reverse crush

Regarding the matter of falling in love with yourself best? Brother, Pei Zhenyan accepted his fate. There are all ironclad evidences in front of him. He has to admit it if he doesn’t want to admit it. emotions.

Looking back to the past, he actually had a strange feeling for Lu Zhi long ago, and he also discovered the abnormality several times, but under the instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, he took chances and avoided facing his heart time and time again. The voice, and thus indirectly let myself sink deeper and deeper.

The more he sorted out, the more frightened he became. Perhaps his liking for Lu Zhi started much earlier than he thought.

As early as when I was worried that Lu Zhi would transfer to another school.

When I was stimulated by Tang Ning's sentence "What's wrong with doing radio exercises? To strengthen the body, exercise the will, turn around? When exercising, you can sneak a peek at the person you have a crush on."

Two months of summer vacation, looking forward to the start of school.

……

It is difficult to verify the exact time of deterioration, but at least he can be sure that before the breakup, he only had socialist brotherhood towards Lu, what he paid was only friendship, and the feedback he hoped to get was only about friendship.

When Lu Wei was desperately fighting for Pei Zhenyan at the sports meeting, Pei Zhenyan made up his mind to forgive the two years of quarrel, but now he can't be so magnanimous.

Because he has been abused by Lu Zhi in those two years.

"Grass."

Lu Zhi, the most successful PUA master of the contemporary era.

Pei Zhenyan stayed up all night, wasted a stack of draft paper to draw the time line, or couldn't figure out when he liked Lu Zhi.

As for the follow-up solution, there are two points in total.

The draft paper was exhausted, so Pei Zhenyan opened the memo on the iPad and drew a tree diagram with an electronic pen.

[-]. Let go of your liking.

There are two possibilities for letting go.

1. Break the bend.

From his personal emotional point of view, this is a happy ending, but the public opinion level and the opinions of family members will make this road extremely difficult.

More importantly, what about Lu Zhi?Lu is just a straight man, a straight man who can break off friendship with his best brother for a girl.

After thinking about it, Pei Zhenyan made a big cross next to the word "Baiwan Luzhi".

2. One-sided silent liking.

Pei Zhenyan crossed these words before he even finished writing them.

If you want him to stay humbly by Lu Zhi's side, watching the person you like fall in love, get married and have children at the closest but never touching distance, if you want to enjoy it, then it is better to kill him.

He's not that great.Since neither of the two paths of letting go of liking will work, then we can only stop liking.

Two, stop liking.

There are also two possibilities for stopping liking.

1. Stay away from Lu Zhi completely.

Whether it's moving house or transferring school, out of sight is out of sight, there is no time? and space? For problems that cannot be solved, he will forget Lu Zhi one day.

This is the most effective and direct way to cut off the fork and get back on track.

Pei Zhenyan thought for a moment and crossed.

Just treat him as indecisive, but he is really reluctant to leave Lu Zhi.

Lu is not only the person he likes, but also his best friend. At the first glance, he believed that he had lost it once, and it was difficult to find it from the sea of ​​people. There can be no second one in this world. That kind of people.

He is not willing to give up.

2. Put down Lu Zhi quietly.

Continue to stay by Lu Zhi's side calmly, while keeping Lu Zhi from being aware of it, restraining all untimely desires to get close to him, and learning to treat Lu Zhi like other friends, while silently ending this paragraph Unknown absurd feelings?.

From liking to letting go, it's all his business alone.

Is this good? Pei Zhenyan ticked it with satisfaction.

Looking at the whole picture, his line of sight stopped at the first small point of the first large point, and he turned around.

The big fork is extremely dazzling.

In fact, there is no need to give up so early, right?

When he kissed and licked Lu Jin yesterday, how did Lu Jin react?

At that time, he was drunk and emotionally confused, and his memory was very vague. He remembered that Lu Zhi struggled, but it was very violent?It shouldn't be so, Lu only didn't drink much, so he must be able to fight? He is a drunk, if he feels particularly unwell, he won't be unable to break free.

And the back is good? It doesn't seem to be struggling much.

If he hadn't imagined it too much, he even remembered Lu Wei's tendency to respond to him.Even if it's just drinking and having sex, at least it means that Lu Zhi doesn't repel him that much, right?

Thinking about it this way, Pei Zhenyan's heart calmed down a lot. To be honest, as long as Lu just accompanied him on this road, all his apprehension and fear at this moment would no longer exist, and he could accept his body calmly. ? A drastic change.

He erased the cross and changed it to a question mark.

The final conclusion is that if you enter, you can embrace the beauty and return, and if you retreat, you will return to the position of a friend.

He believes that he can afford it and let it go, because he won't bend too much, otherwise how can he watch pornography?

But the reality quickly slapped him in the face. When he saw Lu Zhi in the morning, Pei Zhenyan realized that he was too naive.

That kind of mixed emotions of awkwardness, joy, sadness, and panic made him do not know what to do. He faced Lu Zhi calmly. He couldn't grasp the heat of the distance; he didn't dare to speak for a long time? Look directly Lu only's eyes, afraid that his liking would come out of them; it's embarrassing to say anything, so it's okay? Lu only laughed a few times in cooperation.

He was exhausted after eating breakfast. Where would he return after breakfast? He had the idea of ​​going out with Lu Zhi, so he hurriedly said, "Do you want to go out for a walk? I didn't sleep well last night? I was so sleepy."

He said so, Lu only still? What can I do, I followed his will: "No, I didn't sleep well either?"

He didn't sleep well either??Why?Are you disgusted by me?Pei Zhenyan's heart skipped a beat, he could feel his face was ugly, so he bit the bullet and changed the subject: "What time do we get the train ticket?"

"It's past one o'clock in the afternoon." Lu just raised his arm and looked at his watch, "Sleep until twelve o'clock and check out, okay? You can still sleep for four hours."

Pei Zhenyan nodded indiscriminately, and the first thing he did when he returned to his room was to call Pei Zheng: "Dad, can you pick me up at the train station at about two o'clock in the afternoon?"

There are still two days left in the holiday. He originally agreed with Pei Zheng that he would not go there until the May Day holiday.

After asking, he remembered that his father had remarried. Time? Not as free as before, so he asked concerned: "Do you have anything to do? If there is, it's fine. I can stay at home for two days. My mother is at home."

Pei Zhenyan is accompanying Lu Xi at Lu Xi's natal house, and there will be other arrangements tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Pei Zhenyan's repentance directly disrupted his plan, but he didn't let Pei Zhenyan hear any embarrassment, and he fully agreed: "No The question is, East Station at two o'clock, right?"

"Correct."

"Okay?" Pei Zhengwen asked cautiously, "Have you gained anything from this trip?"

Which pot does not open which pot.

Pei Zhenyan's trip has yielded so much. It has directly opened up a new era of life, and all the cognitions of the first 17 years of life have been reshaped.

Repressing hesitation and brokenness, he pretended to be relaxed and told his father: "It's good? It's just raining, so I didn't have a good time."

The authorities are obsessed with the bystanders. Standing at the crossroads where the situation changes suddenly, he actually really wants other people's advice. If Lu is only a girl, he can confide his thoughts to his father without any psychological burden.

Just kidding, if Lu is only a girl, why would he have any troubles, just let go of your courage and chase after her.

If Lu Zhi is a girl, Lu Zhi must belong to him. In terms of proximity to the water and a match made in heaven, no one can compare to him.

If Lu Zhi was a girl, she wouldn't have to wait until now, it should have been his by now.

Pei Zhenyan has always been told by others, "It would be good if you were a girl?" How could he think that one day he would think of others like this.

Escaped? The last journey, escaped? Returned to Jincheng and got along with each other during the two-day holiday, but still couldn't escape? Returned on the same road.

Pei Zhenyan did eight hundred times of mental training in front of the mirror before leaving the hotel.

Lu Zhi was already waiting downstairs, wearing the clothes he wore yesterday.

When he went to the hotel restaurant to eat the buffet breakfast in the morning, he was wearing pajamas. Pei Zhenyan also forgot the clothes he wore yesterday, and should have given him his own today.

Because the trip was only three days and two nights, neither of them did any laundry, and planned to take the dirty clothes home and wash them in the washing machine.

Lu Zhi would rather wear yesterday's dirty clothes than ask him to borrow them.

Pei Zhenyan almost wanted to find a crack in the ground to slip in, he was sure that Lu Zhi felt something was wrong with him.

Lu is just avoiding him.

Thanks to him? Fantasy Lu just didn't repel him that much, "The person I have a crush on also likes me" is indeed one of the three major illusions in the world.

Everything is self-indulgent? That's all.

From checking out to taking a taxi to the high-speed rail station, the two of them had nothing to say except the necessary communication. Fortunately, the online car-hailing driver was chatty, and Pei Zhenyan chatted with him as if he had found a savior.

Lu just looked out the window without saying a word, wondering what he was thinking.

Pei Zhenyan looked at him quietly during the chat, trying to get some clues from his facial expression, but unexpectedly met the eyes reflected on the glass.

In the next second, the two sides agreed, and hastily turned their eyes away.

Pei Zhenyan was going crazy. He planned to hide his emotions from everyone, but he failed to hide it from the Lord. According to this posture, he couldn't get Lu Zhi's love? Friendship? Lost his wife and lost his army.

With an unusually heavy heart, they got off the bus, and the two merged into the bustling queue of passengers. They checked the tickets in silence and passed the security check. The waiting hall was overcrowded and there were no seats, so they could only stand aside.

"Do you have a drink? I'll buy it." Lu only said.

Pei Zhenyan nodded: "Okay? Ah."

"Coca Cola?"

"Ah."

Pei Zhenyan watched Landing's slender figure disappear behind the barrier, and the magnet disappeared. He was finally able to wake up and think carefully about the current situation.

Lu Zhi must have known it, and his attitude was very clear. He should give up the goal of love quickly and try to keep the bottom line of his friends.

Just thinking about it? Put a hand on his shoulder.

Lu Zhi is back?Does putting his shoulders on his shoulders mean that he has also figured it out?

Lu just returned to the original place from the convenience store with a bottle of iced Coke, and saw Pei Zhenyan and Han Chao standing together talking from a long distance away.

Seeing that it was Han Chao, Pei Zhenyan's eyes flashed? There was a trace of disappointment that was too fast to capture, and then he smiled and greeted: "Brother Chao, why are you also in Wuzhen, alone?"

Han Chao said: "I went out to play with my friends and passed by on the way back? Wuzhen, I said we have never been here? Here, I stopped by the way to have a look, but I had to leave early because of something at home. And you, have fun ?"

"Nothing good? Fun." Pei Zhenyan said, "It rained for three days, so we basically stayed in the hotel."

Han Chao showed an ambiguous smile on his face: "Small lovers come out, how can there be a hotel outside to play." He looked around curiously, "Didn't you say to go out to play with your girlfriend? My friend, why didn't I see it?"

This is what Lu Zhi heard when he approached.

Han Chao also saw him, the expression on his face changed from doubt to subtlety, and then he asked Pei Zhenyan: "Did you two come out together?"

Pei Zhenyan looked back and met Lu Ji's eyes.

Those eyes? They were as slippery as loaches, and they only stayed for less than a second before hurriedly moving away. Lu only could clearly distinguish Pei Zhenyan's embarrassment, such a "brazen" person, his fair complexion turned blood, Lu just listened He eagerly explained: "I was just joking with my classmates."

Han Chao's inquiring gaze was between the two of them? Turning back and forth a few times, he laughed with relief when he heard the words: "Oh, that's how it scared me to death. I thought you two..."

"You can really think." Pei Zhenyan also smiled.

Han Chao bought a business class ticket, and Pei Zhenyan and Lu Zhi said their tickets were first class. There is a special waiting room for the business class, but? Han Chao didn't go, and stood chatting with Pei Zhenyan in the lobby, and it was time to board the bus. , and entered the station with them again.

The high-speed rail is coming, and the two parties have to go to different cars.

"Would you like to go to my place?" Han Chao invited, "I'm not used to having strangers next to me in a car or plane, so I will always buy the seats next to me and in front of and behind me. There are more seats in my place now."

Pei Zhenyan looked at Lu Zhi.

Not surprisingly, Lu Zhi refused very simply. He and Han Chao didn't know each other at all, and there was a small festival. How could he take advantage of others.

If it was normal, it would be absolutely impossible for Pei Zhenyan to leave Lu Zhi alone and sit with Han Chao, but today's situation is special, Lu Zhi obviously does not want to have any contact with him, and it would be too embarrassing to sit together all the way .

The high-speed train gallops through villages and cities, fields and rivers, and Lu just leans quietly by the window to watch the scenery.

Qi Cheng talked and laughed all the way.

He was left alone on the return trip.

Not long after, the train arrived at Jincheng.

Lu just took his carry-on and left with his belongings, not knowing what Pei Zhenyan's plans were going to be next.

In the crowded crowd, he could easily spot Pei Zhenyan and the others not far ahead. The two were talking and laughing. Pei Zhenyan turned his head frequently and quickly spotted him, then slowed down and waited for him.

Lu only quickened his pace to catch up.

"Are you going back?" Pei Zhenyan asked.

Lu just nodded.

Pei Zhenyan said: "My dad came to pick me up, I'll live with him for the next two days."

Lu just nodded again.

After being quiet for a while, Pei Zhenyan had nothing to say: "How did you go back?"

Lu Zhi finally opened his mouth: "Take a taxi."

"There are too many people at the station today, so it will take a long time to take a taxi." Pei Zhenyan kindly suggested, "Why don't you take my dad's car and put you in a place where there are few people."

Lu just smiled: "No, just wait a while, or I'll take the subway."

"Well, that's fine." Pei Zhenyan was silent for a while, and asked politely, "Then, I'm leaving first? My dad is waiting for me? It's been a while."

"OK Bye Bye."

"Bye-Bye."

The atmosphere between them has never been so alienated before, even the quarrel is much better than now, the invisible gap is deep in the middle, if you don't come, I can't get through.

The relationship that people think is impenetrable, but in the eyes of fate? It is so dangerous that it can be uprooted with a slight push.

Lu only slowed down his pace and opened up the distance between him and Pei Zhenyan.

Their exits were different, and they soon parted ways completely. The station was overcrowded during the holidays, and there was a long queue at the waiting area for taxis. It wound around the divider erected at the train station for several turns, and the queue could not be reached for a long time.

Lu Zhihao? It was not easy to get in the car, and the phone in his pocket vibrated.

The caller ID is "Uncle Pei".

"Hello?" He picked it up.

"Me." On the other end was Pei Zhenyan's voice, "Where are you?"

Lu just said, "I just got in the car."

"Damn it." Pei Zhenyan cursed anxiously, "How long will it take to come back?"

Lu Zhi didn't ask the reason, and directly said to the driver: "Master, stop."

Then he got out of the car in a hurry, and asked while walking back, "What's wrong?"

"My phone is missing, please help me log in to an account to check the location." He then explained, "My dad's phone is an Android phone, so I can't log in to an Apple account."

"Okay? I got out of the car and came back." Lu only quickened his pace, "I'm walking back."

"Well, you can log in to my account first."

"You said."

Lu only logged into Pei Zhenyan's Apple account according to the account password of Pei Zhenyan, and met with Pei Zhenyan and his son to study the search function together.

This function has not been used by everyone? It still needs to be studied.

"It shows that it is at the train station, 200 meters away?"

"But it shows offline, is this location still accurate?"

"I don't understand, there is a sound playing here."

"Don't press it yet, let's talk in the past."

The three of them hurried towards the positioning direction. When they arrived at the destination, they played the sound, but the speaker icon kept circling, unable to connect for a long time.

After searching online, Pei Zheng came to the conclusion: "This location should be the last place to connect to the Internet before shutting down. The phone was stolen, and he left long ago."

The last time Pei Zhenyan used his mobile phone was on the high-speed train. Jincheng East Station is very big. From the time he got off the high-speed train to the time he got on Peizheng train, he might lose his mobile phone. There are too many people, and it is impossible to see who moved the hand.

The three of them tossed back and forth for more than two hours, and Pei Zheng gave up first: "It seems that I can't get it back, Dad will take you to buy a new one now."

Pei Zhenyan sighed depressingly.

He didn't turn on Apple's built-in photo cloud disk function, which means that all the photos on the phone can't be retrieved. Except for the photos, all the text messages and WeChat chats with Lu Zhi on it are gone.

The only consolation is that when he needs Lu Zhi, Lu Zhi will still help him without hesitation.

After all, we have been friends for so many years, so it is not so easy to let go.

Although he didn't get his phone back, Pei Zheng insisted on sending Lu only a short distance away. If the two families weren't too far apart, he would have sent him home.

When we arrived at the parking lot, Pei Zhenyan wanted to sit in the front seat, so as not to offend Lu Zhi, so? It's not easy to get warmer because of losing his phone. He didn't want to go back to freezing point.

As a result, Pei Zheng stopped him: "You sit in the back, too. Children are not polite at all, let him sit in the back alone."

Pei Zhenyan: "..."

You are really my dear father, do all the bad things to me.

Along the way, Pei Zheng was idle and asked them all kinds of details about their journey, where they went, where they ate, where they lived, etc.

Lu Zhi soon learned from Pei Zheng's questioning that what Pei Zhenyan told his father was that they went to Wuzhen with a group, instead of telling them that they went alone.

When the lie was exposed, Pei Zhenyan was very embarrassed, but fortunately, Lu Yu didn't expose it, and answered Pei Zheng's various questions along the lines of that meaning.

For the next two days, there was no network communication of any kind.The holidays passed in a blink of an eye, and on May 5, the school started as scheduled.

There is no intersection at school.

In the past, it was necessary to pretend, but now it has become the best cover, and it is justifiable to pretend that the other party does not exist.

Pei Zhenyan no longer went to cram school, and went to school with everyone for evening self-study. Earlier, he was looking forward to going to and from school with Lu Zhi every day. He really looked forward to this day, but they each acted separately in tacit understanding.

When they got home, they didn't meet each other. Pei Zhenyan lifted the curtain once, and Lu Zhi pulled it tightly on the other side.

The May [-]st holiday is a holiday, and this week's class will last until Saturday. According to the agreement of last Friday's sports meeting, after school on Saturday evening, the seventh and eighth classes will have an ultimate PK. The winning class can pass by without any scruples. Class hallway.

The big battle is imminent, and the class is very restless, anticipating and apprehensive all day on Saturday.

The last section is a self-study class. The boys are in full swing discussing the strategy on the court for a while, and the girls are also ready to help.

The classmate leaning against the wall suddenly coughed twice, and the class fell silent for a moment.

Sure enough, after a while, Tang Ning's voice appeared at the door of the classroom.

She walked to the podium, looked around the whole class, and said the opening remark: "During the past few days on May [-]st, you all had a good time? Are you happy? But the school leaders and our teachers in classes seven and eight hardly have a day off." , have been holding meetings, fighting tug-of-war, and analyzing data. I have a very important matter to discuss with you.”

Pei Zhenyan was surprised, he knew what it was, but he didn't expect the school to really agree.

"Everyone knows that after entering the third year of senior high school, all classes will be disrupted and rearranged according to the comprehensive results of several monthly exams, but the school has a bold idea in consideration of the particularities of our two classes .”

When it came to class division, the restless crowd finally put aside the basketball game for the time being and became quiet, and could hear the snake next door talking.

"The school wants to set up the seventh class and our class as experimental classes. In the third year of high school, they will not be divided into grades and grades, and all members will be reserved."

After Tang Ning finished speaking, he stopped to give the students some buffer time.

Sure enough, the class was boiling, and there were endless whispers.

"I rely on me, rely on me!" Lu Zhi slapped the table, excited, and grabbed his hand regardless of Pei Zhenyan's refusal, "In other words, I can be at the same table with you for one more year! Am I dreaming?! Hit me, hurry up, let me see if it hurts."

Pei Zhenyan pinched Lu Zhi perfunctorily. Lu Zhi felt the pain and jumped up and down in excitement.

Pei Zhenyan couldn't tell how he felt. He had been so eagerly looking forward to being in the same class as Lu Zhi in the third year of high school, but now he didn't know whether to be happy or worried. The best protection-umbrella.

Three or five minutes later, Tang Ning made a "stop" gesture to signal everyone to be quiet: "Is there a class that is divided into classes? Is there a class that is not divided into classes?" Strong unity and cohesion, our results, whether it is the examination room or the sports field, have proved our amazing strength, including the seventh class next door. But maybe go to a class with the same level as the whole class, and the teacher will make a plan for you. It is also a good place to get closer to the learning progress and difficulty, especially for students who can enter the first few classes, so that they can learn more intensively and deeply. None of us can guarantee whether you are going to progress? Is it better to be in a more suitable class, or to stay in the old class with a strong learning atmosphere and a harmonious relationship with classmates?"

"The third year of high school is a crucial year, which is related to the sprint of every classmate. So," she paused, "the school finally decided to give you the right to choose independently. If there are many people who want to leave, then There is no need for us to keep the class. After the final exam, everyone will disband on the spot, and go to a new group in the third year of high school; if only a small number of students want to be divided into classes, then we will keep the remaining students and let go of those who want to leave. The classmate left, and at the same time, our teachers in various subjects have reached an agreement that we can add more difficult tutoring for top students for free. Non-top students are also welcome to listen. In short, if you choose us, we will fight with you to the end. How many do you have? How many days? Think about it, I hope you will treat it with caution, don’t be impulsive, and don’t take the senior year as a joke, next Wednesday, we will attend the team class with Class [-], and vote by secret ballot on the spot.”

The author has something to say: There will be Lu Quan's perspective, don't worry, let's make a joke, although many readers have already guessed it, but it is not completely accurate! !Well, enough

The next chapter is around twelve o'clock in the evening, very around, don't wait, read it in the morning!