Psycho

On the night of the 21st, Ye Zi went through the plan over and over again in his mind, and was too excited, causing insomnia all night.

On the 22nd, it snowed heavily.It was as gloomy as night outside, the piercing gale knocked on the glass windows, and the sound of branches being snapped could be heard from time to time.

On this day, Ye Zi would come to the window from time to time, wipe away the fog on the window, look out the window, and pray in her heart that the snow would stop soon.But the snow not only didn't stop, but also got bigger and bigger, almost like it was about to become a blizzard.

After lunch, the rabbit sat on the soft sofa, peeled an apple, divided it into small pieces, put it into a transparent glass bowl, and placed it in front of Ye Zi.Ye Zi obediently inserted a toothpick into a small piece of apple, picked it up and ate it into his mouth. As soon as his teeth sank into the pulp, he heard a crisp sound, and the sweet juice overflowed in his mouth.

The rabbit took a sip of the milk, tilted his head and stared at Ye Zi eating the apple.In his pale irises, the light rippled.Don't know what he was thinking at all.

Ye Zi stared into the rabbit's eyes in a daze, then shifted his gaze instantly, his heart pounding.Obviously they experience such scenes every day, and he knows that Rabbit always likes to look at him like this.After all, for the rabbit, it seems that every move he makes is very interesting.But today was different... He was afraid that the rabbit would know his plan, and that the rabbit would find out something.

Fortunately, Rabbit didn't make things difficult for him. A few minutes later, Rabbit took out one of the many poetry collections on the coffee table and started flipping through it.He said: "The snow is so heavy, it seems that we can't go hunting today..."

Ye Zi said, "The snow will stop."

The rabbit's eyes were curved: "You want to go hunting so much? In such a cold day, maybe no animals will come out."

"When the snow stops, the animals will come out."

"What animal does Ah Zi want to hunt?"

"rabbit."

"Rabbit."

Rabbit smiled: "I just saw a poem called "Rabbit". It was written by Japanese female poet Toshiko Hirata. I read it many years ago, and it is really good."

"Oh."

"Is Azi not interested?"

"...What are you talking about?"

"It's a very common hunt, the story of the fox hunting the rabbit. Come on, let's see."

As the rabbit said, he handed the collection of poems to Ye Zi, yawned himself, turned over and found a disc from the drawer, and played it.It is religious music that Ye Zi is very familiar with and also very fond of.The moment the melody was broadcast, it covered all the noisy sounds outside.It was the first time Rabbit played this tune.

The moment the beautiful melody poured into the eardrums, it made people want to cry.

It seems that at such a moment, the damp, narrow, and dark room becomes a church, the noisy voices in the corner are drowned out by the music, and all the pain and thrills experienced in these years are turned into shadows of dreams, and all the haze is in the shadow of a dream. Split into countless fragments in the holy light, float in the rose-colored morning glow, and turn into ashes...

Ye Zi knew what this kind of music symbolized.

Rebirth, hope and blessings for the afterlife.

How pure, what beautiful music.

Ye Zi looked at the people around him, feeling more and more ironic.

Ye Chengxi, how can such a terrifying person like you have the right to like such holy music?

Rabbit didn't seem to know Ye Zi's hatred, and asked softly, "Do you like it?"

Ye Zi didn't answer.

The rabbit didn't seem to be expecting an answer, but just said softly: "I'm sleepy, can I lie on your body?"

Before Ye Zi could answer, the rabbit had already collapsed, resting his head on Ye Zi's lap, and wrapped his body in a blanket.

"I've been wanting to sleep like this for a while, it's really comfortable." The rabbit's furry head was shaking on Ye Zi's lap, smiling like a child.After fumbling for a long time, it seemed that he had finally found the most suitable position.He lay back on Ye Zi's lap, leaned against the soft sofa, and finally closed his eyes, "A Zi, call me when the snow stops."

In this way, the rabbit slept all afternoon.

Ye Zi was also sleeping and dreaming amidst the endless loop of music.

He had many dreams, many depressive dreams, in which he was constantly chasing someone, but he would never be able to catch up.

He was inexplicably in pain, his heart ached to the extreme, he was crying in his dreams, and the sound of sobbing could even wake him up.

When he awoke, he found himself in tears in disbelief.

Looking at the time, it was past four o'clock in the afternoon, and the rabbit's breathing was still steady and he was still sleeping.

I was thirsty, drank some water, and thought I should go to see if the snow had stopped, but I didn't want to move.

Ye Zi felt that he was very strange, in fact, even he himself could not understand himself.

Obviously he hates rabbits so much.

But when the rabbit is lying on his lap to sleep, he will feel happy in some moments? !

Obviously he has seen the rabbit's face, countless times, countless times.

But at this moment, he would have an impulse for countless times, he just wanted to look at this person's face quietly, remember his every expression, remember the temperature of his breathing, remember his weight, remember his eyelashes trembling...

He obviously hoped that the snow would stop this morning...

But now, he started to be afraid of Xueting... very afraid...

Somewhere, there seemed to be a voice telling him——

wrong!wrong!

stop!

stop! !

Stop now!

Wouldn't it be nice to forget about those pointless hatreds and just let everything stop at this moment?Is not it good? ? ?

……

……wrong……

wrong! !

Ye Zi moved the rabbit away, stood up, and scratched his hair with his fingers.

He paced back and forth, talking vaguely to himself, his lips quivering.

'Ye Zi, what's wrong with you? '

'Did you forget what you were going to do today? '

'You don't want to be free? '

'Did you forget that old couple who died that day?Forgot what he said?If this continues, you may be killed by him, okay? '

'Your family, your future, you don't want it anymore?Do you want to be locked up here forever? '

'Is that how you get beaten? ? '

Ten minutes later, Ye Zi calmed down again.

He came to the window, opened a crack, and looked out, the corners of his mouth gradually raised.

The snow stopped and the sun came out.

※※※

The two of them went hunting at dusk.

Rose-colored light spilled from the gaps in the dark clouds.Tiny snowflakes float in soft beams.The pale gold and orange light gradually expanded, and it didn't take long to render the entire white world.

The rabbit led a black horse and walked towards Ye Zi with a smile on his face.

Ye Zi was a little dizzy watching the rabbit walking towards him.

The rabbit is wearing a black down jacket, a silver gray scarf, a pure white sweater, light gray trousers, and linen boots.His face is quite fair, and his slightly long hair looks golden in the sunlight.

The horse sneezed a few times, he smiled and patted the horse, then looked up at Ye Zi: "A Zi, is it cold?"

Ye Zi shook his head.

"The nose is red from the cold."

As he said so, he took off the scarf without hesitation, and came over to wrap it around Ye Zi.At this moment, Ye Zi was greatly touched.Obviously this is something he has been numb to for a long time, but he will remember that the rabbit usually keeps all the delicious things for himself without hesitation, washes all his things without saying anything, and puts them in The meal was done without complaining once.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" Rabbit asked suspiciously.

Ye Zi buried her head, just happened to see the old-fashioned shotgun on the rabbit's back, and lied: "I don't know how to use a gun yet."

"It's easy, I'll teach you." The rabbit jumped on the horse, and extended his hand towards Ye Zi in a gentlemanly manner.

Two people rode horses and galloped across the snow.

In order not to fall, Ye Zi had to hug the rabbit tightly.

The smell of the rabbit was so familiar that it made him dizzy and his eyes sore.

At least three times, he forgot his purpose and where he was;

Five times, he wanted to give up, and wanted to tell the rabbit: go back;

There were ten times, he actually wanted to say to the rabbit, I'm sorry, I'm sorry;

There were a hundred times, he wanted to completely, hug the person in front of him into his arms, want to kiss this person, after a long time, kiss him for real.

However, when Rabbit's gunshot rang out without warning, he woke up instantly.

At that time, the horse had already stopped, and Ye Zi let go of the rabbit as if frightened.

After at least half a minute, he asked softly, "Did you get the call?"

"Run away. Let's hunt here. There are a lot of hares here."

"it is good."

Ye Zi dismounted and took a few steps forward.

Sure enough, he saw a big and fat gray rabbit under the tree not far away.

The rabbit handed the gun to Ye Zi.

Ye Zi didn't answer it, for some reason, he was even a little afraid to touch that thing.

"Forget it, you can fight, I won't." He said so.

"I teach you."

As the rabbit said so, he took the gun in one hand, and held Ye Zi's cold hand with the other, letting him hold the gun.

The rabbit, who was taller than Ye Zi, stood behind Ye Zi, giving people a sense of intimidation.And the voice of the rabbit is gentle, and the words that just spit out melted into the winter wind, bringing a little warmth.

He said: "For beginners, it is more difficult to shoot standing up, squat down, Ah Zi."

Ye Zi squatted down obediently.

"Move your left foot forward a little more, yes, that's it. Next, with your right index finger on the trigger, place the weight of the gun on your left elbow without shaking it from side to side. Hold the magazine firmly, and tighten the tail By the shoulder socket... very good." The rabbit was talking with breath, every time he said a word, Ye Zi's ears were surrounded by hot breath, making him feel hot all over, and the rabbit also said something about recoil Ye Zi didn't listen to the question at all.

Actually, how could Ye Zi not shoot?

Born in such a special family, when he touched a gun for the first time, he was still in the second grade of elementary school, and when he was in the fifth grade, his shooting posture was very standard.Even though he hasn't touched it again for so many years, he still has a feeling for guns.

There was another gust of cold wind, and the rabbit suddenly said in Ye Zi's ear, "Shoot."

Ye Zi shot.

The recoil of the shotgun is so strong that it hurts people.

The sound was also very loud, as if the snow on the tree was about to be shaken off.

The rabbit ran forward, mentioned the rabbit, and smiled: "Congratulations, A Zi, you succeeded."

Ye Zi looked at him and nodded, but didn't smile.

The rabbit put away the rabbit, and said to Ye Zi: "Next shot, you can do it yourself."

"……Um."

After the rabbit finished speaking, he walked forward, leaving Ye Zi behind.

His figure was undulating on the snow, and every step he took would leave a deep footprint on the snow.

When the cold wind blows, his hair dances and the nape of his neck turns pale.

After a while, the rabbit turned around and waved to Ye Zi, obviously, he saw another rabbit.

Ye Zi could also see that it was a very white and beautiful rabbit.The rabbit squatted in the middle of the snow, chewing something in its mouth, and seemed completely unaware that the hunter had come towards it.

The rabbit cautiously approached the rabbit.

Ye Zi slowly picked up the gun——

His heart was beating so fast it made him want to throw up.He seemed to be anemic, and his eyes could not see very clearly.Thoughts whispered in his ears, making him irritable.

His gun did not aim at the little white rabbit on the snow.

He aimed at the tall man, Rabbit, at his heart.

At this time, the rabbit turned its back to him, smiling and looking at the small animals on the snow.

Ye Zi's finger was on the trigger, but his whole body began to tremble violently, his eyes and nose were inexplicably sore, and tears welled up in his eyes without his knowing it at all.

He wanted to give up, and wanted to aim at the white rabbit again.

But he found that there seemed to be an invisible force around him forcing him, and it seemed that hunting and killing rabbits was doomed, a fate he could not change.

When he was struggling and suffering, the rabbit unexpectedly turned around.

The rabbit was like this, looking at Ye Zi, looking at the muzzle of the gun that was pointing at him.

The smile on his face disappeared in an instant.

Those beautiful eyes slowly widened...

Was seen... was found... what to do?what to do?

"Bam—"

Ye Zi heard a scream.

It's not from rabbits.

It seemed to come from the little white rabbit on the ground, and it was more like it came from itself, from my own heart, a tearing and desperate sound.

Rabbit clutched his belly tightly.Thick, bright red fluid overflowed from the wound, quickly staining the hem of his white sweater and light-colored trousers.

But his expression, without the shock just now, was actually calm at this moment.It was as if he had foreseen the ending.It was as if he had already transcended everything.

"Finally shot, Ah Zi, do you know how long I have been waiting?"

Ye Zi's mind went blank, and he had no idea what he was talking about.

"Every day, I'm thinking, you are so cute, you obviously hate me so much, you can't wait to smash me into pieces, but you are always soft-hearted and reluctant... Haha... In fact, this ending is not bad. , if...you don't love...the living me, then...kill me with your own hands...just like that poem...you've already read that poem, vomit... "

Rabbit vomited a mouthful of blood, which he wiped off with his sleeve nonchalantly.

He backed away with some difficulty, looking at Ye Zi with those clear, half-sleeping eyes, while his bloodstained lips were reciting the poem.Every word, to Ye Zi, is like a mantra.

"Become a fox and eat me."

"Find me jumping and jumping on the snow, open your bloodshot eyes and chase me."

As soon as this sentence was finished, he ran forward without looking back.He had already taken off his black coat and was only wearing a white sweater at this time.He really looks like a rabbit, a wounded rabbit.

From the very beginning, Ye Zi couldn't think, his mind went blank.

He lost all thinking.

He didn't know what to do.

He can only do things by instinct.

So he took the gun and ran forward step by step following the blood.

The rabbit ran much faster than him, and he was not in a hurry, because he knew that the rabbit would look back at him, wait for him, and wait for him to come after him.In fact, even though the rabbit had run away, he could still hear his voice, reciting the poem right in his ear.

"I ran away to let you chase me; I turned around from time to time to confirm your figure."

"Jumping, jumping, heart pounding. Ears pricking up, my heart is full of joy."

"You want me, chasing after me so intently."

There was more and more blood on the snow.

Like red lotuses blooming in the white snow, one after another, burning all the way to the sky.

From time to time, you can see the figure of the rabbit staggering.The figure ran from the woods to a wide area.

As the sun sets, a rainbow hangs above the high mountain.What a rainbow, what a sight.

Ye Zi would yell from time to time, telling the rabbit to stop.

He didn't know whether he was trying to stop the rabbit and kill him, or saving him, or yearning for something, or desperate for something.

Should it be stopped?Should we go back?

Is it still too late?Is it possible to start over?

Are you already tired?If it goes on like this, is it meaningless?

He was crying and laughing unconsciously, like a mental patient.

The voice of the rabbit stayed in my ears, singing that poem, that terrible poem.

"You must never give up."

"It doesn't matter if the skin of your feet is worn out, or you hit the stump and fall, cheer up and chase me."

"Think how delicious my meat is. Think of the smell of prey caught three days apart. My meat is delicious."

"In winter, the mountains are covered with snow."

"It's just the two of us."

"Just the two of us."

"I've been waiting for this moment."

"Even though I knew, you never really loved me."

The poetry shifted.

Ye Zi seemed to be frightened.

His breathing became more rapid and his headache was unbearable. He dropped the gun and shouted: "Stop talking!"

But the voice continued: "You gave up on me, just like them, you couldn't see me, you didn't choose me, you betrayed me."

do not talk……

"But what does that matter. At least for now, it's just you and me."

do not talk!

"At least now, I can pretend that all you see is me, and you love me."

To shut up! !

"Love me, love me, love me, love me."

To shut up! ! !

"Just love me."

don't want! ! ...Shut up, shut up! ! !

"Just love me."

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-

Ye Zi finally broke out, his eyes were red, and he yelled with tears all over his face, he was hysterical.

And his hysteria stopped soon, because he heard gunshots again.

He turned his head in a state of collapse, only to see someone pointing a gun at him.

That person turned out to be a rabbit?

what happened?what happened?

Wasn't the rabbit injured just now?Why didn't the man holding the gun have any scars?A little blood?

But there was no time to think, Ye Zi stood up, ran forward frantically, ran desperately...

The red sun finally sank into the mountains, and the whole world became colder and colder.

Ye Zi ran very fast, and soon, the people behind disappeared.

Just wondering if the person just now was hallucinating, Ye Zi saw bloodstains on the ground again.

He followed the blood and finally found the rabbit.

The rabbit was lying against a big tree, his white sweater was completely dyed red, his face was terribly pale, his eyelashes and hair were covered with frost, as if he had been reduced to a corpse in the snow.

Feeling Ye Zi's hand touching his cheek, Rabbit opened his eyes with some difficulty, looked at Ye Zi and smiled: "Finally caught me... Then in the end, it's only one step away, kill me. In this way, my wish has come true, and it's about time for you to wake up. However, it's still a pity... Obviously, February 2st is the end time, so I still want to spend more time with you."

Too many emotions, pictures and memories flooded Ye Zi's mind at this moment.

Finally, he understood.

He bowed his head, his fingers slid down the rabbit's face, and grabbed the rabbit's shoulder.

Then he was shaking, quite violently, and big drops of hot liquid slid down his cheeks and fell into the snow, freezing into ice.

The rabbit looked at him, and asked wearily, "Have you remembered, Ah Zi?"

Hearing these words, Ye Zi finally burst into tears, almost breaking down.

The rabbit's eyes were red, he stretched out his hand hard, hugged Ye Zi, and sighed: "It seems that you have remembered, you have remembered... all this is just a dream of yours... well, mine Azi, it's time to say goodbye."

As soon as this sentence was finished, the rabbit's whole body began to emit white light.

Ye Zi looked up in horror, and found that the rabbit's body had become transparent.He wanted to grab the rabbit and hug him, but the rabbit's body was still disappearing quickly...

The rabbit said: "It's okay, don't be afraid, we will meet again, just like before, as long as you don't mind me who is just a phantom, everything can start again, so don't cry..."

And Ye Zi couldn't hear anything anymore, he grabbed the rabbit's arm desperately, as if grasping the last straw, he roared in a broken voice: "No!!! Don't... Please...don't do this... ...it's my fault...my fault...sorry, sorry sorry sorry!!! Don't leave me...don't leave me...I only have you...only you...!!!"

Deep pain, like a bone being cut off, like a heart being pierced.Ye Zi's eyes were black and black, and he went crazy.But no matter what he shouted, no matter how he struggled and cried, it was all in vain.

The rabbit disappeared.

Even with the snow all over the ground, thousands of trees, and the vast sky.

With those virtual happiness, virtual pain, virtual cruelty, virtual possessiveness, virtual love.

Finally woke up from the dream.

So, the whole world created by the dream, finally, disappeared.