Gloomy

Some people have just begun their new lives, while others can only sleep forever in the cold underground.

Luo Fengying traveled nearly half of the city on foot, and gently placed Yinyin's favorite perfume lily in front of her monument.Silently wiped clean the already clean stele, chuckled, but the laughter was extremely bitter: "Look, you are still a little girl, I am already old."

Although less than a year has passed, it seems like a century. The long memory makes people feel old.

Gently stretching out her arms to wrap around the cold tombstone, imagining that Yin Yin never left, just staying in his arms so obediently, thinking about those childish little secrets that she thought she didn't know.

The stele slowly warmed up due to the effect of body temperature, but Luo Fengying's heart gradually became cold, and some unnecessary random thoughts came to her mind.Without him, Yinyin would have married Fengjin according to the marriage contract. Fengjin's character has always been very good, there may be no love between them, but life should be warm and happy.Feng Jin is still the second young master Feng who he looks down upon, the president of the Feng family.There are also Brother Feng Xi and Fei Jun, which may be the perfect ending in real life, the happy ending in fairy tales.

Those he loved died because of him; those who loved him were hurt by him.

From this point of view, his existence will only bring disaster to those he cares about.

Let go of your hands and stand up straight, with an extremely self-deprecating and desolate smile: "Yinyin, goodbye." Your destiny was never mine, so Yinyin, you are free.

He didn't know why he came here. When he realized it, he had already stopped at 408, Bauhinia Ninth District.Put down the white lily in his hand, maybe he was prepared to come from the beginning, so he bought two bouquets of flowers.

"You... are still here." Hearing his footsteps, the thin figure standing in front of the tomb froze.

Slowly straightened up: "Yeah. Why did you do this?" A simple line of words on the marble tablet: Tomb of Wind Thought.No photos, no dates of birth and death.

Feng Jin once mentioned to him that his child, regardless of gender, was named Nianzhi, but at that time he was full of hatred, so he would not care about such a thing.The fetus, less than two months old, whose gender was unknown, was strangled in his belly and placed in a glass bottle, forming a sharp weapon to stab Fengjin.

"Fengying, just because you don't recognize his existence, doesn't mean that I do too. I'm always his father." The standard Fengjin replied flatly without any emotion.

You can be stupid, but I can't; you can be heartless, but I can't; you can be cruel, but I can't.Who told me... to love you!

I still remember that when you were in college, a certain girlfriend of yours threatened to jump off the eighth floor because she didn't agree to break up.This was just a threat, but you forced her to jump down with a few words, and she fell to pieces in front of your eyes. I can still remember your expression at that time, with a slight sense of irony. laugh.

And the woman who clamored that she was pregnant with your child, you handled it yourself, I don’t remember what happened to her, it’s not just those two times.

I have always been familiar with your cruelty, but I always thought that I was different from them, but why did you treat me differently.

The turmoil in his heart did not show on his face, and all of this will soon be far away from him. The memories of love and pain fade away gradually, like the calm after the tide ebbs, only the familiar face is still very clear and clear He didn't even have the courage to look back.Under the pure white shirt, on the diamonds like water droplets, there still seems to be the warmth of Kazekage's fingertips.

"Why me?" Luo Fengying finally couldn't help but ask the question that has troubled him until now.

"I don't know." There was a trace of sadness in his eyes, "If I knew, how could I..." It's up to you.

Also, emotional problems have always been unsolvable.But... let go of all the knots in his heart, he was forced to cry by this simple answer.Maybe he didn't realize that his emotions have always been easily fluctuated by Feng Jin, why did he only know how special that person was to him now.

They were brothers for 12 years, had nothing to do with each other for seven years, and tortured each other for nearly two years.More than twenty years have passed by like a snap of the fingers, and they ended up like this.

From the age of 16 to 32, he never looked back to see how much this lonely man loved him.

Feng Jin turned around and looked directly at him: "I'm leaving." Not goodbye but farewell.

Everyone knows that we will see each other indefinitely.

"I'm not driving, so give me a ride." Luo Fengying was obviously very rational at the moment, but somehow tried to persuade him to stay. What Xu Qian said was completely correct after all, and the things hidden deep under the hard rock in his heart began to slow down. Bring to a slow boil.He thought it didn't exist, but it was just wishful thinking.

Why do you say this now? It's too late, it's really too late.But as long as it was about Fengying, he still couldn't refuse.

Feng Jin's car was parked at the foot of the mountain, it was still the same car, but the seat cushion had changed, was it because he was stained with blood when he was taken to the hospital last time?He got into the co-pilot familiarly and watched Feng Jin drive the car out of Xishan.

There were no vehicles on the road in the early morning, so he clearly heard the gradually amplified beeping sound, which was all too familiar to him: "Fengjin, someone tampered with your car!"

"I put it on, countdown in 3 minutes." The car quickly stopped on the side of the road, and clicked the lock, "You go."

Luo Fengying didn't move at all, and asked instead: "Do you want to commit suicide?"

"Are you going to accompany me?" He just asked casually, not expecting him to answer at all.He knew everything from that inspection, but how could he be willing to let Kazekage wither alone under the side effects of XV, but he didn't expect to see Kazekage again in the end, so he has no regrets.

But I got an unbelievable answer: "Yes!"

"I'll give you a chance to repent." Feng Ying probably had another moment of brain fever, but once this happened, there would be no room for regret.

"No need." He smiled instead, rather than dying in agony under the side effects of XV, it would be better to just be like this.

Do not!

This is not the reason at all, there is a voice clamoring in his head.He just habitually deceived himself and used his reason to control his emotions.But the real reason, he didn't want to and couldn't admit it, he would never admit the feeling towards Fengjin that even he was not ashamed of.

The love in this life is finally understood too late.

So... that's it.

Feng Jin restarted the vehicle, there was no route and no destination, the road was still extremely silent, and time flew by in silence.

When the time was less than 1 minute, Feng Jin suddenly said: "Since you don't love me in this life, then in the next life, you must give it to me in the next life."

Luo Fengying was silent.If I really fell in love with you before I met her, it might turn into a boring romance novel again, but there is no if in this world after all.

"If you don't want to, I will be a woman in the next life. I just beg you, please, please, don't fall in love with someone else again."

Waiting silently, without words for a long time, Feng Jin smiled wryly: So, you refused to even give me this extravagant hope.

An illusory "good" lit up the shattered glimmer in Feng Jin's eyes, leaned over and hugged him slowly, the only real hug between you and me, but it came so late.

In this silent morning, the sound of explosions resounded through the sky...

——THEEND——2015.08.30.2:32——

The author has something to say: the last time is the time when the writing was finished, not the time when it was posted, so hereby explain.

Today happened to coincide with Halloween, perhaps it was God's will.

There are still a few extras in the back, and many issues that are too late to talk about in the article will be explained in the extras.The extra episodes are all short chapters, and the content may be scattered.

In the end, at the moment of the end, I actually shed tears inexplicably, obviously I was very calm when I wrote it.