Why do you think I don't love you anymore

"Qianhe, I finished the class. Today the main lecturer is a national-level actor. The temperament of the old actor is different, and the words are more profound. If you don't have a little brain, you can't understand. He also asked us a question,' In your eyes, what an actor is.' You know what I said?"

When Zhou Tingyun sent this WeChat message, Wen Qianhe happened to receive a call from home.

His father fell ill and stabbed his neighbor with a knife.

On the phone, Wen Qianhe's mother was also going crazy.Unable to utter a complete sentence, Wen Qianhe asked several times to clarify the whole matter.

"How is Dad now?" Wen Qianhe tried his best to stabilize his emotions, but his voice was still trembling, but he obviously couldn't feel it.

"In... the hospital, I was given a sedative forcibly... Xiao... He, come back, okay, I, I can't stand it,"

"I," Wen Qianhe suddenly lost his voice, unable to answer, but knew he had to go back.

Before he could finish speaking, a sharp voice appeared on the other end of the phone, "You unscrupulous white-eyed wolf, your parents raised you so much, and now that you have entered a big city, you start to hate the poor and love the rich? Your father is lying in the hospital now , I don’t know whether uncle is alive or dead. You just care about yourself, I can’t stand it anymore. Your mother was so scared that she couldn’t speak well when such a big thing happened. It’s good for you, half of the intention is to come back. No, why, your surname is not Wen anymore? Is there any son like you?"

"Aunt Wang, I'll be right back." Wen Qianhe hung up the phone and hurriedly bought tickets online.

The last train he bought was still three hours away.It's only 10 minutes away from the train station.

The last second he was sitting at the table, the criminal law was spread out on the table, and the computer was playing Bo Langtao's lecture on the hot spots of the criminal law regular exam.It was a course he paid for.

This year is the second semester of my junior year, and I still haven't gone home during the summer vacation.

Because the examination is about to take place, it is time to catch up with the last train of the reform of the examination.

He wanted to concentrate on preparing for the exam, so he didn't take a part-time job, and the money sent to the family naturally decreased, and he could almost squeeze it out through his teeth.

Although his parents are farmers and have not gone to any schooling, they have always supported him no matter what he does.

What happened today was unexpected.

My father suffers from hereditary mental illness, and he was fine when he was young. As he got older, his immunity became more and more serious, and his monthly drug intake gradually increased.

The little savings in his family had already been emptied when he was in junior high school, and then he had targeted poverty alleviation, subsistence allowances, and barely survived.

Originally, his parents planned to wait for Wen Qianhe to finish junior high school, and then join his second uncle to join the county electronics factory, with a guaranteed salary of [-] yuan, more pay for more work.Every time the second uncle came to the house, he would talk about the benefits in the factory. Now he can earn six or seven thousand a month.

Parents would love to have him go.Can't pay for him to go to high school.It is not bad to finish the nine-year compulsory education.

Just after the high school entrance examination, Wen Qianhe returned home from the county experimental middle school full of joy, wanting to share her experience after the examination with her mother.But his mother told him on the spot that he could not continue to support him in his studies, and the family situation could not afford to go to school. The second uncle had already contacted the factory to take a minor to work through the back door.

In fact, he knew very early that his father's spirit was getting worse and worse, and he often forgot things, and no one wanted him to do things anymore.

But being so straightforward, rejecting his future where everything is possible, even though he pretended to be calm on the surface, and agreed with his mouth, the tears in his eyes were like a faucet turned on, and couldn't stop falling.

Seeing that he was sad, his mother comforted him that he would become very good after entering the factory, earn money, and work for a few more years while he was young.

Wen Qianhe shook his head, only by studying can he be successful.He can only be successful by studying.

My father was smoking a leaf cigarette with his head sullen, his eyes were red from the smoke, and he almost swallowed it.

He who has always been well-behaved and obedient locked himself in his room for a few days, not eating or drinking, crying all night until he could not sleep, and cried until dawn.

The window was suddenly closed and there was no light.

He studied hard at school, studying all the time, and wanted to use his good grades to win the happiness of his parents and win a chance.He doesn't care what others say, how isolated he is, classmates don't like him, and teachers don't like him either.Because he cared too much about grades, he used to argue non-stop because the teacher who corrected the paper gave him one less point, and made a fuss to the education department. Everyone thought this kid was too stubborn and unpleasant.

After suffering all the loneliness, the result is still so powerless.

The boy's struggle is vulnerable.

It was too late to know the results of the high school entrance examination, so he was taken to the electronics factory by his second uncle.

There are many teenagers of his age there. Most of the boys have yellow hair, like smoking and swearing, and whistle at the girls in the factory every day.Girls love to gossip and always fantasize about meeting tall, rich and handsome.

It's just that no one wants to leave here.They are happy with real life.

Wen Qianhe was not tall at that time, about 156m, skinny, and looked like a small monkey that was not well developed.

So everyone took good care of him.

The aunt in the factory felt sorry for him, especially seeing those white and tender hands.Bring him meals often.

Wen Qianhe, who seldom ate meat, was quite satisfied with what she ate for half a month.

Flesh began to grow on the shriveled face.Sitting and doing assembly line work every day, the butt also has meat.

It's just that he hasn't grown up yet.

Wen Qianhe didn't want to talk at first, didn't like to communicate with others, and only did her own thing.

Just one week after entering here, I have done more than my peers who have been here for a long time, and the efficiency is high.It won the favor of the person in charge of the factory.

Being a young officer is flexible.

Every time she gets a compliment, Wen Qianhe is almost expressionless and unable to smile.It was the second uncle who smoothed things over and said that he was good at everything, and he often came first in the exams when he was studying.Within two years, it will definitely surpass me.

The factory leader was surprised at first, showing regret and approval, but then said nothing.

Repression, discomfort, unwillingness, anger, all kinds of negative emotions filled every corner of his heart.

Narrow dormitory, eight or nine people squeezed into one room, lined up to take a shower every day, too hot to sleep in summer, the wind blown by the electric fan is hot, swear words are floating everywhere, cigarette butts are thrown, every day they talk about who is in the factory The little girl has big breasts and good skin. Whoever is with whom will sleep better.

Those voices, even if they cover their ears, are pervasive, getting into his brain day and night, eroding his proud and unyielding soul bit by bit.

Their factory is fairly small, surrounded by high walls. Every time he came out of the cafeteria and saw it, he wanted to turn out and leave here.

But after being dug out, where can he go, there is nothing, and he can't do anything.

Gradually, it was not so much a habit as a despair.

Maybe he was no different from the boys in the factory.

Just latecomers.

When he threw down the armor he insisted on and tried to integrate into this group.It's not that hard to find out.

It's not that difficult.

He can also easily discuss the characteristics of those girls, and use their methods to please girls.

Drinking and smoking, you can learn it as soon as you learn it.Lazy, not enterprising, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

That night, he who had never cried when he came here, wept bitterly with his head muffled, unable to tell whether it was sweat or tears, and it was so turbulent.

Mixed with the sound of snoring one after another in the night.

Everything that persisted fell apart at that moment.

Crying until the end, he tore off the admission ticket under his pillow.

The next day, people came from the factory.Three or four people in suits and leather shoes, well-mannered and incompatible with this.

The person in charge of the factory received him very warmly, thinking that the inspection from above had come.When I asked, who knew that the principal of Yunlan Senior Middle School in the county came to Wen Qianhe.

Yunlan Senior High School is a private high school established by the county just two years ago. It is difficult to recruit students. Almost every year, a large number of teachers are sent to recruit students from all over the county, especially the top [-] in the county.

They hadn't planned to recruit County No.1.

Because almost every year the top three in the county will go to the city to study.If you don't study, you will automatically go to No. [-] middle school.

No one is willing to bet their youth on a newly established private high school, even if the conditions are good enough.

Therefore, the annual admission score of Yunlan Senior High School is as low as 300 points.

But the principal got the news from an acquaintance in the county education bureau that No. 1 in the county has not applied to any school this year.It's amazing news.

After learning about the situation, I realized that the family was too poor, so they were not allowed to go to school, and were sent to work in the factory.

When he saw a small figure coming out of the assembly line, he sighed deeply.

Unable to control it, he severely criticized the factory leaders for hiring child labor, which violated the bottom line of morality and laws.

The leader nodded and bowed and apologized quickly.

After hearing what the principal said, Wen Qianhe didn't believe it and thought it was a liar.

Until the other party had no choice but to read out the admission ticket number, he memorized the numbers backwards.

Believe it is true.

He scored 708 points in the test, setting a new record for the county's senior high school entrance examination and ranking ninth in the city.

Three years of hard work have not been in vain.

What makes him most happy is English.Due to the backwardness of elementary school education in the town, he had no exposure to English in elementary school. When he was admitted to the county in junior high school, he had a hard time studying, and he could easily get the first place in other subjects.

But I can't learn English well, and I can only get [-] points in the third grade of junior high school.

The high school entrance examination actually scored 112 points.

The principal said that when he came to Yunlan Senior High School, he would be exempted from tuition fees for three years and would be given 800 yuan a month for living expenses.

Ask him if he wants to.

The second uncle who was on the side was stunned, and it was the first time he heard the school give money.

It was also the first time that he truly felt how outstanding his nephew was, ranking first in the county and ninth in the city.If his son did so well in the exam, he would wake up laughing from his dream.It is also given to sell iron.

Others in the factory showed big surprised expressions!I never thought that the child who usually eats and lives with me is actually a school bully, so he has a different temperament.

Wen Qianhe hugged the principal and knelt down to him, crying and saying that last night, he thought that his whole life was over, it was over, and he could only stay in this place.Never get out.

He is willing, willing to go to Yunlan Senior High School.

So far, the principal and every teacher of Yunlan Senior High School have been regarded as benefactors by him.

Later, No. [-] Middle School heard about this, and regretted it. They called at the beginning, but were rejected by Wen Qianhe's parents.

He thought Wen Qianhe had gone to the city to study.

Wen Qianhe was also very competitive later, the only regret was that he did not choose science.

He struggled with it for a long time, and decided to follow his own preferences and choose liberal arts, and finally won the first place in the city's liberal arts with 623 points, and the province's top student in liberal arts with 657 points.

The highest score in Chinese subjects in County 581 is [-] points.

The reputation of Yunlan Senior High School was first shot, and the enrollment has been worry-free since then.Now the enrollment score has risen to 450 points.

High school was the happiest period of his life.My father's illness is not that serious, and he can still do his own work at home.My mother finds some work in the town for a while, and there is no problem in making ends meet.

But after he went to college, things began to change.

My mother suffered from a sudden cerebral infarction and almost passed away. After being rescued, she was unable to work, so she had to take medicine at home to survive.His father's condition deteriorated, and he had begun to deny people and talk nonsense.

He knows that his mother is very hard, and he takes care of his father alone.So as soon as I graduated from high school, I applied for a loan from the place of origin, and I started working part-time to make money in my freshman year, and sent it all back.

But now it's serious enough to stab someone with a knife.

He used to tell people not to provoke mental illness, don't provoke it, he would really kill people.

The facts are true.

He loves his father, and his father is a very simple and honest man who treats him very well. At the beginning, he heard that Yunlan Middle School proposed conditions and strongly supported him in his studies.He also felt that reading was promising.

But when his psychosis started, it changed.

Wen Qianhe turned off the computer, closed the book, and hastily packed her luggage, but there were not many things.Organized in less than 10 minutes.

He saw the message from Zhou Tingyun and didn't know how to reply.

Thanks to his care for the past six months, I have lived a very good life.

After Zhou Tingyun was discharged from the hospital, he first enrolled in a class to improve his acting skills, and then joined a dance troupe to practice.

Anyway, very busy.Wen Qianhe even got his graduation certificate for him.

Zhou Tingyun waited for a long time without receiving a reply, and lost his patience.

Made a phone call.

When Wen Qianhe finally picked it up, he immediately asked, "Why didn't you reply to the message? Are you studying? Are you still learning at this point? It's already ten o'clock. It's time to rest. If you study again, you will become a madman."

When Wen Qianhe heard those two words, his nerves were extremely sensitive, and he asked reflexively: "If I am really crazy, what will happen to you?"

Congenital, genetic, mental illness.

In normal times, Zhou Tingyun might have thought it was a joke, but today Wen Qianhe's tone was obviously wrong.

He laughed and said, "It shouldn't cost much to raise a little lunatic."