Ten years to feed the dog

As soon as the taxi drove for a certain distance, it started to rain.

The rain wasn't too heavy. Yao Liang watched the rain fall by the window, and his craving for cigarettes was about to rise. After searching in his pockets for a long time, he couldn't even find a cigarette tail, and he felt a little irritable for no reason.

Yao Liang was addicted to cigarettes when he just graduated from university. It was because of Zhang Yiwen. At that time, Zhang Yiwen also smoked. Yao Liang watched him smoke so much and wanted to try one. Zhang Yiwen finally quit. Yes, but he got addicted to smoking.

At that time, it should be thought that in this relationship, it is not that Zhang Yiwen cannot live without him, but that he cannot live without Zhang Yiwen, like a cigarette addiction, which cannot be quit.

The more Yao Liang thought about it, the more irritable he felt, and he wanted to have a cigarette to drive out all the mess in his mind.

As soon as Yao Liang saw the grocery store, he asked the driver to pull over, no matter how far away he was from the destination, he immediately paid the money and walked into the grocery store.

Take cigarettes, lighters, checkout, a set of actions flow smoothly.

After exhaling a puff of smoke, Yao Liang narrowed his eyes slightly, watching the rain hit the ground through the puff of smoke, his mind was blank, only the satisfaction of finally being able to take a puff of cigarette.

He picked up the cigarette and felt the smoke exhale from his mouth. Only at this moment could Yao Liang truly realize the fact that he was alive.

Yao Liang saw that the rain had no intention of stopping, he squeezed out the cigarette and then turned and went into the grocery store.

After taking an umbrella, I noticed that there was a box containing some old game discs in the grocery store.

There was a very familiar game disk inside. Yao Liang picked up the game disk and gently brushed away the dust on the disk, only to find out where the familiarity came from.

If everyone has one thing that can represent their own childhood, it is this old game disc that represents Yao Liang's childhood.

Yao Liang's childhood was happy, so happy that Yao Liang always wondered if he got retribution because he was too happy when he was a child.

At that time, his father was still the nice man, his mother was still the gentle mother of the Gu family, and he was still the brat who could behave at home and act like a baby to his family.

Yao Liang remembered that on his birthday, his father took out this game disc and told his family how good he was at playing this game before, and at the end he wanted to play a game with Yao Liang, but the result was Being won by Yao Liang, the whole family just nestled on the sofa and laughed together.

At that time, Yao Liang was still very young, only eight or nine years old. He thought that this was his family, and this was his world. But later, Yao Liang realized that the so-called family was just strangers bound by blood. The world is big, isn’t it? It's only as small as a corner of the sofa.

"If you want it, you can just take it away. They are all things that no one wants."

The voice came from behind, Yao Liang looked back and saw that it was the old man who just paid for him, the old man read the newspaper without looking up and said nonchalantly.

Stuff no one wants.

Yao Liang lowered his eyes, holding the game disc, thinking of the old man's words over and over again in his mind.

He glanced at the game discs piled up in the box, and Yao Liang took the game discs away.

On the way up the mountain, I saw a few people carrying flowers to visit the grave.

Yao Liang smelled of alcohol all over his body, his suit jacket was casually draped over his arms, unbuttoned to the top, instead of flowers, he was holding a game disc, and there was a cigarette case in his shirt pocket. One could tell at a glance that he had stayed up all night, was extremely depressed, and was out of tune with those fellow travelers.

When Yao Liang arrived in front of the cemetery, he realized that someone had come a step ahead of him. He looked at the bouquet of flowers placed in front of the cemetery, and with just one glance, he guessed who gave it to him.

Putting the game disk in his hand in front of the cemetery, Yao Liang took out another cigarette to smoke, and slowly exhaled the smoke from the air. The smell of smoke was accompanied by the unique smell of rainy days. such a weather.

That man died in Yao Liang's third year of high school, suddenly but unexpectedly.

At that time, Yao Liang's English teacher was still giving an impassioned motivational speech on the podium. Lao Cao opened the door and called Yao Liang out.

The cause of death was not that complicated, it was sudden death caused by excessive drinking.

It was also raining that day, neither heavy nor light, just like Yao Liang's mood, neither the joy of relief nor the grief of losing a loved one, just a little upset.

Since Zhang Yiwen said that to Yao Liang at the sports meeting, Yao Liang resisted the man for the first time. When the man hit him with a beer bottle, he stretched out his hand to block it and grabbed the beer bottle. .

Unexpectedly, the man was just astonished, and he didn't get angry and scold him like crazy. Since then, the man has never returned home, nor has he hit him again.

Until the day before the man died, the man hadn't been home for almost half a month, and when the man reappeared, he took care of himself. It was the first time Yao Liang hadn't sniffed on a man after so many years. To the wine stink.

"Come, sit down and eat."

There was a table of dishes on the table, and when the man saw Yao Liang enter the door, he piled up a smile and beckoned people to sit down.

Yao Liang was undoubtedly shocked. He looked at the man and sat down slowly after a long time.

Seeing Yao Liang sitting down, the man was even more delighted, chattering with Yao Liang, and almost put all the dishes on the table into Yao Liang's bowl.

"I'm going to find a job today. I won't touch alcohol anymore. We two father and son will have a good life in the future. Can you forgive Dad?"

The man lowered his head and said, and finally raised his head slightly to carefully observe Yao Liang's expression.

Yao Liang gripped the chopsticks tightly, with his head lowered, he was eating his food there, and he didn't look at the man for a long time.

"How can I trust you."

When the man heard Yao Liang's words, he didn't care how gloomy Yao Liang's expression was or how sarcastic his tone was, he immediately raised his head, his eyes lit up, as if he had caught some hope, he straightened up, and spoke firmly. Zhao Yaoliang said:

"I will, Yao Yao, trust me, I can change it, I... If I can't change it, you can call the police and arrest me. I swear I will never touch alcohol again."

The man spoke in a hurry, and it took him several times to complete the sentence intermittently.

Seeing the man in front of him anxiously proving that he has the sincerity to reform himself, almost begging for his forgiveness, Yao Liang only found it funny.

A man is a victim as well as a perpetrator. He put all the pain he endured on Yao Liang, but now he comes to beg Yao Liang for forgiveness. Could the beatings and violence in the past be just like the chalk on the blackboard, which can be written off? Erase easily?

Yao Liang couldn't do it. He was just a selfish and dark person. He had wished countless times that the man in front of him would die, that he had never been born, that the woman could also taste the feeling of being betrayed. To the bone, Yao Liang will never be entangled for the rest of his life.

Yao Liang didn't believe what the man in front of him said. He looked at the man looking at him expectantly, as if expecting Yao Liang to say something he believed.

"Let's see, let's eat."

Yao Liang lowered his head and continued to eat. The man was not annoyed after hearing Yao Liang's cold words, as if he was enjoying it, he ignored Yao Liang's neglect and continued to exchange greetings with Yao Liang.

The ending in reality is not like those [-] o'clock plots. The man reforms himself, the son erases the past, and the two father and son walk together on the road of life, living a positive life.

The ending can only be as Yao Liang expected, the man has not changed his ways, and is still the same, and finally died of what he swore he would never do again.

There were not many people present at the funeral, so Yao Liang's grandmother and Yao Liang stayed in the mourning hall. Occasionally, two or three relatives came. Poor Yao Liang's grandmother was a white-headed person sending off a black-headed person, and she cried miserably. Next to comfort.

The woman also came, with her lover, but she didn't even enter the mourning hall, she just waited outside the door for Yao Liang to come out, after waiting for a long time Yao Liang didn't go out and then left again.

It wasn't until later that Yao Liang realized that the man had really found a job. He didn't know if it was God's prank or something, but the man ran into the woman's lover. The man quarreled with the man, and moved his hands In the end, he was fired and went to drink again. This drink really freed him from this love affair.

The man's alcohol addiction, his smoking addiction, are just for that person.

Weak and cowardly and unable to resist temptation, he and men are the same kind of people.

"Why are you smoking again?"

The voice came from behind, and Yao Liang exhaled the last puff of smoke. The rain stopped at some point, and the rain mixed with the smell of mud and grass entered Yao Liang's nose, mixed with the smell of smoke.

He held the cigarette between two fingers, and slowly turned his head to look at the person behind him.