hell make me fall in love

Liu Xu doesn't like drinking very much.

At least in Shen Anxing's memories, he was like this.

In the winter of the third year of high school, when Shen Anxing celebrated his birthday, Liu Xu brought him back home.

That was not Shen Anxing's first time there.Liu Xu's family is a wealthy family, and his parents are busy outside all the year round. They are often out of sight all day long, and they can go on business trips for 20 days a month.His older sister went to study in a well-known art university abroad last year. He could still be with her when she was a child, but after her sister left, he was at home alone.

It was also that day, Liu Xu was alone at home, anyway, Shen Anxing celebrated his birthday, so he pulled Shen Anxing over to live.

Liu Xu spent a long time in the kitchen that day, when he searched the refrigerator, he found a few cans of beer.

Shen Anxing didn't have any resistance to alcohol, but he was very resistant to the smell of alcohol. He hated drunk people, but he didn't hate alcohol.

After all, his father beat him every day with the smell of alcohol all over his body, so it's normal to have resistance to that smell.

Liu Xu asked him if he drank beer, Shen Anxing thought for a while, and felt that he was all, and he could almost touch this thing.

So they brought out two cans of beer.It's just beer, so you won't get drunk.

But that day, Liu Xu only took a sip.

After he took a small sip, his face twisted all of a sudden.After taking such a small sip, he coughed twice, then turned his head and poohed into the air several times.

"What does it taste like?!" He turned around and said to Shen Anxing with a face full of disbelief, "What's so delicious about this thing? It's spicy and bitter! How could anyone like it?!"

Shen Anxing also took a sip.He thinks it's okay, it's not delicious, but it's drinkable.

Then he bit the mouth of the soda can, blinked at Liu Xu, and said, "I don't know what to drink. But when I was young, I heard from my dad that you don't have to worry about so much when you're drunk."

"Ha." Liu Xu sneered contemptuously, and said, "Only an idiot like your father who escapes from reality likes to drink this kind of thing. Besides, he will beat you when he's drunk, what excuses do he make for himself?"

Shen Anxing was helpless: "He beat me even if he wasn't drunk."

"So he's an idiot."

While talking, Liu Xu stretched out his arms and placed the soda can far away heavily, so it was obvious what he meant by keeping it away from him and not disturbing his cooking.

Then, he put one hand on his waist, with youthful and frivolous complacency in his eyes, and said confidently to Shen Anxing: "I definitely don't know how to drink, after all, I don't need to escape from reality."

Shen Anxing felt uncomfortable all of a sudden.

He reached down and put the cat on the ground, then got up again, and reached out to take out a can of beer from the refrigerator.

He still remembered Liu Xu's appearance when he said this to him.He was young at that time, young and frivolous is not an exaggeration to describe him, all the beautiful and enthusiastic words in high school Chinese textbooks can be used on him.

He is confident, loves to laugh, keeps his word and walks the talk, is among the best in grades, has a recommendation for college admissions, and is very athletic. At the autumn sports meeting in the second half of his sophomore year, many girls were screaming for him.

He is surrounded by beings, he is the blazing sun in the sky.

Everyone likes him, and there is no one who doesn't like Liu Xu.

But for such a person, the refrigerator is full of wine.

"I don't need to escape reality after all".

He escaped in the end.

Shen Anxing turned his head and looked at a dining table outside the kitchen.

Liu Xu had a bad life in the past seven years, Shen Anxing somewhat understood.

Liu Xu graduated from university three years ago.Three years after that—no, maybe college too.

I don't know how many days and nights, he would rely on these alcohols to numb himself, wanting to get drunk, not wanting to think about Shen An's death, or wanting to get drunk and fall asleep.

Shen Anxing may have been present in those dreams all the time.

Slimy spun around his feet, rubbing against his trouser legs.

When Shen Anxing looked down, it sat down, raised its head, and stared innocently at him with those very beautiful eyes.

For a moment, Shen Anxing felt that it was pretending to be innocent. After all, since he opened the refrigerator and saw the terrifying amount of wine, Sticky never barked again.

It's hard to believe it wasn't intentional.

He was helpless, so he sighed, put the wine back into the refrigerator, closed the refrigerator door again, lowered himself, and whispered to it, "You want to sue me?"

Sticky tilted his head, as if he didn't understand what he was saying, and seemed to be pretending not to understand.

Shen Anxing frowned slightly.

People say that the puppet cat is not a very intelligent species, but it seems that their aunt is not like that.

Or, to put it another way, this kind of not-so-intelligent species can't even look at it, and if someone comes to the family, they will rush to complain... Then what kind of drink does Liu Xu usually make of himself?

Shen Anxing didn't dare to imagine, and couldn't help but sighed softly.

Just halfway through the sigh, he let out a low cry of pain as if he was suddenly in pain, his whole body trembled violently, and his body tilted forward, as if he had been hit by something suddenly.

At that moment, the cold air overflowed from his whole body, and suddenly a white icy air spread out.

Sticky was so frightened that he turned around and ran away.

It ran to the door, and after running out, it poked its head out again, as if still curious about what was going on.Then, it stuck out its tongue and licked its mouth again, still feeling a little terrified.

Shen Anxing didn't notice.His face became very ugly, and he leaned against the refrigerator and slowly squatted down, as if he had been hit hard by something suddenly.

He squinted his eyes and took a few heavy breaths.After those breaths fell into the air, they turned into balls of white air, floating in the overflowing chill.

After a while like this, Shen Anxing slowed down a little, and then he lowered his head, raised his hand again, and spread out his trembling palm.

He saw the ice flakes on his fingertips glimmering with a silvery luster in the darkness.

What is concerning is that the number of these ice chips seems to have increased a little, and the faintly flickering cold light is like a flashing warning.

Shen Anxing seemed to have expected this a long time ago, he only raised his hand to glance at it, then quickly retracted it, and closed his eyes again, as if he was trying to hold back something.

And the cold air around him slowly subsided after a while.

After all the cold air returned to his body with a slight cold wind, Shen Anxing supported the refrigerator, stood up unsteadily, raised his eyes, and turned his head to look at the person sitting by the door. sticky.

Sticky sits at the door, looking at him from afar.What happened just now was too unbelievable, seriously beyond the scope of the little cat's understanding of the world, it wanted to shrink back and hide for a while, but it couldn't resist the cat's curious nature, so it just wanted to hide or not poked his head and looked at him.

Shen Anxing smiled apologetically at it, said "Sorry" in a low voice, and walked out of the kitchen.

He acted like nothing happened, as if nothing happened just now.

He stretched his sleeves longer, rubbed his hands together, and walked towards the study.

Liu Xu told him that he didn't throw away any of his things.

Shen Anxing wanted to go and have a look.He wanted to know what kind of life Liu Xu would live after his death.

The wine in the refrigerator made him worry, and he couldn't feel relieved at all.

he wants to know.No matter how cruel it is, how much it will make his heart hurt, he wants to know.

This is Liu Xu's matter, he has no way to turn it over, he must know.

Although he just did something that only a high-powered air conditioner and a crazy ice giant in a fairy tale can do, he didn't seem to scare their aunt at all—of course, it might be sticky. Sticky doesn't have a long memory at all.

It ran over joltingly, followed Shen An all the way, and even ran to his side, looking at him sideways, as if very curious about him.

Shen Anxing was afraid of disturbing Liu Xu who was still sleeping over there, so he opened two doors lightly, and found the study room smoothly.

Fortunately, Liu Xu's family is not big.

Shen Anxing didn't dare to turn on the light, and he didn't need to.The night watchman is a very powerful species. After all, they all exist to hunt participants. Naturally, each of them is as strong as a bug. They have five senses and can control the development of the five senses by themselves.

They can easily see everything in sight in the darkness, and they can also hear rustling sounds a hundred meters away. If they want to, they can even smell the blood on the ghost.

Of course, if it is not necessary, the five senses are generally not activated to that extent, after all, the smell is quite disgusting.

Right now, Shen Anxing had been listening to Liu Xu who was sleeping, for fear that he would wake up.But he knew that his worries were probably unfounded, and Liu Xu was still the same as before, he was dead when he woke up, and he didn't frown when anyone moved or spoke.

Although Shen Anxing didn't really want to describe his boyfriend that way, he had to admit that Liu Xu really looked like a dead pig when he fell asleep.

He walked into Liu Xu's study.

Shen Anxing took a hasty glance and had a panoramic view of the entire study room.Liu Xu's study room is relatively simple, with a large window facing the door, a table beside the window, a computer on the table, and a small bookshelf for documents and reference books next to the computer.And on the wall directly opposite the table, there is a row of bookshelves neatly arranged.

Shen An walked in and walked all the way to Liu Xu's table.

There is a photo frame next to Liu Xu's computer.Shen Anxing had already seen it clearly, but he still picked up the photo frame.

The photo framed in the photo frame was taken by Liu Xu when they left the exam room after the college entrance examination that year.

It was summer then.The college entrance examination is over, and the school is full of senior high school students who have finally been liberated, tearing up books, throwing test papers, and there is a carnival everywhere.

The two of them are naturally one of them, and the couple who want to have fun the most.Because they have finally passed the age of 17, and they are finally going to go to the agreed beach to find the stars in the sky after crushing the midsummer.

The separation of life and death is in front of them, but they don't know it.

Their supposedly dazzling years have been frozen into a picture like this.

Shen Anxing was the same as that time, he saw himself smiling in the photo.

He grew up in darkness all his life, before meeting Liu Xu, he had never smiled.But Liu Xu appeared when he was 17 years old, and finally pulled him ashore, and he finally gradually smiled at people.Even though he's not used to it yet, even though it's still a little ugly, and even though he still doesn't know how to use force, he does smile.

Liu Xu also smiled beside him.At that time, he was still as enthusiastic and dazzling as Shen Anxing remembered.

He's different now, but there's nothing wrong with that.

The 17-year-old Liu Xu is very good, and the current Liu Xu is also very good. He will always be what Shen Anxing thinks in his heart.As long as it is Liu Xu, no matter what he becomes, Shen Anxing will definitely have a place for him in his heart.

Shen Anxing could feel that Liu Xu knew that he was different from seven years ago, so he was worried about his changes, but it was different from what he thought, Shen Anxing was not bored by it, he only felt heartache.

His youth should have been enthusiastic and dazzling all the time, but Shen Anxing's death pushed him off track, forcing him to make a bloody change that made his whole body hurt.

Shen Anxing stretched out his hand and lightly touched the layer of glass on the surface of the photo frame.

Through the glass, he gently touched 17-year-old Liu Xu.

It seemed that he wanted to use this to warm his seven years.