A Guide to Depravity

Life is like this day by day, coming out of the closet but not out of the closet, Gao Wu thinks that it really doesn't matter that much, life is lived by two people, there is no need to declare his life status to others.

At least not now, in college, until he was 25, or even 30, he didn't think they both needed that urgent need before coming out.

Gao Wu felt that his coming out was out of compulsion to resist, but he didn't understand why Fei Ning was in such a hurry.

This is obviously not as simple as going to the vegetable market to buy vegetables. Coming out of the closet means too much.He couldn't even confirm whether Feining had really thought about the consequences seriously.

If you don't understand, just keep thinking.

There are people coming and going in the dining hall, there are people behind him, and there are people across the aisle. He turned his head and looked at the bottom, and they were all people. They were discussing openly in this school where "the approval rate for homosexuality is less than half". The question of whether Fei Ning should come out or not, their voices were drowned out by the voices in the dining hall.

Everyone at each table is talking, and the voice of each table is only heard by myself.

Fei Ning didn't speak again after finishing what he said just now, and he didn't let go of his slightly frowned brows. He didn't look at Gao Wu, and only competed with his own plate of food, biting mouthful after mouthful.

If Gao Wu saw Fei Ning like this for the first time, his impression might have changed a lot.Gao Wu seems to have seen this kind of aura that no strangers get close to from Fei Ning for the first time.

Gao Wu looked at Fei Ning, a little lost in thought, wanted to open his mouth to say something several times, but still didn't speak, his hands seemed to be operating on an assembly line, and he didn't care to appreciate the delicious food.

I was a little anxious, because I was afraid that Fei Ning was impulsive. If you are anxious, you will easily get angry, and if you get angry, you will easily want to curse. A mouth that is never stingy is really reluctant to face Fei Ning, so I have to keep eating. .

It was rare for the two of them to have a wordless meal.

The benches by the big lake of C are often a good place for students to go. It is quiet and beautiful. Some people read in the morning, some are in love, and some are in a daze.

There are too many mosquitoes in summer.

Winter is the best time to stay here.

There are wild ducks on the lake, islands, trees, and peach blossoms in the dim lights.

Fei Ning and Gao Wu walked half a circle around the school, and finally stopped here and sat down.

The night swallowed the words, and the two walked in silence for a long time, Fei Ning was afraid that Gao Wu would think too much, Gao Wu was afraid that Fei Ning would not think about anything.

After sitting down, Fei Ning took advantage of the night to kiss Gao Wu, held his hand, first bit his lips, and then slowly pried open his lips, exchanging the aftertaste of the blueberry-flavored yogurt he drank.

This kiss is as gentle as the lake water at night, gently rippling, wind, willow, water, heart also, shallow waves reverberate to the heart, it is a tranquilizer for each other.

Like slowly immersing the body in a bathtub filled with hot water in winter, the warmth spreads throughout the body.

The place where they sat was relatively remote. The two of them had passed by this place several times before, and there were usually few people passing by on weekdays. At most, one person ran past in 10 minutes.

Fei Ning and Gao Wu, one is not afraid of coming out, the other is determined to come out, and they are not afraid that people passing by will notice that there are two boys kissing.They only have each other in their hearts, and they blend with each other wholeheartedly.

"I don't know how to put it into words to convince you that I've seriously considered confessing this to my family, and I have to admit that it's hard for me to share the worry of coming out with you because of my mood. The choice was a bit selfish." Fei Ning put away his usual gag tone when he said this, his breath was still a little unstable after a long kiss, his serious expression was covered by the moonlight, and his speech speed was 0.75 times that of normal speech , spoke softly and slowly, and slowly spread himself in front of Gao Wu.

After he said that, he relaxed his tone again, smiled, and still held Gao Wu's hand: "Actually, coming out of the closet is not that scary. They always say that they fall in love in college, and they can get married after graduation. .Then I will confess to my family now that by the time we graduate, we will be able to get married."

No matter how hard-hearted people are, they can't help being moved when they hear the future that their partners have outlined for each other.

Gao Wu also thought about it all the way. Compared to the two sides concealing and secretly solving the matter, he was very glad that Fei Ning was willing to discuss with him in advance.He still didn't quite agree with Fei Ning's idea of ​​coming out so soon, he was afraid of destroying the harmonious atmosphere in Fei Ning's house.

But thinking about it again, he also expected that Fei Ning would confess to his family for him.

Since this matter will come sooner or later, it seems to be okay to "slightly" advance the progress.

"Okay," Gao Wu finally let go, "But I have to go back with you."

"Ah?" Fei Ning was slightly surprised, "Go back together and get beaten? No way." But the idea of ​​taking Gao Wu back is not unwilling to realize, but this time it should not be possible to bring Gao Wu home. Kong Qiao will spend much less time with Gao Wu than before.

"I'm afraid that if you are kicked out of the house, there is someone who can help you." Gao Wu made a small joke, trying to make the atmosphere easier, but in fact this joke is not impossible.

"What if I say no?" Fei Ning slightly lowered his eyelids in the darkness and opened them again, the corners of his lips curled into a small arc.

"Then don't come out of the closet." Gao Wu said bluntly.

"Wow, are you reluctant to leave me for a few days now?" Fei Ning whispered deliberately in an exaggerated tone.

"Yes, I'm reluctant." Gao Wu said smoothly.

"Why are you so clingy now?" Fei Ning laughed, still trying to push forward.

"Oh? So now is not the time for you to buy elective courses from others in order to be with me?" Gao Wu reached out to ruffle Fei Ning's hair.

Fei Ning stretched out his hand to grab Gao Wu's hand, smiled and fell on his back on Gao Wu's lap, looking up at Gao Wu's face under the cold moonlight, his heart softened unconsciously.

"Okay, then let's go back together, I'll find you a very beautiful hotel." Fei Ning said softly to Gao Wu.

"Yeah." Gao Wu doesn't care what hotel he stays in, but he doesn't really want to argue with Fei Ning tonight.

After being quiet for a while, Fei Ning began to puncture the tranquility of the night with words again.

"Are we going to be too clingy like this?" Fei Ning was talking about not only these two things, but also their usual attitude of getting along. Except for some necessary separations, the time they stayed together was getting longer and longer. And there is also a tendency to continue to lengthen.

"I think it's okay. I haven't been in a relationship with others, and I'm not interested in watching other people's relationships, but I think it's normal to want to stay with each other when in a relationship." Gao Wu said.

"Only people in the period of passionate love will always want to stay together. We have been together for half a year." Fei Ning smiled.

"Don't you want to stay with me?" Gao Wu asked back.

"I think so, I'm just a little curious. It seems that our love period seems to be very long. Are we still in love period now?" Fei Ning's feet on the side of the chair began to dangle restlessly.

"Or you can think of our relationship as a direct transition from the love stage to the family stage." Gao Wu said.

"Such a statement sounds a bit strange." Fei Ning hooked the corner of his mouth.

"What?" Gao Wu asked.

"It's so romantic." Fei Ning smiled and showed his white teeth.

The Tomb-sweeping Day holiday just washed away the two days with the most classes in the national history class. Monday is Tomb-sweeping Day, and classes from Sunday to Tuesday are closed.Logically speaking, there should be make-up classes on Saturdays.By convention, the history department has never made up lessons.This has led to the fact that most students of the history department feel that they have taken advantage of it. They came from the four-day long vacation that fell from the sky, and they can travel to other cities even if they don't go home.

Although Thursday's class is a public class and a specialized class, the teacher's management of the two classes is not strict, and they are both considered easy.

Fei Ning and Gao Wu went back to Kongqiao this time by bus.

Speaking of it, taking the bus is actually more convenient and simple than taking the high-speed rail back.

Take the bus: Go to the school gate - get on the bus - Kongqiao city center - subway - Feining's house

Take the high-speed rail: the station opposite the school gate-bus-high-speed rail station-Kongqiao suburbs-subway-Feiningjia

All in all, although taking the high-speed rail is a little faster than taking the bus, the journey is complicated and the money spent is a little bit more.

Fei Ning would rather stand in the high-speed rail than sit aggrieved in the bus. After trying the smell of air freshener and the cramped seats in the bus, Fei Ning didn’t want to try again.

But this time I suddenly wanted to be simpler, or to put it another way, I was full.

When Fei Ning promised Gao Wu to go back to Kongqiao together, he helped Gao Wu book a hotel.

After getting off the car, he sent Gao Wu directly to the hotel. Gao Wu wanted to refuse, but Fei Ning said: "In case I am kicked out of the house, I have to familiarize myself with the escape route."

In fact, Fei Xingyun is the only unlucky child who has been beaten at home.Fei Ning grew up, and to some extent, it can be said that he was spoiled by the whole family.

After Fei Ning said this, Gao Wu didn't say anything else, and agreed to go to the hotel with Fei Ning.He also wanted to stay with him for a while.

During this trip to Kongqiao, the two are destined not to be as leisurely as before.Gao Wu asks Fei Ning to spend more time with his family, and he goes around Kongqiao by himself.

The hotel is indeed very beautiful, the river view room, the landmark buildings of Kongqiao can be seen from the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the night view of Kongqiao can also be seen.

Fei Ning went home this time with rare anxiety and uneasiness, so anxious that he could even hear his own heartbeat on the crowded subway.There is also a sense of fate-like relief that contradicts it-something that I have thought about for a long time and dreaded for a long time is finally going to face.

The setbacks he has encountered in this small life are really not enough, let alone some things, facing them together can make them bigger and bigger.After all, he still didn't choose who to talk to the family first, but chose to have a showdown at the same time.

It's a bit like a Hongmen banquet, Fei Ning thought to himself.

But he thought about it again, this metaphor is too inappropriate, pretending to be a C University history student.Another laugh at this self-regulation.

The hotel is very close to Fei Ning's house, just one subway station away.It didn't take long for Fei Ning to go home.

It was rare for the whole family to be together today, and the dishes were richer. Although Fei Ning was uneasy, the dishes cooked by Fei Ning's mother were really delicious, and they comforted Fei Ning's little heart before the storm.

After dinner, Fei Ning took a sip of water and cleared his throat: "Uh... I have something to say."

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The author says:

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