The Goddess of Online Games

No matter what happened, I came to your side, and I will not leave half a step when you need me.

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After calming down, the two sat quietly on the plastic square stool. Tang Jingjing held Zhong Ruoyun's shoulder silently, feeling her slight trembling, and looked at the star-sparse night sky together.

After a long time, Zhong Ruoyun got up and lit three incense sticks, put them into the incense burner, and said calmly: "The neighbor's aunt said that the incense here cannot be extinguished, so let me watch it at night."

"Aren't you going to invite some relatives and friends? I heard that it's better to be lively."

"Who please, I don't know who he was close to before he was alive, and there are not many friends around him who can be contacted at any time...My dad Xijing, he never goes out when he can stay at home and watch TV, he doesn't exercise every day, and he likes to smoke , I like to pretend to be old and strong. I was blind to believe what he said was in good health... It’s such a cold day, so I finally took a vacation and didn’t stay at home, so I went to attend someone’s young wedding What..." she said, she smiled mockingly, and continued: "He deliberately waited for me at the school gate after school, and asked me if I wanted to go with him, I think those were his colleagues, so I went It's not interesting, so I went home... Tell me, why didn't I follow?"

Tang Jingjing remained silent, watching Zhong Ruoyun sit back beside her.

"As soon as I got home, I saw someone urging me to talk to you. I wanted to find you, but I was too embarrassed to keep procrastinating, so I didn't go online... When it was almost two o'clock, my dad came back. I saw that he was out of breath. It's a bit big and uncomfortable. I asked him if he wanted to go to the hospital. He shook his head and said it was fine, just take a rest. I actually believed it... I turned on the electric stove and asked him to rest on the sofa for a while. Give him porridge..."

"..."

"Do you think I'm stupid? If I don't send it to the hospital at that time, what kind of porridge should I make..."

Her self-blame was originally very flat, but gradually changed back to the trembling and choking before.

When the incident happened, she only thought that her father was freezing outside, so how could she expect so much?

A pot of porridge was half cooked, and when she walked out of the kitchen, she saw Zhong Changwen peacefully closing his eyes, as if he had fallen asleep, so she foolishly didn't disturb him.

When the porridge was ready, he found that he could no longer drink it.

Regret, guilt, or despair all overwhelmed her like a tide at that moment.

She stood helplessly in front of the sofa, the broken bowl on the floor was like her biological father who could not wake up, like a sharp knife piercing her throat, the pain was so painful that she could hardly breathe.

She tried her best to calm down, and the first person she thought of in helplessness was Tang Jingjing, who was thousands of miles away, but she couldn't get through to the phone that was clearly on...

In fact, even if you get through it, so what?With such a long distance, she was destined to face it alone.

After she calmed down completely, she called 120 for emergency services, knocked on the neighbor's door for help, and finally sent Zhong Changwen to the hospital.

At the door of the emergency room, holding on to her last glimmer of hope, she ushered in despair.

The sentence "I'm sorry, we tried our best, but the patient was delivered too late" completely shattered her hopes.

She curled up in the corner of the seat, and picked up the remaining sanity after the collapse under the comfort of the neighbor's aunt until she took the death certificate.

Auntie said: "Xiao Zhong, when my mother left a few years ago, I also felt that the world had collapsed, but so what? No one is immune to birth, old age, sickness and death... You are still young, you can't just fall down, or your father will be in the spirit of heaven." How can I comfort you?"

"In this family, I will be the only one left in the future." Zhong Ruoyun said, laughing at himself: "I used to think that when I grew up, I could take care of myself and my father, but when it really came to this time, I realized that I was just A silly kid who doesn't understand anything, and missed the chance to keep him time and time again..."

If you go to the wedding scene with him, maybe you can take him directly to the hospital.

If instead of cooking that pot of porridge, but to help him smooth out and chat, maybe he can find out what's wrong early.

If he could step forward and take a look when he closed his eyes and fell asleep, maybe there would be time to rescue him.

There are so many ifs, but like a fool, she failed to do any of them.

Tang Jingjing could feel Zhong Ruoyun's strong self-blame, and even attributed all the bad results to herself, but it was just an accident that most people would not think of. She had never experienced it before, so how would she know a person who is usually not seriously ill? , will fall asleep so quietly.

For a moment, Tang Jingjing didn't know how to comfort her, so she just bowed her head and fell silent.

Faced with these, is she not a child who knows nothing?

After a long silence, Tang Jingjing reached out her hand from Zhong Ruoyun's pocket and took out the mobile phone that could not be turned on due to insufficient battery, and then shook her own one, saying: "We both shut down automatically, no wonder we can't get in touch."

Zhong Ruoyun stared at the mobile phone in Tang Jingjing's hand for a long time, then said, "I never thought you would come."

"I know, from the moment you can't get through to my phone, the sense of security I can give you will almost become a negative number, right?"

"This matter has nothing to do with you..." Zhong Ruoyun avoided Tang Jingjing's gaze.

"I'm also guilty, such a thing happened, but I still huddled in the game and waited for you without knowing anything..."

"You don't know, it's not your fault..."

"Then why do you blame yourself for something you don't know?"

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In the solemn atmosphere, Tang Jingjing sighed and said: "If you miss it, you will miss it. Instead of regretting the past, it is better to make up for it...Of course, I know that these chicken soups are useless, so I am here."

"Don't say this has nothing to do with me. After all..."

"You're not me." Tang Jingjing raised her eyebrows and hugged her into her arms again with a wry smile: "You don't know what everything you care about means to me."

Every pain that hurt her deeply was a thorn in Tang Jingjing's heart.

Tang Jingjing, who used to be able to only watch her complaints on Weibo, scratching her head and scratching her head again and again, is now finally qualified to be her reliance, which is something to be happy about, but it's all happening under such circumstances , How can it make people happy?

So she came, stood in front of her, and told her: "No matter what happens, I will not let you face it alone. Even if the sky is going to collapse tomorrow, I will rush to you today I will support you... If you can't hold it, then you will be crushed together."

Tang Jingjing said with a wry smile: "Maybe you will think that I am young, I don't understand a lot, and I am not reliable, and I don't dare to say how well I can take care of you... But you believe me, I have Everything will be divided into half, or even more... I think, if you need a home, I can give it to you."

In the cold wind, the hands of the two were red from the cold, and their gazes gradually turned into a trace of warmth in the countless hand-to-hand exchanges, resisting the cold night.

After another period of silence, Zhong Ruoyun suddenly took Tang Jingjing's hand and got up, walked into the mourning hall step by step, and knelt down slowly in front of the black and white photo.

She said, "Dad, I brought my girlfriend to see you."

Tang Jingjing looked at Zhong Ruoyun in shock, and seeing her firm gaze, she quickly knelt down, kowtowed three times in front of her, held Zhong Ruoyun's hand tightly, and returned her same firmness.

"Dad, her name is Tang Jingjing, the girl who gave me many small gifts, as you said, if people treat me well, I have to respond...she is the best person in the world to me besides you , I like her too, but I never dared to tell you... Now, have you seen it? She said that no matter what happens, she will never let me face it alone..."

"Dad, you believe me...she will be good to me, you believe me..."

Tang Jingjing listened to her finished speaking in silence, then bowed three times to the spiritual seat, and said firmly: "Uncle, from now on, your daughter will be taken care of by me... I hope you can forgive my abruptness, here, call You say - Dad."

The cold wind outside suddenly stopped.

It was so late at night, and in the bright and quiet mourning hall, the middle-aged man in the black-and-white photo smiled calmly, and his brows seemed to carry comfort and blessing.

Maybe, it's like this...

It's just that none of them could hear the blessing that he personally entrusted his daughter for life.

The two leaned against each other and watched through the long night.

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On the second day, Aunt Zhang from Zhong Ruoyun's neighbor came again and helped the two of them notify Zhong Changwen's relatives and friends before his death, and informed them of some basic matters about receiving gifts, registering, and thanking posts.

Aunt Zhang, who is in her 40s, is very enthusiastic. She said that the etiquette and customs are cumbersome and must be followed. Life and death must not be easy.

The mourning hall gradually became lively, those who played mahjong, played cards, and chatted, came to give gifts and comfort, and then left...

On the second night, several well-meaning people were left behind to help keep watch, but perhaps they were not at ease, Tang Jingjing and Zhong Ruoyun only slept in the middle of the night alone, and took turns to watch.

The third night hits New Year's Eve, and only two people are left to depend on each other at night.

They sat outside the mourning hall, chatting, telling each other their childhood memories, crying and laughing until dawn.

In the early morning of the fourth day, after the last round of kneeling, the body was cremated according to the ceremony, and ghost money was sprinkled along the way, and the urn and coffin were sent to the cemetery for temporary storage.

After buying the cemetery, with the advice of a Taoist priest called by Aunt Zhang, the burial date was finally chosen.

For three days and three nights, they barely closed their eyes, and the two of them collapsed on the sofa together as soon as they got home.

A few minutes later, Zhong Ruoyun fell asleep with red eyes. Tang Jingjing got up quietly and went to the kitchen. She stared at the pot of porridge cooked three days ago in a daze for a while, then quietly poured it into the toilet, and cleaned up the kitchen.

When Zhong Ruoyun woke up, it was already 07:30 in the evening.

She searched for the smell of rice and walked into the kitchen. When she saw the table full of steaming dishes, she couldn't help squinting her eyes. She looked up at Tang Jingjing with a smile on her face and asked curiously, "You made it?"

"Of course...not." Tang Jingjing said, sticking out her tongue, and said, "I'm afraid that the dark dishes I made are too terrible, and you decide to break up with me after taking a bite, so I went to the restaurant opposite the neighborhood to fry some. The food is back."

"Oh, you went out? Then how did you get in?"

"This, I'm a little embarrassed to say it..." Tang Jingjing said, handing a bunch of keys to Zhong Ruoyun's hand, and said, "I found it in your bag."

"..." This little brat who sneaks around...

Zhong Ruoyun despised Tang Jingjing for a long time in silence, and said, "Take it, we are together anyway."

"Ah, no need." Tang Jingjing scratched her ears, took out two keys from her bag, and said, "I went to get a new one for the ones with the iron gate downstairs and the ones at home."

"Hey, you are too self-conscious!"

"Hahaha, I should, I should..." Tang Jingjing turned around and picked up the bowls and chopsticks before Zhong Ruoyun drove her out, and brought them to her, saying, "Eat, eat! These dishes are all my favorite!"

"Shouldn't I order something I like?" Zhong Ruoyun sat at the dining table speechless, glanced at the dishes on the table, and thought: Not bad, it seems that the taste is similar.

"I'll accompany you in the future." Tang Jingjing said, raised her eyebrows and smiled: "After our father's funeral and burning, if you are willing to go to City B with me, I will help you move your house there. If you are reluctant If I leave here, I will move my family here."

"I don't want to leave here."

"Then, are you willing to take me, a true love little fan, at home?"

Zhong Ruoyun looked at the steaming rice in his hand, his eyes fogged unconsciously.

After a long time, she nodded and responded softly: "En."

"Until this moment, I didn't feel that we were really together." Tang Jingjing said, giggling.

"It's not funny at all." Zhong Ruoyun pursed his lips, and said, "I eat out in restaurants every day, and I will die of poverty sooner or later..."

"We can order takeaway..."

"No prospect!" Zhong Ruoyun tapped Tang Jingjing's forehead with chopsticks, dumbfounded, and said, "I can do it! You just need to buy vegetables!"

Tang Jingjing shrugged her shoulders and said with a smile, "I should have said it earlier." As she spoke, she couldn't help but muttered to herself: "My daughter-in-law is amazing, and she can cook."

"You are so beautiful... Hurry up and eat!" Zhong Ruoyun put two large chopsticks of food into Tang Jingjing's bowl, and said, "See if you can keep your mouth shut."

Tang Jingjing didn't speak any more, just smiled and ate.

After the meal, Tang Jingjing rushed to the sink, drove Zhong Ruoyun to the living room, and washed the dishes clumsily by herself.

"The right side is hot water, don't wash it in cold water, the dishwashing liquid is in the cabinet below..." Zhong Ruoyun reminded, walked to the sofa, and lay down softly on it.

She raised her eyes to look at Tang Jingjing's charging phone, subconsciously swiped it with her fingers, and shouted to the kitchen: "Jingjing, do you have a little secret in your phone?"

"No! Feel free!"

With Tang Jingjing's approval, Zhong Ruoyun took the phone into his hand, opened it, and saw that there were missed calls, and the ringing status was actually silent.

Just as she was about to tell Tang Jingjing about these things she hadn't answered, she received a call from "Er Nan".

Zhong Ruoyun hesitated for two seconds, then pressed answer.

"I said, Ms. Tang Jingjing, why did you answer the phone? What do you mean you will die in the past three days? The phone is turned off, and the phone is not on. I am almost worried that it will explode!"

On the other end of the phone, Zhao Yingnan's voice exploded like firecrackers, and Zhong Ruoyun subconsciously held the phone a little farther away.

"Are you going to live or die and report it safely? You disappeared together with your goddess, the phone and phone can't be reached, and you can't contact anyone in the game Q/Q Weibo and WeChat. Are you trying to force us to report the crime?" The complaints on the phone were endless. , "Do you know, your parents and brother heard that you were busy, so they came here specially to find you to celebrate the New Year with you, but when you were not there, they questioned me in various ways, as if I had kidnapped you! You Tell me what you want to do, tell me what you want to do!"

Hearing this, Zhong Ruoyun was stunned for a moment, and replied: "Er Nan... Jingjing is fine, she is at my house..."

Zhao Yingnan on the other end of the phone was stunned for a moment, cleared her throat, lowered her voice a lot, and said, "Hey... that, that, the two of you these few days..."

"I, something happened to my family... I'm sorry..."

"Ah, ah...then quietly she..."

"Do you want her to answer the phone?" Zhong Ruoyun asked.

"Uh, that, you...she..." Zhao Yingnan stammered for a long time, but a very strange middle-aged woman's voice came from the other end of the phone, shouting into the phone: "Tang Jingjing! Did you say that you are busy during the New Year?" Go home! In the end, I went all the way and had a good time with netizens! Are you playing wild! Forget your family, forget your roots, forget how hard it is for me and your father to drag you to the big place!"

Zhong Ruoyun was so frightened that he quickly turned on the speakerphone and ran to Tang Jingjing's side.

Tang Jingjing glanced down at the phone screen and saw that the call was from "Er Nan", so she calmly greeted her: "Morning, Er Nan."

"Who are you scolding! Don't you even know your own mother!"

Hearing a familiar voice that she hadn't heard for a long time, Tang Jingjing couldn't help being taken aback, and after half a second, she subconsciously stood at attention, and replied, "Oh, mom..."

"You still know that my mother is your mother! It's fine if you don't go home for the New Year, but you lied to us that you are busy and can't get away. Our family came to accompany you to celebrate the New Year, but we found out where you are, you stupid girl. Find a netizen to play with! Why did my mother give birth to you, a heartless girl!"

"Hey, mom... calm down, we have something to talk about, can you stop the lion roaring in the east of the river?" Tang Jingjing couldn't help frowning, she was really afraid that someone would mention the word "play" now, for fear that it would be aroused again by accident. It made Zhong Ruoyun sad.

"Okay, okay, okay, if you have something to say, come and explain to me, what kind of friends are more important than your own family?"

"Tsk...can this be compared? Don't you also know that it doesn't make sense for me to go back. Well, those people are so annoying talking...Didn't I tell you that I will go back to see you after the New Year?" Tang Jingjing Then, he glanced at Zhong Ruoyun, took a deep breath, and said seriously to the other end of the phone: "I'm not meeting an ordinary netizen either, that's the person I'm dating, this is a lifelong event..."

"Pretend, you fucking pretend to me again, your roommate told me that you are going to meet a girl's house, and you are still dating? Are you stupid as an old lady? I have given birth to you and raised you for so many years, and I still don't know your point A child is pissy, he just has a wild heart, he just wants to play, and when he has money, he can do all kinds of things, right? You make money yourself, it’s like having wings, you can take off every minute, and your parents can’t control it, right? All right, little guy, believe it or not, I'll take all the vacations I've saved for so many years until this year, hey, I'll stay here where you live, and if you have the ability, don't come back to get things for the rest of your life."

Zhong Ruoyun held the phone with a frightened expression on his face.

Tang Jingjing didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "Mom, I'm serious. That girl is my partner. I want someone to be with for the rest of my life. I didn't lie to you..."

"You keep teasing."

"It's not funny."

"Oh, you go to city a to meet your partner, and the other party is a woman?"

"Well, yes, I think so, this gender..."

"Hehe, keep teasing."

"No, I'm really not kidding...Mom, don't talk about me, where is Dad? How about the noise? How is the world in your place recently, this year..."

"Tang Jingjing! Don't let me find you, I'll fuck..." The woman's voice on the other end of the phone was deafening, Tang Jingjing quickly stretched out her finger and pressed to hang up, leaving Zhong Ruoyun staring blankly at the phone screen covered in water droplets.

"Hang up?"

"If you don't hang up, she will fuck/my mother again soon..."

"Isn't she your mother? She..." Zhong Ruoyun couldn't believe it.

"That's right, my mother said this mantra to everyone, even me and my brother." Tang Jingjing spread her hands and said, "It's scary, right? That's why my brother and I are afraid of her and would rather be slapped by my father." Don't listen to her swearing."

Zhong Ruoyun swallowed a mouthful of saliva and said, "Then is it really okay for you to hang up like this?"

"I hang up often, she's used to it long ago, it's hard for Er Nan."

As soon as Tang Jingjing finished speaking, Zhao Yingnan sent a text message.

The two stared at each other for a while, Zhong Ruoyun pursed his mouth, wiped off the water droplets on the phone screen with his sleeve, and clicked on the short message: "Your parents are warriors, I really can't stand it, so I will send you to a I sold the news about looking for Ershui in the city, but they don't know where you live now, so they didn't go, and you're still staying with us for the time being."

"It's okay, okay..." Tang Jingjing breathed a sigh of relief. The New Year's Eve lied to them once and was about to be caught. The consequences would be disastrous.

Then, Zhao Yingnan sent another text message: "But my uncle and aunt sent your younger brother to explore the way first, so please ask yourself."

Zhong Ruoyun was reading, and looked up at Tang Jingjing.

"It's best to play dead." Tang Jingjing nodded while wiping the bowl in her hand, "Come here, what's none of my business? Let me tell you, my mother is like that, swearing at others when she has nothing to do, and slapping my father when it's nothing to do There is a reason, it's not that if one family doesn't come in, don't worry about it, and don't persuade me to go back, I can solve it, no matter what happens, I just want to be with you during this time."

Zhong Ruoyun nodded half-understood, but felt a little guilty in his heart.

After nine o'clock in the evening, the two who had no intention of playing games connected the computer to the TV and watched a comedy movie, trying to forget the unhappiness in their hearts, but they had their own concerns about each other.

For a moment, the two of them seemed to be intentional or unintentional, and they held each other's hands tightly, from the coldness at the beginning to the gradual warmth.

Suddenly, a phone call disrupted their thoughts.

The caller is "Tang Noisy".

Tang Jingjing, who had decided to pretend to be dead in a short time, hung up the phone without saying a word, but Tang Chao would not give up so easily. He made one call after another, so that Zhong Ruoyun couldn't stand it anymore, and stretched out his finger. After swiping for Tang Jingjing, the phone was connected instantly under Tang Jingjing's surprised eyes...

"Hello? Sis, you've answered the phone! I'm in City A, and I just entered the city, uh, you..."

"I know what you want to ask, don't even think about me telling you where I live."

"Don't, don't, sister, dad bought me a ticket, but he didn't give me the money for the accommodation... It's winter, if you don't care about me, I'll have to sleep on the street, and well, it's mainly the taxi driver I can't afford the money, and I've never encountered such a situation, you said if I was beaten up or caught as a liar, sister, can you bear it?"

"You dare to go out alone without money! Don't call me sister! I don't know you!" Tang Jingjing hung up the phone angrily, took several deep breaths, and finally grabbed the phone and called back .

"Hey! Sister! You know me again?" The voice of the boy on the other end of the phone was very happy.

"701, Building A, Unit [-], Dongle Community, District X." Tang Jingjing said, gritted her teeth, and said, "Let's start with the ugly words. I took you in because I thought you were pitiful. If you dare to sell me to your parents, see if I don't like you." Pull your ears off!"