Forbidden

Looking back on the details of getting along with each other over the years, it turns out that everything has traces to follow.

Ruoxian will remember what she said casually, will leave her family all the way to accompany her on holidays, and will remember all her little habits and hobbies.He always smiles when he sees her, often blushes in front of her, is cold and rigorous when working, and never loses his temper when facing her.

She looked at her eyes like a blazing fire, but carefully avoided her intimate movements.

When she is happy, she is happy; when she is sad, she is sad. Her emotions are like a kite, and the thread is in her hands.

And these are regarded as pure friendship.

From childhood to adulthood, Cheng Suran hardly had close friends. She didn't like to approach others proactively, and she didn't like others to approach her too enthusiastically. She had never had a serious relationship, but only knew the feeling of liking someone secretly. It used to be a thorn in her heart.

She thought friendship was like that, and she didn't know what love was like.Looking back, I realized how much Ruoxian resembled the girl who fell in love with Jiang Yu back then.

Why didn't you notice it earlier?

What is she going to do?Tell Ruoxian that she has someone she likes?Will they never be friends again?How will we get along and face each other in the future?Does a showdown mean losing this friend...

Cheng Suran panicked and squeezed the photo tightly.

The floor-to-ceiling windows of the balcony were open, and the hot and humid night wind slowly poured in, blowing the curtains, and the laughter of late-returners could be faintly heard outside.

Wen Ruoxian looked at the photo in her hand, blood rushed to the top of her head, and despair appeared in her eyes.

She is finished.

She is going to lose Ran Ran.

"Ruoxian, answer me." Cheng Suran said calmly.

"Yes……"

Wen Ruoxian let out a very soft breath, lowered his head as if resigned to his fate, and waited for the final judgment.

In the past, she was the only one by her side.

She is the one who understands Ranran the most, she is the closest to Ranran, and she is the one who talks to Ranran all the time. Over time, she has an illusion that they are "communicating" with each other, but they have no so-called status.

She once thought that instead of taking the risk of piercing that layer of window paper, it would be better to maintain this state forever. They accompany each other, grow together, and grow old together.

But Jiang Yu's appearance completely messed her up.

Jiang Yu knew Ranran earlier than her, and was superior to her in terms of personal aura and social status. The most terrible thing was that she found that Ranran looked completely different in front of Jiang Yu.

A look of mad obsession and heartbeat, like falling in love but having to restrain yourself.

She could no longer lie to herself.

Anxiety forced her to lose her mind. She had never been so impulsive before. She obviously didn't think clearly, but recklessly got involved, making Ran Ran unhappy and embarrassing herself...

Cheng Suran was struck by lightning.

The conjecture was verified. Even though she was mentally prepared, she still couldn't believe it when she heard Ruoxian say it.

"This..." She held up the photo in her hand.

Wen Ruoxian's eyes dimmed, and he explained truthfully: "I washed an extra copy. I keep this one with me all the time, whenever I go out, and put it under my pillow at home."

More than 1000 nights are like a day.

Cheng Suran's lips trembled, "Those sketches..."

"I will draw when I have time."

"When did it start?"

"...I don't know either." Wen Ruoxian smiled wryly.

She doesn't remember when she started to like her, but she only knows that on certain days, she wants to see her every day, has endless things to share, endless words, and wants to completely occupy her private time.

Cheng Suran looked at her.

The two looked at each other quietly across the bed.

"Of course..." Wen Ruoxian called her in a low voice, "Do you like Jiang Yu?"

Cheng Suran choked.

How should I say it?Telling the truth means hurting Ruoxian, but this is an undeniable fact. She brought Ruoxian here with a tentative mind, why?Isn't it just trying to figure it out?But now she would rather she didn't know anything, didn't think about anything, at least in this way she could happily share the good things with Ruoxian, instead of turning her joy into Ruoxian's pain.

"It's okay, just tell me, I'm curious too." Wen Ruoxian raised the corners of her lips and gave her a comforting smile.

Cheng Suran struggled with heaven and man in his heart, struggling for a long time, and said in a low voice: "Well, I knew her before, we had a... relationship experience, and then we separated, and then we got in touch again because of work..."

"So it's like this..." Wen Ruoxian suddenly realized.

The gap between each other disappeared, but they did not get closer because of it, but got farther and farther apart.She did not lose to gender, but to time.

She was one step too late after all.

"I thought you didn't like women." The smile became more bitter.

Cheng Suran bit her lip, her eyes gradually turned red, "I'm sorry..."

"?"

Seeing the tears in her eyes, Wen Ruoxian panicked immediately, and walked around the bed, holding her shoulders with both hands, "Of course, you didn't apologize to me, it's my own fault."

Cheng Suran just shook his head.

She didn't remember how many times she took the initiative to hug her, hugged her when she was happy, and hugged her when she was sad. Now that she thought about it, she realized that every time she hugged her, her limbs were always stiff and unnatural, but she never thought about it.

She also didn't remember how many times she said "you are the most important" to her. The two of them accompanied each other these years. She really felt that Ruoxian was very important, but she never thought that these words might have other meanings.

If I could be more sensitive, I wouldn't be so disrespectful and inadvertently bring hope to Ruoxian.

"I'm sorry, Ruoxian... I'm sorry..." The more she thought about it, the more she blamed herself, and cried bitterly.

Wen Ruoxian twisted her heart, wiped her tears carefully with her thumb, and said softly, "Of course, liking anyone is my own business, I like you, I don't necessarily need your response, and I don't necessarily need your response. Together. I just enjoy the process and feel the emotions I get during the process, such as happiness, such as loss, excitement or sadness, these are all part of the life experience for me, so... I should thank you, because of you, I just realized that it is a very happy thing to have someone in my heart.”

Cheng Suran cried even harder.

"Don't cry," Wen Ruoxian hugged her distressedly, "It's a good thing that you and her can return to each other, I'm happy for you."

At this moment, I suddenly felt extremely relaxed.

Finally said it.

She was relieved.

"Then can we still be friends..." Cheng Suran choked up.

Immediately regretted it.How can it be?How can they continue to be friends?I can't go back, it's unfair to Ruoxian to stay by her side in the name of a friend, she's really selfish, she only thinks about herself.

"No, I mean...keep in touch but don't see each other very often, no, it's not...I..."

She was incoherent.

do not know what to do with it.

"Of course we're still friends," Wen Ruoxian said with a smile, she knew what Ran Ran wanted to express, this fool didn't know how to deal with relationship problems at all, she only blamed herself.But seeing her so sad and blamed herself, her heart was also broken. "Fool, we've always been good friends."

"But it's not fair to you..."

"Are you going to break up with me?"

Cheng Suran shook his head with red eyes: "No, I didn't mean that..."

"Well, I know." Wen Ruoxian patted her on the back lightly, sourness welled up in her eyes, and she gritted her teeth to hold it back.

"This matter is my fault, because I have been emotionally unstable recently, and I was impulsive, which made it difficult for you to be caught in the middle. Now I feel relieved to tell the truth. After all, I have to face it sooner or later."

"Blame me, blame me..." Cheng Suran still shook his head.

It's her meanness.

But she can't tell.

Originally, she had made up her mind that if the verification failed this time, she would never be suspicious again, and she would openly introduce Jiang Yu to Ruoxian as a girlfriend in the future.But unexpectedly, they confessed to each other by mistake, and fell into a dilemma.

This is the retribution God gave her.

A mean person like her doesn't deserve a true friend.

"Don't blame me." Wen Ruoxian said with an annoyed smile, raised her head and blinked, forcing back the tears.

Cheng Suran gasped, his eyes were red and swollen, his throat was so choked that he couldn't speak.

I don't know when it quieted down outside the window, only the sound of the waves in the distance can be heard.

The mood of the two slowly calmed down.

"Ran Ran……"

"I'll go back tomorrow. You and Jiang Yu have fun and enjoy your vacation. When we go back, we..." Before Wen Ruoxian finished speaking, his wrist was suddenly grabbed by a force.

"Are you going to disappear?" Cheng Suran stared, "Disappear forever, right? I won't be able to find you when I go back?"

Like a wounded beast.

puff.

Wen Ruoxian was both distressed and funny, rubbed her head, and said comfortingly: "Why? The company is still there, I can't just leave everything behind. Don't worry, I just want to calm down and calm down here. If you’re not happy, you’re not happy, and everyone else is unhappy, there’s no point in taking a vacation.”

Cheng Suran lowered his eyes and remained silent.

Unknowingly, I hurt two people.

Ruoxian is the perfect match among the same kind, regardless of appearance, character, or talent, it is the ideal type that many people can't dream of.If she hadn't met Jiang Yu earlier, she would have been unable to resist Ruoxian's charm.

But facing Ruoxian, she didn't feel crazy infatuation or heartbeat, she just felt that this person was very compatible with her, while facing Jiang Yu, every cell in her was trembling from head to toe, crazily clamoring for her, wanting her Burning all over, I can't sleep at night.

This is probably the difference between... a friend and a lover.

She was bound to hurt one of them.

……

Both were insomnia.

In the early hours of the morning, Cheng Suran didn't sleep, she felt someone walking around in the room in a daze, and she was overwhelmed by drowsiness, unable to open her eyes, and then fell into a deep sleep.

Wen Ruoxian didn't sleep all night, and woke up when the sky was light.

The flight ticket booked last night is at ten o'clock this morning.

After washing and tidying up lightly, she sat in the room for a while, staring intently at Cheng Suran who was sleeping soundly.

Over the years, she has peeked at Ranran sleeping countless times, but she still can't get enough of it. She imagines that one morning when she wakes up, she can see Ranran lying beside her, and she will pinch her nose and call her little girl. pig.

Now that wish is impossible to come true.

But as long as Ran Ran is happy, she will be happy too.

The sun gradually rose, and it was approaching eight o'clock, Wen Ruoxian picked up the suitcase, gave Cheng Suran a reluctant look, and left quietly...

Cheng Suran didn't sleep well this time.

A knock on the door woke her up.

Opening her eyes, the sun had already reached the bedside, she got up in a daze, and subconsciously called Ruoxian, but there was no response.

The next bed was empty.

Cheng Suran woke up instantly, remembering what happened last night.

My heart sank suddenly.

What about Ruoxian?

gone?

—— tuk tuk tuk

The knocking on the door continued.

Cheng Suran couldn't take care of it anymore, and grabbed his phone to call Wen Ruoxian.

There were two unread messages on WeChat on the screen, she clicked in, and they were sent to her by Ruoxian two hours ago:

[Of course, I'm going back, you have a good vacation these few days, I also need time to calm down.No matter what kind of relationship, it is a matter between two people. Don't feel guilty or blame yourself. There is nothing wrong with us. We are not allowed to take all the responsibility on ourselves.Don't worry, I won't disappear. ]

The next one is a cute cat expression pack.

Cheng Suran's boiling blood stopped instantly.

Didn't it disappear?

There was another knock on the door.

"Here we come..." Cheng Suran put down his phone, got off the bed and put on his shoes, and went to open the door.

A familiar figure came into view.

Jiang Yu stood outside.

The red long dress of a different style from yesterday was enthusiastic and flamboyant. She put on makeup, with a faint smile on her thick red lips, and her deep black eyes were breathtaking.

"It's already noon, little lazy pig."

Cheng Suran looked at her, blinked, and suddenly fell into her arms.

"...Of course?" Jiang Yu froze.

"I have no friends."

"what?"

"I have no friends anymore..." Cheng Suran's voice was hoarse.

Jiang Yu frowned, turned his head to look into the room, and only saw a bed that hadn't been made yet and an empty bed.She vaguely sensed what happened, and slowly wrapped her arms around Cheng Suran's waist, holding her tighter.

"You still have me."