Baishou loses Shaohua

When the eastern sky was turning pale, a few wisps of dust and smoke rose from the kitchen on the south side of the yard, and Mr. Rong was already preparing breakfast.Ji Yinghan sat on a round stool beside the bed in a clean white dress, with a blue-gray bundle and the piano that never left his body on his back.The candle on the table had been burned out for a long time.

Ji Yinghan stretched out his hand, but his fingers stopped only half an inch away from Xuan Lie. He retracted abruptly, stood up, turned and walked out.

time to go.

Ji Yinghan repeated this sentence to himself countless times in his heart, but every time, he stood up but couldn't move, and then he told himself to wait another quarter of an hour.

But after waiting for a quarter of an hour, he waited for another quarter of an hour.

The third watch waits for the fourth watch, the fourth watch waits for the candles to be exhausted, and the fourth watch waits for the dawn to dawn. What else can we wait for when it is clear today?

What has to come has come, what has to go has to go, and everything should return to its original place.

"I thought...you would at least formally bid farewell to me." There was a weak and mysterious voice from behind.

Ji Yinghan's footsteps stopped, but he didn't look back.

"Because I was afraid that you would leave, so... I didn't dare to wake up." Xuan Lie turned his head sideways and looked at Ji Yinghan's back with both eyes. obsessed.

Ji Yinghan was silent.

"Why?" Xuan Lie didn't understand, obviously just last night, he was still holding his hand under the moon, and the sweet and greasy aroma of red bean cake under his fingertips was still lingering at the tip of his nose.

Why did everything change in an instant.

"I said so." Ji Yinghan stared straight ahead, there was only one threshold missing, as long as he stepped out of this threshold, bridges return to bridges, and roads return to roads.

Xuan Lie coughed a few times: "It doesn't matter...is it?"

Ji Yinghan gritted his teeth: "Yes."

Xuanlie coughed more and more: "Okay, let's go."

Ji Yinghan frowned: "You..."

"Don't look back!" Xuan Lie cut off Ji Yinghan's next move.He frowned in pain, his eyes fixed on Ji Yinghan's back, he was betting, "Since you have decided to leave, then don't look back."

Ji Yinghan stood where he was, without turning around, looking back, or moving.He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and opened them again.

"Take care." He stepped lightly and stepped over the threshold.

Xuan Lie closed his eyes, smiled wryly, and slammed his fists on the bed fiercely. There was a tearing pain in his right shoulder, and he groaned and coughed violently.The pain was so overwhelming that he almost couldn't take care of breathing, but he couldn't tell where it hurt the most.

Ji Yinghan stood in the courtyard but couldn't take a step forward.He listened to Xuanlie's painful cough and Xuanlie's heavy intermittent breathing, as if he was nailed in place.After only a few seconds of pause, Ji Yinghan turned around and rushed back into the house.

At this moment, he suddenly understood how wrong he was at the previous moment.

What bridge returns to the bridge, what road returns to the road, the beating heart in the chest has already warmed up, already has concern, how can it be possible...to go back.

Ji Yinghan quickly poured a glass of water and handed it to Xuanlie's mouth, Xuanlie actually endured the tears from the pain in his eyes and stubbornly twisted his neck. He smiled stubbornly and watched Ji Yinghan frowned.

"Didn't you leave? And... cough cough, what are you doing back?"

"Drink water." Seeing that Xuan Lie was unmoved, Ji Yinghan frowned even tighter, and couldn't help showing anxiety, "The wound can't withstand such a shock."

"Wound? Hehe...cough cough, irrelevant people...cough cough..." Xuan Lie's smile was almost cruel, he stared into Ji Yinghan's eyes, and paused every word, "It's fine to fend for itself... "

If all I did was in exchange for the word "irrelevant", what's the point of your turning around, and why do you show such a caring gesture to pity me.

Ji Yinghan frowned and pursed his lips, then suddenly lowered his head and took a mouthful of warm water, covering his mysterious lips.

Xuan Lie gulped down the water that Ji Yinghan had crossed, and stopped coughing, but a sense of anger rose in his heart.

"What do you mean by that! If you want to leave, why turn back? If you have nothing to do with it, why bother to do this! You repeatedly play me on top of applause, what do you think of me?" He always wanted to ask this question he.

Ji Yinghan stared at Xuan Lie's angry face, and instead of answering, he asked, "What about you? What did you take me for?"

Xuan Lie froze for a moment, feeling a little ridiculous: "Isn't it obvious enough for me?"

"Yes, it's obvious enough." Ji Yinghan nodded, but there was no trace of relief on his face, and his voice couldn't help raising his voice, "You care about me everywhere, thinking about what I think and what I think. You who I thought of but didn't think of you You will think for me that you are so thoughtful, so thoughtful that it scares me. You even let yourself get involved in a chase that had nothing to do with me... But have you ever thought about how dangerous this is? You are only injured today, but you may die tomorrow!"

"I said I don't care!" Xuan Lie interrupted Ji Yinghan.

Ji Yinghan didn't speak for a while, he looked at Xuan Lie for a long time, so long that Xuan Lie mistakenly thought that he would turn around and leave the next moment without looking back.Ji Yinghan's eyes sank little by little, and he finally gave up his persistence and resistance all the time.He lowered his head resignedly.

"I care."

Xuan Lie was stunned.Ji Yinghan's words were too unexpected for him, and he was a little confused for a while.

"Xuan Lie..." Ji Yinghan's voice sounded like a sigh, "I don't want to bear the debt and guilt to anyone anymore, I... can't bear it."

When that arrow hit Xuan Lie, the unprecedented pain in Ji Yinghan's heart made him understand that he already cared about Xuan Lie.Everything that Xuan Lie had done for him during this period of time reappeared in front of his eyes at that moment, and the comparison with the blood-red picture almost made him lose his mind.And when Xuan Lie lay next to his ear and said the phrase "Fortunately it's not you", he got scared.He almost wanted to pull the hem of his shirt and tell him hysterically that he didn't need it, he didn't need him to block the arrow for him, because even though he wasn't injured, the pain was even more heart-piercing.He is also human, he will feel guilty, painful and fearful, and he cannot maintain his calmness all the time.He watched helplessly as he fell in front of him but could do nothing. At that moment, he had never been so helpless.And those blood, those pains, that arrow should have belonged to him.What he said lightly, but it weighed so much on him... how could he bear it.

Ji Yinghan's words were like a heavy hammer, hitting Xuan Lie's head.He once again understood that he had never really known what was going on in Ji Yinghan's mind.Ji Yinghan never said, nor did he ask.He thinks he knows what he thinks, and he recklessly pours his so-called care into him, but he never asks him if this is what he wants.He was so willful that he unintentionally used his kindness and love to push Ji Yinghan into a dilemma.

"If... I give you everything I can..." Ji Yinghan looked at Xuan Lie, "Will you be satisfied?"

Ji Yinghan sat down on the side of the bed under Xuanlie's dazed gaze. He bent down, put one elbow on Xuanlie's ear, and brought his lips closer.He closed his eyes, his eyelashes cast a faint shadow under his eyes.

He just lightly imprinted on Xuanlie's lips, and they separated with only a slight touch.

"I... have never liked anyone before, and I don't know how to like it." Ji Yinghan lowered his eyes and straightened his mouth. He was a little nervous. In his past life experience, he had never encountered such a thing. In these years, even in the face of danger, he has never been so nervous.He felt inferior because he didn't understand why Xuan Lie cared about him so much.

Seeing Ji Yinghan's cautious appearance, Xuan Lie felt his heart itch like being scratched by a cat.He raised his left hand, straightened Ji Yinghan's hair that had slipped by his ear, and gently lifted Ji Yinghan's chin so that he could look directly at him.

"Before I met you, I didn't understand either. So, what does it matter?"

Xuanlie's hand wrapped around Ji Yinghan's neck, pulled him closer, opened his mouth and bit his lower lip, Ji Yinghan shuddered and closed his eyes, he frowned slightly, as if he was not used to such a fierce kiss , but felt no resistance.He opened his eyes slightly, and his dark eyes were like a deep and vast sea, in which he finally drowned.