Goldberg Variations

Gu Kai's heart tightened, and he couldn't stop being nervous.

What did Pei Wen want to say, to explain what happened before, or to distance himself from him?

Gu Kai couldn't guess, and time didn't allow him to guess, so he replied almost reflexively:

"Have time."

There is time even if there is no time, not to mention that he really has a lot of time now.

"He came to see me. I'll hang up. We'll talk another day." Gu Kai hurriedly said to Zhu Shaohui, hung up the phone, walked to the living room with his mobile phone, and sat on the sofa to wait.

The chat box showed that the other party was typing, and soon, Pei Wen sent the second sentence:

"I want to explain what happened tonight."

For a while, Gu Kai thought about many replies.

"What happened to you?" "It's okay, I didn't take it to heart. If you are not mentally prepared, don't choose to speak out because of scruples." And so on.

However, in the end Gu Kai only replied with one:

"Ah."

Pei Wen: "Can I sort out my thoughts?"

Gu Kai: "No rush. Typing is troublesome, why don't I go find you, or call you?"

Pei Wen: "No, just type."

Gu Kai didn't object anymore.In fact, Gu Kai is more accustomed to face-to-face communication. If you can’t talk in person, video is fine, and video is not good, then talk on the phone.

Because it will help Gu Kai grasp the other party's psychological state and emotional reaction, so as to decide how he should respond.

In text communication, it is difficult for him to obtain direct first-hand feedback.

And that's why Pei Wen wanted to communicate by text.

"Okay, take your time." After sending these words, Gu Kai leaned back on the sofa and got ready for a long chat.

Holding the mobile phone, he felt that the scene was a bit funny and a little too innocent - in his impression, he probably held the mobile phone to chat and fall in love like this when he was still in school.

But if it was Pei Wen, it would be nice to be able to communicate like this.

"Actually, it's not a big deal." Pei Wen's opening remarks were this, "Speaking of which, you may think I'm a bit hypocritical."

"I used to be a little bit against same-sex relationships because of my family."

"It's because of my mother."

Hearing this sentence, Gu Kai thought of a lot.According to what Pei Wen said, his parents divorced when he was in junior high school, so he followed his mother.

Yu Shuangshuang said that Pei Wen had no contact with his family now, so that he couldn't find his relatives when he was lying in the ICU, so he had to ask Yu Shuangshuang to pay the expenses first.

"I came out of the closet by accident when I was in college." Pei Wen didn't mean to hide his sexual orientation anymore. At this stage, it would be a bit redundant to hide it. "Coming out was not smooth."

Gu Kai has been in the circle for so many years, and he has heard of many failed or very tragic coming out, so he echoed, saying that he was listening.

"I went through a long period of conflict and friction with her, and it ended with me leaving home after graduation."

"A lot of things happened at that time, and I can't remember some of them clearly. My memory is not very good now."

"In short, after that, I couldn't face myself, and I couldn't face the person who liked me."

Pei Wen didn't talk about the specific process, and Gu Kai didn't ask, because he thought that what Pei Wen said was what he was willing to say after thinking about it.

As for what he didn't say, he probably didn't want to say it.

Gu Kai didn't know exactly what happened to break the relationship between the mother and child to such an extent, it must be a very painful thing to recall the specific process.

"It's been three years since I joined the Legendary Troupe. Ever since I joined, I've liked this place and the people in the troupe very much."

Pei Wen spoke very slowly, and he had to think about every sentence for a long time before he could say it.

"Maybe it's because I don't know people clearly, and I'm not cautious enough. I didn't expect to meet scum."

Seeing this, Gu Kai tentatively asked, "Hou Xuesong?"

Pei Wen: "Yes."

To this day, he still feels embarrassed talking about it.

He mustered up a lot of courage to choose to confide in Gu Kai.

At this moment, Pei Wen's heartbeat was almost overloaded, and his hands were shaking uncontrollably.

Every time he thought about it, he felt sick.

"At first, he acted like a kind and patient senior who cared very much for the younger generation. Everyone in the troupe liked him very much. I also respected him, although he didn't have any thoughts beyond the boundaries."

"So when he harassed me with alcohol, I didn't take precautions at all. I even thought he was just drunk at first, so he was careless."

Gu Kai frowned deeply.

Unexpectedly, Hou Xuesong looks like a dog, has a family and a family, dares to harass the same sex outside, and is a junior of a theater troupe.

If the incident broke out, wouldn't he be afraid of ruining his reputation?

"He almost succeeded." Pei Wen laughed at himself when he said this.

Gu Kai comforted him.

"You know, I'm sensitive, so after that, I became very touch-averse and couldn't let anyone touch me."

"It's better through the clothes. If it's in direct contact, even with hands, I feel uncomfortable."

Nausea, panic, disgust—it was hard for Pei Wen to describe the feeling of being touched, as if touching the surface of a snake.

He usually avoids physical contact with people as much as possible.

"I'm sorry." Gu Kai said, "I don't know."

Pei Wen: "It's okay, I know you didn't mean it."

After typing this sentence, Pei Wen paused, and suddenly a voice call came.

Gu Kai frantically picked it up, and after connecting, he heard the soft breathing of the person on the other end of the phone, and couldn't control his nervousness.

The heart beats in the chest cavity "thump", "thump", "thump".

"It's me who should say I'm sorry." Pei Wen's smiling voice came from the receiver, accompanied by a slight electric current sound, which was slightly distorted, and reached Gu Kai's ears.

From the eardrum to the pinna to the whole body of Gu Kai, all of a sudden went numb.

"No, you don't need to apologize." Gu Kai said, "The one who should apologize is the person who hurt others."

Pei Wen was a little quieter, and asked, "Don't you think I'm hypocritical?"

"Actually, it's not a big deal, is it? I don't seem to need to have such a big reaction, and I shouldn't care so much."

Gu Kai laughed: "Has anyone ever said something like this to you? Tell me, and I'll teach him a lesson for you."

"No." Pei Wen said, "But..."

"Since you don't have one, don't think about it." Gu Kai said, "However, I have to think about it now, how should I teach that scumbag a lesson."

Pei Wen laughed: "How do you want to teach me a lesson?"

Gu Kai: "Would it be too easy to just put on a sack and beat him up? I have to let him have a psychological shadow, and never dare to do such bad things again."

"Otherwise, treat him in the same way and find someone to harass him. Although I have never done this kind of thing, I can ask a friend for help."

He seemed to speak very skillfully.

Pei Wen listened quietly for a while, then smiled and said, "Are you coaxing the child?"

"No."

Gu Kai said: "Coax you."

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