I have something to tell you

The whole night, Xu Yingqian's hands were shaking.

Father Xu came, and after asking a few words about the situation, he stood outside the building to smoke.

Xu Yingqian walked out and said, "Didn't you say quit smoking?"

Dad Xu said: "Occasionally smoke, when the pressure is high."

Xu Yingqian wanted to be a doctor since she was a child, and she was deeply influenced by the family business, so she didn't seem to think of other ways out.

For ordinary people, the salary of a doctor is not bad, enough to support themselves, if it is not spent extravagantly, there is probably a little surplus.Xu Yingqian has no patience and bad temper, but there is still some spirit of saving lives and healing the wounded who is responsible for the patients in his bones.She feels that she is a good doctor and hopes to help more helpless people when they are sick.But when her mother became terminally ill, she didn't notice at all.

Looking at the cigarette in his father's hand, he remembered that Tong Youning had also smoked it before. Why do so many people like this kind of thing that is harmful to health and has no benefit?

Xu Yingqian smoked her father's cigarette, took his father's lighter, lit one and smoked, and almost choked to death.

"Don't follow suit." Her father patted her on the back.

Xu Yingqian smiled: "I don't just learn from others. I only become a doctor when you are in front of me. But..." She looked at the cigarette butt in her hand and said, "I am different from you, I am not a good doctor , is not a good daughter either. My mother has been ill for so long, and I didn’t notice it.”

Father Xu said: "She deliberately wanted to hide it from you, so you definitely have no way of knowing."

Xu Yingqian remembered that "lifetime".

It turned out that my mother knew everything and made plans for everything.

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After the crisis in the global capital chain, there was the first wave of job-hopping.

Some of these job hoppers resigned voluntarily because they saw the dark prospects of Universal, and some were poached.

Bozhan and Juntuo joined forces to annex the market and buy shares in Universal.Universal was gradually forced into an unfavorable situation, while Bozhan and Juntuo acted as each other's nutrient catalysts, learning from each other's strengths and developing extremely rapidly.

Tong Youning also apologized to her for teasing Lin An back then.

"You come and go, it's fair, we don't know each other. I'm sorry on behalf of Mr. Lu who is still in the hospital. We still have a long time to cooperate in the future."

Lin An didn't take it seriously after hearing her apology: "You think it's just a few simple sentences? You and Lu Jingsheng are the only ones who dare to treat me like this."

Tong Youning's brows and eyes were clear and cold, and he didn't intend to follow her thinking to continue asking.This is her business between Lin An and Lu Jingsheng. Although she and Lu Jingsheng are young, they really can't threaten her with this matter.

Lin An looked at her quite interestingly, and suddenly changed his face, leaning against Tong Youning's desk, and said softly: "But I really like people like you. You are young, beautiful and courageous, don't you?" ...It looks quite defenseless, but you are the worst. I don't want to sleep with you now, but..." Lin An's perfume today is not too sweet, it is a mature smell, "I want to sleep with you .”

Tong Youning showed a polite smile, and left her side: "There are too many people who want to climb into my bed, you should line up carefully."

Lin An looked at her leaving back and smiled: "Okay, I will wait in line. I will stop if necessary."

After Jiang Zheng's death, Jiang Xun did disappear for a while.Now that Universal's army is in chaos, Lu Jingsheng has already made a move to get Jiang Xun back, and killed Jiang Beinan on the board of directors by surprise.

The appearance of Jiang Xun brought important memories of the global glory to the board of directors, and Jiang Beinan's status was seriously questioned.At the board meeting, both sides insisted on their own opinions, and each side stood on one side. The atmosphere was extremely hot, and blood was almost spattered on the spot.

Jiang Beinan left quietly.

There is a coffee shop next to this commercial square. When Tang Jinglu was still there, Jiang Beinan often came here with her for an afternoon, drinking tea to pass the time.

Today Jiang Beinan sat here by himself, looking at the empty opposite, recalling some things.

"I thought that regaining power would make me happy and give me hope for life again. I didn't expect...it's still so boring."

It's good that you are here.

Jiang Beinan recalled his first love when he was young, and he also remembered Yu Mingting, who was only one in his life, and Tang Jinglu, who was still possible to disappear in a long time.

She found that she had really failed in this life, and what she wanted to have was either powerless or missed.

Whether it is a relationship or a career, the time is always wrong.

Slowly drink a pot of tea alone and watch the sunset.

Lu Jingsheng's life was not in danger, and the airbag gave her good protection.

When she woke up, she looked at her family and friends in the ward, as well as Ye Xiaojun who was standing at the outermost edge of the crowd.

"I made you worry..."

Li Ailan said: "You don't know that your father and I haven't slept well for two nights. This kind of thing is not allowed to happen again."

Round two. "

Lu Jingsheng smiled and said, "I don't want to either."

Li Ailan wanted to stay and take care of her daughter personally, but Lu Jingsheng said that she wanted to stay with Ye Xiaojun for a while.

"You really don't need us now." Li Ailan said before leaving.

When she left, she gave Ye Xiaojun a meaningful look, as if looking at an enemy, or full of jealousy.

Ye Xiaojun felt a little guilty, and this guilt did not come from Li Ailan's sharp complex feelings, but from guilt.

She didn't take good care of Lu Jingsheng, because her willful and impulsive behavior put Lu Jingsheng in danger.Regardless of whether Lu Jingsheng was injured in the end, it was difficult for her to convince herself.

Ye Xiaojun stayed in the hospital day and night to take care of Lu Jingsheng, cooking her favorite dishes, taking care of her daily life, and caring for her spiritually.There are people taking care of the company's affairs, but she doesn't dare to neglect and run around.

After two weeks, Lu Jingsheng should be discharged from the hospital, but Ye Xiaojun lost a lot of weight.

"Take a good rest, or I should feel guilty." Lu Jingsheng felt sorry for her.

"No...it's all my fault." Ye Xiaojun still couldn't let go, "You just let me do more things for you, so that I can feel better in my heart."

"Are you accommodating and taking care of me to make yourself feel better?" Lu Jingsheng said, "I know you saw it that night. Yes, You Ning and I humiliated Lin An. This is our common idea. I know you hate this kind of thing, but you buried it in your heart, didn't reprimand me, didn't interfere with me, and didn't even ask a question, just like you saw that Ma Jian didn't really disappear from the exhibition and you didn't come to question why I lied to you ..." Speaking of these things, Lu Jingsheng sighed and hugged Ye Xiaojun, "You have always considered my feelings, and I don't want to quarrel because of our differences in some concepts. We have already separated once, and I don't want to Lose you again. Maybe in your heart I am a heinous profiteer, a mercenary bastard, and the type of person you don't like the most. But my heart for you is true, and this is the most important thing in our relationship , isn’t it? You and I have different values, and there are many things in this world where you can’t tell right from wrong, just look at your position.”

As long as you love someone wholeheartedly, no matter what color the other side of her heart is, you can be forgiven.

Is it supposed to be like this?Is this right?

Ye Xiaojun let Lu Jingsheng hold her, but did not respond.

Lu Jingsheng felt Ye Xiaojun's warm tears on her chest, and a successful smile passed quietly from the corner of her mouth.

Tong Youning is ready to go, even if Guan Yuan's shadow is in the expected future development, she is confident that she can handle the relationship and distance between the two, as well as the life with Xu Yingqian.

More than once, she thought about long-term contact with someone, established a habit, and carried out a responsibility and love to the end.Her life has been filled with successes of many kinds, and they have not been difficult, except this one which is still a dark cloud on her mind.

She is hopeful and ambitious.

"Sorry, I may not be able to get out of here with you."

In a quiet coffee shop, Tong Youning is still dressed in a secretive way.Xu Yingqian, who had been out of contact for a while before leaving, called her this morning to ask her out and said that she had some premonitions when she said that she had something to tell her face to face.As soon as they met, Xu Yingqian, who looked very haggard, didn't give any buffering topics, and went straight to the point, like a scalpel mercilessly cutting a hole in their shared skin.

Tong Youning was very calm: "Give me a reason to accept."

Xu Yingqian adjusted his glasses. In the past, the movements of adjusting his glasses were very elegant and confident, and occasionally there were hints of trickery.But this time, it was clearly guilt and guilt.

"My mom has less than a year to live, or less. I don't know when it started, but it's been going on for a while. She doesn't want me to worry, so she keeps silent." She is sincere Looking at Tong Youning calmly, "You and I are still young, and there are infinite possibilities in the future, but she has reached the final stage of her life...I hope that I can accompany her through this period of time."

After listening to her quietly, Tong Youning said, "It really is a reason I have to accept. We are still young, and it is precisely because there are infinite possibilities, and you understand the variables. Xu Yingqian, you..."

Xu Yingqian continued: "I don't want to selfishly make you wait for me. After all, there are many people waiting for you. I understand that this is my decision. I personally destroyed some expectations and the future. I should bear all the consequences. So..." She looked at Tong Youning, this sentence was just a very common sentence, but it seemed to be mixed with glass shards, which cut her throat sorely that it was difficult to say it.

She even expected the clever Tong Youning to say it for her. She thought that this sentence was not difficult for Tong Youning, and Tong Youning could be more heartless than her.

But Tong Youning just looked at her steadfastly, and the two of them stared at each other for a long time, as long as a century.

"If you have already decided..." Tong Youning didn't know why he said this familiar sentence, and as Xu Yingqian wished, he became the bad guy again, "That's how it is."

Tears quickly gathered in Xu Yingqian's eyes, she avoided Tong Youning's gaze, and wanted to give a smile, but the smile collapsed halfway through, and exhaled in embarrassment, "I... I'm sorry."

"You go." Tong Youning said, "Say sorry or something like I'm mean. I said it from the beginning, don't force it, don't have any disputes. Go to the intersection of the forked road and say goodbye."

Xu Yingqian left, she didn't want Tong Youning to see her crying ugly.

She thought that Tong Youning would leave soon, but Tong Youning did not leave.

She sat alone for a long time.Her mind was rarely empty, she needed to think, but this time she didn't even know what to think.

People came and went, and some people looked at her frequently, thinking that she looked like Tong Youning, but they didn't dare to recognize her.

Until Feng Yunxin appeared.

"You Ning? Why are you here?"

Because of Tong Youning's special status, when Feng Yunxin saw her, he greeted her cautiously and quietly, and sat across from her when she saw her alone.

She and Aki made an appointment here to talk about something, but Aki was blocked in the middle of the road, and just called to say that it would take more than half an hour to arrive.She never expected to meet Tong Youning.

What was even more unexpected was that after she sat down, she saw Tong Youning's tears.

Feng Yunxin was very surprised, she had never seen Tong Youning like this.

Tong Youning has always been confident and smiling in front of her.

"You Ning?" Feng Yunxin handed her a handkerchief, but Tong Youning didn't pick it up. He wiped away his tears with the paper and quickly returned to normal: "What a coincidence? You made an appointment with Aki?"

"Yes, she's late."

Tong Youning still guessed right.

"Why are you here alone?" Feng Yunxin said.

Tong Youning: "I just broke up with my girlfriend."

"..." Feng Yunxin didn't answer the words. To be precise, she didn't know what to answer in order to be within measure.

The two were like strangers who couldn't find a topic when they met for the first time, and they were silent in embarrassment.

"I heard that you are going abroad for development." Feng Yunxin finally said, "When are you leaving?"

"Within this week."

"Well, that's okay, there's still time."

Tong Youning looked at her.

"Steve has an operation tomorrow. To be precise...I have fully communicated with the doctor of the animal hospital. It is getting worse and worse and painful. I don't want this pain to continue. I choose to euthanize him .”

Tong Youning's frown couldn't be covered even by his sunglasses.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?"

Feng Yunxin's smile has always been reassuring, but this time, she couldn't even calm down her own mood: "It's all the same. If you have time, you can come and see it for the last time."

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Ve was really too old. When Tong Youning saw it, it was lying on the operating table, unable to move, with its eyes open, breathing heavily and with difficulty.It saw Tong Youning coming in, its eyes stayed on her for a moment and then moved away.

It's been several years, and Steve may have forgotten her.

Feng Yunxin gently stroked Steve's body, wanting to relieve its pain, and told it gently not to be afraid: "You will go to a beautiful place, to a planet that belongs to you. You will no longer suffer, only happy. "

Tong Youning looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar animal, and remembered the rainy day when he met it many years ago. The skinny Steve hid from the rain outside Feng Junxin's studio. If he gave it a bite of leftovers, he would spend his whole life repaying it.

The doctor came to help it inject a sedative, and the doctor specifically told it before injecting pentobarbital that the dog would end its life peacefully after the injection.

Feng Yunxin was fully prepared and nodded.Tong Youning was suddenly very, very sad, as if a part of his life had been cruelly taken away.

Ve lay there with eyes closed, like countless ordinary days and nights immersed in sleep, the difference is that this time it won't wake up again.

Feng Yunxin was depressed for several days, and put Steve's ashes at home, and placed it with his photo.

Steve in the photo is bathed in sunshine, healthy and happy.

Tong Youning was leaving. She had many friends, old lovers and work partners. She should say goodbye to them all, but she didn't want to see anyone.She found Feng Yunxin and wanted to take Steve's photo.

"It is a part of my life, and I want to treasure it." Tong Youning said when he came.

Feng Yunxin found Steve's photo album and asked her to choose at will.

When Tong Youning quietly selected photos, Feng Yunxin looked at Tong Youning who was about to go on a long journey and said, "I went back to find you."

Tong Youning looked up, a little puzzled.

"After we separated back then... I went back to find you. I wanted to let go of some stubbornness and redeem it, but at that time you already had someone else by your side, so I didn't bother you." Feng Yunxin's smile has always been Gentle, without any aggressiveness, "You have to believe that I don't have any intentions when I say this. Maybe there is no chance to talk about it. If this is the end, I am afraid that I am not reconciled."

Tong Youning made an ugly smile: "Are you saying this now to make me feel sad?"

"No..." Feng Yunxin explained, "I never wanted to make you sad. I just want to say... parting is really a sad thing, I know you are strong enough, and I know how you treat every relationship , Everyone who has been with each other is sincere and gives everything, but once you part, you don’t want to force it, so there is no room for it, and there is no way out. But You Ning, have you ever regretted it? Regret any period that you think should not end here Relationships, people who shouldn’t just disappear in your life.”

Feng Yunxin's words were not meant to save herself, Tong Youning knew what she meant.

A relationship, or person, that should not have ended.

Of course it would be a pity, otherwise why would she not be able to sleep for several nights.

"Yunxi." She said, "I have always felt that I am absolutely right, but why do I always fail to meet my expectations emotionally? Why do I not have a happy result every time? Is it a possibility, Actually I was wrong?"

Feng Yun looked at her like she was looking at her own daughter: "You have to find the answer yourself."

On the day Tong Youning left, her support team got wind of it and rushed to the airport, almost flooding the entire terminal with tears.

But Tong Youning did not show up.

She had expected the commotion, so she changed the flight.

The ex didn't notify anyone, only Lu Jingsheng, Ye Xiaojun and her relatives came to see her off.

Lu Jingsheng hated her very much, but as a friend, she also hoped that she would have a better future.

Tong Youning and Lu Jingsheng embraced each other, and her long-time friend sighed in her ear: "You have to take care of yourself, don't be brave, and rest more."

Tong Youning patted her on the back, and said in a voice only she could hear: "Zhuang Zhuang, it's okay to be scheming in any way, but in the closest relationship, what you should do is to be honest with each other."

Lu Jingsheng froze and let her go: "I used to be honest with each other, but it was obvious that I couldn't achieve my goal. There are games in any relationship."

Tong Youning didn't say anything more, took the luggage, waved to them, and disappeared at the security checkpoint without looking back.