgia.