Goldberg Variations

Gu Kai was startled, and suddenly realized that Pei Wen didn't know what he was thinking.

He was worried that Pei Wen would ignore him, and Pei Wen was also worried that he would ignore him.

"If I don't want to talk to you, will I add you as a friend?" He was a little funny.

Pei Wen: "What if you change your mind now?"

Gu Kai: "...Didn't I send you a message?"

Pei Wen: "But you are just as good to other people, I don't know..."

"When will I be as nice to others?" Gu Kai complained for himself.

Pei Wen secretly said: All the time.

He didn't make a sound, and Gu Kai didn't bother with this issue either.

"Co-author, you just don't believe me." He concluded.

"I believe you," Pei Wen shook his head, "I don't believe myself."

Gu Kai was speechless for a while, and suddenly reached out to rub Pei Wen's hair.

Pei Wen wasn't used to this little gesture of intimacy, but he didn't refuse.

The hair after being wet by the rain condensed into locks, which were messed up by Gu Kai and stood up.

When Gu Kai saw it, he couldn't help but raise the corners of his lips.

Pei Wen wrinkled his nose, Bai Gukai glanced at him, and combed his hair straight again in the rearview mirror.

The car drove into the garage, Gu Kai stopped the car, and unbuckled the seat belt for Pei Wen.

"Here we are, get out of the car, and we'll talk about it when we go home."

"Well," Pei Wen nodded, suddenly felt his nose itchy, and couldn't help but sneezed loudly, "Ah!"

Gu Kai frowned: "Cold?"

"No," Pei Wen rubbed his nose, "...Ah Choo!"

He sneezed several times.

"..." Gu Kai took Pei Wen's wrist and pulled him towards the elevator.

From the elevator directly to the floor where Gu Kai's house is located, after entering the house, Gu Kai asked Pei Wen to sit first, and went to make a bowl of brown sugar and ginger tea by himself.

"Dispel the cold." Gu Kai put it in a mug for him.

"Thank you." Compared to drinking ginger tea, Pei Wen wanted to talk about the past, but he didn't want to disappoint Gu Kai's kindness, so he lowered his head and took a big sip.

The sweetness of brown sugar and the pungentness of ginger exploded in the taste buds, Pei Wen was so anxious that he almost choked.

"Drink slowly." Gu Kai saw that Pei Wen's profile seemed to have softened a lot, and he didn't know if it was because he was too tired from work or because he was in a bad mood.

Taking the time to pat Pei Wen on the back, he checked whether Pei Wen's clothes were wet.

It's just a few drops of rain on the surface, which doesn't affect anything.

Gu Kai didn't know Pei Wen's intentions, so he didn't dare to start the topic rashly, wouldn't it be embarrassing if he guessed wrong?

And Pei Wen was uncertain about Gu Kai's attitude, afraid of being rejected, and couldn't muster up the courage to speak up.

So the two of them sat staring wide-eyed, with a hint of embarrassment revealed in the silence.

After all, it was Gu Kai who spoke first: "Is your... tour going well recently? Are you tired? Why don't you go back and rest first?"

"Well, it went well."

Because of embarrassment, he could only drink tea non-stop, and he finished it quickly, even a little bit full.

Seeing his reluctance, Gu Kai took the empty mug and said with a smile: "I'm not forcing you to take medicine, so you don't have to force yourself so much."

Gu Kai took the mug into the kitchen to rinse it off, and when he came out again, he saw Pei Wen muster up his courage and ask:

"That, Gu Kai..."

"I want to ask you, does what you said that night still count?"

"Huh?" Gu Kai sat down opposite Pei Wen.

"That's right." This was about the first time Pei Wen took the initiative to say such things to someone, and he seemed embarrassed, "You said you wanted to date me...that."

Turned around?Gu Kai was overjoyed, but he didn't show it in a hurry.

"It counts." Gu Kai laughed, "I'm not so fast at moving on."

Pei Wen's heart relaxed, and the hanging heart fell back to his stomach, and continued: "Then can I answer you again?"

Speaking of this, Pei Wen raised his head and stared at Gu Kai without giving Gu Kai time to interrupt.

It seems that a lot of effort has been used to overcome his shyness.

"After thinking for so long, I think, I should also like you... So, I want to try it with you. Well... if you still like me."

"Of course you can refuse...but I," Pei Wen took a deep breath, "...I won't give up easily!"

Gu Kai couldn't help laughing.

Obviously he was thinking about whether to give up or not, why is it the other way around now?

After Pei Wen finished speaking, seeing that Gu Kai didn't answer, he blinked his eyes: "You..."

"Before answering you," Gu Kai adjusted his sitting posture to make himself look more serious, "I want to ask you a question."

Pei Wen suddenly became nervous and nodded: "What's the problem?"

Gu Kai: "Can you tell me, what have you been thinking these days?"

"Why did you refuse before, and why do you agree now?"

Pei Wen thought for a while, since he decided to date, he didn't intend to hide everything from Gu Kai.

That is disrespect and distrust of lovers, and it is easy to cause estrangement.

Thinking of this, he groped in the oversized pocket of the sweater and took out two capsules, one was red and white, the other was green and white.

"What kind of medicine is this?" Gu Kai took it and took a look, and found that it was not his usual medicine.

"It's a medicine for depression." Except for Yu Shuangshuang, this was the first time Pei Wen told the people around him about his condition.

He was very worried, worried that Gu Kai's reaction would be the same as most people who didn't understand the disease, thinking that he was just pretending to be sick, or that he was crazy.

He carefully observed every subtle expression of Gu Kai, for fear that Gu Kai would reveal any unusual reaction.

"Depression?" Gu Kai just frowned, "Is that why you committed suicide before?"

"Suicide?" Pei Wen was taken aback.

Gu Kai quickly realized that he had slipped the tongue, but it was too late to regret, so he had to make up for it:

"...Well, I didn't know at first, but later when I chatted with Shi Yangming, he told me."

Pei Wen showed an expression of embarrassment and shame.

"right……"

He has a strong sense of stigma, if Yu Shuangshuang hadn't forced him to see a doctor after the failed suicide attempt, Pei Wen would never have gone.

The term depression is no stranger to Gu Kai.

He can see it on the Internet from time to time, and occasionally hear it from people around him, but he has never studied it carefully.

What impresses him the most is what netizens have repeatedly emphasized: "Depression is a disease, not hypocritical, nor is it thinking too much."

Since it is a disease, Gu Kai's focus is very clear.

"Is it serious?" he asked.

After asking, I knew I was asking a stupid question.

It all caused Pei Wen to commit suicide. Could it be serious?

Pei Wen nodded uncomfortably: "...It's quite serious."

During Pei Wen's uneasy waiting, Gu Kai was silent for a while: "You rejected me because of this, because you are afraid that I will despise you?"

Pei Wen is not used to confessing his heart to others, but he tried his best to answer Gu Kai's questions.

He nodded slightly: "I'm...very annoying, not what you see."

Gu Kai smiled helplessly, and sighed, "I'm so wronged."

Pei Wen was puzzled.

"You rejected me for such a reason," Gu Kai couldn't help but rubbed Pei Wen's hair again, as if venting his anger, "It made me feel uncomfortable for so long."

Hearing Gu Kai's meaning, Pei Wen asked with a little joy: "So you agreed?"

Gu Kai: "I should be the one to ask you this question, right?"

A smile flickered in Pei Wen's eyes, and he nodded vigorously: "Yes, I agree!"

Gu Kai: "So, I'm your boyfriend now?"

A faint blush appeared on the face of the young man in front of him at some point.

"Yeah." He nodded again, the corners of his lips curled up in an unconcealable arc.

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