hell make me fall in love

Liu Xu's words were so sudden that Lao Li was taken aback by his words.

After being stunned for a while, he smiled again: "Did you say that black and white are impermanent? This is to say that black and white are impermanent."

"Yes."

"I hope so... It would be great if there is really black and white impermanence."

Lao Li responded with a smile, and couldn't help sighing sadly, saying: "It's a pity that year, he was only a little bit close."

"Yeah." Liu Xu also said, "It's almost there."

Neither of them finished the sentence, but they both knew what the remaining half of the sentence was.

——Shen Anxing was only a little bit close to leaving this bottomless darkness.

But in the end, he was kicked by death back to the deepest place where no light could shine.

Old Li looked into the distance with a sense of loss, but unlike him, Liu Xu was unexpectedly calm when he said this.There is no trace of regret, sadness, pain or unwillingness on his face.

He just sat there, looking at the group of cooking cats calmly, and said this calmly.

Half an hour later, Liu Xu said goodbye to Lao Li and left the school.

Lao Li stood at the door of the teaching building and waved to him.

Liu Xu led Shen Anxing, turned around and left.After leaving the school gate, when Shen Anxing looked back, he saw Lao Li still standing there, watching Liu Xu leave.

When Shen Anxing looked back, he suddenly realized that Lao Li had already hunched over and could no longer straighten his back—he was not as energetic as before, but he looked much more kind than before.

Old Li is getting old.

he thinks.

The cold sun in December couldn't warm everything on the ground, and Shen Anxing couldn't go back to the place where Lao Li was standing.

He only saw Lao Li standing at the door of the teaching building, with gray hair and a kind smile.

Shen Anxing suddenly remembered that in the first year of high school, one day he came to school with his eyes bruised and purple from the beating. Old Li was so frightened that he didn't go to class, so he dragged him to the infirmary to be checked by the school doctor.

He thought of Lao Li's heartfelt and earnest words to him countless times.

Shen Anxing stood at the gate of the school, where Lao Li could not see, and suddenly thought that nothing had changed in No. [-] Middle School, yet everything seemed to have changed.

He pursed his lips, turned around, stretched out his hand to hook the bandage wrapped around his head four or five times, took it off, and bowed deeply to Lao Li where he couldn't see.

Liu Xu stood aside. Seeing this scene, he was taken aback for a moment, then walked to Shen Anxing's side, turned his head and bowed to Lao Li.

……

"Yanghua."

Liu Xu stretched out his hand to turn on the hot air in the car, and when Shen Anxing called him, he turned around and answered, "Huh?"

Shen Anxing opened his mouth, wanting to ask him about the funeral.

He wondered what happened at his funeral.

He had been curious about this before in the steamer hell, but due to Liu Xu's bad appearance at the time, Shen Anxing didn't want to poach his psychological shadow, so he never dared to ask.

But after Lao Li said that today, Shen Anxing couldn't bear it anymore.

He wanted to know.

As bad as it sounded, he wanted to know; even though it left few good memories for anyone, he wanted to know.

But in the end, he only sighed and swallowed the question that came to his lips.

He still couldn't bear to dig out Liu Xu's psychological shadow - according to what Lao Li said, Liu Xu seemed to have made a big fuss at the funeral.

He must be the most broken one.

Shen Anxing's death and the past seven years had already ruined him so much, why would Shen Anxing dig his wounds anymore.

Forget it.

Shen Anxing thought.

So, after sighing, Shen Anxing said, "He always feels old."

"I'm already old, I was very old before, but I was just a little old man with spirit." Liu Xu laughed twice, and said, "Now he has completely become an old man."

"I always feel that he is still the old man." Shen Anxing said helplessly, "Where are we going next?"

"I don't know." Liu Xu said, "I came out with you today, is there any other place you want to go? To see He Gaohan?"

Liu Xu has been using Shen Anxing's account, thanks to this, Shen Anxing has also used this account to patrol in the past few days, and knows the recent situation of He Gaohan and Ning Qiao.

These two people went to other places to go to university, and they went to the same school with different majors, one Chinese language and literature and one psychology, and they have already returned to work.

He Gaohan seems to be teaching Chinese in a nearby middle school.

"Forget it, I can't talk to him when I see him." Shen Anxing said, "And I don't want to see him talk to you about me at all, it feels weird."

Liu Xu said, "Do you want to take a look at it from a distance?"

Shen Anxing: "..."

"Don't you want to see him?" Liu Xu said, "I had a good relationship with you back then. You were caught by the director several times when you were late, and it was he and Ning Qiao who rescued you."

Shen Anxing: "..."

Shen Anxing was silent, curled his lips again, and nodded.

At 11:30 noon, No. [-] Middle School is over.

No. [-] Middle School is a school with a system of junior and senior high schools, and He Gaohan teaches high school Chinese here.

A large wave of students poured out of the school.

Liu Xu and Shen Anxing sat in the car.

At about 45:[-], a silver-white car drove up to the school gate.

Liu Xu glanced at the car, and said softly without turning his head, "It's Ning Qiao's car."

Shen Anxing was startled.

Liu Xucheng didn't bully him, after a while, a very familiar figure came down from above - it was indeed Ning Qiao.

After seven years, everyone has changed a lot.Ning Qiao lost a lot of weight, with curly hair that had been styled, got out of the car while holding the phone and yawning. While talking to the phone, she turned her head and closed the car door.

After he said a few words to the phone, he hung up the phone, leaned against the car door, and began to wait for someone.

In the early [-]:[-]s, a man jogged out of the school all the way.

Shen Anxing saw it again, it was He Gaohan.

He Gaohan was wearing a thick blue down jacket and round-rimmed glasses, looking like a teacher.The boy who was long and short every day has also grown into a young man, and his facial features have become more three-dimensional.

Shen Anxing looked at him for a while, and suddenly felt a little lost.

Every time he met a person, he would find a change in them.

He suddenly realized that everyone was changing, and he was the only one who was left where he was.

He Gaohan ran to Ning Qiao with a smile, and after the two exchanged a few words in the cold wind, they got into the car.

The silver-white car drove away slowly in front of them.

Liu Xu watched it gradually disappear from sight, and suddenly smiled.

Shen Anxing tilted his head: "What's wrong?"

"No."

Liu Xu leaned on the steering wheel, turned his head and smiled at him, and said, "I feel like Dafang, we have to look at everyone before we leave."

Shen Anxing: "..."

"Is there anyone else you want to see?"

"……there is none left."

Shen Anxing lowered his eyes and said softly to him, "Let's go home."

Liu Xu took Shen Anxing home.

After seeing everyone, they began to wait slowly for the call of Lord Yama.

The two stayed at home together for two or three days.Shen An's hands turned into ice, and it was a bit inconvenient to do anything, Liu Xu was by his side the whole time.He sometimes turns on his phone and writes something on a sticky note.

Shen Anxing asked him what he was writing, but Liu Xu didn't hide anything, and told him it was a suicide note.

He said, after all, Shen Anxing was like this now, he had to be prepared to die.If one day he really fell into hell, the phone would definitely be in his sister's hands.When the time comes, his sister will be able to see this electronic version of the suicide note by flipping through it casually.After all, there are many things that can only be said after death, so Liu Xu wanted to say something to his sister that can only be said after death.

He said that there was no mention of hell in the suicide note, only Shen Anxing was mentioned, so don't worry.

Shen Anxing couldn't help but frowned after hearing this, and said, "Don't say anything unlucky, I won't let you die."

Liu Xu said: "I didn't intend to die, it's just that you are like this now, I have to prepare for the worst—this is just in case, I hope it won't be practical."

Shen Anxing pouted again.

Even though he was a little unhappy that Liu Xu wrote such an unlucky thing, he still couldn't restrain his curiosity, so he couldn't help but move closer to him and asked, "Can I see your suicide note?"

Liu Xu's eyes froze, and he pressed delete on the spot: "Where is the suicide note?"

Shen Anxing: "...the recycle bin."

"My phone doesn't have a recycle bin."

Shen Anxing asked: "Then what's in the upper left corner?"

"It's a garbage dump, good boys are not allowed to dig through the garbage."

Shen Anxing was helpless, angry and funny, and asked again: "Why didn't you show it to me? You never hide anything from me."

"This won't work." Liu Xu said, "If you see it, you should feel bad again. You also know that I haven't lived well in the past seven years, so I don't want to make you feel bad."

Shen Anxing: "...I love you very much."

"Me too." Liu Xu also said, "We both love each other, and it's not easy, so there's no need to double each other, dear."

Shen Anxing: "..."

"Be obedient." Liu Xu said to him, "It's not easy for us—by the way, you haven't told me what happened to the judge. Didn't you say that after the death of the night watchman, he was taken away by black and white impermanence? Why is it only you?" One has seen the Judge?"

"...Don't ask me."

Shen Anxing twitched the corners of his mouth, turned his head to escape reality, and said, "There is really no need to double each other."

Liu Xu laughed.

Another day passed without wind or waves.

Two days of quiet years passed, and it was December 12th.

"It's Christmas Eve."

At eight o'clock in the morning, with a toothbrush in his mouth, toothpaste froth in his mouth, and a mint green towel hanging on his shoulder, Liu Xu couldn't help but look at the calendar and said, "Has the Lord Hades forgotten me?"

"Go and brush your teeth first." Shen Anxing said helplessly to him, "I will never forget you, don't worry."

"I haven't called me for two days, and I'm still a little unaccustomed."

While talking, Liu Xu picked up the toothbrush in his mouth, and while brushing, he said inarticulately: "It's rare that I'm all prepared, but now I don't call people anymore, it's really annoying."

Shen Anxing smiled helplessly at him.

Liu Xu walked to the bathroom, just after washing, and was wiping his face with a towel, the phone buzzed in his trouser pocket.

He said "Huh?" and took out his phone.

It was Shao Fang who called him on WeChat.

Liu Xu picked it up: "Hello?"

"Hello, Lord Xu."

Shao Fang's voice was a little listless, and he sounded very listless.Then, he reluctantly smiled dryly at Liu Xu, and asked, "Are you... free today?"

Liu Xu: "..."

Liu Xu stopped rubbing his face with a towel.

At nine o'clock in the morning, Liu Xu led Shen Anxing and met Shao Fang in a nearby coffee shop.

Shao Fang sat by the window.The injury on his head was still not healed, when Liu Xu saw him, he saw that there were two bandages wrapped around his head.

He lowered his head, his whole body was depressed, his face was full of mourning, he looked like a dead mother.

Liu Xu sat across from him, and after a long silence with him face to face, he asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Shao Fang covered his head and let out a long sigh: "How should I put it... I just feel... I'm an idiot?"

Liu Xu: "..."

Shao Fang sighed for a while with his head sullen, and then said: "That's right, when I was in the hospital a few days ago, didn't you tell me that I could go out after a good reflection. I didn't believe it at the time..."

Liu Xu: "...um."

"I don't believe it, and then... I have a weird temper. I just want to go to those people at that time to prove that I am right. I am not wrong at all. They are the ones who are wrong... As a result..."

As soon as the result was mentioned, Shao Fang felt a little self-contained and had a headache. He couldn't help but let out another long sigh, covered his head, and began to self-isolate in pain.

As a lawyer, Liu Xu, together with what happened to Shen Anxing seven years ago, has seen through a lot of the inconsistencies in the world. Hearing Shao Fang's words, he had a guess in his heart, so he opened his mouth and continued to help him. After finishing talking, he said coolly: "In the end, you found out that they have rectified their mistakes long ago, and the one who made mistakes has become you?"

Shao Fang nodded painfully.

"It's really painful." Liu Xu sighed, and said, "I don't quite understand what you say, you have to tell the whole story, you want to go to hell, right? You came to me to discuss with me what to do Why do you have to reflect on yourself before you can get out? It’s not enough for you to just say these things, it needs to be more complete..."

"I don't want to discuss this with you." Shao Fang said, "I just don't know what to do now—it's not about hell, it's about me."

"...Then you have to tell everything before you can start discussing."

"..."

Shao Fang was silent for a while, curled his lips, and finally raised his head, looked at Shen Anxing, and then at Liu Xu.

He sighed again and did not know how many times, and finally said: "I..."

As soon as he said "I", a whistle sounded suddenly and harshly.

Shao Fang stepped on the brakes at once.

Several people raised their heads together, and when they turned around, they saw a big truck rushing towards them screaming.

Then it smashed through the glass of the coffee shop, and with a loud bang, the glass exploded in full force, and the truck slammed into their faces.

Liu Xu's eyes darkened: "..."