Inferior by Nature

Yeah, I'm dying, it could be tomorrow, it could be next week.Not sure what day it was, but I was literally dying.

The two lips seemed to be stuck with super glue, and they couldn't be opened no matter what. I didn't expect that admitting that I was dying would become so difficult one day.When Mingming and Nan Xian talked about this before, I still had plausible words, saying that I had thought it through very clearly, that I should give up treatment and die with dignity, and in a blink of an eye it seemed like nothing.

"Everyone... dies," I said dryly.

The warm water hit the tiles, and the sound of the water was noisy, making the small bathroom stuffy and hot.

Water drops dripped from Ran Qingzhuang's wet hair, he slowly pressed his forehead against my wrist, and asked, "Did you know that you were sick before you met me on Lion King Island?"

"……Um."

After getting my affirmative reply, he held my hand even tighter and didn't speak any more.

With the tip of his nose attached to the back of his hand, he opened his mouth and exhaled tremblingly, each time becoming more urgent, as if something had strangled his throat, gradually reaching the point where it was difficult to breathe.

I worriedly touched his face with the other hand, his whole body vibrated, and the breathing on the back of his hand stopped for a moment.

"I didn't mean to hide it from you. Only Nan Xian knew about it. I didn't tell my mother or my sister." I touched his earlobe and said in a light tone as much as possible, "Everyone has his own destiny." , My life is fixed. I just... went from one place to another, and I will see you again sooner or later, there is nothing to make me feel bad."

He let out a breath slowly, then let go of my hand and stood up from the ground.

"Let me wash it for you."

The topic of death came to an abrupt end. He turned around and fetched the shower on the shelf, adjusted the water temperature, and motioned for me to turn my back.

Except for a little redness at the end of his eyes, there was no flaw in his expression, as if there was no wind or rain in the snow field, he just felt quiet at first glance.It was so quiet that people dared not make the slightest sound, for fear of disturbing the frost and snow and causing a devastating avalanche.

Sitting on the toilet, he carefully washed my hair and body for me. During this period, he didn't say much, and sometimes simply asked me to close my eyes and raise my hand.

After taking a shower, he helped me get dressed and finished blowing my hair. Regardless of my resistance, he picked me up by the waist, walked out of the bathroom, and put me on the hospital bed outside.

The moment my back touched the soft bed, I let go of Ran Qingzhuang's neck, and I had the illusion that I was already in a bad position and depended on him to take care of me.

"Your clothes are all wet." When he rushed into the bathroom, his clothes got a little wet, and then he got a little wet after taking a shower. Now most of his clothes are wet, and it feels uncomfortable to look at.

Hearing this, he looked down at himself, and said, "I'll go wash it." After speaking, he entered the bathroom again.

Maybe because I slept too much during the day, I didn't sleep very well at night.Because of this, every time Ran Qingzhuang gets up, I feel it.

Almost every one or two hours, he would come over to check on my situation.Tuck the quilt up for me, check my body temperature, as if I was afraid that I would die if I sneaked around while he was asleep.

I was amused and sad at the same time, I endured it for most of the night, when the sky turned slightly white, I finally couldn't help it, and pulled him into bed.

He froze for a moment, then subconsciously remembered that he was hugged by me like a koala.

"Sleep with me if you're so worried, the bed is big anyway."

He propped himself up on the bed, as if he didn't expect to be exposed so bluntly by me, and after a while he said: "If the nurse sees it, he will be reprimanded."

"Then get up before she comes." I rubbed his chin and pulled him closer to the bed.

This time he didn't struggle any more, and lay obediently beside me.

After sleeping peacefully for a few hours, when I opened my eyes again, I found that Ran Qingzhuang was sticking to me from behind, holding me tightly in front of him.As soon as I moved, he tightened his arms uneasily, and his breathing became heavy.

It seemed that only this posture could make him feel at ease.Realizing this, I lay back down again.

I kept on doing this until the nurse outside knocked on the door and Ran Qingzhuang woke up slowly, then I hurriedly got out of bed and went to the bathroom.

After staying in the hospital for a few days, Yan Shuang came to bring the latest news about Jinchenyu.

They found him in an old building near the ocean terminal, and a gunfight ensued.Jin Chenyu was shot in the abdomen and accidentally fell into the sea while driving away. After several days of all-out rescue, his life was saved, and he didn't know if he would wake up.

This ending was expected, and I wasn't too surprised, but what Yan Shuang said next exceeded my expectations.

"Is there a ghost?" I almost thought that there was something wrong with my ears.

Yan Shuang and Ran Qingzhuang looked at each other, and said: "Jin Chenyu was allowed to escape on Lion King Island, and after that he failed to hunt him down many times, plus your Darong Village was in danger, one time may have been accidental, so many times can no longer be explained by accident But don't worry, we have probably locked on the target, and I believe he will show his feet soon."

Her words can be regarded as solving my previous doubts, why Jinchenyu seemed to know that Ran Qingzhuang would not be in Darong Village when the live broadcast was launched.Because he did know, the inner ghost told him.

"Did you already guess it?" After Yan Shuang left, I asked Ran Qingzhuang.

He put away the cup on the table and said, "We have undercover informants, and criminals will also have them. It's normal."

Still normal?I thought black police only existed in movies, but it turns out that there really are.

I was lost in thought, and suddenly heard Ran Qingzhuang say: "Tomorrow, Prosecutor Fu will come."

I looked up at him. He was washing the cup at the bar. Seeing that I hadn't reacted for a long time, I had no choice but to add: "Lin Sheng will come too. If you don't want to see him, I'll find another place to meet Fu Ci."

Oh, it turned out to be this.

"It's okay." I pointed to the inside and smiled at him, "I'll just hide inside when the time comes."

Ran Qingzhuang nodded and said nothing more.

When I woke up the next day, my eyes felt a little blurry.My binocular prescription is not high. After leaving Lion King Island, I found it troublesome, so I haven’t bought new glasses. Except that watching TV is not very clear, it basically has no impact on daily life.

Normally, it is impossible for myopia to increase by several hundred degrees overnight.

"What's wrong with your eyes?" After I hit the wall at the foot of the bed continuously, Ran Qingzhuang also noticed something strange.

"I... I can't see clearly." I squinted my eyes, and it was hard to see his face clearly.

Ran Qingzhuang waved his hand in front of my eyes, pushed me to sit down, and quickly walked out to call for someone.

Doctor Xie was not at work yet, and the doctor on duty shone a flashlight into my eyes, but he didn't see anything, so he asked me to go for an examination first.

After going around the ophthalmology department and testing the equipment, it was finally determined that it was not the problem of the eye itself. It was said that the optic nerve might be squeezed. In short, it was the blurred vision caused by the tumor.

In the past few days, the progress of my disease has suddenly become faster than in the past six months, which makes me a little worried, not sure if I can survive until autumn.

Originally, he wanted to make it through this year and spend a new year with Ran Qingzhuang, his mother, and his younger sister, but now it seems a little hanging.

On the way back to the ward, Ran Qingzhuang kept holding my hand, and whenever there were steps or obstacles ahead, he would sound a reminder.

It was such a coincidence that when entering the elevator, they happened to meet Fu Ci and the others.

In fact, I didn't recognize them at first, but I thought the two people in front were quite tall. It wasn't until Fu Ci said, "Get out of here" that I recognized them all at once.

"I was just joking, don't get angry, Uncle Fu. My parents will ask you to have dinner tomorrow, see if you are free..." Lin Sheng said, probably seeing us, so he didn't continue.

Fu Ci turned his back to him and pressed the elevator button: "If I find out that you let me go to your house under the guise of your parents..."

"Fu Jian." Ran Qingzhuang called out to him.

Fu Ci turned around and found us: "...what a coincidence."

"Just to check." I said.

Not long after, the elevator came.Me, Ran Qingzhuang, Tao Nian, Wei Daji, Fu Ci and Lin Sheng, a group of six entered the elevator and went to the same floor.

During the ascent, it was quite quiet at first, until Lin Sheng suddenly said, "You are really regular visitors to the hospital. Last time it was him, this time it was you."

I turned my head to look at him, but I couldn't make out his expression clearly, I only saw his mouth was moving.

"Our hospital's neurosurgery department is also very famous. If you need it, I can help..." He looked up at the constantly beating floor numbers and said, "This time it's free."

With a "ding", the elevator door opened slowly. I just wanted to say no, I have already seen it in your hospital, but I didn't say anything. Ran Qingzhuang who was beside me was offended by Lin Sheng's words, or maybe he could bear it. After a long time, I couldn't bear it any longer, I passed by me, grabbed the other party's skirt and dragged me out of the elevator.

"what are you doing?"

Lin Sheng wanted to shake him off, but his face was distorted by a punch, and he almost couldn't stand up and fell to the ground.

"This punch is for Ji Ning." Ran Qingzhuang said that he wanted to raise his fist again, and Tao Nian and Wei Daji, who had reacted, rushed over to hold him left and right.

"Brother Ran, don't do it, don't do it!"

"If you have something to say, talk about it, how can you just do it?"

Ran Qingzhuang was held up by them and couldn't move, so he kicked Lin Sheng to the ground.

"This kick was for me." He said in a cold voice.

Lin Sheng sat on the ground clutching his stomach, wiped the corners of his mouth with his hand, he didn't know if he couldn't get up or didn't want to get up, so he just sat there and laughed.

"The prince has finally woken up? You are so stupid that you don't even know who you really like, blame me?" He propped his knees and kept adding fuel to the flames. Who the hell are you showing off to?"

He seemed not afraid of death, Tao Nian and the others could hardly catch Ran Qingzhuang.I leaned on the wall, my eyes couldn't see clearly, so I could only worry on the sidelines.

Gradually, people heard the movement and surrounded them, and there was a sigh from behind. The next moment, Fu Ci strode over, blocking between Ran Qingzhuang and Lin Sheng.

"That's enough, I'm not here to watch your idol drama. Mr. Ran, please pay attention to your identity and mine." After he finished speaking to Ran Qingzhuang, he turned back to warn Lin Sheng, biting every word very hard. Chong, "for the rest of the day, don't let me hear you say a word. Your parents' face is limited, don't force me to tear myself apart with you."

Lin Sheng raised his head and looked at him for a moment, then stood up silently leaning on the wall behind him, and really didn't make any more sound after that.

Lin Sheng and Tao Nian stayed outside the ward together, while Fu Ci entered the room with us.

"This time, I still have some testimony to confirm with you." He sat on the sofa, opened his briefcase and took out the documents.

Ran Qingzhuang told him to wait a moment, and helped me into the inner room.

"I'm right outside, call me if you need something." After tucking the quilt up for me, Ran Qingzhuang turned around and was about to leave.

I heard from his voice that he was not very emotional, I quietly took his fingers, squeezed them, and said: "Good fight."

He seemed to smile, raised his hand and rubbed my head vigorously, and went out.